its funny how when someone badly wants to be well liked

he/she ends up at the other extreme.

i am totally not impressed.

at all.

shania twain's lyrics keep playing in my head

" that don't impress me much."

i need patience.

My NINJA SUIT!! 

super unflattering.

but UBER COOL!

my industrial attachment just started this week at a semiconductor company.

and i get to wear this NINJA SUIT to go into the clean room!

okay. its not exactly called a ninja suit. but a jumpsuit of some sort.

the face mask part is irritating though, cos when i exhale it fogs up my glasses.

anyway, work is not bad. the waking up at 6am is still the hardest part for now.

my supervisor rocks. he's quite funny. and the most hardworking at training us.

which is really a great blessing. :)

he is an answered prayer! haha! ( my mum and i have been praying about my IA for a while :)  )

there is a total of 9 NTU IA students at this company. 6 of us are in the same R&D department. 

so we go lunch together and go training together too. :)

hopefully the awkward getting to know each other stage will be over soon and people will loosen up and get more retarded.

the lack of singing and laughing is taking its toll on me.

i've resorted to just humming when there are hardly anyone around me.

trust me.

i'm dying.

but yayness. my new vocal class module is starting this saturday. :) happy.

learnt alot the past 3 days.

MS 3002 is coming to life for me. 

it all makes more sense now. 

my IA project seems to be cut out for me. 

not an admin. kind of IA. 

but one that really requires me to think and apply.

scary and exhilarating all at the same time.

yay?

first xroads for the semester tomorrow!

so exciting. as i told tweet, its like knowing you're getting a present but not knowing what its going to be like. yay! :)

thanks tweet for everything. thanks xroads comm too! :) greatly appreciated!! :)

goodnight ya'll! :)

You'll go forth a little sronger

with a fresh supply of grace,

if each day you meet the Savior

in a secret, quiet place. -Adams

A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold

in settings of silver. - proverbs 25:11

day of firsts.

my first lunch by myself. :)

i had to go collect my registered mail from the post office.

so i decided to grab lunch since i'm already at lot one.

:)

so armed with my book, i sat myself down at delifrance.

and had a good lunch! :)

so proud of myself.

i've always found it intimidating to eat by myself in public.

but it was fun. finally got some me-time. :) 

so i walked around with my brown paper parcel.

which by the way, got alot of stares and weary looks from people. 

got home. watched discovery channel.

and they were showing the different famous ice cream parlors in america.

i started craving for a banana split.

with some encouragement from caroline, i found myself downstairs buying 2 cups of cravio ice cream.

:)

its all about the vanilla, baby.

and really retardedly i was really very excited about getting to eat my banana split.

placing the icecream in a bowl and cutting up a banana, with the first mouthful, i was on cloud 9.

super satisfying. :)

my first make-shift banana split. :)

signing off,

satisfied home-stayer. :)

it was a busy busy month of december.

but i had a blast! :)

outings, camps, conference, parties. loved it.

:)

2007 was a good year.

really saw how much i grew in God, and not only for myself but also the ones around me.

gave a testimony last night at watchnight service.

while preparing for it, i was looking through my older blog entries.

and i realised that all i asked for on the 1st of jan 2007, it has all come true in the year.

and i really thank YOU for everything.

:)

i'm really grateful for family and friends who are in my life as well.

for not only the great and crazy times, but in times which are painful.

its really in those moments that i grow alot, and i thank all those who stood by me. :)

as seen in the photo collage, that's my december.

SM training camp, small bbq gathering, parents' anniversary, sentosa, youth camp, enting's birthday party, christmas! :) and meta.

in between gatherings here and there as well.  :) always a joy.

i really thank God for youth camp. for the rain that He held back on the day we were playing games. for the transformation He has started in the youth, and especially for just showing up at our camp and moving in the midst of us. :)

2008 will be an exciting year. :)

next week i will be starting my attachment for the semester.

i am quite psyched about it, cos its something i have been praying for.

ohh..and amazingly. the company that i managed to get was my 2nd choice. :)

and i'm really happy. though its all the way in serangoon. :)

pray for me k? pray for good working relations and also for opportunities to at least sow a lil. :)

anyhoo, happy new year everyone! :)

may it be one that sees personal growth in you. 

while reading my past entries, i realise that there were so much going on behind the scenes that i so easily masqueraded. but i thank You, that You always see behind the mask and become my sole comfort. :) i'm looking forward to this new year with You to taste of Your goodness and testify of Your faithfulness. thank You, Lord.  with lots of love, me.

YOUTH CAMP IS COMING!

:)

i'm red and i'm itchy.

please, somebody, scratch me!

i woke up this morning..and realised that my unconscious scratching was due to my sudden outburst of rash! argh!

i got this about 3-4 years ago, and the doctor said probably an allergy.

but we never figured what was wrong.

and now! NOW! argh.

so i bathed, and powdered. and everything was fine.

until half way through my wonderful sentosa nua-ing outing.

i started itching again.

after bathing, i was worse!

it became full-fledge i-am-itching-so-bad-please-ice-me.

the doctors were closed by the time i was back.

thankfully audrey has some cream to help me.

but i still itch. and i really really want to scratch!!!

ROAR!

sentosa today was absolute fun!

went with drew, eugenia, twin, hum jing peng and monkey.

really happy. 

the right company is always the most important factor in determining the success of an outing.

if ever i was marooned on an island, i want them with me.

hahaha. 6 of us and a camera, and it is absolutely side-splitting.

jem: "please don't tell me taking photos are going to be the highlight of our day."

but well, fortunately it wasn't.

the highlight of the day was... Andrew's left arm dislocating!

it sounds serious.

and it was....

it was SERIOUSLY HILARIOUS!

we were playing captain's ball. twin was going to pass the ball to eugenia, and andrew intercepted by doing the "swiping" action with his left arm.

i was seeing from the back, and i saw him hold on to his arm and saying its very pain.

then he just moved his arm about his shoulder joint and popped it back in place.

and then he said "Phwoar! shiok! okay already."

for a moment the thought "oh no! we have to send drew to the hospital or something.." went pass my brain. but before the thought was complete, i was kneeling on the sand laughing like crazy!

it was so funny cos he was laughing about it after popping it back. the change from serious to comedy was drastic.

eugenia and twin were UTTERLY TRAUMATIZED for a while. 

especially eugenia, she had full view of the dislocation.

drew dislocated his arm in army last time, and this is the 7th or 8th time it has dislocated by itself. 

so he figured how to pop it back in. we heard him mention it before, but never really SAW it dislocate before. 

today was really enjoyable. 

Thank You for holding back the rain. :)

i'm going for a SLR photography class with my older cousin tomorrow.

a lil nervous. but mostly excited. 

love learning new stuff. :)

the holidays are finally here.

though the last paper was an absolute horrid way to start the holidays.

it was a killer paper and it really resulted in a massacre.

its over its over! and the holidays are here here here! :)

yay. 

mickey mouse crop circles.

how ever did our worlds collide?
were they apart to begin with?
i feel like i don't know you anymore sometimes.
yet it seems like we were never that much different.
things that once held such similiarity,
we were once thought to have perfect telepathy.
you can still read me like a book,
somehow i feel like i can't do the same to you.
the memories haunt my everyday,
a little somehow.
but i need to walk away,
and leave it all behind the blue rosed door.

Tracy:

Can't cha feel my heartbeat keeping perfect time?

And all because he...

touched me

He looked at me and stared, yes he

bumped me

My heart was unprepared when he

tapped me

And knocked me off my feet

One little touch

Now my life's complete 'cause when he

Nudged me

Love put me in a fix, yes it

Hit me

Just like a ton of bricks, yes my

Heart burst

Now i know what life's about

One little touch

And love's knocked me out and...

I can hear the bells

My head is spinning

I can hear the bells

Something's beginning

Everybody says

That a girl who looks like me

Can't win his love

Well, just wait and see 'cause

I can hear the bells

Just hear them chiming

I can hear the bells

My temperature's climbing

I can't contain my joy

'Cause I finally found the boy

I've been missin'

Listen!

I can hear the bells

- Hairspray

Enchanted and hairspray all within a day?

YEAAHH BAABBYY!!!

i'm a believer man. i'm a believer!

something within me flutters.

my paper today was..well.
could have been done better.
amazingly through this week's papers, the things that i tended(unconsciously) to pay more attention to came out. or at least something along that line of theory.
so PRAISE GOD! :)
i prayed this morning "Lord, i know that by my efforts i shouldn't get good grades, but please help me to at least pass."

Exams are really a faith stretching period for me. And a humbling one too.
Mercifully, He always proves Himself faithful time and time again.
:)

Anyway, i went to our school's computer shop to help my sister buy a Macbook.
so after depositing a partial amount and all, i realised that the girl gave me a tax invoice that i realised later that i couldn't use for my sister to claim money.
so i asked her nicely if i could get a receipt too.
and she answered, sounding quite exasperated, that she couldn't because its from the company and blah blah blahh...
i was taken aback for a while, because i didnt understand why she had to answer me with such tone and facial expression.
so i asked the next question nicely again, and she still sounded exasperated.
in my heart i was like "hey! it doesn't help for you to SOUND exasperated, and not provide any reasonable explanation to me why you can't."

Point number one:
andrea does not like it when people show attitude UNNECESSARILY when she asks a question NICELY.


so i called my mum, to ask if tax invoice can be used and all, then i called my sister if it can be claimed if my name is there and stuff.
and then i asked the girl if i could get just a print out receipt with a number on it or something that didn't have my name to it.
she shaked her head, i went back on the phone with my sister and i heard her walk towards the back and tell her manager "she's on the phone again.."
unnecessary. seriously unnecessary.

so i asked the other counter staff to let me speak to the manager, so the manager came out talked to my sister for a while, and then she nicely explained to me why she couldn't issue it and all. the silly girl was nodding her head in agreement at the side. so i finally understood the whole hoo-ha and all. and so i would go back tomorrow to finally settle it and all.

but either way i was so fuming mad on the inside, as we all know that when you kek the anger inside, it multiplies by many folds.
so when we walked out of the shop, andrew got a whole earful of me complaining about that girl's attitude. RAH!

people in the service line, should have sensible patience.fullstop.

-breathe-

on a lighter note, threadless is having their amazing $10 SPREE!
which makes andrea a very VERY happy girl. :)

andrew: your moods change very fast ar. scary.

after our paper today, i am found online shopping, drew is found facebooking.

i want my holidays to start NOW.

the size of my eyes seem to be inversely proportional to my age.

sigh.

Every time I disqualify myself.

Your grace and mercy always put me back on track.

The only one whose wisdom, knowledge, humour and wit i will truly adore from now on will be Yours.

Yet again, i find myself in the rut of comparing myself to others.

be it in expressing oneself, confidence, wit, general knowledge, knowledge of God, musical talent, passion, smartness, etc etc.

and i think to myself "why am i not like that?"

i always live in the shadow of underachievement.

blame it on my chronic procrastination.

and yet convincing myself and the people around me the whole time that i believe in no matter what you do, one must try his/her best.

putting it into practice is much harder than saying it. 

shortchanging myself and i don't feel the pinch.

So today, i brought it all before Him, told Him how i felt about not stewarding what He has given to me well. Emptying myself of all these worries and surrendering to once again be His humble vessel.

And the verse came to me that each of us are given different measure of talents and gifts so that none of us can compare and boast about it. We're all on level playing ground.

That amazes me. 

THAT is God's wisdom.

Humbled once again. In awe once again.

All that He has given to each of us, is for His glory to be shown. 

let me be a minister.

Personal Glory is nothing. Changed lives are everything.

enrolled in the School of Beattitudes.

i still miss you like crazy.

God of all splendor - Vineyard

God of all splendor, wonder and might

Awesome Creator, Author of Life

Master and Saviour, wholly divine

God of all splendor, wonder and might

Who is like You, oh Lord

Worthy of all praise

Who is like You, oh Lord

Let all the earth proclaim

Your kingdom forever

Love shining bright

God of all splendor, wonder and might

Essence of beauty and all that is right

King of all Glory, Heaven's pure Light

God of all splendor, wonder and might

life's been busy.

but i'm still enjoying every bit of it.

crusade activities have slowed down.

lectures and tutorials have officially stopped today.

its now full-fledge exam mugging time.

i have kinda officially joined our "friends of the library" club which comprises of some of the crusaders.

"chopping" seats 820 in the morning is tough.

especially when it nears 9 am.

everyone keeps coming in.

and i have to fight off people who wanna take a seat when i need to book the whole table.

aii..

thankfully my support(crystal) comes in by 915. haha.

my december seemingly is getting packed yet again.

with youth camp to plan. and meta. and christmas.

YAY.

exams start next friday.

no where near prepared for the exams.

as usual.owell. at least this time round it doesnt feel that bad.

i think a part of me was gone when you died.

my eyes still get teary when i look at your photos.

a good friend of mine really went away when you did.

i miss you,lee.

I AM FREE!!

AND FREE INDEED!!!

today is the day that i will and must remember for the rest of my life.

this is the day that has changed my whole life around.

my whole life centers around this pivotal moment.

the day that i have been pining and yearning for, for years.almost my whole entire life.

the day that i have finally claimed LIBERTY! and i AM GOING TO WALK IN FREEDOM!

No longer will i be ensnared. no longer am i bounded. no longer am i going to believe in a LIE!

praise the LORD! 

I am a child of the Most High God.

NOTHING can ever take me from HIs love.

and today..this glorious day.. i have really tasted and seen that my God is good. 

fantabulously good. fantastic beyond my wildest dreams.

Wonderful, Magnificent God.

i have finally cleaned out my closet.

there are no more skeletons hanging there.

what has been such a burden on my heart, what has caused my heart to ache so much, to have it grief so much, to have my eyes cried so so much, has finally been lifted.

my shame, He has taken away. my pain, is HEALED in His Name!

it is such a wonderful feeling to be embraced by God.

i thank You for giving me such an understanding and wise mother.

i thank You for Your prompting and preparation of my heart for this.

i thank You for Your promise that indeed, Victory IS in Jesus.

i thank You, so much, for never giving up on me.

for never walking away.

for never retracting Your love.

for never failing me.

thank You.

my heart bursts in joy for All that You have done.

Wonderful Saviour, Marvellous Redeemer.

You are SO faithful, LORD. 

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. 

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? 

Actually, who are you not to be?

 We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

 And as we let our own light shine, 

we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."

- Marianne Williamson

mentioned in the movie "Akeelah and the bee"

its been a while since i last blogged.
life on the whole is quietening down to a low gentle hum.

is it good or bad?

hmm..for now.
it is somewhat deluding me into emo-ness.
i need something new to amuse or entertain me.
monotony isnt the way to go.
but what can i do?!
the dreaded CAs are on their way,and i am barely floating in my work.
i can't wait for the term break.

our lecturers this semester are quite funny. each have their own quirks.
they say funny/out of point/witty statements. which is fantabulous when you'e paying attention. haha.

perhaps i will blog more again when something more exciting happens to my life.
:)
or when i get a Sage- moment and blog something intellectual.
which rarely happens.
or something....

till the next post..adieu.

dear diary..
today, i finally hugged HUGGED russell.
he didnt just stand there like he usually does..
but he put his arm around me!
i'm so happy.
i love my cousin!
:)

love,
me