What have you written on memory's page?

Deeds that were done in the Master's name?

Words that were spoken to spread His fame?

What have you written today? —Anon.

Will your memorial be a blessing or a blot?

--taken from the daily bread.

why do i seem to be running away from You?

derailed vein.

cracking ankle.

walking/RUNNING around in heels the whole day.
isnt fun.
for real.
esp running from taka to scotts.ergh.and trying my darnest to miss water puddles.
my knees and back are aching.
RAAHH.
plus...PLUS...i had to..HAD TO..trip on my way home just now.
just under my block.
added impact on my left knee and right ankle.
and my sister stood SHOCKED for like..almost a whole min as i ooohhh-ed and ahhh-ed in PAIN.
wonderful.FANTASTIC!


ok.that's the only sucky part of my day.
the rest was whee-whee-fun!
today's my church's 28th anniversary..and we prayed and install my pastor into his new ministry as an apostle. so it was tremendous fun.
God truly has been faithful to our church.
pastor Tom Ware, his wife Julie and his 22 year old son Scott came down from the US to join in our celebrations.
the young girls ar...terrible terrible.
i kept telling them "terrible terrible.Beo-ing.beo-ing!"
argh.hahaha.they are so funny la.they kept going "ahhh! he's SOO hot!" or GIGGLING from a far.
hahaha.


met my j2 classmates for lunch at marina square.
my singlehood and 3 of my friends' singlehood was amplified.
hahaha. [not that it really matters]
but..haha.they attached 5..were sitting at one side.and coincidentally the lonely hearts 4 were on the other side.
pictures of "other halves" were circulating around the table.haha.
i really miss my j2 classmates.hern khoon is just..so drama.and so hilariously entertaining.
my honey benji is as blur as ever..and no one was paying attention to him much.haha.
huimin has soo many scandals.yusheng has lost alot of weight.no one changed.and everyone was just having fun.


played arcade and pool for a while.
a. my reaction is laggy when i play the 3 buttons smack smack game.
b. my pool is very rusty.not as if i was very good to begin with.


met kel drey and scott later on.
the two babies krystal[10] and krystie[7] came along too.
while waiting for drey and scott.and as kel was changing her attire.
i brought the two girls to look at shoes.
I FELT SO MOTHERLY LA!
cos i was holding on to their hands and just walking.
and i told krystal "do you think pple will think i'm your mother??!!!"
then she immediately let go of my hand and said "ok.then i dont walk near you la! then no one will think that way."
hahaha.
but i love holding on to their hands and just walking.and twirling krystie around and singing veggie tales songs with them.


we went to the airport to eat POPEYE'S CHICKEN!!
i travelled from T1 to T2's mac's....................just to get the hotcakes syrup.
haha.cos popeye's dont give maple syrup to go with their biscuits anymore!haha.
it was worth all 20 mins of travelling.
haha.


good day today i say.

MATERIALS ENGINE HERE I COME!!!

yay.
thank You!thank You!!
im so so happy.

lets remember this moment.
in view of the stress that i'll feel during my coming exams.
in times when i tell myself i regret changing course.
lets remember this feeling of gratefulness and overjoy.

i am happy.happy.happy.
i prayed that if its God's will for me to be in mat engine.
the door will be opened.and it has.

REMEMBER THIS MOMENT, ANDREA.remember.

WWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

so many good news have come through my NTU mail this week.haha.
approval of the usage for NIE grounds.and now THIS!

nobody thrills me like You do.

my life is in Sovereign Hands.

everybody needs laughter therapy!!
all you need is a pinch of shirlene..and a dab of amelia..its best to add some ayeeba in as well.
and *POOF!* instant laughter therapy.

yesterday was madcapped.
it wld have been better if our dearest deity aka ayeeba was there.
haha.it was fantastic nonetheless.

i cant wait for our chalet babes!! 3 whole days of being with you three!

shir ame and i went shopping yesterday.
it started raining.and of all shopping malls...we got stuck at CINE.
the place where there isnt that much to walk around to see.sighh.
so we went to play arcade!! wwhhheee...
i came in third for daytona.rahh..
then we played the table air hockey thingie.2 vs 1 .
it was so tiring.
not because of the action.but because of the laughing.

we went back to laopo's hse to cook jap curry.
hahaha. i learnt SO MUCH.
***1. my ame washes her food with SOAP.hahaha.
2. my wife loves switching the toliet lights off and say "let me hear you say AAHHHH.."
3. i still cant burp my ABCs.[sharks.]

after a very full dinner..ame and i got quite high in shir's room.
we were lying in bed singing veggie tales songs quite loudly.haha.
much to ABU's distress.cos abu has a GP exam today.and we were soo noisy.haha.

going to laopo's house..is always so full-FILLING.
aunt jesslyn feeds us non-stop.
and we even have food to bring home..my my.hahhaa.

i really love my 3 darlings.its tough finding pple whereby you can feel so comfortable with.talk about everything under the sun.from serious to the retarded.

laughter.get your daily dosage TODAY.

and the ripple effect continues...
thanks to my amlah lah lah..RAH.

I have to:

1.come up with 8 points of my perfect lover

2.have to mention the gender

3.tag another 8 people to do it. do leave a comment to let them know.

4.tagged 2nd time,you dont have to repeat it

5.have FUN!

1. phwoar.very tough.erm..okk..my perfect lover should :

- love God.

-be highly entertaining.

-be able to tahan my randomness.

-be musically inclined.

-think that the cup is always half full and not half empty.

-get along well with my family and friends.

-be decisive.

-sayang me.but not too much.haha.

2. erm.....hmmm...toughie...i think....i'll rather a male la.hahah. [sorry laopo.]

3.i wanna tag...jonlame.enting.dor.kerosene.izzy.mengchoo.becky..zixiang.

=) yay.so glad thats done.

watched both DVC and M:I:3 yesterday.

both were quite nice.not WOW.but entertaining enough.

my seat for DVC was fantastic..but for MI3..i was in the 2nd row.

its madness..when i went to buy my tickets for the 7pm show at 3pm.

it was already selling fast.

ARGH.

watched dick lee's musical "man of letters" on sunday with aunt helen, aunt daisy and aunt irene.

it was fantastic. its so sad to have the one you love fall for your good fren..and you having to write the love letters for your good fren.

its so..heartwrenching.

my 2 birdies are very sing-song-ish today.

so beautiful.

i never knew our bird which is at our front balcony can sing so well.

the one at the back balcony is sweeter tho.it waves at me every morning.and sings to me.

perfect sounds to match a rather wet day.

tap tap tapping tonight.

alone tho.

hope we dont do turns.

yippee.

there are moments when you feel as if you're in a dark black room.
where you cant see any one.
and no one sees you.

failed expectations are like the twisting effect of a knife in your heart.
its so hard to not have expectations.

i like routine.

assurance.efficient.predictability.

i am becoming a forgotten dream.

and slowly you are becoming one too.

its amazing when you just let go and let God.

worship last night was awesome.
God really answers prayers and His presence ministered to so many pple last night.

i was quite nervous for worship.
cos i was trying a new style of worship.
a new style in ref to my personal experience.

i did Our God is an awesome God. i wanted it to climax like how it was done in hillsong's newest cd..when they just did drum solo.and it was like..declaration cum going to battle type.
and also to do climax and change over to the chorus "be to our God, forever and ever".
but during practice..we didnt manage to reach that high cos the drumming was a lil off and i was getting a lil worried.
cos if we didnt peak it would go very wrong.
and i was also a lil afraid the worship would get a lil too noisy for the adults.

but God is so amazing.and He really never fails.
everything went perfectly well..
and people were worshipping and praising Him.
almost brought me to tears.

today, couple of the adults came and told me that they were really ministered to during worship.

my aunt actually didnt want to come last night..but she did and she really enjoyed herself in His presence.and one of the songs "humble yourself in the sight of the Lord" was in line with the verse that she did devotions with in the morning.

and aunt alicia told me that one of the verses that i read [psalm 68:19] was exactly what she wrote in her journal to God..of Him loading her with benefits.and she was really ministered to.

and i was BLOWN AWAY! when i heard it.
it was like at the bottom of my heart..from my inner being..i was smiling.
unbelievable happiness.
not only did God do one hit.HE DID TWO!
or even more.

God is unstoppable and Almighty.

its amazing what He can do.
i've learnt not to underestimate Him.
seriously.
its hard.but..i must constantly remind myself to stop binding His hands with my own carnality.
its never our strength that ministers..but only by His spirit.

im overjoyed that He has continually been answering my prayer for this year.im growing in Him.to trust and obey.to be yielded.its painful.but its no longer i that liveth.

continue to teach me Lord.dont give up on me.

aight..since i've been BOMBARDED by jon ah lame.
i shall be as obedient as him and do this thingamijig.
this is the revised version.with two qns corrected.

Instructions:Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions before you write, and tag 5 people to do the survey.

okk..here we go!

1.shirlene laopo
2.amelia mistress
3.ayeeba boon.
4.rebecca
5.audrey
6.caroline
7.russell
8.enting
9.zixiang
10.teckyen
11.yusheng
12.jem
13.liz
14.eliza
15.janetta
16.gabe
17.fenyi.
18.samuel
19.dor
20.lembu

Questions:
1. How did you meet number 14?
she's my darling DGL! in crusade.
2.What would you do if you had never met Number 1?
i'll be a happy lark! hahaha..kiddin.i would be very lost without her..and have a load of pentup emotions.haha.and i would be a very boring person.
*3.What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
if lembu and zixiang were dating.that would be seriously traumatic for both laopo and i.haha.
4. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
ermm....that would be a lesbo combo.haha.but im sure they would get along fine.haha.
5.describe no.3.
she's a deity.very wise.seriously hilarious.my shelter of sanity.
6.Do you think No.8 is attractive?
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS i say!
7.Tell me something about No.7.
erm.he is a gaming addict.handsome.and seriously hilarious at times.
8.Do you know anything about no.12's family?
erm..he has a 19 year old bro.and they both love shopping.
9.What is no.8's favorite?
erm..she likes purple.[i think.haha.] she loves figs.she used to love guava.erm..she loves running.and yar..like jon's answer..God.
10.What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
erm.ok.this is like de ju vu.haha.would just laugh it off.hahaha.his gf wld kill me la.[sorry darling.]
11. What language does 15 speak?
haha.english.please dont allow her to attempt chinese.haha.
12.Who is 9 going out with?
his many wives.all gorgeously shaped.beautifully handcrafted for the maximum musical pleasure.
13.How old is 16 now?
VERY OLD!! thats why he's an ahgong.haha.23.
14.When was the last time u talked to 13?
erm..on msn.last saturday.
15 .Who's 2's favorite singer?
ME!! haha.right ame.right??haha..my ame likes christian songs.but im not sure who is her fav singer. perhaps its her ownself.she's a song bird.
16.Would you date number 4?
if i were a guy..YES! DEFINITELY.but..i think its immoral to date yr own cousin who is of the same gender.
17.Would you date 7?
though different gender.but im not in on cousin-dating.
18.is 15 single? yupp.
19.What's 10's last name? TEO!
*20.Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 19?
YES!! totally! both brains and brawn.WHY NOT!hahaha.
[i bet dor is highly disturbed now.haha.]
21.What school does 3 go to?
nanyang poly! my future radiologist!
22.Where does 6 live?
near my fav prata place in pasir panjang!
23.What's your favorite thing about number 5?
her money! hahaha.NO LA.its because she loves me alot.and tahans my nonsense as much as i tahan hers. and she's my parang-bearing-dont-touch-me-i'll-bite-kick-a** rockin sister.i love my sis.haha.

yay! its done!

now..
much to ranting and raving from no. 1.haha..
SHIR AME BECKY DWONG and LIZ are officially TAGGED!

wwhhheee.....

-huge grin.-

i love shopping.
especially with my mum.
just look..feel..try..fall in love..and pay.
fantastic system i say!

thank goodness retail therapy sessions like these only take place once a year.

luurrvvee it.

now to scrimp and save.haha.

pruning is a painful process.branches that are not bearing fruit are broken and thrown away.but its for the better of the plant.
so hey..im not complaining.

had missions training camp from thursday to saturday.
it went really well..the one lesson that struck me was "how to find common ground".about how Paul when speaking to the men in Athens, he had studied their culture and was able to find a launching point for the gospel within their circle of knowledge[current issues], and quotes from their poets, as he tells them about our Personal God and commended them for their religiousness.
it never really occured to me to find out more about my target group before speaking to them about the gospel, to make the gospel relevant to their lives/lifestyles. not one size fits all.

on the first night we played underground church.it was my first time playing.and i got caught for hand-signing to weiyee "what time did you come?".argh.
i had to do quite a no. of pushups.and being the unfit and weak-armed person that i am.
i am still aching.

had alot of team bonding time.which was fantastic.we learnt apologetics as well.cos of rajar and hema in our team who are non-christians.
one of our activities was to tell of the first impression that every member in the team gave.
for mine..alot of them said that i was and AM noisy and playful.one even mentioned violent.haha.
cos they witnessed mengchoo and i during our many "poke wars".hahaha.

there was an article that we had to read for our personal reflection time..its about being too busy.its important to find rest in Him.and even being too busy serving Him can be a danger as well.wow.i must keep that in mind.

during camp..though we went through equipping for our mission fields. i had separate issues that God is dealing with me personally.im still learning.its tough.but pruning is for the better remember.haha.

going shopping with my family today.pray i can find nice stuff.i need retail therapy.wahaha.

and still, You hear me when im calling.
Lord, You catch me when im falling.

i wish i could express myself fully in words.
writings that evoke my emotions.
to have feelings poured out with every word.
to bring people on a journey.

but i guess i'm not made transparent in that way.

i am finally free.
free!
what a blessed word.

so many things have happened ever since my last paper.
my caroline had her 20th birthday on friday!
yay.
so glad you enjoyed yrself darling! thats the most impt. =)

thanks to jon for making the beautiful card and planning her bday and her present with me.
=)
and to all those who came for the lunch...made my caroline so happy.
i was quite pleasantly surprised too.haha.
had a great time. =)

went to settler's after cafe cartel..and played games for a while before heading off for mission trip briefing.
we shld go play more often.

oh oh!!!
testimony.
i had to raise $1700 for my mission trip to philippines.
and i was quite nervous about raising that amount.cos im quite shy when it comes to this kinda things.
but i entrusted it all to God.
so on saturday.. when i was asking my pastor for permission to raise support from my church.
my pastor told me that maybe the church could underwrite it for me. [ie. support the full amount for me.]
so pastor told me that he'll give me an answer on sunday.

but on saturday night..my dad was a lil apprehensive about having the church underwriting it for me because of some reasons.
i prayed that God would just open a way..if its a yes to have the church underwrite it..then let it be a yes..if its a no.im sure He would still provide for me.

on sunday..my pastor called me to his office.and i cleared some of my questions..cos i was afraid that what if next time i wanted to go for another mission..then where is the church standard in that..but he quickly told me that its not anyone can happily be support from the church..
he was underwriting it for me..because as i was speaking to him about my mission..God prompted him to underwrite it for me.so if God said yes..then thats that.if God did not say anything then i would not be supported.

YAY!!!!! my DADDY GOD really loves me TREMENDOUSLY!!!

im so happy. its a whole load off my chest.
really.cos i've got quite alot of commitments.and this..fantastic provision has really helped me alot.

i was presented the cheque infront of the church yesterday.and pastor also explained that it was God prompted not that its favouritism or anything.and stuff...

WOOHOOO!!

really.REALLY blessed.

need to do presentation to the church on the 4th of june.to tell them what im going to do when im there.

do pray for me and my team.we're leaving on the 19th of june.for two weeks.to phillippines.
gonna build houses for the pple who are moving out of the slums.we'll be working alongside the homeowners of that house we're building.

fantastic fantastic.

we truly serve a Sovereign Almighty and Loving heavenly Father.
our Jehovah Jireh.

i'll sing, sing, i love You so.

i'll sing, because the world can't take away Your love.

i am so thankful for being called.
i am so grateful for the opportunity to know You and call You Father.
its amazing how easy it is to forget the goodness of God and how easy it is to underestimate the great amount of power and wisdom that we can tap on to.

as doreen's msn nick says "the happiest of endings belong to us."
how true it is.

You always blow me away.

Jesus, my Jesus, without Him how lost i would be.

led worship on saturday.
sang an OLD OLD song.
the transparency has turned yellow and tad bit mouldy.haha.
that old.
learnt it on saturday itself..cos the lyrics were so beautiful.
i had to sing it.
thankfully the adults all knew the tune..so eventhough my rhythm went off.
they werent wavered.
haha.

during sunday school..
uncle kim hua : how did you know about that old song last night?? we used to sing it even before you were born! i never expected you to sing such old songs.

haha.

old songs have very nice lyrics.

i need to finish revising my chem by tonight.
and i need to get up early tml morning to get to church.
family day tml.yay.

but im getting sleepy.

HE BOUGHT IT ! HE BOUGHT IT! DADDY FINALLY BOUGHT IT!!
yay..

durian.

the love of my life.

i would marry one if i could.

but..hmm..i cant hug it very much.

i did the grand opening of the three precious gems this time round.

my palms hurt a lil..ticklish a lil.

but..-swoon-..its all worth it.

i love love LOVE durian.

i cant wait for the whole full bloomed durian season to come!

come soon love! come soon!

and this time round at least there wasnt the case of "the runaway dog with a durian husk" or "leo's mouth got attacked by durian spikes".

i adore durian, can you tell?

mm-mmm.

a medley of songs of which i dont know their tunes.

walk softly, talk softly and listen to the Lord

He's speaking in whispers to those who love His word

He's knocking so gently, your heart's door open wide

walk softly, talk softly, the Lord is by your side.

Without Him I can do nothing

without Him I'll surely fail

without Him I would be drifting

like a ship without a sail.

Jesus, my Jesus

Do you know Him today

O please don't turn Him away

Jesus, my Jesus, without Him how lost I would be.

So I'll ask Him to be my pilot

His Word my compass and guide

Till i anchor over in glory

Without Him I'll drift with the tide.

With Him I can do everything

With Him I'd never fail

With Him I would not be drifting

I'd be safe, safe in His arms.

Teach me, Lord, to wait down on my knees

Till in Your good time You answer my plea

Teach me not to rely on what others do

But to wait in prayer for an answer from You.

They that wait upon the Lord

Shall renew their strength

They shall mount up with wings as eagles

They shall run and not be weary

They shall walk and not faint

Teach me, Lord

Teach me Lord to wait

Teach me, Lord, to wait while hearts are aflame

Let me humble my pride and call on Your name

Keep my faith renewed, my eyes on Thee

Let me be on the earth what You want me to be.

Why should I care when the Lord is on my side

Why should I care, in His love I safely hide

He is to me my Fortress and my Rock

Tell me, why should i care!

Let the love of my God shine through me

Let the beauty of Jesus men see

Let the pattern of the Son

Be the one, the only one

That men will see in me.

You are the Words and the Music

You are the Song that I sing

You are the Melody, You are the Harmony

Praises to Your Name I will bring

You are the mighty God

You are the Lord of lords

You are the King of kings

Now i return to You the song that You gave to me

You are the Song that i sing.

nice lyrics.

wish i knew the tunes.

friday:
final score :
andrea 10 flying ants 0
i hate swams of insects.

saturday:
went back to MG for dance night.
it was..ok la. not alot of hype as last time.
but the new building!! is so fantastic la.
there are so many improvements mad.
really nice.
but a lil claustrophobic for me tho.owell.

sunday:
rushed mugging my computing.

today:
i am to blame totally for whatever grade i get for computing.
its total lack of studying.my commands were like..screwy.
haii.
but i managed to eat subway!
ohh! theres subway at JP now.yay.
and i watched "take the lead".

i wanna go back to one of my first loves.
dancing.
seriously.
but i dont lose myself in it so easily..but..
i wanna dance!!
during my hols..salsa jazz and tap.
-i hope-
i miss my tap.

wanna learn piano properly too.
arghh..
so many things i wanna do.
three months is simply not enough.

rah.

round 2 of IF-i-get-a-bad-grade-i-know-i-deserve-it

so unprepared.please just dont let me da-bao computing.

maths paper.

the harder i study..the more terrified i am.
took a ride from twin.
it has been awhile since i spent time with him. =)

went into the exam hall.
at least the first one i saw was my eyecandy.
handsomely decked in a red t-shirt and jeans.
why does he dress better during exams? weird.
i digress.

anyhoo..sat right in front today.
it feels weird.
when yr slogging over the paper..trying to make sense of it all.
attempting to pull formulas out of yr head that you pray are in there somewhere.
and these tutors..standing in front of you..looking as though they are looking at the paper.
goodness.
talk about added pressure.

my methods were mostly right..
but my working got too complicated to solve.
so yes..i had many half answers.
time was ticking away!

my brain just went numb after the paper.
all motivation to do more work simmered to a stop.
i went to nie for lunch with drew kerosene weiyee and porkchop.
it was a good stress-reliever.
read a few pages of optics.
then...jang jang jang! DILBERT'S FUTURE TO THE RESCUE!!
i spent more time reading that hilarious book than compared to physics.
which made me a worthy recepient of a message "pork,study lah! stop reading dilbert!" from gabe porkchop.
rahh.

went home at 5 plus.and camped in front of the tv.

traumatised.

Lord i pray for more patience..mine is wearing thin.
i need to love others like You do..
to see them through Your eyes and not my carnal eyes.
teach me.please.mold me.hear my desperate plea.