i guess apologising and explaining/justifying oneself back to back, 

never does quite work as planned.

shot myself in the foot

thanks. just thanks.

i so needed to end my day with a bitter taste in my mouth.

what? you couldn't tell the hesitation in my tone each time you brought it up.

perhaps we don't know each other as much as we thought we do.

irony.

i was just talking about this kind of hurt.

put me in a world where i am exposed to new music everyday.

put me in a world with limitless revolutionary knowledge.

put me back on track.

When we were in the darkest night
And wondered if our eyes would ever see the light
You were there, Lord
When we were in the stormy gale
And wondered if we'd ever live in peace again
You were there, Lord
You were there in the struggle
You were there in the fight
You were there all the time

We praise You - the God of our yesterdays
We praise You - the God who is here today
We praise You - our God as tomorrow comes

So whatever lies ahead
Whatever roads our grateful hearts will come to tread
You'll be there, Lord
We will fix our eyes on You
And know that there is grace enough to see us through
You'll be there, Lord
You'll be there in the struggle
You'll be there in the fight
You'll be there all the time

We praise You - the God of our yesterdays
We praise You - the God who is here today
We praise You - our God as tomorrow comes
We thank you - for grace in our yesterdays
We thank you - for peace in our hearts today
We thank you - our joy, as tomorrow comes
We will trust you, God

You're always closer than we know
Always more involved and in control
We will trust our lives to You -
The One who was and is and is to come

- "God of our yesterdays" by Matt Redman

i've been really ministered to by this song.

its really assuring to know that in the past, whenever I was hurt, cried and was struggling with issues. He was always there and He knew. 

Even in the future, He knows what I will go through, and He will give me grace to see me through. He truly never changes.

always more involved and in control

thank You.

I want to be like Apostle Paul when he said in Philippians 3:13&14

"Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."

to lay aside every burden that will hinder me from running this race.

You are my all in all