argh!why...why are the blogs against me??

anyway..been very busy..feel very bad cos..im not busy with the right things..ive been running ard playing..can you believe it?playing!!!and my A's are less than three weeks more..what the h*ll right?haiiz.

distanced myself from my darlings and my twin..and dark-winged duck..and alot of pple..cos ive been hanging with my class more..owellz..feel quite bad..sorry darlings..

ive been trying over and over again to psycho myself to start studying..seriously..i think my brain is screwed up..wad's wrong with me la...ive been pissing my parents off by running around..and not doing hse chores..and my priorities are all screwed..scolding myself doesnt work either..im screwed.seriously.

sigh........

anyway..on sunday..i saw gruff.at smu.lunch.i had a feeling i was going to see him.when i walked in with my darling girl krystal..i turned and i saw him.its so freaky.not the first time its happened.i walked over to him and said hi and all..and said that i had a feeling i was going to see him.and he said that he had that feeling too.its just so weird.

hafta go now..pack my room and try to study..yup.owellz.ta!

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maths was ok today.a few careless mistakes here and there and one tyco one.haha.but overall ok la.hoping for a good grade.have chem mcq tml.and after that..a 7-hour long "date" with mr goh for physics tuition.sigh.tc pple.jessie's coming home soon!!yippee.

today's chem paper was better den last.but still bad.owellz.

went for tuition.eliza tried making conversation with me.so thats good.i think she's really pretty.very captivating eyes.=) maybe i'll name my daughter eliza next time.*ponders*

after two hours of tuition.went to my old hse at bt batok.the unit opp.cos my aunt rents it out.and this silly twerp of a tenant.so stupid.he stays there with two other collegues.so they lock their doors to like not risks doubts and stuff la.so this silly guy.he locks his room.with his key and the duplicate inside the room!goodness.he has troubled my dad three times already just to open the door.goodness.but he's quite goodlooking la.but still.twerp.

i thought abt smth today.
if one day someone told you that you were related to everyone around you by blood.would you treat them all differently?
i would.its like in our family.eventhough your relatives have their character flaws you still love them right.so in way..since we are all one way or another related to each other.den we should treat each other nicely.ya.was just thinking.you know..one of those rare moments when i actually..think.

had chemistry yesterday.wasnt as bad as i expected.but still bad.calculated..i minused alot.alot.sigh.
maths today was ok la.made a few careless mistakes.was dumbfounded by the vectors question.sigh.

but..the past two days have been exciting.

yesterday..our car went out of the carpark.as it went over a hump we hear a lot bursting sound.we didnt bother thinking abt it.when we alighted audrey at kranji sec.my dad went out of the car and found out that our front left tyre burst.
so i had to take cab to school while he fixed it himself.owellz.thankfully after praying a cab came fast and i was not late for school.

today..190 had to re-route because a tree collapsed at the phoenix lrt station and the uncle wld not drive pass my school's bus stop.so i didnt board the bus at the interchange.
i walked to the other bus stop to wait for the other buses.hoping that their routes didnt change.but well.190 came.the uncle didnt say anything.so i boarded.only at the stop before he changed the route did he tell us to alight.nehnehfied.
so i had to walk in to school.the soles of my shoes have holes.so my feet got drenched.cos i had to walk thru puddles.when i got to school.i wringed my socks.and like alot of water came out.the sight kinda disgusted ayeeba shir and lembu.sorry.
so i went to the exam room with my socks in hand and feet half-in my shoes.took my shoes off during the exam.i felt so at home.thought better i think.i should do it more often.hahahaha.kiddin.hopefully my paper two for maths and chem will pull me up.must over come gravity.heh.

there's one thing i can do that God cant.
i can do self-improvement.
He cant.
cos He's already the best. =)

im dead!!D-E-A-D!!!argh.and what am i doing online??haiiz.im going to die..im stressed that im not as stressed as i would like to be for my prelims.seriously!!what's wrong with me??haiz.went to westmall swensens today for lunch.was super bloated after that.had to suck in until i reached my car.i hafta burn midnight oil tonight.hopefully i can stay up until two plus.i haven touch my food chem yet!!!i wish i was as self-disciplined as amelia.haiiz.k.gtg.alot of territory to cover.help........im drowning.

Lord life me up and let me stand.by grace on heaven's tableland.

i went for tuition.and i learnt organic chem.yay.feel much more confident.in a sense.thanks ms tan!hafta go mug someone later.my blog thing is a bit schizo.rah.irritating.anyway.prelims are nearing...that means..its going to end soon!!woohooz!!must think positive just whack and cross my fingers.heh.
im watching channel u's next big thing.the girl is gorgeous siah.*jealous*
anyway..to my dearest genius alvan cheong.im glad you've finally found yr mission in life.to become a monk and sweep the temple floor.at least you have an aim.=)
nth to write abt anymore.i need a new spark in my life.

oh yes.i forgot to say that im really thankful that i have my parents.i asked them individually today whether they feel like its a waste of money and time for me to explore my interests in dance and music.they both said no.cos it makes me happy and they dun wanna stop me from expressing myself in different aspects.so im happy.they're so supportive.yup.just wanna voice it out.=)

yay.i can finally blog again.yippee.i decided to go back to a more childish theme.haha.wanted this more gothic theme.but the tagboard was kinda screwy.kp..better?hope so.
anyway.my week was super eventful.very happy.

monday:
i went for tuition in the morning.i met zx after that at coronation centre cos he was going back to pj to collect his certs.so we went back to school to study with ayeeba amelia kenneth gordon laopo and lembu.didnt study much tho.was very distracted.heh.kenneth and gordon kept disturbing us abt kum-kum.so silly.

tuesday:
went for tuition again.very early in the morning.like at 8.cos the hwachong girls wanted to get used to using their brains early in the morning.sigh.i ended tuition at abt 10+ and met my three darlings at kap for brkfast.on my way there..this guy on the bus was like smiling at me la.so weird.and wad's worse is that he alighted at kap too.rah.anyway.after brkfast we went back to skool.to study.i only read thru chem a bit.sigh.den we went to my hse for me to get my swimming gear.and we headed back to ame's to swim.shir and ayeeba tried somersaulting in the water.ayeeba got it.but...my dear wifey didnt.haha.she's so cute la.if only i could video it down.haha.ame and i tried tumble-turning and den pushing off the wall.but after i tumble-turned.i lost my orientation.or i was too far from the wall.haha.i saw ame turn and go parallel to the wall once so she couldnt push off.it was hilarious la.haha.so cute.
missed eating ame's cooking.sigh.some other time ya girl.=)
wednesday:
after tuition in the morning i came back home.cos i finally came to my senses that i cant study in grps.haha.i did some housechores cos i felt quite bad.havent done them in a very long while.yup.didnt do much work at night either.sigh.

thursday:
i went for tuition at twelve.surprised to see chunzhen and shuyi at tuition.chunzhen was so shocked to see me.cos she never expected it.owellz.i was never close to her.but well.i discovered more mg girls at mr goh's!yay!.i left at like 5 +.madness ok!!5 hours of maths.i wanted to cry.and i realized that its a small world.when i was at the mac's at serene centre.i saw jiahan!!and apparently..he attends the chem tuition in the class right next to mine.such a small world.i couldnt believe it.marcus came for tuition.i dun noe why.but i feel intimidated by him.owellz.
after tuition i met my three darlings at shir's.we went swimming again.it was fun.shir's pool is way bigger den ame's.after a while we went to the steam bath.it was so super steamy we couldnt see each other.so we changed over to the sauna.so much better.haha.but i didnt perspire much.daddy fetched me home again.so i couldnt stay long.haiiz.sometimes i wished i could stay longer.always seem to miss out on fun moments.owellz.sigh.

friday:
stayed home.only studied four chapters of chem.watched the finale of my big fat obnoxious fiance.the poor girl,randi, she kenna con.and she kept crying.poor thing.but at least she became filthy rich after that.haha.my mummy asked if i wld ever do that.risk my family going into turmoil just for one million dollars.i said..yes! haha.she wldnt trust my sister and i when we bring a guy home next time.haha.heh.

today:
i feel like lazing ard.duh.but i hafta finish chem today.have tuition with ms tan later.haiiz.its like so sian.pushing myself to study.i know its an easy task.but its the process of getting myself to sit down and study that is tough.

long entry.sorry.many days spent with a screwy blog.going to go..erm.stone now.ttfn.

my blog is screwy!!argh..so freaking irritating.haiiz.anyway.hi kenneth.glad you visit.i never thought you would.haha.thanks.

last week's practical was abit of a roller coaster.for physics.i didnt realise that my string was cut and therefore i was unable to meet the range for the dist.and for my circuit..i left out one reading.so hopefully they werent penalise me too much.for chem.i got most of my practicals kinda right.i got my qa right.thankfully.but i wasnt able to complete my design pract.owellz.gp ws ok.took quite some time to fully comprehend the comprehension.too many flowery words.owellz.

anyway..the last week has been a failed attempt trying to get a tan.i went to amelia's with shir and ayeeba on tuesday to go for a swim..it was fun.i love hanging out with them.yup.shir attempted to a somersault in the water.she would turn..and den when she was almost able to make a full round..her butt would go down sideways into the water.it was hilarious.the funniest thing i have every saw.she's so cute.my goodness.hahaha.love you girl.=)

on friday..i went to sentosa with my class.well.kinda.only 8 of us made it.so does it count??haha.
i thought we wld be able to get into sentosa by 1+. but much to my dismay.we were only at harbourfront at 2+ cos benji and shihan went to gavin's to wait for gavin to get his things.but they kinda got distracted by his x-box.so they took much longer den expected.only weiquan cindy yusheng and i were the early ones.owellz.so we made out way down.reaching the arrival centre at the sentosa.i saw this girl who looked really familiar.cos she was in dance with me in primary sch.her fren was in acjc uniform.anyway.so we boarded the beach line..i saw more pple come up to meet them.they alighted at palawan beach.i saw the guy's shirt which said "acjc dance".and i looked out and saw wenyee playing at the playgrd.so..i gathered it was a dance outing.which meant..that daphne was there..for a moment i was affected.but after thinking it thru..it was quite stupid cos im over him already.it didnt matter anyway.so..my adventure continued.

we reached sunset bay and we decided to go kayaking.the guys started overturning each other.they couldnt overturn cindy's and mine cos i had the curse.yup.den..oh mama..i saw this..erm..well-endowned girl wearing a blue bikini!and i told benji that she was quite hot..he almost died.oppz.=) later on..the guys were playing..they somehow managed to remove benji's shorts and he was left in the big blue ocean in his underwear (blue one mind you.) heh.poor boy.he had to stay there till they got enough sand onto his shorts and took sufficient photos.haha.it was funny.evil.but funny.=)

we later played vball.very happy.i think my game is improving.i think.haha.while we were playing..suddenly the whole bunch of pple in charge of that portion of the beach started chasing this snatch-theif.its so amazing la.i never knew such daring pple still existed in spore.i dun noe whether they caught him tho.i think they did.it was exciting witnessing it all.heh.
i left early..at ard 5+.cos mj was supposed to fetch drey and i from harbourfront at 545.but guess wad..he only came at 7+.haiiz.i cld have stayed longer.owellz.

when i got to downtown east..for mj's gf's(joanne) 21st bday party.drey and i were seriously tired.and the party was quite boring for me cos i didnt know anyone except aaron and drey(duh) and mj was busy doing stuff.cant blame him.but ya..left early..was really tired..but eventful.

mugging is starting tml..i have tuition with mr goh from monday to friday this week.im quite scared for my prelims.i really hope i can pass well.pass chem.for once.haiiz.pray for strength ya.
tc pple.love you.

sleepy_head
squashyellow

rah rah rah.hello!!happy 18th birthday to LION!!hope u're enjoying yrself in msia.eventhough you didnt even msg me or teck that u have left..but nvm..we're nice pple..you POK!haha.kiddin.anyway..tml is benji's bday.think i'll just buy him a bottle of alcohol.=) my darling wife's bday is on thursday.happy bday in advance girl.love you.muacks.

benji is driving me nuts..he keeps calling me darling and all..but its just playing la.and i know it.but its disgusting.hahahaha.entertaining.but disgusting.we bullied huimin today.i was an accomplice.they stole a voice recording of her singing from her phone.i was the one who blue-toothed it to quan-ge and he sent it to dehua.she was like so shocked.and pissed.cos they kept suaning her the whole day.quite juvenile rite?but well..we're all stressed pple.haha.less den 80 days to our A's..erm..yippee..haiiz.
i gtg le..they should play nicer songs on the radio.ya.that's all.ttfn.study.

nothing much has been happening.just study.tuition.slack.wait..majority is slack.hahaha.owellz.alot of work has been piling up.anyway.just leave you with a quote..

watch your thoughts, for they will become your words.
choose your words, for they will become your actions.
understand your actions, for they become your habits.
study your habits, for they will become your character.
develop your character, for it will become your destiny.

She Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow I want more


I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be lovedAnd she will be loved
And she will be loved[in the background]

ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*SCREAMS!!!!!*
i never believed in it.but today..during chem pract..things didnt go too well..den shuyin told me..ya..today's friday the 13th wad..and i was like..ya!..but still dun believe in it..i wasnt concentrating during pract today..titrations dont usually take that long and i was inaccurate..i didnt do my calculations in time as well..quite crap la.
after school i went to the indoor stadium with my parents for audrey's nie graduation ceremony.it was quite boring.800+ pple.goodness.i counted the no. of audreys present and the no. of andreas.there were 5 audreys and 1 andrea.so therefore..im not meant to be a teacher.so ta-dah! i've got stats to prove it!sampling theory.x bar.hahahaha.im going crazy!
i have to start studying..andrea..start studying please..haiiz..rah.
anyway..i love the bananaman.he's hilarious la.i keep irritating benji and amelia with the song.hahaha.EVERYBODY!LISTEN UP!PLEASE VISIT www.filmbuffs.net/bananana/ it totally rocks!!must ok????=)yay.anyway.i got nothing much to write abt.im tired.i have physics mcq test in the morning tml and den im going for a girl's lunch out with trashie amelia ayeeba mich shir they all.yay.cant wait.nitez.tc.

Oh Lord let us be a generation that seeks.seeks Your face oh God of Jacob.

something is seriously wrong with me.its like..i have so much work to do..and i dont do them.its so retarded.im retarded.argh.i had my maths mock exam today.and i made so many careless mistakes.so angry with myself.eventhough i passed marginally.but like..still..so lao pok.haiiz.rah.i need a wake up call.i tried asking stella to pass her stress to me.cos she's majorly stressed.she studied her history(russian revolution) and her stats.she dreamt of like..counting the no. of poor russian pple and calculating stats on them.haha.she cldnt sleep properly.poor girl.she's that stressed.i need it.rah.
haha.just recently..amelia ayeeba shir and i have gotten to know lyon better.and he ar..so interested in gossip.though he isnt the first guy-gossiper i know.but still..my perspective of guys have changed.haha.its madness.
anyway.im freaking falling ill.which is good and bad.good cos its give me a valid reason to tell myself that i can take time off.bad is..just bad.ya.haha.
i think im going to like..go sleep now and try my darnest to wake up tml to do work.help.take care pple.dun fall ill.like me.ttfn.nitez.

oh ya.singapore idol is hilarious sia.the lemon tree guy esp.i never expected sporeans to be so confident.haha.i cant wait for more.haha.rocks.

yay..saturday is here.but..i have tuition at one later.rah.went to watch i,robot with chel shir and lembu.the show rocked.i love this kinda futuristic shows.like minority report.its cool to have those kinda slim sleek audi cars.so cool..i like.. =)
just bought the "wow worship" cd..i like the song "here i am to worship".the lyrics are in the other entry.hmmz.the cd is nice.nice worship songs.yup.
tml my youth group is going bowling.but like.i dun now if i wanna go.cos i need to do work.haiiz.i feel like crying.only a few weeks more to my prelims and like..im so unprepared.bah.i wanna play.but i cant.i need a tan.but i cant.this sucks.rah.nothing to say le.i feel sleepy.ttfn.tc.

to ame : love you girl.dun think so much ya.it will pass.study hard.

::here i am to worship::

Light of the world,You stepped down into darkness.
Opened my eyes, let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with you

And here I am to worship,
here I am to bow down,
here I am to say that you're my God

You're altogether lovely,
altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me.

King of all days, oh, so highly exalted.
Glorious in heaven above.
Humbly you came to the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor.
And here I am to worship

Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely.
altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me.

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
No, I'll never know how much it cost

im tired.im tired of studying.im tired of running around.im tired.haiiz.but...a big but..i just hafta sacrifice these three mths to get to where i wanna go..den i can relax..haiiz.

i did a presentation on christianty yesterday for gp.i didnt wanna come across as preaching.so i just presented la.but it wasnt as powerful and convincing as i wanted it to be.i gave evidences of the bible's authenticity.but still..the choice is still for the others whether they wanna accept.anyway.i hafta go now.got alot of work to do.crap.haiiz.ttfn.take care pple..dun check back here until like the weekend or smth.im gonna be busy.haiiz.rah.

here i am!!back again..sorry..have been busy busy busy the whole week..tuition..work to do..just basically quite exhausted.have work to do.and the work load just keeps increasing.everyweek...we hafta complete a full paper..chemistry one...physics one..argh!!save me.ms tan[physics teacher] keeps screaming at us for not knowing our concepts well..its quite sad..cos i like her..but..she's really getting frustrated with us..haiiz.mr tan bp on the other hand..have been in a good mood the whole week..how..unnerving. haha.but its good.other than that..nothing much has been happening..i am becoming a no-life.[see shir..told you i can do it. =) ]just keep me in yr prayers..i need strength..and wisdom.

now..just for a few notes..

to lion : dun worry.things will work out for you.
to jien : congratulations on getting a handphone.finally! and im honoured to be the first person you msged.haha.
to my laopo : hi! miss me.
to mr d.wong : why never call me le?hmmz?busy?how have you been?
to twin : hello.erm..hello.merry christmas.and im sorry for losing the photos. edwin's picture was inside.i hurt too ya know.hahahahaha.kiddin.
to k.p : thanks for explaining smallville to me.and not calling me a geek.hahaha.

today was an okay day..as usual..nothing much happened..
but today's chem practical was more jovial than usual..but then again..the mood of the lesson always depended on piangpiang's mood..yup..we broke quite a number of things..
1) huimin broke a conical flask.she claimed that it broke when she put it down into the basin.she made it sound like it was self-destructive.haha.mr tan was suaning her.asked benji if he bought huimin's excuse.but benji disagree.terrible.he's bangseh-ing his future wife in such an early stage.
2) shuyin pushed the pipette filler too much onto the 10.0cm cube pipette[which is more fragile than the usual 25 cm cube one].and the top portion of the pipette broke off and got stuck inside the filler.it was hilarious.she was holding it up and i was scared that if the glass flew out of the filler..it wld be so "happy tree friends" like if the glass flew into the fan and flew all around.haha.
3) weiquan broke a beaker.

and i almost broke quite a number of things.but i managed to catch them in time.heng.
tml is gonna be a mugging day..i hafta complete jjc physics paper 1-3.and srjc paper 3.and chemistry tutorial.and maths.argh!!and i have so little days to study..and so much to cover..argh!!

just hide me from my reality.
 
i went past njc today on my way to tuition..and i saw the number of pple walking out of and in the school..and i thought to myself..goodness..this is the number of pple i am gonna compete against for my university entry..and there are more!!..more over..we're the meridien batch..
its a scary thought.i really wanna go to nus.but i dont have the capacity to become a super mugger.so i hafta start studying hard from now onwards..nothing must stand in my way...

now its just Jesus and me..
for each tomorrow..
for every heartache..
and every sorrow..
i know that i can depend..
upon my new found friend..
so until the end..
its just Jesus and me..