Out of my mind. - john mayer
i'm putting you baby
i'm putting you right out of my mind
i'm putting you baby
i'm putting you right out of my mind
so tired of running after you girl
and being one and one half steps behind

go tell your friends now
go tell your friends what johnny did
go tell your friends
go tell your friends just what johnny did
if they don't tell you that you're crazy baby
lord, they're as messed up as you is!

sing me the blues.

All God's children got rhythm - June Christy
Children, listen here to me
this is my philosophy to see me through the day
to scare my cares away

all God's children got rhythm
all God's children got swing
maybe haven't got money
maybe haven't got shoes
but all God's children got rhythm for to chase away the blues

all God's children got trouble
trouble don't mean a thing
when they start to bop-a-clu-a-bop-a-bop trouble's bound to go away.
say all God's children got swing

roger : "haha. you should blog it!"
me: "YEAH! God is REALLY GOOD!! my academic life is really by grace.haha!"


SHOUT IT FROM THE TOP OF THE WORLD!! MY GOD IS FANTABULOUSLY GOOD!THANK YOU!!

my exam results are out!
though my grades really arent fantastic. i did not fail anything!
and i am really thankful for that!

it was the worst exams of my life! for real.
i hardly studied.
i only read through my notes once. browsed through past year exam papers once.
and then went and sat for my papers.
2 of them were really really dreadfully horrible.
its like i almost submitted a blank piece of paper. or worst..one filled with nonsensical nonsense.

but i thank God.
i'm not proud of my studying discipline.
for goodness knows how long..i've been praying for discipline for so many years. and yet eventhough i dont fulfill my duties as a student very well.
God..my amazing amazing God..still sees me through my exams..
when i put in such minimal effort..He still gives me peace when i study..
He allows me to remember things in the exam hall when i get stumped.
its really not by my own strength. its all YOU, Lord. its all You!

even if i did fail some, i would still say my God is good. He didnt leave me alone when i went through my exams. and that..i know really well. =)

what can i do? but thank You.
overwhelmed

fred astaire. gene kelly. bing crosby. ginger rogers.


what do they have in common?
the ability to sing and dance and make my heart beat faster.

i love classic films.the music, the dances, the wit, the romance.

fred astaire is my new hero.gentlemanly and so smooth in his steps! and his voice..oh goodness.




'nuff said.

thursday found me at palawan beach.
sporting a new pair of shades too! haha. finally got one.

i went there with my church youth. so glad we all got to hang out together again.
it has been a while. and i loved it. they are so funny, and cute, and kuku, and witty. haha.
i love wit. i find it very appealing.
and yes..i think many of the boys are gonna grow up and be lady killers. hahaha.
we played vball on the hot sand, and they played vball and soccer with some other guys.

haha. my rebecca showed off her soccer skills. i'll admit that she did quite a good header.
OH! and my dear russell chow..has a distracting-soccer move.
he runs around screaming and waving his arms in the air as he chases the person with the ball.
its SUPER funny to watch! i recorded it down. and you can hear me say "hahaha. my cousin is so retarded" in the background.
HAHAHA!

the rain surprised us, and we all cozied under a small shelter.
thankfully it wasnt too long, so we went out to cycle.
my bike seat was a lil too high, so i didnt want to stop, lest i toppled over and fell.
but we stopped a few times..so i guess thats why my butt kinda hurts now..cos it takes me alot of effort to get back on. much to tif-taf's and tommy's amusement i might add. roar. those two are very naughty. hahaha.

rebecca and i cam-whored for a while after. and it was great fun.

all in all...

THANK YOU LIL MUMMY JANELLE!!

all i did was to say "hey. let's all go to sentosa to tan la! our church so near, but we never go there! you all having holidays soon right? let's go la!"
and on that night itself..my lil mummy janelle got to work and organised it. =)

i'm super proud of you girl! you planned it brilliantly. we all had a blast. -hug-



-takes photo-

me: aiyah. its off-center. delete. take again.

-takes photo-

me:aiyah. its off-center again!
russ: huh. its not off-center what. i'm in the center!
me: roar! hahaa.



friday came along..

note: i dont really like handwashing clothes.

met twin[jessica] on the way to town. we took 190 down.

it started to rain while we were on the bus. dark clouds, raindrops hitting against the window, and my ipod was playing "have yourself a merry little christmas".
and yeah! it really did feel like christmas!
i felt all warm and fuzzy inside.
perhaps i should listen to carols when it rains. then i can have christmas more often! yippee! =)

so twin and i alighted.ate meesua at wisma. and had shiok-a-delic mango pudding with sago for dessert.
then the hunt was on!
i have to desperately get a dress for my cousin's wedding. which is like..next week!
but alas...mission was not accomplished. i didnt manage to find one.
but at least now i have a better gauge of what i want. hmm.

met others for dinner at botak jones [clementi]. phwoar. its really really very shiok la! the meat is flavoured nicely, and juicy too. loved it. was really full.
but what was better than the food..was the company. [though many unglam shots were taken.haha.] =)

thanks babes for coming out to play! especially you twin..for keeping me in such splendid company the whole day.



yet in the midst of it all..when its just You and me. Your voice calls out so clear.
i don't deserve such grace. i don't deserve such love.
i may fool the whole world, but i can never fool You.
though i come to You broken and ugly, You still see beauty.
"everyone has their own wars to fight."
and as the song goes "the victory is mine, when the battle is the Lord's."
its in Your hands. i surrender. i'm weak.
i need You. i so desperately need You.

Come to me Lord, here is my heart. can't live on my own. can't live without You.

Jesus, what a beautiful Name.

Light in your eyes - blessed union of souls

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you"s were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free

I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?

Your unfailing Love
When the darkness fills my senses,
When my blindness keeps me from Your touch,
Jesus come.

When my burden keeps me doubting,
When my memories take the place of You,
Jesus come.

And I'll follow You there
To the place where we meet,
And I'll lay down my pride
As You search me again.

Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love over me again.

i've got a new nickname.

krystie: hello krystie!
me: no no! i'm back to being jiejie andrea again! i swapped my names back with you already. [krystie reanne and i exchanged names last weekend.]
reanne: andra!
me: no..its an-drey-er!..its drey-er..
krystie: dry-er...
reanne: andra..
me: oh goodness. its drey-er..ddrreeeyy-eerrrr. not andra!
krystie and reanne: dry-er!
me: drey-er!
them again: dry-er!
krystie: hair dryer!!
me: oh goodness! hairdryer?! phwoar..fainted.
both of them: dryer! dryer! hairdryer!
me: aiyoh! i dont want to talk to you already la! haha.

-walks away-

and being the little kids that they are..they were following me and calling me by my new "endearment".



i've never been called a hairdryer before. -sob- haha.

are there such things as holiday blahs?
if there are..
i think i'm suffering from it.

my heart isnt feeling well today.
not well at all.

the want to rant, the want to ramble, the want to be random, the want to be heard.

holiday blahs.





blah.



for every high, there comes a low.
things can only go up from here.

its like wanting to scream with a masking tape across your mouth.
its like stamping your feet on the floor, even if it doesnt make a sound.
its like struggling for air, but a weight is pulling you down.


save me from myself.

its a journey i'm willing to take with You. I know You would not let go of my hand.thank You.

we had north ST meeting today.
longest meeting i've ever had.
9am-930pm.
haha. but surprisingly i'm not tired.
rather..charged up!
after all our sharing of the plans for the different Comms, i think...
its going to be an exciting academic year for Crusade in Ntu.
i'm looking forward to serving in the Servant Team alongside Champ, tweet, anton, bok-ah-wee, eu, huimin, selina and derek.

please continue to pray for our team for sensitivity to God's guidance and heart for the ministry, for the challenging of subcommers [for their hearts.] and for love in not only the ST, but crusade as a community.

God's Hand is moving in NTU. and i'm glad to be in this movement.
OOOWWHEEE!! its going to be exciting.
an adrenaline working with God. yeah!


our God is an AWESOME God.
i want to hold You, love You, dont let You go.

watched a midsummer's night dream today.
it was fabulous.
it was a first for me..

i loved watching the people around me..
they were so relaxed..with some armed with a glass of wine while lazing on their mats.
and i was just trying to soak in the atmosphere as much as i could.
i loved it.
i would love to go for another open air performance at the fort canning again.
gorgeous. the skies..the air..the everything! =)

the performance was good too!
it totally amused me when they added our own local flavour to it..
"yi er san..wo men shang..wo men xia..wo men hou qian jiao....sally sally long jiam pass!"
hahaha!

i went with my sister, her colleague and 19 of her sec 3 lit kids.
thankfully priscilla was patient enough to explain to me. that girl knows her work man. haha.


how is it that falling in love..and being lovers seem so easy when shakespeare writes it.
is it because one thinks too much..that causes one to not fall so hopelessly?
is that a good or bad thing?
is it because of what others might think, when you're so deeply in love that it consumes you, that holds one back?

if one is to write a book..
would a book written with ideals sell better than one that was real?

its funny how ideals appeal so much to us more than reality.

funny.


if only everything was simpler.

OKAY!! i'm FINALLY going to do it!
HAHAHA. its like..what..2 mths overdue?
-huge grin-
i hope i remember every single detail..
alright.
please step into my timemachine..and i'll bring you back to when i just turned 21. haha!

here we go.....

i was out on the 21st of march with my aunt jen. looking for my present. [which is my heart diamond pendant + necklace! ] in town.

and i received an sms from my dear eugenia..
"Ladies, i'm helping my fren with a survey. Need to know wat flowers you like. :) reply asap? Thankies ;) "
and i replied "blue roses!"
so when i came back to school..
i went to the ADM rooftop for DG with joyce, caroline and sufang!
Joyce was so sweet! she bought me a slice of cake..and SPARKLERS! [i love sparklers!]
so we sang happy birthday!
THEY sang it like..21 times!! everything that i did..started them off singing another round.
hilarious la! hahaha.then we played with sparklers. and ate SUSHI! joyce bought sushi! and we had other food too that we brought along. it was great.
and so i asked miss caroline.."is anything going to happen tonight?? am i supposed to be scared??"
and she kept pretending and saying that i shldnt.
my miss loh also! she kept pretending and said " huh? i really dont know!" quite convincingly at that too.

so anyhoo..
after DG [which was ever so heart warming].. caroline and i went back to hall.
bathe and all. and i just felt so..RAH! cos i was going to turn old. and i wanted to fight the clock.
so i was a lil mopey..and caroline had to study..so she only came into my room when it was nearing 12 to count down with me.
jessica came too!
and so..we were just sitting around in my room..waiting to countdown..
then caroline slyly asked yeyin for her number! [though she already had it and was just messenging her that a whole bunch of people were coming down. i found this out later on.]
suddenly..out of yeyin's norm..she went to check her reflection in her mirror. so i suspected a bit. but didnt pay too much attention.
so when the clock hit 12..i sang happy birthday to myself.
and yeyin and i took photo together.
then suddenly..
my room door flung wide open!
and a whole bunch of people were outside my room with a cake! and eu gave me a blue rose!
i really was quite stunned! i didnt expect soO many people! it was crazy la!
haha. so they sang happy birthday..i blew out the candles. and we were on our way down to the tv lounge...
when suddenly 2 girls jumped out at me singing..
" oh why were you born so beautiful! oh why were you born at all!..."
i was so stunned at seeing Feng and Shir that i collapsed onto the floor!
and i started crying.
i didnt expect them at all la! at ulu pulau nanyang! my goodness!
i was so so happy!
haha

so the whole parade went down to the tv lounge..and my rachel tay made her appearance too!
yay!
we cut cake..and kinleong and anton and i dont know which other cheeky one..picked up a snail on their way and wanted to give it to me! haha.
we took photos!
and then shir rach and feng wanted to go off..
so i walked them out..
and suddenly everyone was coming along..
in the next moment..i felt wet from the back..and i ran a bit..turned..and to my amazement!
never in my life would i think that i would get pranked by VEESAN!
they put mentos into a 1.5L coke bottle and she sprayed it on me!

when i was recovering from shock..the next thing i knew..
porkie was holding on to my right arm..and yeye on my left.
and they made me run! RUN!
i couldnt stop running even if i wanted to..or else i would have been dragged!
they made me run to the NIE pond..which was like..100m away? [ok. i dont know how to gauge. but it was quite long!]

when i got there..i was given sometime to contemplate if i wanted to go into the pond..
which yeye was so fervently disagreeing and just wanted to throw me in.
i didnt really mind la..at least its smth to remember..but..the thought of a murky pond..was really quite gross.
so then..kinleong and yeye.. though i managed to run a way for a while..before getting caught again..
flung me into the pond.
GROSS!
the floor was like.....was like...soft soft..gooey a bit.
thank goodness i didnt smell la!
everyone was running away from me..the swamp thing! wahaha!
i rolled myself dry on rachel's car. haha.

after saying goodbyes..
i went to bathe..AGAIN.
and went to bed.


22nd march!actualy birth date!

thankfully we were having our e-learning week.
and without having to skip class..
eu drew and i had the entire day free!
yippee!!

so we met at 11+ am..took train to city hall to get my dress for my party.
and headed to CARNIVORE at vivo.
phwoar..it was shiokadelic man!
we ate so so much!
and my eu is really really a sly fox.extreme!
she par-kat with the waiter to get me a cake..
the moment she walked in.. she already whispered to him.and i didnt notice at all!
and when i was in the midst of telling them about my DG and how they sang so many times..
the guy zhunzun came from behind me with a cake and they started singing happy birthday to me!
haha. so sweet.

after lunch..we went to the waterfront to take photos and soak up the sun.gorgeous.
and then we watched "stomp the yard". wwooooo. i was so happy.
what other better show to watch than a bad-boy-turn-good-plus-good-dancing movie on my birthday!
haha.

eu and i headed back to school for our Xroads. SM appreciation night.as drew went for liling's baptism.

it was great fun la! caroline and i sang a song for joyce impromptu. and dawn and rebecca gave caroline and i a rose each! =)

at supper..i was stunned when suddenly all the crusaders started singing "happy birthday to you" out of the blue.
hahaha.

that day was ultimately perfect.


okay. crazy 23rd of march. phew.

my party day.
aaii..this one gave me one heck of an emotional roller coaster.
late in the morning.. my dad came and fetch roger's amp and i from school.
i went home for a while.then decided to go trim my hair and get some of my last min stuff at lot one.
which left me with little time to get ready and all.
hurried down to signature park's function room to get ready.
thankfully my aunt jen and re were there in time for the caterers.
and then my babes started coming down! and we started getting our decor up.

i was actually really hesitant about my party..it just feels weird knowing that people were coming down to celebrate your party..and just for you. aaii...gave me the heebee jeebees.

people started coming in..and it was such a busy night.
tad bit stressful too. haha.
but i really did enjoy myself on the whole. its great seeing people who are so important in your life get together.
=)

thank you all for coming and celebrating my 21st birthday party with me! =)
esp to all who helped me one way or another.
i absolutely loved the performances and presents! yayee!
made andrea a happy girl.hahaha.

oh. my photos that were taken by jason during the party is up..haha. thank you mr gorilla! whhee!
www.tysjason.multiply.com
[click on view all albums.]

and photos of my ponding-night is on marilyn's multiply!
www.marilvyn.multiply.com


phheewww..
all out.
haha. tadah!
i think this entry is a personal record. haha.

my 21st was a blast!

" don't think that because Singapore is such a small country, we would not be affected by the changes in the weather...One area in which singapore might get hit, is in the area of food."

.WOAH.
my pastor was mentioning that yesterday during service.
and it just hit me.
i never gave the end times much thought, blissfully ignorant, thinking that God might not be coming in our generation.
but looking at the rate things are changing, the degeneration of the moral standard, the crazy weather.
it is quite conceivable.
and i never gave it much thought until yesterday.
i never imagined that one day, i might be too poor to afford food when the prices inflate, and i will be really persecuted for my faith.
its a scary thought, to get persecuted. it really is.
you can't have any contact electronically with anyone, lest they track you.you can't purchase things without leaving evidence.

but you know what?

i want to be ready.
this isnt going to control me and place fear in me.
i want to stand up and be counted for.
God is positioning His church. He IS in control.

there are more important things in life.

"Lord, let my heart, attitude, mind and will, be Yours alone."

as the sunday school song so aptly go:
"i may never march in the infantry, ride over calvary, shoot the artillery.
i may never zoom over land and sea, but i'm in the LORD's army!
YES SIR!"

.people need the Lord.

someone
someone who would bring me to see the stars.
someone who would convince me everything would be alright,
even when i'm drowning in tears.
someone who could make my heart skip a beat.
someone who would take away all my peas!
someone who would point me in the right direction,
when i lose my heart's location.
someone who could seranade,
someone who would bring me to concerts at the esplanade!
someone who shares my greatest Love,
someone who in everything places Him above.

haha. since i have been recently "hired" to write rhymes, i just decided to write one.
and no..i'm not in love or anything. neither am i actively searching.
i know in His time, if anything happens, it happens.
but hey..a girl can dream right.
i think maths is driving me crazy.

In His time

In His time, in His time,
He makes all things beautiful, in His time,
Lord, please show me everyday,
As You're teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say, in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful, in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.

teach me, Lord, to wait on You.

my hope is in You alone.

in Your perfect timing, let Your will be done in my life.

--warning: this isnt my birthday blog entry --

yes yes. i know i'm supposed to blog about my birthday.
but..i havent gotten the mood to blog all about it yet. so sorry.
hmm
but there is one thing i would like to tell you!
that God is good.

i woke up at 8am this morning to go have breakfast with yeye, caroline and veesan.
did my laundry after breakfast..
and went back to bed for about 1.5hours.
but i couldnt go to sleep. it was those moments when you're very exhausted, but you cant fall 100% asleep.
formulas for my MS2004 module was flying around..and my brain was trying to recall the two phenomena strain curves that can be explained using solute atoms hardening. ROAR.
save me.
so i woke up feeling even more drained.
i kept cramping today. it came.
was feeling moody and all. brain malfunctioned at sometimes too.
then had presentation for GV17. and then had to rush to tanjong pagar for my believermusic vocal class.

my transitions were all very smooth.
i managed to jog and catch the bus. the train came when i just arrived at the platform.
was studying for MS8005 on the train..on a semi-filled stomach.
was having a splitting headache when i got to BM.
couldnt sing properly. the song was in my bad key and my head wasnt letting up.
in dire need to get back to hall to rest.
and all my transitions went well again!
the most amazing is..after getting my dinner at jp..going to cross over to the busstop.
i prayed "Lord, please let 199 come soon.i really wanna go back faster."
and when i turned to look, 199 just turned the corner and was approaching the busstop.
"wow. You really know me really well. even on my moodiest of days, You never fail to find a way to show how much You love me, and make me happy."

the warm feeling i got..was the same as when my daddy suddenly offered to help order my food for me when he knew i was tired.
it totally warms my heart when someone does something for me without me asking, when they know how i'm feeling. it just shows how well the person knows you, ya know?

and God does it all the time..ALL THE TIME. even at times when i am not sensitive to Him, i know He's doing something wonderful.
totally brings a smile on my face. to know how much i'm loved.

"How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!" -Psalm 139:17
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD,
thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." - Jeremiah 29:11

so blessed.

[a mightily long post is coming your way!]

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In Her Eyes - Josh Groban
She stares through my shadow
She sees something more
Believes there's a light in me
She is sure
And her truth makes me stronger
Does she realize
I awake every morning
With her strength by my side


Chorus*:
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am



This world keeps on spinning
Only she steals my heart
She's my inspiration
She's my northern star
I don't count my possession
All I call mine and give her completely
To the end of all time

(chorus*)

In her eyes I see the sky and all I'll ever need
In her eyes time passes by and she is with me

(chorus*)

How can one not absolutely LOVE josh groban when he croons such lovely lyrics?
-swoons-