" don't think that because Singapore is such a small country, we would not be affected by the changes in the weather...One area in which singapore might get hit, is in the area of food."

.WOAH.
my pastor was mentioning that yesterday during service.
and it just hit me.
i never gave the end times much thought, blissfully ignorant, thinking that God might not be coming in our generation.
but looking at the rate things are changing, the degeneration of the moral standard, the crazy weather.
it is quite conceivable.
and i never gave it much thought until yesterday.
i never imagined that one day, i might be too poor to afford food when the prices inflate, and i will be really persecuted for my faith.
its a scary thought, to get persecuted. it really is.
you can't have any contact electronically with anyone, lest they track you.you can't purchase things without leaving evidence.

but you know what?

i want to be ready.
this isnt going to control me and place fear in me.
i want to stand up and be counted for.
God is positioning His church. He IS in control.

there are more important things in life.

"Lord, let my heart, attitude, mind and will, be Yours alone."

as the sunday school song so aptly go:
"i may never march in the infantry, ride over calvary, shoot the artillery.
i may never zoom over land and sea, but i'm in the LORD's army!
YES SIR!"

.people need the Lord.

someone
someone who would bring me to see the stars.
someone who would convince me everything would be alright,
even when i'm drowning in tears.
someone who could make my heart skip a beat.
someone who would take away all my peas!
someone who would point me in the right direction,
when i lose my heart's location.
someone who could seranade,
someone who would bring me to concerts at the esplanade!
someone who shares my greatest Love,
someone who in everything places Him above.

haha. since i have been recently "hired" to write rhymes, i just decided to write one.
and no..i'm not in love or anything. neither am i actively searching.
i know in His time, if anything happens, it happens.
but hey..a girl can dream right.
i think maths is driving me crazy.

In His time

In His time, in His time,
He makes all things beautiful, in His time,
Lord, please show me everyday,
As You're teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say, in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful, in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.

teach me, Lord, to wait on You.

my hope is in You alone.

in Your perfect timing, let Your will be done in my life.

--warning: this isnt my birthday blog entry --

yes yes. i know i'm supposed to blog about my birthday.
but..i havent gotten the mood to blog all about it yet. so sorry.
hmm
but there is one thing i would like to tell you!
that God is good.

i woke up at 8am this morning to go have breakfast with yeye, caroline and veesan.
did my laundry after breakfast..
and went back to bed for about 1.5hours.
but i couldnt go to sleep. it was those moments when you're very exhausted, but you cant fall 100% asleep.
formulas for my MS2004 module was flying around..and my brain was trying to recall the two phenomena strain curves that can be explained using solute atoms hardening. ROAR.
save me.
so i woke up feeling even more drained.
i kept cramping today. it came.
was feeling moody and all. brain malfunctioned at sometimes too.
then had presentation for GV17. and then had to rush to tanjong pagar for my believermusic vocal class.

my transitions were all very smooth.
i managed to jog and catch the bus. the train came when i just arrived at the platform.
was studying for MS8005 on the train..on a semi-filled stomach.
was having a splitting headache when i got to BM.
couldnt sing properly. the song was in my bad key and my head wasnt letting up.
in dire need to get back to hall to rest.
and all my transitions went well again!
the most amazing is..after getting my dinner at jp..going to cross over to the busstop.
i prayed "Lord, please let 199 come soon.i really wanna go back faster."
and when i turned to look, 199 just turned the corner and was approaching the busstop.
"wow. You really know me really well. even on my moodiest of days, You never fail to find a way to show how much You love me, and make me happy."

the warm feeling i got..was the same as when my daddy suddenly offered to help order my food for me when he knew i was tired.
it totally warms my heart when someone does something for me without me asking, when they know how i'm feeling. it just shows how well the person knows you, ya know?

and God does it all the time..ALL THE TIME. even at times when i am not sensitive to Him, i know He's doing something wonderful.
totally brings a smile on my face. to know how much i'm loved.

"How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!" -Psalm 139:17
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD,
thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." - Jeremiah 29:11