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rah rah rah.hello!!happy 18th birthday to LION!!hope u're enjoying yrself in msia.eventhough you didnt even msg me or teck that u have left..but nvm..we're nice pple..you POK!haha.kiddin.anyway..tml is benji's bday.think i'll just buy him a bottle of alcohol.=) my darling wife's bday is on thursday.happy bday in advance girl.love you.muacks.

benji is driving me nuts..he keeps calling me darling and all..but its just playing la.and i know it.but its disgusting.hahahaha.entertaining.but disgusting.we bullied huimin today.i was an accomplice.they stole a voice recording of her singing from her phone.i was the one who blue-toothed it to quan-ge and he sent it to dehua.she was like so shocked.and pissed.cos they kept suaning her the whole day.quite juvenile rite?but well..we're all stressed pple.haha.less den 80 days to our A's..erm..yippee..haiiz.
i gtg le..they should play nicer songs on the radio.ya.that's all.ttfn.study.

nothing much has been happening.just study.tuition.slack.wait..majority is slack.hahaha.owellz.alot of work has been piling up.anyway.just leave you with a quote..

watch your thoughts, for they will become your words.
choose your words, for they will become your actions.
understand your actions, for they become your habits.
study your habits, for they will become your character.
develop your character, for it will become your destiny.

She Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow I want more


I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be lovedAnd she will be loved
And she will be loved[in the background]

ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*SCREAMS!!!!!*
i never believed in it.but today..during chem pract..things didnt go too well..den shuyin told me..ya..today's friday the 13th wad..and i was like..ya!..but still dun believe in it..i wasnt concentrating during pract today..titrations dont usually take that long and i was inaccurate..i didnt do my calculations in time as well..quite crap la.
after school i went to the indoor stadium with my parents for audrey's nie graduation ceremony.it was quite boring.800+ pple.goodness.i counted the no. of audreys present and the no. of andreas.there were 5 audreys and 1 andrea.so therefore..im not meant to be a teacher.so ta-dah! i've got stats to prove it!sampling theory.x bar.hahahaha.im going crazy!
i have to start studying..andrea..start studying please..haiiz..rah.
anyway..i love the bananaman.he's hilarious la.i keep irritating benji and amelia with the song.hahaha.EVERYBODY!LISTEN UP!PLEASE VISIT www.filmbuffs.net/bananana/ it totally rocks!!must ok????=)yay.anyway.i got nothing much to write abt.im tired.i have physics mcq test in the morning tml and den im going for a girl's lunch out with trashie amelia ayeeba mich shir they all.yay.cant wait.nitez.tc.

Oh Lord let us be a generation that seeks.seeks Your face oh God of Jacob.

something is seriously wrong with me.its like..i have so much work to do..and i dont do them.its so retarded.im retarded.argh.i had my maths mock exam today.and i made so many careless mistakes.so angry with myself.eventhough i passed marginally.but like..still..so lao pok.haiiz.rah.i need a wake up call.i tried asking stella to pass her stress to me.cos she's majorly stressed.she studied her history(russian revolution) and her stats.she dreamt of like..counting the no. of poor russian pple and calculating stats on them.haha.she cldnt sleep properly.poor girl.she's that stressed.i need it.rah.
haha.just recently..amelia ayeeba shir and i have gotten to know lyon better.and he ar..so interested in gossip.though he isnt the first guy-gossiper i know.but still..my perspective of guys have changed.haha.its madness.
anyway.im freaking falling ill.which is good and bad.good cos its give me a valid reason to tell myself that i can take time off.bad is..just bad.ya.haha.
i think im going to like..go sleep now and try my darnest to wake up tml to do work.help.take care pple.dun fall ill.like me.ttfn.nitez.

oh ya.singapore idol is hilarious sia.the lemon tree guy esp.i never expected sporeans to be so confident.haha.i cant wait for more.haha.rocks.

yay..saturday is here.but..i have tuition at one later.rah.went to watch i,robot with chel shir and lembu.the show rocked.i love this kinda futuristic shows.like minority report.its cool to have those kinda slim sleek audi cars.so cool..i like.. =)
just bought the "wow worship" cd..i like the song "here i am to worship".the lyrics are in the other entry.hmmz.the cd is nice.nice worship songs.yup.
tml my youth group is going bowling.but like.i dun now if i wanna go.cos i need to do work.haiiz.i feel like crying.only a few weeks more to my prelims and like..im so unprepared.bah.i wanna play.but i cant.i need a tan.but i cant.this sucks.rah.nothing to say le.i feel sleepy.ttfn.tc.

to ame : love you girl.dun think so much ya.it will pass.study hard.

::here i am to worship::

Light of the world,You stepped down into darkness.
Opened my eyes, let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with you

And here I am to worship,
here I am to bow down,
here I am to say that you're my God

You're altogether lovely,
altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me.

King of all days, oh, so highly exalted.
Glorious in heaven above.
Humbly you came to the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor.
And here I am to worship

Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely.
altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me.

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
No, I'll never know how much it cost

im tired.im tired of studying.im tired of running around.im tired.haiiz.but...a big but..i just hafta sacrifice these three mths to get to where i wanna go..den i can relax..haiiz.

i did a presentation on christianty yesterday for gp.i didnt wanna come across as preaching.so i just presented la.but it wasnt as powerful and convincing as i wanted it to be.i gave evidences of the bible's authenticity.but still..the choice is still for the others whether they wanna accept.anyway.i hafta go now.got alot of work to do.crap.haiiz.ttfn.take care pple..dun check back here until like the weekend or smth.im gonna be busy.haiiz.rah.

here i am!!back again..sorry..have been busy busy busy the whole week..tuition..work to do..just basically quite exhausted.have work to do.and the work load just keeps increasing.everyweek...we hafta complete a full paper..chemistry one...physics one..argh!!save me.ms tan[physics teacher] keeps screaming at us for not knowing our concepts well..its quite sad..cos i like her..but..she's really getting frustrated with us..haiiz.mr tan bp on the other hand..have been in a good mood the whole week..how..unnerving. haha.but its good.other than that..nothing much has been happening..i am becoming a no-life.[see shir..told you i can do it. =) ]just keep me in yr prayers..i need strength..and wisdom.

now..just for a few notes..

to lion : dun worry.things will work out for you.
to jien : congratulations on getting a handphone.finally! and im honoured to be the first person you msged.haha.
to my laopo : hi! miss me.
to mr d.wong : why never call me le?hmmz?busy?how have you been?
to twin : hello.erm..hello.merry christmas.and im sorry for losing the photos. edwin's picture was inside.i hurt too ya know.hahahahaha.kiddin.
to k.p : thanks for explaining smallville to me.and not calling me a geek.hahaha.

today was an okay day..as usual..nothing much happened..
but today's chem practical was more jovial than usual..but then again..the mood of the lesson always depended on piangpiang's mood..yup..we broke quite a number of things..
1) huimin broke a conical flask.she claimed that it broke when she put it down into the basin.she made it sound like it was self-destructive.haha.mr tan was suaning her.asked benji if he bought huimin's excuse.but benji disagree.terrible.he's bangseh-ing his future wife in such an early stage.
2) shuyin pushed the pipette filler too much onto the 10.0cm cube pipette[which is more fragile than the usual 25 cm cube one].and the top portion of the pipette broke off and got stuck inside the filler.it was hilarious.she was holding it up and i was scared that if the glass flew out of the filler..it wld be so "happy tree friends" like if the glass flew into the fan and flew all around.haha.
3) weiquan broke a beaker.

and i almost broke quite a number of things.but i managed to catch them in time.heng.
tml is gonna be a mugging day..i hafta complete jjc physics paper 1-3.and srjc paper 3.and chemistry tutorial.and maths.argh!!and i have so little days to study..and so much to cover..argh!!

just hide me from my reality.
 
i went past njc today on my way to tuition..and i saw the number of pple walking out of and in the school..and i thought to myself..goodness..this is the number of pple i am gonna compete against for my university entry..and there are more!!..more over..we're the meridien batch..
its a scary thought.i really wanna go to nus.but i dont have the capacity to become a super mugger.so i hafta start studying hard from now onwards..nothing must stand in my way...

now its just Jesus and me..
for each tomorrow..
for every heartache..
and every sorrow..
i know that i can depend..
upon my new found friend..
so until the end..
its just Jesus and me..

nothing much happened today.mr kwek said that we were like a bird park cos we were all very noisy during assembly.and dehua[new nick name: d is for donkey] was making tweeting sounds.so weird.haha.other then that..i was quite tired today..cos i have been coming home late this whole week..i have maths tuition tml somemore.haiiz.but..there were moments when i was kinda high..
1) i wanted to throw toliet paper into ayeeba's cubicle..but it flew into her classmate's.[thank goodness i didnt wet it]
2) cindy huimin shuyin and i were playing with water in the toliet again.
3)kept laughing when i was at the concourse with kennth lyon euan ayeeba and amelia.cos of that stoooppidd kenneth.he keeps making such retarded comments.and of cos..majority of them is abt me eating.he's such a nehneh.seriously.
4)on the bus with ayeeba amelia and shir.as usual.we were laughing like mad monkeys.

yup.quite an uneventful day.hopefully tml will be better.

cindy(singing) : "baby can you tell me why..there is sadness in yr eyes..i dont wanna say good bye to you..now you want me to forget every little thing you said..but there is something left in my head.."
me : " are you sure?"

--------------------silence-------------------

cindy :"ooi...!!"
me:"wah..lag."

*screams!!* hi lian!you found me..how did you find me??yay.hello.how have you been??good??=) i miss you too.just went to see yr picture gallery.my eyes are semi closed in one of the pictures.haha.owellz.hope yr happy.=)
 
i would now like to take the opportunity to wish my dear daisy..cheryl may wong..all the best in her marriage with jacky wu.have a blissful marriage!
 
anyway..i went for dinner with the squashees today.at holland v to celebrate jean's super belated birthday..=) the lady at swensen was so nice.she allowed us to have the sweet secrets cake at swensen's.she even went through the trouble of giving us paper plates and plastic utensils so that we can have it there.[they didnt wanna mix the proper utensils cos they were halal.and just in case.] yup.she's sweet.her name is cathy.
 
got home around 930..quite early rite..my dad asked why i came home so late..*puzzled*
anyway..i'm tired..but i still hafta do srjc's last year prelim physics paper..rah.nitez pple..
 
thanks for asking about my ankle.its getting better.

today hasnt been a very good one..i sprained my ankle yesterday..its quite stupid really..i was jumping on a trampoline..and i lost my balance and fell off and landed on my right ankle..sigh..so today..i limped a bit..not very obvious thankfully..then..i went for physics tuition..i was outnumbered by hwa chong pple 6 is to 1.rah.i saw this ex-mg girl..li hao..dun noe if she saw me and whether she recognised me or not..but i didnt say hi..maybe next week..i was so silent during tuition yet again.and had an inferiority complex.i have a phobia of being alone.that's why im glad my dear charmain  is coming for maths tuition with me on friday.=)
after tuition..i waited for my daddy for 40 mins..den when i called..he said that he forgot he had to fetch me..and i had to take bus home myself cos there was jam at where he was at.i fumed.cos i wasted my time waiting. my teeth are hurting now too.front bottom.they moved i think.hmmz.anyway.at the end of the day.. im a spoilt brat. haiiz.
 
 
the good thing that happened today is that i have found more potential husbands. haha.if im still single by the age of 39 i'll marry twin.60:dehua. 65 : yusheng. 105 : alvan. 110: gavin chew. hahahaha.its madness.but well..at least i wldnt die single..hahaha..crazy.
 
tml is smart casual day..my class is wearing our class jersey..hopefully everyone remembers..
 
i hafta go and get my cip hours..mr cheong[alvan] keeps pestering me to go get it done and arranged..cos he's doing them with me..probably doing at the bethany old folks' home in cck.not too sure.hafta go call the lady.yup.nth much to say.tired.sleepy.teeth pain.ttfn.
 
 
 
to be like Jesus...to be like Jesus..all i ask..is to be like Him..

in the school's library again..having wahab after this..which is macam free period also..haha..i like disturbing him..and getting all opportunities to get out of class..heh.we all love wahab.he's the man!!
anyway...yesterday my daddy and i played badminton..we had to share the court with this father and son cos they were there first..but they didnt mind sharing the court..yup..so we put up our net..which we just bought yesterday..and we played..intially..my daddy was talking more than he was hitting..pissed me off abit..but..i continued playing..didnt wanna seem rude in front of the boy..after a while..my daddy stopped talking and guiding me so much..
 
out of the blue...this two small children came to play and share the court with us..the boy didnt know how to serve..and his sister kept running into our net..and pushing her racket into the net..my daddy kept saying "girl..dont do that" but i think she only understood tamil..so she continued anyway..their shuttlecock was very po lan but the way the girl waits in anticipation for her brother to serve the shuttlecock over was very cute..her eyes all big and all..haha..when the shuttlecock landed rite under the net..she will chase after her brother if he picked it up first..it was quite funny..but very dangerous as well cos when my daddy and i were rallying..the girl kept running around..and it was very hard and challenging trying not to hit them..once in the midst of our rally..the siblings suddenly decided to join in..and were attempting to hit our shuttlecock..my daddy and i had to keep hitting high shots so as to prevent them from getting it..i was seriously petrified..after a while..they gave up and went home..
 
i went to re's after washing up..my aunt irene is back!! yup.so we had dinner and just enjoyed each other's company.i miss her.unique command of english and all.haha.
 
all in all..yesterday was quite a family-orientated day..
 
thanks dee for playing badminton with me..
 
owellz..nothing much to say..except that my laopo should use white plastic bags as hats more often..haha..she looked so cute..heh..ttfn!!
 

write Your name upon my heart :: sonicflood ::
 
God above
In You I live and breathe
And You will always be
Son of God
I owe my life to You
Your promises are true
Your love goes on and on forever

So write Your name upon my heart
Burn Your word into my mind
Make a temple of this body
Let Your Spirit move inside
I have wandered through the valley
And I have wondered who I am
So live in me, make Your mark
And write Your name upon my heart

God above
The first, the last, the same
All glory to Your name
My Jesus
It's You who I adore
Lamb of God and Savior
Your love goes on and on forever

Imprint on every part of me
The image of the Son
And complete in me the work
You have begun
 
this is my song of the week.

oh..oopz..the linking thing is cos of my comp..not cos of my blogging..hahaha.oppz.

argh..why on earth are there links to some of my words?like..time..trust..school...like..wassup?? hello..argh.. anyway..went for chem tuition today..with ms tan..it was good..learnt quite alot.must study hard..rah..
well..since i feel like posting poems and stuff..i shall post one that i wrote some time ago..havent been writing new ones for quite a while..i'll go find my book in which i wrote quite a no. of poems in sec 2..yup..here goes..not quite a poem..just..a stanza abt stuff..yup.
 
my only source of joy
slipping out of my fingers
fading into the darkness
out of my presence
out of my reach.
[written on 27.02.04]
 
yup..anyway..im not feeling too well now..like..cant breathe properly abit cos have a slight cough..rah..hafta go..have work to do..

they changed their layout!!im not used to this..argh..anyway..just read my fren's fren blog..feel so inspired..he wrote poems and stuff..pretty deep stuff..owellz..i'll go figure a poem/rhyme up..give me time..
went for tuiton today..maths..first lesson.when i walked in..there was a hwa chong guy there already..i was very shy..[if you did not know..i am shy]yup..den the tutor was frwoning when he was looking thru my physics exam paper...rah..
after a while..a hcjc girl walked in..talk abt being out numbered..den..after an hour..eliza..this girl from pjc net ball walked in..but since im not frens with her..not even acquitance..i didnt say a word to her..rah..i cant wait to go tuition with charmain..at least i can be my normal noisy self..its very awkward for me to remain silent..its just..not me!
going again next tuesday for physics tuition..i really must start mugging..this exam is gonna determine my future..and i dun wanna regret again..i have already regretted my O's..i dun wanna regret my A's..yup.
 
 
anyway..to my laopo..girl..i love you..a lot..though i dun express it more than just holding yr hands..but ya..i'm sorry for not knowing what to say at times when you need me the most..but i hope that by me standing by you shows you that im here for you..for happy and sad times..just call me when you need a listening ear or a mad monkey ya..though..im flawed..i'll try my best..k??even if i fail..remember that God loves and cares for you..humans are finite..but God is infinite..ya?
 
till death do we part..

in the school library yet again..have an hour break..gotmy chemistry back yesterday..got an O..but im happy..at least i improved by a grade.
after school..shir and i took a cab to acjc to visit selena and liz.met some of sel's frens.quite nice pple.but as i was there pretty late i didnt see that many pple. hi this is everybody's favourite darling KONG!!! [and daniel lim!!]
erm..ok..as i was saying..the school was pretty deserted by the time we got there.sigh.
after that we went took a cab to shir's hse to bathe and get ready.
we met edwin and gang at the victoria concert hall..we took a cab again.sigh.notice how we are always running for time.that explains my financial deficiency.rah. edwin and gang all look so typical boy-school boys.but they're quite nice.gary and edwin gave up their seats for shir ad i when we couldnt find any.yup.they sat on the floor instead.anyway..we were all waiting for our beloved zixiang to appear.when he did..i must admit..he looked really good in his black suit and red tie..den..he did his solo[sakura]..so zai..my goodness.but could tell he was nervous cos his voice shaked abit..but still very zai..we were standing and screaming like mad monkeys after his song..haha..very proud of him..well done twin.
after the whole performance we stood outside with sir stamford raffles and talked until shir's daddy came to fetch us home.got home at 11.tiring day.shir and i felt like we travelled the whole of spore eventhough we didnt..yup.still quite tired now.hafta go do work.or rather.try.yup.ttfn folks!