fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars.
i love looking at the stars. they just give me such a feeling of contentment.
last night was fun. we went running..quite a big group of us.
and then we went on to the top of our ADM building to play with sparklers and talk and look at the stars.
it was lovely.
Thank You for stars. they are so small, yet they bring such warmth to my heart.
those moments of playing with sparklers with your good friends, singing songs while lying under the stars, and just drinking in the atmosphere of it all, and just basking in His creation, is one of the most gorgeous moments in my life.
its like when you are revealed a mystery of God's love, and it just captures your heart.
it was a great way to usher valentine's day. thanks jason for the ADM suggestion. =)
today..
i went to holland village settler's with some of my favourite pple. =)
namely, ayeeba, amlah, shir, lembu, abu and abu's ryan. haha.
it was great seeing them again. as always.
sorry for being mellower than usual. =) maybe i'm growing out of being a toys'r'us kid? haha.
and ayeebaboon..its my pleasure to go out with you. haha.
hmmm...but yet in the midst of my social gatherings..
i'm once again going into hermit mode soon. argh.
i have so much to do. yet i am running away from it all.
i have no time for myself to just remain still.
happy valentine's day everyone. =)
my mass msg to pple today:
roses are red. violets are blue.
my life would be empty,
if i didnt meet you.
with all my heart...happy valentine's day babes!
@--}----
its time to move along. let go and move along. guard at all costs. you can't lose what you never had.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Friday, February 09, 2007
I think I'm going crazy, can't take it anymore
Got one thing on my mind all the time
And it's driving me crazy, I think I'm going crazy
And I don't know what I'm doing
Ijust can't take your grace in my face
Cause it's driving me crazy
-"crazy" by The Moffatts.
Got one thing on my mind all the time
And it's driving me crazy, I think I'm going crazy
And I don't know what I'm doing
Ijust can't take your grace in my face
Cause it's driving me crazy
-"crazy" by The Moffatts.
we should hold a gathering and just sit around in a circle and just sing all of the Moffatts songs that we love.
just like that memorable day in primary 6 when we just stayed back, sat down and sang.
bring back the days when we have no other responsibilities and had so much time in our hands.
i keep reliving my primary school day memories. i dont wish to grow up. but the big 2-1 is looming ahead. sigghh.. anyone got a time machine?
Saw you this morning, with that look in your eyes
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself
Don't you worry, I hear you 'cause I know what it's like
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
I'll be there for you
When you need sombody I'll be there for you
When you want someone who cares
When you're down and feeling blue I'll be there I'll be there for you
When you call me, I'll be there I wanna show you how good it will be
Never needed anyone the way I need you right now
You know you'll never be alone anymore
We can make it, together It's gonna be all right
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
-"i'll be there for you" by The Moffatts.
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself
Don't you worry, I hear you 'cause I know what it's like
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
I'll be there for you
When you need sombody I'll be there for you
When you want someone who cares
When you're down and feeling blue I'll be there I'll be there for you
When you call me, I'll be there I wanna show you how good it will be
Never needed anyone the way I need you right now
You know you'll never be alone anymore
We can make it, together It's gonna be all right
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
-"i'll be there for you" by The Moffatts.
campus day of prayer!
let me hear a "woot! woot!".
haha. so retarded.
cant stand myself.
anyway..
yesterday marked our first big campus day of prayer.
where we tried to rally the christians in ntu to pray and intercede for our campus.
it is amazing how God closed all the doors for us to get other venues.
but He indeed does not hold out on us.
He gave me the hugest, grandest venue in our whole campus!
THE NANYANG AUDITORIUM!
[sitting capacity: abt 1000].
in maths tutorial in the morning,
drew eu and i were just talking.
wondering how many pple were gonna turn up for the event. and eu mentioned that God spoke to her in the morning that it is not the matter of the number of people who comes, but rather their heart's condition. and that we should appreciate everyone of those who come down.[ abt 200+ pple came down i think. =) ]
sidetrack: i absolutely adore it when the three of us have a serious conversation about God and what He spoke to us. its one of the best things of our friendship that i really hold dear to. cos we can go from really random retarded things [like clapping rhythms in the stairwells] to serious sharing of God's Word. it always always warms my heart to hear what God has been speaking to them, and to share with them things that i get impressed with as well. Gorgeous i tell you. gorgeous.
so anyhoo..after class jessica and i came back to my class to change to our dresses.
haha. it feels good to dress up once in a while.
lyrics of shania twain's "man, i feel like a woman" come to mind.
hahaha.
we managed to get crystal and jix last min to do backup singing.
cos initially it was just me backup and shaohong as worship leader.
the two of them can harmonize la!
i wanna learn how to harmonize!
but i know that im too scared to try. cos i will have to be out-of-tune a few times before i can finally get the notes for harmony. roar.
worship went really well. could really sense the passion of the worshippers. and God's sweet presence was evident.
thanks babe for praying for me. for submitting my heart and spirit to God. i needed it. and i felt a breakthrough. though not dramatic. but its a start. something exciting is going to happen. i'm re-energising! haha. love you dear.
all in all. thursday rocked.
as always. i love seeing the ones i love.haha.
oh yes. and ng weiyee is very naughty.
she kept focussing the camera on me, so i was constantly projected on the BIG SCREEN in the AUDI!
after the whole event la. when pple were just lingering and chatting. she is very naughty.
very naughty!
into Your hands, i commit again. with all i am, for You Lord.
let me hear a "woot! woot!".
haha. so retarded.
cant stand myself.
anyway..
yesterday marked our first big campus day of prayer.
where we tried to rally the christians in ntu to pray and intercede for our campus.
it is amazing how God closed all the doors for us to get other venues.
but He indeed does not hold out on us.
He gave me the hugest, grandest venue in our whole campus!
THE NANYANG AUDITORIUM!
[sitting capacity: abt 1000].
in maths tutorial in the morning,
drew eu and i were just talking.
wondering how many pple were gonna turn up for the event. and eu mentioned that God spoke to her in the morning that it is not the matter of the number of people who comes, but rather their heart's condition. and that we should appreciate everyone of those who come down.[ abt 200+ pple came down i think. =) ]
sidetrack: i absolutely adore it when the three of us have a serious conversation about God and what He spoke to us. its one of the best things of our friendship that i really hold dear to. cos we can go from really random retarded things [like clapping rhythms in the stairwells] to serious sharing of God's Word. it always always warms my heart to hear what God has been speaking to them, and to share with them things that i get impressed with as well. Gorgeous i tell you. gorgeous.
so anyhoo..after class jessica and i came back to my class to change to our dresses.
haha. it feels good to dress up once in a while.
lyrics of shania twain's "man, i feel like a woman" come to mind.
hahaha.
we managed to get crystal and jix last min to do backup singing.
cos initially it was just me backup and shaohong as worship leader.
the two of them can harmonize la!
i wanna learn how to harmonize!
but i know that im too scared to try. cos i will have to be out-of-tune a few times before i can finally get the notes for harmony. roar.
worship went really well. could really sense the passion of the worshippers. and God's sweet presence was evident.
thanks babe for praying for me. for submitting my heart and spirit to God. i needed it. and i felt a breakthrough. though not dramatic. but its a start. something exciting is going to happen. i'm re-energising! haha. love you dear.
all in all. thursday rocked.
as always. i love seeing the ones i love.haha.
oh yes. and ng weiyee is very naughty.
she kept focussing the camera on me, so i was constantly projected on the BIG SCREEN in the AUDI!
after the whole event la. when pple were just lingering and chatting. she is very naughty.
very naughty!
into Your hands, i commit again. with all i am, for You Lord.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand
its amazing how some beautiful songs are left in your mp3 player and you never realised you had them. this song is one of them. i only just discovered its beauty. the lyrics are so assuring, dont you think? =)
on Christ the solid rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand.
on Christ the solid rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
from today's daily bread [online]:
In part, this is what Jesus was challenging us to understand in Matthew 5:13-16. Salt and light are influential factors in a dark and corrupting world, and Christ, who is the Light of the world, calls us to be lights of influence as well. The Master who modeled perfect purity calls us to be salt that adds flavor and prevents corruption.
May we not only be influenced by Christ but also be influencers for Christ in a needy world. —Bill Crowder
Lord, let me be a shining light
In all I say and do,
That Your great love displayed in me
May lead someone to You. —Sper
As the "salt of the earth," Christians will make others thirsty for the "Water of Life."
be extra kind to someone today,
because every one is fighting a battle.
- a quote my Pastor read from somewhere.
let me be a Shining Light.
In part, this is what Jesus was challenging us to understand in Matthew 5:13-16. Salt and light are influential factors in a dark and corrupting world, and Christ, who is the Light of the world, calls us to be lights of influence as well. The Master who modeled perfect purity calls us to be salt that adds flavor and prevents corruption.
May we not only be influenced by Christ but also be influencers for Christ in a needy world. —Bill Crowder
Lord, let me be a shining light
In all I say and do,
That Your great love displayed in me
May lead someone to You. —Sper
As the "salt of the earth," Christians will make others thirsty for the "Water of Life."
be extra kind to someone today,
because every one is fighting a battle.
- a quote my Pastor read from somewhere.
let me be a Shining Light.
AAAAHHH!!! EUGENIA LOH BLUFF SPIDER!!
i DID NOT psycho her to jump on the bus!!!!!
DID NOT!! D-I-D N-O-T!!
this is what happened...while on the shuttle bus on our way back to my hall.
seated at the last row...
me: you know. last time in secondary school, i would tompang the primary school bus sometimes. and the small girls will always run to the back row and jump in their seat when the bus goes over a hump. cos you'll get to suspend in the air longer.
eugenia: ok. when is the next hump?
NOTE: SHE INITIATED US TO TRY IT!!
me: i dont think we have any more humps.
eu: ok. why dont we jump when the bus turns!
me: cannot la! i will hit my face on the glass! [i was seated at the side]
eu: hahahahha. but can..almost the same effect.
so when the bus turned, i jumped a bit. not shiok.
then finally a hump came..
both: coming coming!
-front tyre goes over the hump-
eu: -JUMPS- : hey why you never jump?
-back tyre goes over hump-
me: -jumps- WWOOAAHH!!
eu: -laughs nonstop-
-we alight-
me: kuku la you! must jump when the back tyre goes over what! why you jump when the front tyre goes over? hahaha.
eu: -still laughing- i felt it! but you jumped so much higher than me! i should have videoed it down! hey..turn your comp on later ok? this is so bloggerable.
---the end--
so you see.. its HER IDEA to do that retarded thing.
i admit i do psycho her to do some retarded things sometimes.. but she's the one who actually chooses to listen to me!
everyone knows not to listen to andrea!
hahaha. [except rebecca! haha. she hasnt learnt it entirely well yet. haha. -love you re.-]
eugenia is so fun to play with. hahaha.
additional: i got a new blogskin! and i love it! =)
i DID NOT psycho her to jump on the bus!!!!!
DID NOT!! D-I-D N-O-T!!
this is what happened...while on the shuttle bus on our way back to my hall.
seated at the last row...
me: you know. last time in secondary school, i would tompang the primary school bus sometimes. and the small girls will always run to the back row and jump in their seat when the bus goes over a hump. cos you'll get to suspend in the air longer.
eugenia: ok. when is the next hump?
NOTE: SHE INITIATED US TO TRY IT!!
me: i dont think we have any more humps.
eu: ok. why dont we jump when the bus turns!
me: cannot la! i will hit my face on the glass! [i was seated at the side]
eu: hahahahha. but can..almost the same effect.
so when the bus turned, i jumped a bit. not shiok.
then finally a hump came..
both: coming coming!
-front tyre goes over the hump-
eu: -JUMPS- : hey why you never jump?
-back tyre goes over hump-
me: -jumps- WWOOAAHH!!
eu: -laughs nonstop-
-we alight-
me: kuku la you! must jump when the back tyre goes over what! why you jump when the front tyre goes over? hahaha.
eu: -still laughing- i felt it! but you jumped so much higher than me! i should have videoed it down! hey..turn your comp on later ok? this is so bloggerable.
---the end--
so you see.. its HER IDEA to do that retarded thing.
i admit i do psycho her to do some retarded things sometimes.. but she's the one who actually chooses to listen to me!
everyone knows not to listen to andrea!
hahaha. [except rebecca! haha. she hasnt learnt it entirely well yet. haha. -love you re.-]
eugenia is so fun to play with. hahaha.
additional: i got a new blogskin! and i love it! =)
Monday, February 05, 2007
its funny how finally my mind is catching up with my body.
i've been running myself too busy. now my mind just tells me to keep silent.
feel like isolating myself and just hiding in my room.
if you find me quieter these few days..just understand that i'm going through a rest stage.
this stage doesnt come often. but it sure is welcomed.
its not that i am getting grumpier or cranky.
just dont really feel like talking and socialising much.
i really just want to hide in my room.
i need to find rest.
both physically and for my soul.
not spending enough time in my Shelter House.
i need more time. to catch up with my work.
to just relax and not worry about anything.
to just be still.
i want 30 hours a day!haha.
but yes yes..i know. it boils down to my own time management.
realised today..when i looked at my organiser that it is THIS sunday that i am taking worship.
i thought it was next.
yay for me..i've got 6 singing commitments over the span of 2 weeks.
and a sharing to do for oasis.
i'm scared.
i feel inadequate.
keep me in prayer. especially for my health.
empower me.
my GV17 module's presentation is tomorrow.
and i still am unsure whether i should really sing "who am i" by casting crowns.
i'm nervous. roar.
emotional upheaval?
perhaps. roar.
all i want is to find myself in a prayerful and worshipful mood.
to have peace. and rest.
rest.
i've been running myself too busy. now my mind just tells me to keep silent.
feel like isolating myself and just hiding in my room.
if you find me quieter these few days..just understand that i'm going through a rest stage.
this stage doesnt come often. but it sure is welcomed.
its not that i am getting grumpier or cranky.
just dont really feel like talking and socialising much.
i really just want to hide in my room.
i need to find rest.
both physically and for my soul.
not spending enough time in my Shelter House.
i need more time. to catch up with my work.
to just relax and not worry about anything.
to just be still.
i want 30 hours a day!haha.
but yes yes..i know. it boils down to my own time management.
realised today..when i looked at my organiser that it is THIS sunday that i am taking worship.
i thought it was next.
yay for me..i've got 6 singing commitments over the span of 2 weeks.
and a sharing to do for oasis.
i'm scared.
i feel inadequate.
keep me in prayer. especially for my health.
empower me.
my GV17 module's presentation is tomorrow.
and i still am unsure whether i should really sing "who am i" by casting crowns.
i'm nervous. roar.
emotional upheaval?
perhaps. roar.
all i want is to find myself in a prayerful and worshipful mood.
to have peace. and rest.
rest.
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. - Matthew 11:28&29
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
not the greatest rapper- 1000 clowns
I know I'm not the greatest rapper in the world
But would ya, would ya, would ya please be my girl?
I know I'm not the greatest rapper in the world
But would ya, would ya, would ya please be my girl?
I know I'm not the greatest rapper in the world
But please baby, please baby be my girl.
I know I'm not the greatest rapper in this land
But I'll do anything if you'll hold my hand.
MY FAVOURITE SONG OF ALLL TIME!! THANK YOU MR ANDREW TANG THE GREAT!
woohoo. today started off early.
830 lab.
but i made new friends today at lab.
which was good. and at least chivalry was proven to be alive when one of the guys helped me sandpaper my steel sample. =) yay.
im happy. happy.happpyy.
haha. anyhoo..today i almost went crazy rushing my two lab reports.
argh. its amazing what university does to you. one of the reports is one of my worst i have ever smoked out. argh. but at least its a lil comforting to know that lab is only 1 AU.
i guess to a certain extent, Mr David Loh has placed this mental thought in my mind that lab is a serious thing, and has to be done properly.
remember all the solemn-ness in our labs, the silence, the cold stares he gives when you talk. amazing what the mind does to you.
i need more drive in my life i think.
more Spirit of Excellence.
ROAR.
WARNING!
CAROLINE TEOH JEN WEI IS VERY NAUGHTY! AND HIGHLY RETARDED!
ALL PERSONNELS PLEASE KEEP AWAY FROM THIS HAZARDOUS SPECIMEN!
on a serious note.
she really is.
we were walking through the canteen to come up to the library just now.
i was walking at the normal pace, and suddenly i dont see her walking alongside me.
so i turned to see where she was at. and there she was! walking a snail rate. the best part: ON PURPOSE!
so i walked back..grabbed her hand..and walked.
caroline : WAAAHHH!! -fake cry- i dont want to go to the principal's office!
me: -stunned for a while- NO LOR! you've been very naughty. he's gonna scold you.
so i "dragged" her to the library. and made her say sorry to the bust of Lee Wee Nam. our favourite library caretaker..who also happens to be the one who paid for our library. haha.
so she went and said sorry to him. its quite retarded. it amazes me how her brain works.
and so our nicks on msn now are:
Caroline: ANDREA LEE QING!!! Go and say sorry to LWN.. GO!
dRea - CAROLINE TEOH JEN WEI!! GO AND KISS LWN NOW!! naughty lor.
she lights up my life.
ohh! i never mentioned! im on a daniel fast now.
ie. cannot eat meat.
and i am dying! how does twin do it!!??
i cant do without meat.
now i really know that meat is indeed a luxury and God is indeed my Provider. haha.
campus day of prayer is coming. i'm excited to see what God has in store.
its exciting following Christ, no?
woohoo.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
even as you pray, you can feel the peace of God.
even as you pray, you can hear the voice of God.
thank You, for Your chastening allowing me to know that i am being molded.
thank You for Your Word.
thank You for trials that come my way.
i WILL count it all JOY.
we are one body of Christ.
You are so personal. so intimate. so loving.
Never fail to amaze me.
even as you pray, you can hear the voice of God.
thank You, for Your chastening allowing me to know that i am being molded.
thank You for Your Word.
thank You for trials that come my way.
i WILL count it all JOY.
we are one body of Christ.
You are so personal. so intimate. so loving.
Never fail to amaze me.
restless.unsettled.
those are the words that best fit my moods these days.
perhaps its the accumulated lack of sleep.
perhaps its the amount of work that i think i have to tackle but have yet to do it.
but mostly i think its because of my thoughts that have been running about often.
pensive.reflective.
in dire need to be humbled.
why boast of a gift? it is, in its essence, a gift.
of no merit, of no price.
a gift is a gift is a gift.
i need to learn that.
God has been prompting me, and it is yet another hard lesson to learn.
one humbling lesson after another.
perhaps if i had gotten another gift, it would not be so much of a struggle.
but God is in control of every situation.
every thing has its perfect purpose.
and i thank You.
if it were any other gift, my heart would be broken.
my life without a song.
i enjoy every moment.
but i need to focus on the cause of action.
Help me, Lord. every move i make, be it out of love, and not pride.
every one is given a different measure of grace, lest anyone should boast.
Spirit of Excellence.
where is it?
no where to be found.
ingrain colossians 3:23 in me.
i need to realign myself with You.
i need to spend time with You.
i need to stop running.
yet again.
stop running.
i'm sorry Lord.
those are the words that best fit my moods these days.
perhaps its the accumulated lack of sleep.
perhaps its the amount of work that i think i have to tackle but have yet to do it.
but mostly i think its because of my thoughts that have been running about often.
pensive.reflective.
in dire need to be humbled.
why boast of a gift? it is, in its essence, a gift.
of no merit, of no price.
a gift is a gift is a gift.
i need to learn that.
God has been prompting me, and it is yet another hard lesson to learn.
one humbling lesson after another.
perhaps if i had gotten another gift, it would not be so much of a struggle.
but God is in control of every situation.
every thing has its perfect purpose.
and i thank You.
if it were any other gift, my heart would be broken.
my life without a song.
i enjoy every moment.
but i need to focus on the cause of action.
Help me, Lord. every move i make, be it out of love, and not pride.
every one is given a different measure of grace, lest anyone should boast.
Spirit of Excellence.
where is it?
no where to be found.
ingrain colossians 3:23 in me.
i need to realign myself with You.
i need to spend time with You.
i need to stop running.
yet again.
stop running.
i'm sorry Lord.
Monday, January 01, 2007
i ushered in the new year multiple times last night.
with my youth, we counted down abt over 5 times?
haha. every watch tells a different time.
it was fun.
meta was great. assurance of His love and just a subtle change of my heart.
i needed it.
and i'm glad i experienced and got to know Him so much better through the times of worship and sharings.
so many things to be thankful for in 2006.
You answered my prayer and fulfilled my desire. Lord, i want more.
grew so much in 2006, and i'm looking forward to 2007, to serve Him more and in turn depend on His strength so much more. to be His light and His witness.
empower me.
2007 is going to be exciting, seeing growth in not only myself, but in the ones around me.
exciting things are gonna happen this year! i can feel it!
physical health is at its low now. thought i was better, but the cough and nose problems are coming on stronger.
but no worries, Jehovah Rophe will heal me soon. yay.
so after all the words and what not..all i want to say is..
HAPPY NEW YEAR! may 2007 be a year where God's goodness be poured out and proclaimed!
Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary.
with my youth, we counted down abt over 5 times?
haha. every watch tells a different time.
it was fun.
meta was great. assurance of His love and just a subtle change of my heart.
i needed it.
and i'm glad i experienced and got to know Him so much better through the times of worship and sharings.
so many things to be thankful for in 2006.
You answered my prayer and fulfilled my desire. Lord, i want more.
grew so much in 2006, and i'm looking forward to 2007, to serve Him more and in turn depend on His strength so much more. to be His light and His witness.
empower me.
2007 is going to be exciting, seeing growth in not only myself, but in the ones around me.
exciting things are gonna happen this year! i can feel it!
physical health is at its low now. thought i was better, but the cough and nose problems are coming on stronger.
but no worries, Jehovah Rophe will heal me soon. yay.
so after all the words and what not..all i want to say is..
HAPPY NEW YEAR! may 2007 be a year where God's goodness be poured out and proclaimed!
Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Just as God determines the weather, He also controls the cycles in our lives: “To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven” (Eccl. 3:1). Do we resist those seasons and complain about the “snowy” conditions on the horizon? Or do we trust God and thank Him for whatever He has planned for us?
Whatever our situation is today, we can be thankful for God’s seasons. —Dennis Fisher
--daily bread.
studying is really a chore for me.
but i need to learn how to appreciate "hard times" like these.
if i dont "suffer" how could i fully appreciate fun right?
right.
i need to psycho myself more.
COME ON ANDREA!! ONE MORE PAPER!!
everyone is pratically set free already.
i have 28hours and 29mins more!
and caroline just came to my room to scream "ITSS OOVVVEEERRR!!!"
save me.
RRAHHH!!
God rewards hard work.
col. 3:23.
Whatever our situation is today, we can be thankful for God’s seasons. —Dennis Fisher
--daily bread.
studying is really a chore for me.
but i need to learn how to appreciate "hard times" like these.
if i dont "suffer" how could i fully appreciate fun right?
right.
i need to psycho myself more.
COME ON ANDREA!! ONE MORE PAPER!!
everyone is pratically set free already.
i have 28hours and 29mins more!
and caroline just came to my room to scream "ITSS OOVVVEEERRR!!!"
save me.
RRAHHH!!
God rewards hard work.
col. 3:23.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Saturday, November 25, 2006
God has made us in His own image and for His glory.
We can never find true joy until we obey Christ’s admonition to seek “first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness” (Matt. 6:33).
Only then will we sow and reap abundantly, and eat and truly be filled. —Herbert Vander Lugt
O the emptiness of life without the Savior!
Nothing worldly here can truly satisfy;
We can only reap a harvest that’s abundant,
Serving Jesus as to self we daily die. —Bosch
Selfish gratification will lead to spiritual stagnation.
--daily bread Nov 25th.
We can never find true joy until we obey Christ’s admonition to seek “first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness” (Matt. 6:33).
Only then will we sow and reap abundantly, and eat and truly be filled. —Herbert Vander Lugt
O the emptiness of life without the Savior!
Nothing worldly here can truly satisfy;
We can only reap a harvest that’s abundant,
Serving Jesus as to self we daily die. —Bosch
Selfish gratification will lead to spiritual stagnation.
--daily bread Nov 25th.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
burning out? perhaps.
i need to relight.
emotions seem to run hiltter scatter nowadays.
emotions that seem to come at times when i shouldnt be entertaining them.
and when i dont, i seem void of everything.
its a weird feeling.
i feel like a chess piece waiting to be moved.
looking around, seeing everyone else being moved, all except me.
void of events, void of thoughts that seem worthwhile.
just seemingly happy just the way i am.
waiting for the time when my move would be part of the big plan, small yet strategic.
am i moving yet, Lord?
went running yesterday with jem and gabe.
running just seemed different, besides the fact that im out-of-shape.
but rather..i realised my thoughts werent flowing.
which was weird!
i was actually focussing more on my breathing pattern..which i dont usually do so much of.
then i remembered xinli, during training last time, she told us to think of a problem and just keep trying to solve it, the more you cant solve it, more frustration, run more.
haha.
i used to run when i had things on my mind, things to think through, to spend time with God.
now in hall, running in the morning just doesnt seem right, wee hours in the morning is the thing to do.
but i cant run alone.dangerous.
how like that? run only on weekends?
sigh.
i feel like there is this bulk of stuff to think through, perhaps one being figuring out what is the cause of this feeling of passion-driven-voidness. i feel...a lil empty.
perhaps its all the studying, or mental-im gonna study- psychoing that i do to myself that is taking its toil on me.
i need more excitement man.
bring on the holidays sooner!!
realise how my entries get more emo when its during exam periods.
i feel this need to spill all out, but at the same time hold everything back.
argh.
im seriously bipolar.
andrea oh andrea. where have you gone?
do we need to tapdance-jolt you back to life?
or whack you with a piano?
what do we need to bring you back? to relight your inner self?
need a new direction? need more drama?
no no.. no drama. your lil heart cant take it.
what do you need drea? what do you need?
my right brain is getting inactive. it is starting to give me headaches.
why oh why cant i be brilliant in smth?!
like tap! or playing the piano!
i think i wld gain much joy if i succeeded in both.
but i feel so inadequate sometimes, though i feel so happy doing the things i love.
i feel like i can tap the night away..just that my lack of steps would trip me over.
i lose myself when i play my piano..time just flies by..but i would be awoken from my dream melody when my fingers just cant go any further.
argh. i need classes.
save me from myself please.
holding out for a hero.
i need to relight.
emotions seem to run hiltter scatter nowadays.
emotions that seem to come at times when i shouldnt be entertaining them.
and when i dont, i seem void of everything.
its a weird feeling.
i feel like a chess piece waiting to be moved.
looking around, seeing everyone else being moved, all except me.
void of events, void of thoughts that seem worthwhile.
just seemingly happy just the way i am.
waiting for the time when my move would be part of the big plan, small yet strategic.
am i moving yet, Lord?
went running yesterday with jem and gabe.
running just seemed different, besides the fact that im out-of-shape.
but rather..i realised my thoughts werent flowing.
which was weird!
i was actually focussing more on my breathing pattern..which i dont usually do so much of.
then i remembered xinli, during training last time, she told us to think of a problem and just keep trying to solve it, the more you cant solve it, more frustration, run more.
haha.
i used to run when i had things on my mind, things to think through, to spend time with God.
now in hall, running in the morning just doesnt seem right, wee hours in the morning is the thing to do.
but i cant run alone.dangerous.
how like that? run only on weekends?
sigh.
i feel like there is this bulk of stuff to think through, perhaps one being figuring out what is the cause of this feeling of passion-driven-voidness. i feel...a lil empty.
perhaps its all the studying, or mental-im gonna study- psychoing that i do to myself that is taking its toil on me.
i need more excitement man.
bring on the holidays sooner!!
realise how my entries get more emo when its during exam periods.
i feel this need to spill all out, but at the same time hold everything back.
argh.
im seriously bipolar.
andrea oh andrea. where have you gone?
do we need to tapdance-jolt you back to life?
or whack you with a piano?
what do we need to bring you back? to relight your inner self?
need a new direction? need more drama?
no no.. no drama. your lil heart cant take it.
what do you need drea? what do you need?
my right brain is getting inactive. it is starting to give me headaches.
why oh why cant i be brilliant in smth?!
like tap! or playing the piano!
i think i wld gain much joy if i succeeded in both.
but i feel so inadequate sometimes, though i feel so happy doing the things i love.
i feel like i can tap the night away..just that my lack of steps would trip me over.
i lose myself when i play my piano..time just flies by..but i would be awoken from my dream melody when my fingers just cant go any further.
argh. i need classes.
save me from myself please.
holding out for a hero.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
i did smth today.
and a small part of me. changed.
at about the middle of this year.. i felt this prompting to share the song "hard times" with my church.
cos on saturday services, there would words of exhortation and stuff.
so i felt this prompting to share that song. but i never did.
there was once abt a mth back..that my heart beated a lil faster..i was like "now Lord? really?" but i didnt do anything about it.
tonight, after worship, the words of exhortation came from aunt joyce and aunt doris.they were talking about being built on the Rock, about whether our house would stand in the midst of testings, about trusting in God through trials.
then my heart started beating very fast!
and i was like..ok God..so i guess its now.
i was already seated in the first row cos i did support singing.
so i turned to aunt florence and told her about my feeling of ministering that song.
and how scared i was.
she told me to just tell elder yeow kin that i wanted to share a song, and if he feels that its appropriate then go ahead!
so with a lil hesitation, i walked over to elder yeow kin. and he said, "sure!"
so went up..and i told the congregation about my prompting.
and then i sang the song.
I WAS SHAKING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!
the shaking was from within the bones!
my knees and elbows were shivering. and i never felt so nervous before.
not even when i led worship!
thankfully no one could tell, cos my voice didnt quiver.
but WOW!
what an experience.
You are amazing.
Lord, its my prayer that i be continually used by You, to be sensitive to You. keep me in the straight and narrow, chastise me when i go offtrack, help me Lord. cleanse me Lord. mold me. fill me. be with me.
no body thrills me like You do.
and a small part of me. changed.
at about the middle of this year.. i felt this prompting to share the song "hard times" with my church.
cos on saturday services, there would words of exhortation and stuff.
so i felt this prompting to share that song. but i never did.
there was once abt a mth back..that my heart beated a lil faster..i was like "now Lord? really?" but i didnt do anything about it.
tonight, after worship, the words of exhortation came from aunt joyce and aunt doris.they were talking about being built on the Rock, about whether our house would stand in the midst of testings, about trusting in God through trials.
then my heart started beating very fast!
and i was like..ok God..so i guess its now.
i was already seated in the first row cos i did support singing.
so i turned to aunt florence and told her about my feeling of ministering that song.
and how scared i was.
she told me to just tell elder yeow kin that i wanted to share a song, and if he feels that its appropriate then go ahead!
so with a lil hesitation, i walked over to elder yeow kin. and he said, "sure!"
so went up..and i told the congregation about my prompting.
and then i sang the song.
I WAS SHAKING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!
the shaking was from within the bones!
my knees and elbows were shivering. and i never felt so nervous before.
not even when i led worship!
thankfully no one could tell, cos my voice didnt quiver.
but WOW!
what an experience.
You are amazing.
Lord, its my prayer that i be continually used by You, to be sensitive to You. keep me in the straight and narrow, chastise me when i go offtrack, help me Lord. cleanse me Lord. mold me. fill me. be with me.
no body thrills me like You do.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
its been a while.
hello blog!
hall life is fun.
thanks to my darling caroline.
who still has not grown sick of me.
its amazing.
considering she sees me day in and day out.
literally.
she's the first and last person i see.
haha. kinda.
exams are round the corner.
and i am not where near prepared.
no where near even knowing what on earth has been going on in tutorials and lectures.
its horrific.
tried studying for the past 2 days.
and i feel like im lost in the dark, groping for something that doesnt seem tangible.
and even if i caught hold of it, i would not be able to figure out what its for.
argh.
why do scientists have to discover so many stuff!
less stuff discovered, less things for andrea to study.
owell..
been trying to psycho myself that whatever im studying is interesting.
cos it explains alot of stuff.
it Is interesting. just doesnt make that much sense.
help me.
but school life, as always, is such a joy to me.
to see friends everyday. to joke and clown around with.
pranks played and all.
i think we are more prankster-like during exam times.
destress.
led worship on sunday for the first time.
was quite nervous, cos the auditorium was twice as packed as compared to saturday night service.
and there was a peace within.
and it went really well.
thank You, Lord
i really enjoyed sunday's worship.
i cant wait for christmas.
my exams would be over. and meta would be here!
yay.
teleport me please.
hello blog!
hall life is fun.
thanks to my darling caroline.
who still has not grown sick of me.
its amazing.
considering she sees me day in and day out.
literally.
she's the first and last person i see.
haha. kinda.
exams are round the corner.
and i am not where near prepared.
no where near even knowing what on earth has been going on in tutorials and lectures.
its horrific.
tried studying for the past 2 days.
and i feel like im lost in the dark, groping for something that doesnt seem tangible.
and even if i caught hold of it, i would not be able to figure out what its for.
argh.
why do scientists have to discover so many stuff!
less stuff discovered, less things for andrea to study.
owell..
been trying to psycho myself that whatever im studying is interesting.
cos it explains alot of stuff.
it Is interesting. just doesnt make that much sense.
help me.
but school life, as always, is such a joy to me.
to see friends everyday. to joke and clown around with.
pranks played and all.
i think we are more prankster-like during exam times.
destress.
led worship on sunday for the first time.
was quite nervous, cos the auditorium was twice as packed as compared to saturday night service.
and there was a peace within.
and it went really well.
thank You, Lord
i really enjoyed sunday's worship.
i cant wait for christmas.
my exams would be over. and meta would be here!
yay.
teleport me please.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Mighty and gracious, is the Lord Almighty.
Faithful and true, in all Your ways.
Righteous in judgment,full of all compassion,
mighty in power, the everlasting God.
the angels shall praise You.
Your saints will exalt You.
the heavenly hosts,
will worship before You.
all of creation,
will bow down in reverence,
now and forever,
hail You as King.
You are so amazing, and never fail to touch me and assure me of Your care and concern.
no one loves me like You do, Abba Father.
thank You for days like this when i know that You really do hear me and want to communicate with me.
today is the day Lord, i'm marking it down. today is the day Lord, when i am changed forever.
Thank You so much.
i'm gonna start feeding on the meat of Your Word. help me Lord.
its all You now.
hide me under Your wings.
it is in You that i find my confidence and i know i can cast all my cares upon You.
my Alpha and my Omega.
My Peace.
Faithful and true, in all Your ways.
Righteous in judgment,full of all compassion,
mighty in power, the everlasting God.
the angels shall praise You.
Your saints will exalt You.
the heavenly hosts,
will worship before You.
all of creation,
will bow down in reverence,
now and forever,
hail You as King.
You are so amazing, and never fail to touch me and assure me of Your care and concern.
no one loves me like You do, Abba Father.
thank You for days like this when i know that You really do hear me and want to communicate with me.
today is the day Lord, i'm marking it down. today is the day Lord, when i am changed forever.
Thank You so much.
i'm gonna start feeding on the meat of Your Word. help me Lord.
its all You now.
hide me under Your wings.
it is in You that i find my confidence and i know i can cast all my cares upon You.
my Alpha and my Omega.
My Peace.
Monday, October 02, 2006
YOUR LOVE IS AMAZING!!
WWWOOOOWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so happy.
ecstatic!
God is simply amazing.really.
so super duper amazing!
nothing is impossible for You, Lord.
i've moved into hall!
and not only that..but into THE ROOM I WANTED!
wahahaha.
there is this room that is across from caroline's room.
this girl has been staying alone in that double room.
and i've been praying[and pleading] God to grant me that room, so that i would be super near caroline.
i cldnt sleep very well last night.
just so excited and a lil anxious to see if the rooms are allocated, and if they were, where i would end up.
so the morning came, caroline and i went down to the hall office.
me: hi. i'm here to check-in.
lady: ok.hang on.let me see if i can find your name.
me: -while she was still flipping files- are the rooms allocated already?
lady: -nods-
caroline: oh no. i hope we can request to change room.
lady : -shows me the file- here's your room.
caroline and i :-scream!!!!- YYAAYYY!!!
lady: why why? scared me.hahaha.
me: its the room i wanted! yay!! -huge grin-
lady: haha. ok.
so i went about doing the forms and stuff.
and simply BLOWN AWAY!
the probability of me getting that room was SO SLIM.
cos that's the only single available room in caroline's block.
the probability of me ending up in one of the other 3 blocks was very high, cos there are abt 13 other vacancies in the other blocks.
but God chose that room, and He listened my heart's desire and He pre-planned it, and I GOT THE ROOM!
wwhhheeeee!!
God is really amazing.
this is one of the two recent incidents that God has been showing to me that He is real and He is there for me.as long as when i pray, i have faith, and i acknowledge His sovereignty above all.
the other incident was the recent north side family day, when it rained in the morning, and we didnt have any contingency plans, i told God that i trusted Him and that stopping the rain is just a small simple thing.and the rain really stopped!
its amazing how God can move in your life, when you allow Him too.
it was my prayer that i experience God again, moving in my life, to know that He is indeed sovereign.
ever since i came back from philippines,where i experienced such amazing grace and love that God has, and His total sovereignty, i have not been so moved, cos my life is back to routine, and there isnt any major event changes that i need to have great faith and fervent prayers about.
but God has revealed Himself real to me once again.
i'm still trippin' that He has called me His child.
=)
thank You so so so so so much!
WWWOOOOWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so happy.
ecstatic!
God is simply amazing.really.
so super duper amazing!
nothing is impossible for You, Lord.
i've moved into hall!
and not only that..but into THE ROOM I WANTED!
wahahaha.
there is this room that is across from caroline's room.
this girl has been staying alone in that double room.
and i've been praying[and pleading] God to grant me that room, so that i would be super near caroline.
i cldnt sleep very well last night.
just so excited and a lil anxious to see if the rooms are allocated, and if they were, where i would end up.
so the morning came, caroline and i went down to the hall office.
me: hi. i'm here to check-in.
lady: ok.hang on.let me see if i can find your name.
me: -while she was still flipping files- are the rooms allocated already?
lady: -nods-
caroline: oh no. i hope we can request to change room.
lady : -shows me the file- here's your room.
caroline and i :-scream!!!!- YYAAYYY!!!
lady: why why? scared me.hahaha.
me: its the room i wanted! yay!! -huge grin-
lady: haha. ok.
so i went about doing the forms and stuff.
and simply BLOWN AWAY!
the probability of me getting that room was SO SLIM.
cos that's the only single available room in caroline's block.
the probability of me ending up in one of the other 3 blocks was very high, cos there are abt 13 other vacancies in the other blocks.
but God chose that room, and He listened my heart's desire and He pre-planned it, and I GOT THE ROOM!
wwhhheeeee!!
God is really amazing.
this is one of the two recent incidents that God has been showing to me that He is real and He is there for me.as long as when i pray, i have faith, and i acknowledge His sovereignty above all.
the other incident was the recent north side family day, when it rained in the morning, and we didnt have any contingency plans, i told God that i trusted Him and that stopping the rain is just a small simple thing.and the rain really stopped!
its amazing how God can move in your life, when you allow Him too.
it was my prayer that i experience God again, moving in my life, to know that He is indeed sovereign.
ever since i came back from philippines,where i experienced such amazing grace and love that God has, and His total sovereignty, i have not been so moved, cos my life is back to routine, and there isnt any major event changes that i need to have great faith and fervent prayers about.
but God has revealed Himself real to me once again.
i'm still trippin' that He has called me His child.
=)
thank You so so so so so much!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
tonight..as uncle wankam took worship..
we were singing..and then went into free worship..
and after a while of thanking God and talking to Him..i found myself looking around..
getting fidgety..
and then it hit me.
"why are you getting fidgety? isnt God worthy of your praises?your ceaseless praise? have you nothing else to thank Him? nothing else to say? is there a capacity to how much praise there is in you?"
how am i going to go through eternity of worship when i cant even focus on Him for just a short time now?
make me a worshipper inside out, Lord.
i want to give you ceaseless heartfelt praise.
only You are worthy.
so many things on my mind now.
and inertia is GREAT.
i got into hall 14!
it was my first choice.
all thanks to God.
and to everyone who prayed that i get a room!
=)
pray i get a good roomie yeah? and a room near caroline.SUPER near caroline.
=)
yesyes.
so i'm moving in on monday.
but crashing caroline's on sunday first.
and i'm halfway through my packing.
i've got 3 tests,one assignment and one full lab report due..next week.
and i'm getting quite nervous.
but not nervous enough to over come inertia.
roar.
the holidays were good.slacked so much.
so shiok.my goodness.
super duper guilty.
i'm hungry.
okk..off to bed.
You are my peace.
we were singing..and then went into free worship..
and after a while of thanking God and talking to Him..i found myself looking around..
getting fidgety..
and then it hit me.
"why are you getting fidgety? isnt God worthy of your praises?your ceaseless praise? have you nothing else to thank Him? nothing else to say? is there a capacity to how much praise there is in you?"
how am i going to go through eternity of worship when i cant even focus on Him for just a short time now?
make me a worshipper inside out, Lord.
i want to give you ceaseless heartfelt praise.
only You are worthy.
so many things on my mind now.
and inertia is GREAT.
i got into hall 14!
it was my first choice.
all thanks to God.
and to everyone who prayed that i get a room!
=)
pray i get a good roomie yeah? and a room near caroline.SUPER near caroline.
=)
yesyes.
so i'm moving in on monday.
but crashing caroline's on sunday first.
and i'm halfway through my packing.
i've got 3 tests,one assignment and one full lab report due..next week.
and i'm getting quite nervous.
but not nervous enough to over come inertia.
roar.
the holidays were good.slacked so much.
so shiok.my goodness.
super duper guilty.
i'm hungry.
okk..off to bed.
You are my peace.
