slogan in life.

insanity always brings happiness.

i want to have my own strait-jacket.

clumsy - chris rice


You think I'd have it down by now
Been practicin' for thirty years
I should have walked a thousand miles
So what am I still doin' here
Reachin' out for that same old piece of forbidden fruit
I slip and fall and I knock my halo loose
somebody tell me what's a boy supposed to do?

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You're sayin' You love me
And You're still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
'Cause You're makin' me holy
You're still makin' me holy, yeah


I'm gonna get it right this time
I'll be strong and I'll make You proud
I've prayed that prayer a thousand times
But the rooster crows and my tears roll down (again)
Then You remind me You made me from the dust
And I can never, no never, be good enough
And that You're not gonna let that come between us

From where I stand
Your holiness is up so high
I can never reach it
My only hope is to fall on Jesus

will you let me romanticise
the beauty in the london skies.
you know the sunlight always shines
behind the clouds of london skies.

i love jamie cullum.
yes i do.yes i do.

off to romanticise my maths..if only it was more lovable.
i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.

WORSHIP WAS FANTASTIC!!
thanks to those who asked how it went.
=)

before service...
my hands were cold. [realised this has been happening nowadays when smth exciting or nervous happens to me.]
and elvin didnt help.
keep telling me that if i zao-sia-ed he wld signal to everyone to just stop playing then and there.
and let my note linger.
rah.
and when the call to worship song was playing.
he kept telling me when the song was gonna end and that worship was gonna start.
rah.
i dont like elvin.
i dont like him at all.

anyhoo..need to rechoose my christmas songs..
no complain there.
i dont mind finding new songs.
settled our dance one.
dor..i need you to teach me the dance steps.haha.i need ideas.

yupp.
so everything went fine and dandy.

oh.i read it today.
that boaz's father's name is..salmon.
i love biblical names.
=)

water is thicker than blood so it seems.

it always amazes me.
how God pieces me back together whenever im heartbroken.
from a moment of crying and disappointment.
to a moment of peace and security.

i stand.i stand.in awe of You.

i just came home from re's hse.
had a christmas meeting with uncle philip..lynn..kel and elvin.

ahhh!!elvin will be the death of me!!
he keeps mentioning sick stuff.
funny sick stuff.
but sick all the same.
argh!!but i kept laughing.
hmm.he's corrupting me.
haha.
he wanted to just come up with a forfeit that included..someone and me.
and the forfeit is just eeeyuck.
i will be sick on christmas eve.
it wld really be the nightmare before christmas for me..
arghh..

anyhoo..
we managed to come up with all the games to play.
the order of flow for the items.
chowie elvin and i are gonna be the gamemasters/emcees for our church's christmas celebration.

equation to avoid..when you're in need of peace :

andrea + caffeine/sugar = a whole load of hilarious nonsense.

and honestly..the amount and magnitude..and quality of lameness/retardedness/CRAP that comes out of me..really amazes my own self sometimes.
haha.
I CANT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR!!!
its gonna be fall-on-the-floor-roll-around-crying funny.
elvin chowie and i wld be saving the world before bedtime!!
hahahahaha.

yay.
this is gonna be one of my best..cum..most involved christmas.
rockin.

leading worship tomorrow.
a bit nervous.
first time on stage.with the whole worship team.
behind a pedestal.

all for His glory.

yes yes.
not very productive today.
but im a bit high on caffeine now.
haha.
so hopefully will get a bit of work done.
i seriously need motivation.
somebody kick me please.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent. You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored. You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts. And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

i woke up at 950 today.
came online and talked to my amelia.



amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
studying?
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
nope
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
woke up not long ago.
[amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
haha
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
gonna go off soon tho.
[amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
terrible
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
need to do my tuts soon
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
haha
[amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
i went to school and came home already
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
wow..
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
thats fast.
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahaha


and the feeling of..man-i-havent-gotten-anything-done-yet sinks in.

please go and play with my polkydot.
and adopt one too!
as lizzie says..."spread the lluurrvvee.."

anyhooo...so yes.i must go and seize the day now!
-superman music-

IZABIRD CAME TO NTU TODAY!!!
wwwwOOOOOooooOOO!!!
was so happy.
i kept having spastic moments of.."ahh!!my lizabird is coming!!" -waves hands randomly-
amidst my last min mugging of my mat sci.

hahaha..
yay.
really missed her alot.
and it was great meeting her.together with grace.
haha.
the two of them are just lovely.lovely lovely.
=)

love you liz.

i did my mat sci test in like..15 mins.
second to hand up.
cos i wanted to rush back down to be with my liz.
haha.and plus.
i checked my answers twice already.
haha.
felt so cheated.
i memorised SO MANY FORMULAS!!
and out of the 24 qns..only one..ONE..referred to a formula.
oh rah.
but yes.
thats a blessing in itself.
hopefully i'll get my A.
mat sci is the only module im confident in passing.
sigh. oop.one fairy dead.

anyhoo.didnt eat sakae sushi with re russ and drey.
lets not talk abt it.
i still just wish you dont do this kinda things to us.
i wish i could say i understand why.
but 30 percent of me. still doesnt.



i am sorry for not being able to say the right things.
i am sorry for my idiosyncracies.
i am too practical for my own good at times.
i have forgotten how painful it can be.
i will try to be more sensitive.
i am still looking for compassion.
it seems like i am running low on it.
apathy is what i have been feeling for a long time.
and i havent found the solution.
i wish i could be your pillar.
but i am not strong enough.
not discerning enough.


You will be my shelter..the place where i can run..
my rock..my sure foundation..
that can not be overcomed.

wasnt super productive today.

my black nail polish keeps peeling.

im feeling lethargic and no mood to study for my mat sci test tml.

but you made me smile today.

didnt do that much today after all.
only accomplished half of what i intended to do.
owell.
at least its smth.

you can never wean a lover from the cup of love,
unless he himself chooses to give it up. - w.shakespeare.

the studying chronicles..(clockwise)yishan.jonathan.me and twin. 

our end product..i know what you did last semester..wahahhaa..haha..i think studies are burning our brains.. 

us de-stressing..drawing a face..look at their excited faces! 

me : jonathan..i think im going to buy you ear diggers for your birthday!
[cos he kept mis-hearing things]
jonathan : -covers his ears with his hands- nnoooo...i dont want more ears!i think two is good enough!


all i have are memories.
i want to pull my finger away from the repeat button and press next.
but there is no next to jump to.
i cant wait to break out of hibernation.
i need new moments.

i realised.
that.
for this week.
monday-wednesday.
i only have ONE HOUR of physics lecture.
yay.[sarcastic tone]
guess im spending the rest of my day camping at lib2.
good ol lib 2.
need to be uber productive this week.
slacked the weekend away already.

watching finding nemo now.

shark bait!hoo haha!

will blog again when smth happening happens.
for now.
-blank-


everyday with You Lord..is sweeter than the day before.

all i want..is to see Your face.
all i need..is a moment of grace.
its in You
that i have the faith
to stand up and be strong.
cos i know..im no longer bound.
its in You that i have found
peace of mind, freedom from my sin.
and the power to love and forgive.

i want to walk with You
everyday of my life.
to talk with You
in the good and the strife.
You're my friend
You're my father
for all time.
nothing can keep us apart.
You're the lover of my heart.


church was fun today.
played quite alot of my piano. =)
my right wrist is hurting a bit now though.
but it was all good.
glad to be of His service.
elvin was acting so retarded today.he really amazes me sometimes.
during youth worship practice.he sat next to me.
and just kept whacking whatever melody he wanted.it was in tune la.but it was so funny cos he kept acting like some madman.
and he wants to spoil the song we're performing for christmas!!he wants to add his own "oohhh-oohhh-oohhh and ahh-ahh-ahh" to the song!-hrmph-


becky is at my house again today.
yay.
she kept harrassing me just now though.
rah.
she tahans alot of my nonsense.
its amazing.
haha.

ohh..last night..sam dor and i went to play tennis..9 o'clock at night! at cck stadium.
cos dor and i were so sian of just study study study..
it was fun.played quite well.haha.
i started acting retarded when i was playing with sam.(ookok..so what's new.)
but anyway..came up with a new game..
crab tennis.
you can only move along the half line.side to side.
so the two of us were in funny positions trying to reach for the ball.
=)
yay.i like acting retarded.haha.

much thanks to my two other musketeers for playing tennis with me.it was really fun.and it broke the monotony of just studying. =)

ok.off to go find smth to do.

to my darlings : i miss you three alot.alot.alot.alot.need our insanity to gain back my sanity.

the purple dinosaur that jonathan drew..=) so nice.he says "purple dinosaur" each time someone or he himself says smth off-tangent.haha.

i wish i could just lay down in a field of luscious grass.
with my favourite person next to me.
and we just spend the whole day lying there.
looking at the clouds.
quiet conversations.
and just be there.
in that moment.
enjoying each other's company.
and nothing else mattered.

jonathan is so so funny.
my goodness.
i have discovered yet another entertainer.
haha.

i think its the red bull he drank before maths lecture.
note to self : i dont like red bull.its like sweet medicine.-makes face-

he was so high la.
i told him about my ambition to be a beach bum cum chef.
and somehow or another..sam and i cant hear properly.
we kept mixing words up.
hahaha.
jonathan drew a coconut tree by the ocean..and drew this puny shack for my restaurant.
it was shorter than the coconut tree.hrmph.
and then a small guy.wtih a flowery shirt..three strands of palm leaves for his hair..we ended up naming the guy..a beach palm.
and we arrived at the theory that fat pple are coconuts.
hahaha.
please note : we are kidding.

after maths lecture..we went for lunch.
jonathan was looking at the birds..
j : they dont walk.they just keep hopping.
sam : yar wad.they dont have knees.
j : hahaha.really?? but then..if the bird's brother has daughters..then that bird will have knee-ses.
me : phwoar.oh my goodness.hahahahahhaa.

j : the scenery very nice..got birds and bees.
me: where are the bees??
j : behind the As.

i recently just set this 1800s french engineer's(sadi carnot) photo as my phone's wallpaper.cos..he is quite cute.the most handsome scientist in my physics textbook.
me : yar..he's so cute la!
sam : but you cant date him lor..
j : yar..you two can only be..carbon dating.
me : aahhh....so lame!! hahahahahahaha.

jonathan kept gazing at the birds..
me : are you still trying to look at their knees??
j : they dont have knees! he said already.oh yar..they have right..they have knee-ses right..and what's the other one?
j and i : knee-phews!!
hahahaha.
me : sounds like diffuse la.
j : yar la..that's when you have two knee-phews..then you have di-phews.

hahaha.

we started discussing about..what we should name our kids next time if we still have our same surname.

me : jonathan..your surname is lim right..you can name your kid..kopi!
j : or..ping..then she'll be called..limping.
haha.
me: or it..and then it will be limit!

sam : please dont think about mine.i keep thinking of all the hokkien words.
{ sam's surname is pang.so please DO NOT think of toliet related hokkien words.}
adrian : im sure when dor and drea think of you and yr car..they will think of this word.
j : tom-pang!
me : hey hey.hahahaha.


so yes.my one hour break today was so hilarious.
thanks to jonathan and twin.
haha.
our conversation really brightened up my day.
with the random purple dinosaurs and all.
haha.
i'll love to see a shocking pink t-rex one day.rrraaawwwrrr!!

dinner was good.
i love how my dad asks me if i want dessert now and he helps me scoop.
and i find six longans(!) and one sweet potato in my small bowl.
and i love the way my mum holds onto the soaped up sponge.stands in front of the sink.all ready to wash the dishes.then slumps and turns me to and say.."i'm tired.will you help me wash?"

i love their mannerisms.so cute.
couldnt ask for more. =)


so we look into the barney bag.
and we find alot of things.
gizmos and gadgets.
and some odds and ends.
and even some old strings!
so we ask ourselves the question.
what can we make today?
with imagination and a barney bag!
we'll see what we can make today.
YEAH!
we'll see what we can make today!


i wish i knew where.two weeks.

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross.

--don moen at the foot of the cross.

just ended my physics test.
for some reason..i cldnt figure out what to use for my summations of torque and forces.
and the answers i got didnt tally with the options given.
crap.
so yes..three qns out of five..aint that bad right?
sigh.
and so i bluff myself.

off to do my mat sci tutorial.

lib 2 is getting to be quite cosy.

i went tap tap tapping today!
though...i have not completed studying my physics.
rah.

met wifey for dinner..
wahahahha..
I LOVE IT THAT SHE IS WEARING BRACES!!!
haha.i know it sounds evil.
but she's so cute la!!!
the metals add a new dimension to her.
haha.
its a joy watching her eat.
her expressions of discomfort and pain.
how she tears her burger part by part just to stuff it into the far back corners of her mouth.
haha.
she's so cute.

anyhoo..tap tap tapping was fun.
though..we had to do alot of turning across the room.
felt very light-headed after a while.
it feels good tap-dancing.
unfortunately..nearing the end of the lesson..my left foot decided to give me a cramp.
so i kept tapping with a cramped left foot.

i dun like it when my body gives me spastic discomforts.rah.

after class..we said good bye to one of the ladies from our class..
then i turned to shir..
me :what's her name ar?
shir :-pause- aunty. -spastic face-

oh goodness.haha.

so glad i got to talk to shir after so long.
our conversations never cease.
since 1994.

okie doke..for now..i cant think of anything else that happened today that is blog-worthy.

onwards to conquering my 30 more pages of physics.

oh wait.
yes.
i have a thanksgiving.
God really answers prayers.
i prayed the other day that i will find joy in studying.
that..in the midst of my i-am-so-not-ready-for-my-exams stress..
i will find joy in studying.
and i really have.
its so weird for me.
cos..im not really made for studying.haha.
but..maths integration seems a bit therapeutic..and physics seems a bit more exciting.
hahaha.

its really amazing how God created all these forces and everything..
if I WERE GOD...
the world would..
1. be black and white.
2.everything will be floating about.no forces what so ever.
3.have only 50 pple or less. just enough for my entertainment.

haha.
but no no no no!!!
this world was created by HIS awesomeness.
and its all good.
=)

okie..off to be dynamic in my thermal.

to lion: she can be your everything.but she cant be you.
when you feel like you are losing control.give me a call.
24 hours clown service.i'll throw in a scolding too if you like.
keep praying.God is still there for you.
and i am here.with my ears wide open.
=)

I will lift up my eyes to the hills-
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.
--psalm 121:1&2


every blessing You pour out i'll turn back to praise.

to my wife.
with lurrrvvee..


narcissistic [amelia] says:
just tt her teeth looks shinier den usual
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahahaha
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
really??
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
yay
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
im seeing her tml
narcissistic [amelia] says:
haha
narcissistic [amelia] says:
okay
narcissistic [amelia] says:
have fun!!!
narcissistic [amelia] says:
remember to bring sunglasses
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahaha
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
okie doke
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahahha

i realised.
that im really blessed.
i have entertainers in every aspect of my life.
hahahha.
i lurve it!!

finally talked on the phone to my wifey difey today..
after a long while...
she's so funny.so so funny.
I LURVE YOU PIGGIE!
hahahaa..
and im so proud of you!!first driving practical!!and with my mr seah!!hahaha..
i cant wait to get driven by you!! =)
when she called me a nehnehcow..i replied.."no im not a nehnehcow ok!"
doreen went..eeeyuck.
hahaha.
i think dor has smth against the words nehneh..nehnehpok..kuku..kukupok..
hahahaha..
sorry babe.
hahaha.

i think im high on caffeine now.
oohhh..i miss..miss miss..my hazelnut vanilla latte..
yum..
laopo..make one for me please???pretty please??

oh..today i was super..productive.
i did..ONE chapter..in SEVEN hours.
arrrgggghhh!!!!
it makes you wanna smack me right.
argh.
so tonight..i need to pia 2 chapters just so i can allow myself to go tap tap tapping tml.
and see my dear wife. =)

kk..dinner time!!

so much to do..so little time..

went to school just for my life science test today.
did ok.
some girl complained abt the last CA being too easy.
cos there were too many tutorial qns that were repeated in the CA.
argh.wad's wrong with the girl la.
rah.

anyhoo..accomplished my filing today.
yay.
and i cant conquer maths.
rah.

to my twin..sam: thanks so much for driving me around.i really feel very blessed. =) and for taking me on joy rides..=)
thank you so much twin.

okie.i will go find smth to do now.
some how..my left ankle feels painful.

two more weeks to the exams!!
that means..
six more weeks to playtime!!
yay!!!
-cant wait-

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.You cherish all of the details in life.Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

href="How'>http://blogthings.com/howisyourinnerchildquiz/">How Is Your Inner Child?

and in the midst of doing online tutorials..

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

href="How'>http://blogthings.com/howboyishorgirlishareyouquiz/">How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

i find myself doing quizzes.

on 143 today..on our way to far east shopping centre..

jeremy : (qn directed to deon) hey..far east is at chinatown there right?
the rest of us : -stunned- what?!?
jeremy :oh oh! no..its near the building whose ceiling is glass one right?
rest : nooo..
tim : you think west mall ar?? think of a yellow square!!

after a while..i think he either figured it out..or just gave up..

anyhoo..so..kel chowie tim darling jermy drey and i went to far east.
was gonna eat kel's some-ulu-hongkong-style-tucked-at-a-corner restaurant.
but it was closed! =)
God answers prayers!! wahaha.
i prayed that i wld be closed before we boarded our bus..cos if it was closed.we wld eat the turkish food. haha. kel wanted to turn violent on me.hahahha.
so yes..yay..much to my delight..we went to eat at the turkish restaurant.

kel's convinced im crazy.
she was seated on my left..when she was eating..i wld suddenly place my face really near hers and watch her eat..haha..and i tried singing the turkish song that they were playing..i just whacked whatever it sounded like to me.."hello madam..kong si hua!!?" hahaha.
and there was a turkish song..with english lyrics..its almost like..techno music..cos the girl kept repeating one line very often..smth like.."i'm alone here" or smth..i forgot..anyway..i was singing that line to kel too..haha.
sorry kel..i am feeling random today. =)

she still blames me for kristie's psychotism.
sigh.
=)

oh..during lunch..

drey : jermy..you shld apply smth on yr pimple la..
jermy : yar..clearasil.
drey : are you sure it works??
jermy : yar..its starting to work.
drey : is it good?
jermy : i havent bought it yet.

haha.
conversations are life's simple joys.

oh yes.
today..as my daddy was parking at the bt timah market.cos we were going there for dinner.
i saw cheok walking towards the market..and den at the back of the grp..i saw my AMELIA!!
in the car i was like..ahh!!ahh!!my amelia!!my amelia!!
saw that she was whacking the guy next to her.
so i got out of the car..called her and said "why you keep whacking the guy?!"
ame: where are you!?ahh!!where are you??

haha..i was squatting behind one of the cars..hiding from her..
but she saw drey and re already.
haha.
so yes..i came out and talked to her.
such a pleasant surprise to have seen her.
really made my day.
=)



this is copied from her blog.
and it goes out to all my girlfrens too..
=)

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

friday was good..played badminton with yong zhi and gang.
yong zhi did a good job planning the whole thing.
thank you.
=)
we played bball after a while.haha.
i was so slack.didnt have the mood to play.
and i think im losing my ball sense.
which is terrible.
owellz.

just now..
in the car on the way home..

me: see la mummy.you shldnt have given birth to me near midnight.that's why im so greedy.
mum: no what..midnight..tigers shld have eaten already.
dad : no..they are still prowling for food.
me : drey was born around midnight too..
drey : yar..roosters are asleep.i have it good.just sleep only.
me : rebecca..what time were you born??
re : afternoon.
drey and i : oh..afternoon..horses shld be working..what's wrong with you?!
re : im an abnormal horse.
me: hahahhaa..yar..those kind that no one wants to buy..so kenna isolated in a far off part of the farm..every day just -funny noise- and trot around.
all :-laughing like mad.-
re : no..i dont do that funny noise.

there were many other retarded conversations.
but i dont remember exactly.

i had a good night.
blessed to have my family.


blessed be the name of the Lord..blessed be Your glorious name.

let me backtrack..

thursday :
in sam's car :
me : twin..can i borrow yr ear phones??i forgot mine.
sam : haha.ok.
me : yay.ok.good.otherwise i have no entertainment on the train.
sam : why do you need entertainment?you've got albert wad..
me : huh..only until clementi!

on the train :
me : oh my.i didnt know they had angels and demons in chinese!
albert : actually you dont need me..you can just entertain yrself on the train.
just keep going "rah!" now and then..
me : huh.. hahahahaha.
albert : yar..you can turn to the person next to you and go "rah! do you want to know what rah means??do you know that rah rhymes with Jehovah??" then you can take out the 4 SLs and start talking to the person about Christ.and after he alights..you can turn to the next person and go "rah!" and start all over again.i think you do it a few times before you reach bugis.
me : -laughs nonstop.-

haha.

okok.
so i reached bugis..ate with aunt lin uncle eddie re and russ.
and we proceeded to the Grand Chapiteau to watch Quidam!
haha.its was fantastic.
but i think i didnt really enjoy it as much as i enjoyed allegria cos..this one confused me.
so many things to look at in one moment.
re and i were trying to figure out the hidden meanings..and the plot.
goodness.
me : "re..why are they wearing red??did the guy just die to signify her innocence that's lost??"
re : yar..i think so..i only know its smth to do with the lost of innocence.

aiyoh.haha
but the stunts and all were wow.
the four china girls who played with the cylinderical things and string was fab.
the way they can throw the cylinder in the air..do a few complicated flips..and catch it back witht their strings in perfect timing..left me gaping.
wow.

their comedians were hilarious.
the shorter one had an imaginary car..and as he drove..he wld keep bouncing in his seat.
he alighted..picked a girl from the audience and she became his date.
she had to bounce along with him in the car..scold pple in the jam..and her hair was badly messed up by the guy..he tried yanking the clip out of her hair..and asked her to flip her hair and mess it up.oh my..re and i were pitying the girl..
so embarrassing la.
haha.
but she was a good sport.
as she was going to kiss him on his cheek..he flipped in time..and she ended up kissing his lips.
i was in shock.
the girl was covering her lips with her hand..in shock too.
poor girl.
hahaha.

the other one got four participants and they "filmed" those black and white era kinda show.
and it was really funny cos of the silly actions they had to do.
so many things happened.
ask me about it if you wanna know.cos..too lazy to type.
haha.
oop.

on the whole..it was really fun..

and i think i think too much abt my work..
i actually went "wow re..the engineering is fantastic!"
cos..the way they built an arc..with the metal thing that can bring string down..and carry the weight of the pple who hang from the ropes and all..and how they move them to and fro.
haha.
oh my.

anyhooo..
i didnt do too good for my econs test.
which is good in a sense that it has given me a rude shock..and i really have to buck up and mug.

owellz.
kk.need to go downstairs to buy lunch.
my poor sister and my tummy are starving.
=)

will blog abt my friday when i get back.

give it all..give it all..give it all to Jesus.

thou shall not digress.

i need to learn how to pray.
to see things from a different perspective.
not from my carnal self.

argh.


anyhoo..in the lee wee nam library now..
too lazy to keep doing my life sci tuts.

going for quidam tonight.
with russ..re..aunt lin and uncle eddie.
uncle eddie is the one paying for re russ and my tickets.
so nice of him. =)

im quite excited.
hoping its better than allegria.
cos allegria was already really good.
=)
hope the percussionist is there.
haha.

k.
going to go now.
hopefully my mood picks up.
dont seem that happy ever since yesterday.
pms perhaps?
i dont know.
either way.
bye

when my aunt lin was ordering tickets to quidam over the phone..and was inquiring abt child rate for russell.
aunt lin : yes..she is 12 yrs old..
drey : russ...aunt lin said she.
me : hahaha.
russ : ehh...its HE HOR!
me : YAR!! heehor!!
all : -laughs-
drey : yar!its a donkey!

my family is so entertaining.
i love our moments of mass spasm.
haha.

my tomato that fell into my cup of water when i was talking to shir during dinner; much to ame and shir's delight..and it looks very much like a denture in water though.haha. 

this is a postcard i got from my DENTIST.since when do they send postcards to tell you when to go for yr checkup??-disgusting.- rah. 

this is the carebear that darren found next to a DUST BIN..and he gave it to sharon.trying to trick her that he bought it.but..cos its so dirty.she obviously found out.and now he has to wash it first before giving it back to her.haha. 

i just came back from church.
we watched a concert by the gaither ministry.
called jerusalem.

it was so fantastic!!
such wonderful musical gifts they all have.
they make singing seem so effortless.
and the lyrics and everything was just..WOW!
you can feel God's presence just fill the place as you worship along with them.
wow.
it was really a wonderful feeling.
=)

i must find the soundtrack.
=)


i am very proud of my becky.
i just feel like saying it.
she is so blessed with the gift of the english language.
hahaha.
do i make sense?
haha.but yes.
i love the way she plays with/places her words.
sounds very poetic.
haha.
this is an sms she sent me once..
i asked her to send me a guy or smth..i dun recall wad i said..but anyway..she replied.
" no.i will give you a man with eyes like glass flecked with crystal stars.and hair like midnight.and voice like a song out of a forgotten kingdom."
ok.we both admit.
it doesnt really make much sense.
but it sounds nice right!!
=)
haha.

kk..i am going to continue watching my taiwan show..
swoon..
i think im too addicted to romance stories.
ahhh..
save me.
haha.


victory in Jesus.

yay..
my comp is finally working.
i really really..REALLY want to get this comp fixed or better yet..get a new one.
alvan tried teaching me how to reformat.
but i think he sort of gave up.
=)

anyway..
econs test on fri was quite ok..
not too sure if my answers are correct.
so yes..we shall wait and see..

i was so last min yesterday..very terrible.
didnt manage to complete studying my macro econs in time.
rah.
i wish i could study thru osmosis.

anyway..yesterday's dg was good..though there was only eliza grace and i.
i realised..that grace and i have the same sort of mentality when it comes to our emotions.
and its nice to know im not alone..
=)
i really like my dg girls..all so warm.

oh yes..on thursday..i did my first blitz.(street witnessing).
in school..with my discipleship grp leader.
i didnt talk much..eliza did most of the talking.
but..i learnt alot.
the girl didnt accept Christ..but she was nice and she listened to all we had to say.
but to her..christianity is a commitment..of having to spend/sacrifice time for our responsibilities in church.
but to us..we dont see it as that much of a burden..cos its our service to God.
but as eliza told me..thats why..sometimes..its impt to note how we talk when we are with our nonchristian frens..cos when we complain abt our responsibilities..they will see it as we are unhappy or smth..and not doing it for God.
yar.understand?
smth like that.
hmmz.

ooohhhh..and i realised..
that my eliza...
tsk tsk..
is snooping around!!
she found our blogs.
hahaha.
but yes..
now you have got to tag.
haha.


im on the phone with my wife now..
she has finally called me after fifteen hours!!
she was supposed to call me after dinner last night lor..
rah.
well done shirlene yeong..well done!

anyway..i didnt eat for 18 hrs just now..
so proud of myself.
but i went to bed hungry.
very hungry.
very very hungry.

yes.

lesson for this week : its not a matter of whether its in your nature to behave the way you do..but its whether it reflects Christ.

anyone want to share a toto ticket with me?
it was such a pleasant surprise.
i never thought i was still remembered.
for the first time..i wasnt the one who initiated conversation.
wow.
at least we're still friends.


date noted : 05 10 05

i pon-ed school today.
to mug at home.
economics.
i finally understand why we need to study elasticity.
finally.

have so many more chapters to conquer!!
i think its an interesting topic and all.
really.
its the only textbook that i can actually get engrossed reading.
haha.
how amazing is that!
yeap.
but..as usual..
limited attention span..
i ended up tripling my break time..from an hour to three..
cos..er..my taiwan show is more intriguing.
hahaha.

serious..it always warms my heart to watch this kinda shows..
whereby the bad boy is really sweet..
hahaha..
when the guy holds the girl's hand..
here i am like some moron getting all excited watching..
hahaha.

anyhoo..here i am to blog about my yesterday. =)
went out with my wife and mistress yesterday.
had a fantastic time.
haha.as always.
we went shopping!!
and ame and i went to watch corpse bride..
when we went into the theatre..we were so noisy..no wait..ame was being so noisy..haha.
and we were becoming the pple that we didnt like..so yes..
after a while..we became quiet..and the show is really nice.. alot of word play..
eg..the elder of the under world said : why do you two want to go up to the land of the living?? when people are dying to get here.
haha.so yes..it was really funny.
only one scary part when the corpse came out of the ground..
both of us were like..holding onto each other..haha..or rather..i was the one who kept holding onto ame's arm..
haha.
one of the reasons why i can never watch horror movies.
small heart + vivid imagination = not good.
haha.

anyway..
as we were walking ard heeren..
i saw one of my eyecandies..with a girl.
me : ame..isnt that..******??
-glance again-
yar it is!!
ame : haha.arent you glad i made us walk thru here??

and at one of the shops..ame was so deep in thought abt her black pants..
that she started asking me smth..
i was on her left quite a dist away..but i saw that she was looking at her right..
and when i responded..she was so shocked..
and she burst out laughing.."oh! i thought that the other person was you!" hahahaha..
me : huh?!?!oh goodness.im wearing black.the girl is wearing green!!
haha.but i figured as much..i was wondering why you were talking to me but looking in another direction..haha..

ame is so silly.haha.


so we headed to dinner at cafe cartel at cine..
met michkam and her two frens..
and since he was in town..so conveniently..heh..weiquan came to say hi..
me : ohhh!! we saw ****** just now!!
wq : haha.serious.you want me to ask him to come here? i need to return him money.
me : ahh!!no please.

but he asked either way..and i didnt go say hi eventhough i know him..
no biggie anyway.
its was silly shir and ame who kept saying "go and say hi la."
irritating.
he is just a mere eye candy.
goodness.
embarrassing.

and yes..weiquan told us hot gossip.
i couldnt believe that i had to find out second hand lor!!
i immediatedly called the person up and got the whole story..
shir and i took turns "scolding" the person for not telling..haha..
but i am really happy for you, girl.
really.
finally you've found someone who can take good care of you.
you deserve it.


yesterday's shopping was good.
i havent shopped like that since i came back from hongkong.
=)
feels good.
haha.
retail therapy.
im still thinking if i should have bought the skirt and black top.
so yes..sticking to my shopping slogan.."if you want it..you will think abt it."
so yes..i will keep thinking abt them until i really think i want them.

yupp.oh..
i had a "turn left turn right" experience yesterday.
quite kek.
but..owellz..lets not talk abt it.
-sigh-

dear ame and shir..thanks for coming out with me yesterday..
ame..i hope you had a good belated birthday time spent with us..thanks for dinner babe.
i really enjoyed myself.
and i love you..despite the times you embarrass me in public..and when you talk to strangers thinking that it is me..i still love you.-grin-
shir..boo!
haha.you know what i wanna say already la..
if you dont..
i just wanna say..

i blame you for my retardedness.


kk..going to go plunging into the world of economics..
i cant think like a rational economist for nuts.



words fail me.
words fail me..
when i try to explain the immense joy that i find in Your presence.
words fail me..
when i just wanna sing of Your greatness and faithfulness.
words fail me..
when i wanna express how thankful i am for salvation.
words fail me..
when i just want to give You unending praise.
words fail me..
when i try to tell of how Your peace just wells up within me.
words fail me..
when i just wanna burst with Your joy.
words fail me Lord..words fail me..
i am blown away by You.
You are the only one who can silence me.
only You.

WOW.
i have gone through so much this week.
though i wasnt as hyped as i was last week.
but i still learn so many things through it all.

went to watch STOMP! with my wife on thursday.
so strike that off my "things to do before i die" list.
wooo..
i love foreign entertainers.
how they tease the crowd and get the crowd involved.
so we were clapping along..and just..
i am just..really..blown away but their rhythmic talents..
money well spent.
really.
thanks laopo for accompanying me.-hugs-

on friday i realised that my dear dory really is a psycho.
she smiled in a direction behind me..and i was like.."smiling at someone?" "no." i turned to see.and yar..there really wasnt anyone she was smiling at!!
so weird..
dory : "you called me psycho already wad.and then you dont believe that i am psycho!"
-argh! such weird frens i have.-

i went for a worship seminar yesterday..
was afraid that i wld be all alone..for 4 hrs..
but thankfully i saw cheryl may may wong..and went to sit with her and her worship team.
then my dgl eliza came and said hi..and i met kky and jean at the rooftop during refreshment..
but yes..
i really learnt alot..
two most impt points i learnt :
1. worship is a journey.not a destination.
2. new songs rips away what we know.and makes us think.gives us new insight.and releases God's power.

i really need to spend more time with Him.. for more input..
for what is a branch without its vine..


worship was good..though our beloved gabriel chose songs with 4 different keys!!
darling and i had to keep linking and changing keys..haha.and worship was really fast.
but it was good.
gabby is really blessed.and is a great blessing.
very proud of him.


okok.today..went lunch with jim..chowie..kel and drey.
i like spending time with them..
makes me more balanced..cos they are all older than me..
so yes..i am still retarded..but retarded in words..not just actions.
haha.
anyhoo..we talked abt kel and her future bf...
me : kel!i cant wait till you get a boyfren.
he can be boring..but..i hope he is like you..sporadic spasms!
ok? must ar..
and we continued talking abt what kinda guys she likes and abt whether he must be entertaining.
me : doesnt everyone want someone who is entertaining?who wldnt want one?!
drey and chowie immediately point to kel.
hahahhaha.
and we re did the whole scene again..cos kel said that they shldnt be so quick to point to her..
so yes..we re-did the whole scene..with chowie and drey pretending to be thinking for a while before pointing to kel..hahaha..madness..
i think jim is highly entertained by the four of us.
and so we were talking abt how pple in relationships play games..whether on purpose or not..
kel : why must play games!?..so boring.
we all burst out laughing.
drey : ok .. ok..so if playing games is boring..you tell us what is entertaining la!
kel : what kinda games?
drey : the silent game..the...
kel : i can win the silent game!!i am very good at being silent!!
drey and i :no kel!!when you;re in love..its very different..each time you look at yr phone..you'll think of that person..and it'll kill you..and you wld wanna msg!
kel: oh..

aiyoh..anyhoo..i really cant wait for all of them to get married!!
woooo...2007!!! target.
=)
i must start saving money.


today is my darling becky's birthday..
i hope you like the collage girl.
happy 15th birthday! i love you alot.really.beyond words.
i wish i could protect you forever.
but i grow old..and my parang rusts.
haha.
but if any of those monsters come into your life..just know that drey and i are here for you.
we've got your back girl.
=)
and thanks babe for ordering chilli crab for me.it was so sweet of you.
you bother to remember what i like.

went dinner at sunset way..re's family and ours.
during dinner..we exposed how much my mummy loves the korean actor in stairway to heaven.
haha.
its funny how my family is getting more and more addicted to korean shows.
=)
russ drey and i ended up taking silly photos.

we went to IMM in want of eating secret recipe..
but they were out of cakes..so we ended up at kopitiam..
russ re and i went to buy andersen ice cream..so we sat outside..outcasted.
and to my horror..russ licked re's phone when ice cream fell on the buttons.(note : re wasnt there)
when we were seated...we were talking abt smth..then i went..
me : at least i dont go around licking handphones! - looks in russ' direction.
-russ bursts out laughing-
re : eeeewww..did the phone corrode!?!
me : hahaha..i dont know..is your phone corroding??
re: WHAT?!?!?! RUSS LICKED MY PHONE!!!which part?!?!which part?!?!
russ and i were practically in tears laughing at her..
anyway..i love my cousins.
did i tell you that??haha.
i really do.
its a nice feeling having one arm linked to one..and your other shoulder being used as an arm rest by the other..and everyone is laughing and just being silly.
i really love my cousins.
no one else can take so much of my nonsense really.
haha.

oh yes.and today.
i get blamed for pple's psychotism!
seriously.
WHY ME?!?!
kel : oh yar.that day..rebecca and i agree that kristie (kel's youngest sister..6 yrs old.) is psychotic thanks to you! she was singing and making random noises in the car the other day! rebecca and i were like..andrea..all andrea's fault..

see la!see la!!
i get blamed for things i never did!
i am closer to krystal..the older one..and nooooo..she isnt like me at all..she is so..serious..hahaha..but the youngest is like me..
what logic is this!


anyway...on a serious note...
I AM BALDING!!!
seriously.
i am dropping hair like no body's business.
eventhough i do have alot to spare.
but still!!
argh.
i am going to be bald.
-horror-

happy 19th birthday am-lah lah lah.
its been a joy having you in my life.
jolting me back to reality with yr words of wisdom..
but bringing me along yr fantasy rides as well..
im so blessed to have you.
let's elope together...to a place far away..riding into the sunset..running along the shores..
to a place of utopia..and where shir cant find us.


okie dokes.i am going to bed.long entry.=)
nitez my beautiful beautiful people.


i'll tell you my secrets.
i cant seem to find an escape.
i want to break the silence.
but above all ; im glad you're here.