Monday, September 24, 2007

I AM FREE!!
AND FREE INDEED!!!
today is the day that i will and must remember for the rest of my life.
this is the day that has changed my whole life around.
my whole life centers around this pivotal moment.
the day that i have been pining and yearning for, for years.almost my whole entire life.
the day that i have finally claimed LIBERTY! and i AM GOING TO WALK IN FREEDOM!
No longer will i be ensnared. no longer am i bounded. no longer am i going to believe in a LIE!
praise the LORD! 
I am a child of the Most High God.
NOTHING can ever take me from HIs love.
and today..this glorious day.. i have really tasted and seen that my God is good. 
fantabulously good. fantastic beyond my wildest dreams.
Wonderful, Magnificent God.

i have finally cleaned out my closet.
there are no more skeletons hanging there.
what has been such a burden on my heart, what has caused my heart to ache so much, to have it grief so much, to have my eyes cried so so much, has finally been lifted.
my shame, He has taken away. my pain, is HEALED in His Name!
it is such a wonderful feeling to be embraced by God.

i thank You for giving me such an understanding and wise mother.
i thank You for Your prompting and preparation of my heart for this.
i thank You for Your promise that indeed, Victory IS in Jesus.
i thank You, so much, for never giving up on me.
for never walking away.
for never retracting Your love.
for never failing me.
thank You.
my heart bursts in joy for All that You have done.
Wonderful Saviour, Marvellous Redeemer.

You are SO faithful, LORD. 


Sunday, September 16, 2007

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. 
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? 
Actually, who are you not to be?
 We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
 And as we let our own light shine, 
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."
- Marianne Williamson
mentioned in the movie "Akeelah and the bee"

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

its been a while since i last blogged.
life on the whole is quietening down to a low gentle hum.

is it good or bad?

hmm..for now.
it is somewhat deluding me into emo-ness.
i need something new to amuse or entertain me.
monotony isnt the way to go.
but what can i do?!
the dreaded CAs are on their way,and i am barely floating in my work.
i can't wait for the term break.

our lecturers this semester are quite funny. each have their own quirks.
they say funny/out of point/witty statements. which is fantabulous when you'e paying attention. haha.

perhaps i will blog more again when something more exciting happens to my life.
:)
or when i get a Sage- moment and blog something intellectual.
which rarely happens.
or something....

till the next post..adieu.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

dear diary..
today, i finally hugged HUGGED russell.
he didnt just stand there like he usually does..
but he put his arm around me!
i'm so happy.
i love my cousin!
:)

love,
me

Saturday, August 25, 2007


Give them all to Jesus

Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
And are you tired of spinning 'round and 'round?
Wrap up all the shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus lay them down

Chorus:
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts and broken toys
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrow into joy

He never said, you'd only see sunshine
He never said, there'd be no rain
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very things that once brought pain

And He will turn your sorrow into joy!


i'm laying them down at Your feet.
i'm tired of chasing pretty rainbows and losing my head.
in Your time

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

unmentionable
i'll stop the talking. i'll stop the thinking.
flip to a new page please.
i'll start the living. i'll start the breathing.
on your mark...

somethings are better left unsaid.


something has started and it wasnt i who hit the switch.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

s l i p.

its easy to s l i p.
unconsciously i s l i p.
sometimes i hope to s l i p.
no hand to hold on to?
choosing to not walk right?
head in the clouds?

s l i p.

Monday, August 13, 2007

refresh my heart
refresh my heart, Lord
renew my love
pour Your Spirit into my soul
refresh my heart
You set me apart, Lord
to make me new
by Your Spirit lift me up, Lord
refresh my heart

And I will worship You, Lord
with all of my heart
And I will follow You, Lord
refresh my heart.


O God, my heart is the altar
And my love for you is the flame;
I’ll keep the fire burning for You, Lord,
And I will rejoice in Your name. —Hess



another long week ahead.
sustain me Lord.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

this is my 650th post!
woah!

this week has been a rollercoaster of events.

monday:
first day of school. went for percussion audition.
but upon realising that i can't read notes, the lecturer kindly smiled me out of the room.owell.
i got my photography elective.yay.
fastest finger first is really exciting. your heart beats faster as the clock approaches the time for add/drop.
adrenaline.
the random allocation of design projects to groups is also very exciting.
i got a design project on past and future contact lens.
sounds interesting. =)
polymers here i come!

tuesday:
after lessons, i had FVT worship checkout.
but due to my ulcer on my tongue, that got worse after monday, i couldnt talk and sing properly.
eu kept "huh?"-ing me for 2 days. roar.
i had to leave early.
cos my family brought leo to the vet.
it was very hard. i kept crying.
from the house all the way to the vet.
why?
because we were going to put him down. he didnt respond to the medication and wasnt eating and drinking on his own. so it is better this way.
but i miss him alot. alot.
it really hurts.
13 years of my life..he's been a constant.
and now that he's gone..i dont see him when i walk into the dining and living area.
i dont hear him.
i cant touch him.
i cant touch him.
i miss having his face fit nicely between my two hands as i rub his face.
i thank God for bringing him into our lives, he had so much character and personality.
no one else bullies me like he did.
he was a great companion to have. couldnt have asked for any dog better.
i miss him.

we didnt witness him being put down.
i wish he was imperishable.

wednesday:
school yet again. had photography elective.jonsiew mengchoo jovian and justina are all in the elective with eu drew and i. =)
had our first Xroads session for the sem. did emcee-ing with tweet.
it was fun.
i was quite high after Xroads. i'm seriously addicted to being around people.
its almost scary.
Thank You for allowing everything to flow smoothly. :)

went to church after supper. it was quite fun. got to hang out with the youth.
and elvin is a monkey. i woke up with a minty smell...why?because while i was sleeping..that monkey put colgate on my left sleeve. argh.

thursday:
HAPPY 42nd birthday singapore!
happy 22nd birthday albert!

after the stayover in church..i went home and slept for a while before heading out again to marina square to meet the rest to celebrate Tweet's birthday.
glad i got to see the seniors again. and wishing albert "happy birthday albert!" every 10 mins was hilarious. haha.
went to shuying'se house to play mahjong and other games.
i hardly won. roar.
and jem "worries" each time i get my flower or a "tai" cos then i can go on a random rampage and anyhow end. haha!
had dinner with jason at causeway pt..which was great too! cos i got to talk to him. =)
thanks Jason for always accompanying me and all. and being such a good friend. :)

friday:
had school. had meeting.
cut my hair short.
went dinner at morton's steakhouse at oriental hotel.
shiok until buay tahan.
its so mahal. but so worth it.
happy birthday uncle philip! [in advance!]

staying over at caroline's tomorrow. watching tim's gig too.
how exciting my life is.


i'm tired.

I have tasted and i've seen that You are good.

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Fun

You are energetic, amusing, and always up for a good time.
Optimistic and genuinely happy, you help people see the sunny side of life.

And you're always up for a party... no matter how big or small.
You're usually the first one to celebrate a friend's success.

Anyone who's interesting or fun is welcome in you circle of friends.
You're not the type of person to exclude or make fun of someone who's a little different.

Your friends need you most when: They're down or depressed

You really can't be friends with: Anyone who's stuck up or chronically unhappy

Your friendship quote: "It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."

true?

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

a look at the more important things in life..

today, i was walking to my train station..
and i passed by this lady wearing a sarong and using an umbrella..
she glanced at me as she walked towards the grass, away from the cement pavement..
i saw her bend down and take her slippers off..
then she held them in her hand and gingerly continued walking on the grass..
it seemed like she had a slight tilt at the sides of her lips..

its amazing how one's words does reflect what his/her brain constantly dwells on.
do you constantly talk about a certain topic?
does it reflect your innermost desire?
don't hide it. don't deny it.
the world might already know.

my dog is sick.
it hasnt fully sunken into my head that i might lose him soon.
its taking its toll on not only his body, but on my family.
especially on audrey.
both physically, emotionally and mentally.
thanks jie.
its sad to see him so sick.
when it was he who caused us to spend so much energy catching him to bathe/stop barking/getting things from him that shouldnt be his.
now..my sister spends her energy trying to get him to eat.
not only his medicine..but any form of sustenance.

i was staring at him just now..he's so gaunt.
no longer our "fatty".

its been a good 13 years..and i guess its almost time to say adieu.
but its not easy.
he's a part of us already.


slow dancing

Monday, July 23, 2007

I saw the LIght
Words and music by Hank Williams
1948


I wandered so aimless, life filled with sin;
I wouldn't ask my dear Saviour in.
Then Jesus came like a stranger in the night;
Praise the Lord, I saw the light!

Chorus
I saw the light, I saw the light.
No more darkness; no more night.
Now I'm so happy no sorrow in sight.
Praise the Lord, I saw the light!

Just like a blind man I wandered alone,
Worries and fears I claimed for my own.
Then like the blind man that Jesus gave back his sight;
Praise the Lord, I saw the light!


Chorus
I saw the light, I saw the light.
No more darkness; no more night.
Now I'm so happy no sorrow in sight.
Praise the Lord, I saw the light!

I was a fool to wander astray,
For straight is the gate and narrow is the way.
Now I have traded the wrong for the right;
Praise the Lord, I saw the light!


Chorus
I saw the light, I saw the light.
No more darkness; no more night.
Now I'm so happy no sorrow in sight.
Praise the Lord, I saw the light!


Psalm 46:1
"God is our refuge and strength,
a very present help in trouble."


tommy emmanuel sang this song acapella on saturday.
=)

refresh me daily.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

WARNING: this is going to be a rambling, random post. so if you're up for it please read on.

i miss tandoori chicken from Can A.
i miss school.
but at the same time, it sickens me a lil that school is about to start.

i have not done all that's on my to-do list for the holidays.
my room is still a sky blue.
its supposed to have made friends with pink and yellow by now.
my room is still a surprise-me room, and not an alphabetical one.

i have 3 weeks left.
one week for Leader's conference.
one week for FOC.
one week to unwind, preferably at Sentosa, a pub and a coffee joint.
and then the shocker of it all when school kicks in,
and on the inside, i would keep wanting to fight the feeling of being back in school.
and before you know it, common tests hit you right in the face.
sighh.

i'm growing up too fast.
i want to be a toys'r'us kid forever.
i know my wife would love to join me.


worship was a lil messy today.
me played quite a number of wrong chords, using the wrong sounds,at the wrong times.
sigh.
drummer played a few messy beats out of the blue.thankfully it was kinda minimal.
worship didnt climax as well as it could have.
i need to improve on my synthe playing. my ears are not tuned.
if i had tunas for ears..maybe i'll be better off? haha. joke. laugh please.

it felt good to be back in church.though i still miss worshipping with the thousands.
i missed my youths, and my cousins quite a lot.
i'm praying for a new anointing in our worship meetings, that our congregation will once again come back to the heart of worship and just really adore our Lord, passionately, for who He is.

got my letter that i wrote to God, during last year meta camp. Ju sent the letters back out to us.
and yay. in my letter, whatever i asked of God, i can see it coming to pass in my life now.
it makes me just feel so happy. to know that hey, there is Someone who has my back and IS watching over me. wonderful security, i say.

last night i came up with new words..
dumb+funny= dunny
retarded+funny=renny
crazy+funny=funzy.

i want to go to a lazy quaint town, to just sip a cup of coffee and people watch.

if i wasnt called andrea..i wonder what name would suit me.

i can't wait for tommy emmanuel's concert this saturday. my ears are all pumped(not literally) for new tunes.
i love concerts and performances, makes you feel inspired and pensive and happy all at once.

i miss chemistry and physics practicals. either with mr Loh or piangpiang.

ok. i need chocolate.
ONION HAS YOOUU!!!

I AM BACK FROM KOREA!!

and missing it like crazy.

it was fantastic fun. too many things to blog about. will do so..
er.. soon.

anyhoo..
this entry is for jason. cos he asked me to blog about it. so i shall. cos why? cos i am a good girl.

okay. entry title..: one more requirement i wish to have in my future boyfriend..should God permit.(HAHA!)

to bring me on excursions!
esp. to the streets with weird names, in singapore! YEAH!


i came up with it when i passed by Kay Poh street.

just to walk through it would be suffice.company is more impt. and who knows..we might discover more exciting stuff about Singapore!

someone who has a kid in him. but matured too.
and does things in the spur of the moment. (not all the time mind you. cos i am, above all, a creature of habit.)

any takers? haha!
(zixiang..stop pointing at yourself.i know you are.haha!)

it has been a great day.
learnt new stuff.
got my heart broken by the prices of somethings.
totally totally satisfied the voyeur in me.
shared God's Word with His people in the spur of the moment. again.
when your heart starts to beat faster, you just can't fight it.

and i Thank You.

why die hopelessly, wondering why?
there IS hope beyond the grave.

Friday, June 29, 2007

YYAAYYY!!
KOREA HERE WE COME!!
haha!
about 200+ singaporean crusaders would be INVADING busan, korea tonight!
haha!

i'm so excited!
i'll be gone till the 9th of july. so please please PLEASE don't call me!
cos i wldnt answer. =)

we're going down for a conference and also for a 4 days rural mission.
its exciting. i am anticipating a personal encounter. and to just see how God is moving in asia.
abt 14k koreans and about 3-4k international delegates are going down.
yay!


so i'll look to YOU

miss me!!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

its like walking along a path that has no end.
can i give up now?
but i can't sit down.
too many voices. too little will.

sigh.

Monday, June 25, 2007

i'm still a little high and joyful from saturday's worship.
wow.
its like a continuous smile on the inside. haha!

times of refreshing, here in Your presence.
there's no greater joy, Lord, than being with You.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

You Are a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich

You life your life in a free form, artistic style.
You are incredibly creative and at times, quite messy.
Deep down, you are a kid at heart. And you aren't afraid to express it.

Your best friend: The Grilled Cheese Sandwich

Your mortal enemy: The Club Sandwich


p.s: please look at eugenia's blog.HAHA!
of all the things to do..


Your Brain is Orange

Of all the brain types, yours is the quickest.
You are usually thinking a mile a minute, and you could be thinking about anything at all.
Your thoughts are often scattered and random - but they're also a lot of fun!

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about esoteric subjects, the meaning of life, and pop culture.


You Are a Chocolate Cake

Fun, comforting, and friendly.
You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality.
People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.


to eugenia: " and have even been known to get addicted to you". haha!

Your Monster Profile

Death Nightmare

You Feast On: Fried Chicken

You Lurk Around In: Closets

You Especially Like to Torment: Pop Stars


HAHAHA!!

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.
You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.
But you sure can beat a good drum.
"Kill! Kill!"


AH-NEE-MALL!! =)

You Should Drive a Pink Car

You're the type of driver who really loves your car.
You can make a car last for ages - or take good care of a vintage ride.
You're independent, creative, and very expressive.
You consider your car a part of you ... and you want to make it as funky as possible.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007



misty - sung by ella fitzgerald.
Look at me, I'm as helpless as a kitten up a tree;
And I feel like I'm clingin' to a cloud,
I can' t understand
I get misty, just holding your hand.

Walk my way,
And a thousand violins begin to play,
Or it might be the sound of your hello,
That music I hear,
I get misty, whenever you're near.

Can't you see that you're leading me on?
And it's just what I want you to do,
Don't you notice how hopelessly I'm lost
That's why I'm following you.

On my own,
When I wander through this wonderland alone,
Never knowing my right foot from my left
My hat from my glove
I'm too misty, and too much in love.
Too misty, and too much in love.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

just never learn in time.
its gone now.
even if i try to salvage as much as i can.
its still gone.
i just have to make do with something lower.

i just never learn.

its always at the last minute that i try to salvage things.
but its never good enough.

regret is kicking me.
and in full hard blows.

i hope i wake up this time round.