i ushered in the new year multiple times last night.
with my youth, we counted down abt over 5 times?
haha. every watch tells a different time.
it was fun.

meta was great. assurance of His love and just a subtle change of my heart.
i needed it.
and i'm glad i experienced and got to know Him so much better through the times of worship and sharings.

so many things to be thankful for in 2006.
You answered my prayer and fulfilled my desire. Lord, i want more.
grew so much in 2006, and i'm looking forward to 2007, to serve Him more and in turn depend on His strength so much more. to be His light and His witness.
empower me.

2007 is going to be exciting, seeing growth in not only myself, but in the ones around me.
exciting things are gonna happen this year! i can feel it!

physical health is at its low now. thought i was better, but the cough and nose problems are coming on stronger.
but no worries, Jehovah Rophe will heal me soon. yay.

so after all the words and what not..all i want to say is..

HAPPY NEW YEAR! may 2007 be a year where God's goodness be poured out and proclaimed!

Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary.

Just as God determines the weather, He also controls the cycles in our lives: “To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven” (Eccl. 3:1). Do we resist those seasons and complain about the “snowy” conditions on the horizon? Or do we trust God and thank Him for whatever He has planned for us?

Whatever our situation is today, we can be thankful for God’s seasons. —Dennis Fisher

--daily bread.

studying is really a chore for me.
but i need to learn how to appreciate "hard times" like these.
if i dont "suffer" how could i fully appreciate fun right?
right.
i need to psycho myself more.
COME ON ANDREA!! ONE MORE PAPER!!

everyone is pratically set free already.
i have 28hours and 29mins more!
and caroline just came to my room to scream "ITSS OOVVVEEERRR!!!"
save me.

RRAHHH!!

God rewards hard work.
col. 3:23.

i cant sleep.
and i need to be up in 5 hours time.
shouldn't have drunk that teh-bing.
darn caffeine.

God has made us in His own image and for His glory.
We can never find true joy until we obey Christ’s admonition to seek “first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness” (Matt. 6:33).
Only then will we sow and reap abundantly, and eat and truly be filled. —Herbert Vander Lugt

O the emptiness of life without the Savior!
Nothing worldly here can truly satisfy;
We can only reap a harvest that’s abundant,
Serving Jesus as to self we daily die. —Bosch

Selfish gratification will lead to spiritual stagnation.

--daily bread Nov 25th.

burning out? perhaps.
i need to relight.

emotions seem to run hiltter scatter nowadays.
emotions that seem to come at times when i shouldnt be entertaining them.
and when i dont, i seem void of everything.
its a weird feeling.

i feel like a chess piece waiting to be moved.
looking around, seeing everyone else being moved, all except me.
void of events, void of thoughts that seem worthwhile.
just seemingly happy just the way i am.
waiting for the time when my move would be part of the big plan, small yet strategic.
am i moving yet, Lord?

went running yesterday with jem and gabe.
running just seemed different, besides the fact that im out-of-shape.
but rather..i realised my thoughts werent flowing.
which was weird!
i was actually focussing more on my breathing pattern..which i dont usually do so much of.
then i remembered xinli, during training last time, she told us to think of a problem and just keep trying to solve it, the more you cant solve it, more frustration, run more.
haha.
i used to run when i had things on my mind, things to think through, to spend time with God.
now in hall, running in the morning just doesnt seem right, wee hours in the morning is the thing to do.
but i cant run alone.dangerous.
how like that? run only on weekends?
sigh.
i feel like there is this bulk of stuff to think through, perhaps one being figuring out what is the cause of this feeling of passion-driven-voidness. i feel...a lil empty.
perhaps its all the studying, or mental-im gonna study- psychoing that i do to myself that is taking its toil on me.
i need more excitement man.
bring on the holidays sooner!!

realise how my entries get more emo when its during exam periods.

i feel this need to spill all out, but at the same time hold everything back.
argh.
im seriously bipolar.

andrea oh andrea. where have you gone?
do we need to tapdance-jolt you back to life?
or whack you with a piano?
what do we need to bring you back? to relight your inner self?
need a new direction? need more drama?
no no.. no drama. your lil heart cant take it.
what do you need drea? what do you need?

my right brain is getting inactive. it is starting to give me headaches.
why oh why cant i be brilliant in smth?!
like tap! or playing the piano!
i think i wld gain much joy if i succeeded in both.
but i feel so inadequate sometimes, though i feel so happy doing the things i love.
i feel like i can tap the night away..just that my lack of steps would trip me over.
i lose myself when i play my piano..time just flies by..but i would be awoken from my dream melody when my fingers just cant go any further.

argh. i need classes.

save me from myself please.
holding out for a hero.

i did smth today.
and a small part of me. changed.

at about the middle of this year.. i felt this prompting to share the song "hard times" with my church.
cos on saturday services, there would words of exhortation and stuff.
so i felt this prompting to share that song. but i never did.

there was once abt a mth back..that my heart beated a lil faster..i was like "now Lord? really?" but i didnt do anything about it.

tonight, after worship, the words of exhortation came from aunt joyce and aunt doris.they were talking about being built on the Rock, about whether our house would stand in the midst of testings, about trusting in God through trials.
then my heart started beating very fast!
and i was like..ok God..so i guess its now.
i was already seated in the first row cos i did support singing.
so i turned to aunt florence and told her about my feeling of ministering that song.
and how scared i was.
she told me to just tell elder yeow kin that i wanted to share a song, and if he feels that its appropriate then go ahead!
so with a lil hesitation, i walked over to elder yeow kin. and he said, "sure!"
so went up..and i told the congregation about my prompting.
and then i sang the song.

I WAS SHAKING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!

the shaking was from within the bones!
my knees and elbows were shivering. and i never felt so nervous before.
not even when i led worship!
thankfully no one could tell, cos my voice didnt quiver.
but WOW!
what an experience.
You are amazing.

Lord, its my prayer that i be continually used by You, to be sensitive to You. keep me in the straight and narrow, chastise me when i go offtrack, help me Lord. cleanse me Lord. mold me. fill me. be with me.

no body thrills me like You do.

its been a while.
hello blog!

hall life is fun.
thanks to my darling caroline.
who still has not grown sick of me.
its amazing.
considering she sees me day in and day out.
literally.
she's the first and last person i see.
haha. kinda.

exams are round the corner.
and i am not where near prepared.
no where near even knowing what on earth has been going on in tutorials and lectures.
its horrific.
tried studying for the past 2 days.
and i feel like im lost in the dark, groping for something that doesnt seem tangible.
and even if i caught hold of it, i would not be able to figure out what its for.
argh.
why do scientists have to discover so many stuff!
less stuff discovered, less things for andrea to study.
owell..
been trying to psycho myself that whatever im studying is interesting.
cos it explains alot of stuff.
it Is interesting. just doesnt make that much sense.
help me.

but school life, as always, is such a joy to me.
to see friends everyday. to joke and clown around with.
pranks played and all.
i think we are more prankster-like during exam times.
destress.

led worship on sunday for the first time.
was quite nervous, cos the auditorium was twice as packed as compared to saturday night service.
and there was a peace within.
and it went really well.
thank You, Lord
i really enjoyed sunday's worship.

i cant wait for christmas.
my exams would be over. and meta would be here!
yay.

teleport me please.

Mighty and gracious, is the Lord Almighty.
Faithful and true, in all Your ways.
Righteous in judgment,full of all compassion,
mighty in power, the everlasting God.

the angels shall praise You.
Your saints will exalt You.
the heavenly hosts,
will worship before You.

all of creation,
will bow down in reverence,
now and forever,
hail You as King.

You are so amazing, and never fail to touch me and assure me of Your care and concern.
no one loves me like You do, Abba Father.
thank You for days like this when i know that You really do hear me and want to communicate with me.
today is the day Lord, i'm marking it down. today is the day Lord, when i am changed forever.
Thank You so much.
i'm gonna start feeding on the meat of Your Word. help me Lord.
its all You now.
hide me under Your wings.
it is in You that i find my confidence and i know i can cast all my cares upon You.
my Alpha and my Omega.
My Peace.

YOUR LOVE IS AMAZING!!
WWWOOOOWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so happy.
ecstatic!
God is simply amazing.really.
so super duper amazing!

nothing is impossible for You, Lord.

i've moved into hall!
and not only that..but into THE ROOM I WANTED!
wahahaha.

there is this room that is across from caroline's room.
this girl has been staying alone in that double room.
and i've been praying[and pleading] God to grant me that room, so that i would be super near caroline.
i cldnt sleep very well last night.
just so excited and a lil anxious to see if the rooms are allocated, and if they were, where i would end up.
so the morning came, caroline and i went down to the hall office.

me: hi. i'm here to check-in.
lady: ok.hang on.let me see if i can find your name.
me: -while she was still flipping files- are the rooms allocated already?
lady: -nods-
caroline: oh no. i hope we can request to change room.
lady : -shows me the file- here's your room.
caroline and i :-scream!!!!- YYAAYYY!!!
lady: why why? scared me.hahaha.
me: its the room i wanted! yay!! -huge grin-
lady: haha. ok.

so i went about doing the forms and stuff.
and simply BLOWN AWAY!

the probability of me getting that room was SO SLIM.
cos that's the only single available room in caroline's block.
the probability of me ending up in one of the other 3 blocks was very high, cos there are abt 13 other vacancies in the other blocks.
but God chose that room, and He listened my heart's desire and He pre-planned it, and I GOT THE ROOM!
wwhhheeeee!!
God is really amazing.

this is one of the two recent incidents that God has been showing to me that He is real and He is there for me.as long as when i pray, i have faith, and i acknowledge His sovereignty above all.

the other incident was the recent north side family day, when it rained in the morning, and we didnt have any contingency plans, i told God that i trusted Him and that stopping the rain is just a small simple thing.and the rain really stopped!

its amazing how God can move in your life, when you allow Him too.
it was my prayer that i experience God again, moving in my life, to know that He is indeed sovereign.
ever since i came back from philippines,where i experienced such amazing grace and love that God has, and His total sovereignty, i have not been so moved, cos my life is back to routine, and there isnt any major event changes that i need to have great faith and fervent prayers about.

but God has revealed Himself real to me once again.
i'm still trippin' that He has called me His child.

=)

thank You so so so so so much!

tonight..as uncle wankam took worship..
we were singing..and then went into free worship..
and after a while of thanking God and talking to Him..i found myself looking around..
getting fidgety..
and then it hit me.
"why are you getting fidgety? isnt God worthy of your praises?your ceaseless praise? have you nothing else to thank Him? nothing else to say? is there a capacity to how much praise there is in you?"

how am i going to go through eternity of worship when i cant even focus on Him for just a short time now?

make me a worshipper inside out, Lord.
i want to give you ceaseless heartfelt praise.
only You are worthy.

so many things on my mind now.
and inertia is GREAT.

i got into hall 14!
it was my first choice.
all thanks to God.
and to everyone who prayed that i get a room!
=)
pray i get a good roomie yeah? and a room near caroline.SUPER near caroline.
=)

yesyes.
so i'm moving in on monday.
but crashing caroline's on sunday first.
and i'm halfway through my packing.

i've got 3 tests,one assignment and one full lab report due..next week.
and i'm getting quite nervous.
but not nervous enough to over come inertia.
roar.

the holidays were good.slacked so much.
so shiok.my goodness.
super duper guilty.

i'm hungry.

okk..off to bed.
You are my peace.

funny conversations over the weekend...

friday : -at vilage [the old marche] at heeren-

russ : hey bec..how do you spread your icecream so smoothly?
bec : -looks at him-
russ : oh. yours is a waffle. hahahaha.
bec : -looks at russ' crepe with ice cream smeared on it. bursts into laughter.-

sidenote : rebecca had chocolate ice cream on waffle. russell had caramel ice cream on CREPE with mangoes.

this was how it looked after his attempt of smooth smearing...














saturday : -at home-
morning:
me : daddy..where are you going?
daddy : teck whye..going to..blah blah blah..and buy blood worms for the discus.you want anything?
me : A TURTLE PLEASE!
daddy : no. no turtles in this house.
me : why! margharita died! i want another turtle! terapine also can.
daddy : noo. no turtle. when you go holiday who will take care?
me : haiyahh..okk..

and my sister is so sweet...she went to town on saturday..and on the account that i pissed her off when she got home..she didnt give me a present she actually bought for me.
so today..she gave it to me. after i gave her ten repeated reasons why im a good girl.
she bought me a turtle!!

introducing my new study buddy....















HENRY THE TURTLE!

sunday :
-in church-

me : i need wear an insole in my right shoe cos my right foot is half a size smaller than my left foot.
joy : your right foot is half a foot smaller huh..orhh..
me : no its half a SIZE not half a FOOT.
both of us started giggling for a good 2 mins.. [note giggling..cos it was during service]
joy : haha.if its half a foot..yar..buying shoes quite hard.
me : yar. i would have to buy one kid's size and another normal size.

i love joy. seriously.what would life be without my joyjoy.haha.

-at home-
after having a friendly banter..
drey : return the turtle!
mummy : huh? what turtle??
drey : yar. you dont know meh..we bought a turtle. its in the discus tank.
mummy : -walks over to the discus tank- where is it?? does your daddy know? the turtle cannot dirty the discus tank! where is the turtle???
me : -points to the filter- its behind the filter! daddy doesnt know.
mummy -starts panicking a lil-
drey : haha. go show mummy the turtle go.
me : -took the turtle from my room and showed it to mummy. much to her relief-
mummy : this one so much cuter la.



i love the people in my life.
haha.

my heart is in Your hands.
no matter how hard i struggle with You..please dont let it go.

ame told me once to commit all emotions to God.
and i am gonna trust in Him.
no no..andrea is not falling for anyone.
just thinking..cos everyone gets burnt by love..placing importance of immediate satisfaction..not seeing down further.
but its not easy being young and all.

i want to be found in Your embrace, let me lose myself in You and nothing else.

love unfailing, overtaking my heart, You take me in.
finding peace again, fear is lost in all You are.

yet another lazy afternoon yesterday.
made me miss the empty sports gymnasium in mg..after every training.
when the school is practically empty and silent and the sun sets behind us whilst we hull our tired bodies to the toliet..
to flood the whole area before heading to the canteen to have our tomyam noodles and orangina.
i miss the those days.
woke up thinking of stella..cos i suddenly remembered eugenia telling me that stella used to sing the stacy orico's song.
and i dont really remember stella much of a singing-often person.hmm.
i miss her. her optimism and her "nagging"..no no..motivational speeches..her "haiyah andrea!you know..." getting me to study and all.
and she is a super good persuader.cheryl usually gives in with a "ok la!ok la!"...or "STEELLAAA!!!"
you are missed miss-a-la-la-la-la-loong. =)

going through a somewhat pensive confused phase.
each time when i am alone or quiet..i feel as if i would go into silent mode for the rest of the day.
dont feel like talking much.
but the moment i am around people..i would go into this hyper-retarded random state.
i seriously do think i am retarded.argh.
running out of things to talk to people about too. i guess it boils down to my lack of general knowledge.
but one cant help it if one aint interested in stuff like that right?
i need to grow up. i know.
find me a neverland.

trust in the Lord's timing.
give Him your all.

isnt it funny how each time you feel like you've done so much for a person.
and yet the same cannot be reciprocated back to you. even just a listening ear.
the feeling is so frustrating. and yet..nothing can be done.
cos you still love the person too much to want to scold him/her.
and even if you do..you might end up just scolding what seems like a wall.
or worse..the wall will dig up all the past and throw it back in your face.
and it just doesnt seem justified. it just doesnt.

sometimes..
i wish i was less of a people person and find myself in seclusion more often.
i wish i was more vocal and outspoken when i need to be.
i wish i could open up to people easier than being on high guard.scared of getting hurt/betrayed.
i wish i would be less introspective and see the bigger picture.
i wish i didnt have emo days like this. when you feel like crying for no rhyme or reason.and the tears dont come.


hide me in the cleft of the Rock.

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!



LEO KEEPS BLUFFING ME!


usually when my silly dog wants to do his "business"..he would circle around an area sniffing the ground.
that's the sign for us to place a sheet of newspaper for him to aim on.
that has been the tradition for many years.

but in the recent months..my dog has come up with a new amusement!
he would do the same circling sniffing thing..
and when i place a piece of newspaper on the ground.
he would jump and crumple it and tear it up.
just for the fun of it.
its highly irritating. cos he is so retarded!
here i am..anxious to place the paper down, just in case i am "too late".
but there he is just happy that he gets a new sheet of paper to chew on.
argh.

my dog is either getting senile..or he really is out to bully me.
roar.

streams of sunlight.
lazing dog.
serenading birds.
sound of the machine drum spinning.
archie comics by the bedside.
clothes drying in the wind.
sesame street for education.
jamie oliver,yummy delights.

finally...

a slow-paced day.
all to and by myself.

it has been a long while since i have been able to do things at a slowed down pace..to sleep whenever i want..
and to be the lil domestic helper that my mum has been harping me to be.

housechores can actually give one a sense of satisfaction.
amazing.

collected my contact lens today..made a new pair since my last one tore.

did more thinking today. which is wonderful.

perhaps all tuesdays should be like this.




but eugenia would kill me.i shouldnt pon lectures.

i want to become a hermit crab.
find me a shell please.
i want to go into hiding.

honey lemon tea.

FINALLY!!
andrea is finally online.
my wireless is working at last.
and my mac..well..some how i cant connect wirelessly..but at least i am finally back in the world of msn and blogs.
yay.
oh yes!

in the midst of my hustle and bustle of getting my internet back up..i forgot to mention.
i've got myself TWO NEW BABIES!
i am a happy girl.
maybe now i can go on and finally really enjoy my new acquisitions.

i got a black macbook and a black ipod video.

yay.
i have satisfied my carnal materialistic cravings.
terrible.i know.
each time these feelings come..my parents get a big burn.

i must abstain from expensive items now.

school has started.
and i need someone to kick me hard.
i am still very much in denial that school has started and there are tutorials to get done.
ARGH!

but i am quite excited about this new sem.
i realised that there are quite a no. of common break slots with my favourite pple.

OH!!
i have a thanksgiving.
i have been wanting to get forensic science for the longest time.
and on tuesday..they surprisingly opened up not 100..but 400 places!
and our lecture is held in our school's auditorium..so our cohort for that module is like..over 1100 pple.
its madness. but i am so glad.
cos my good frens are all in the class with me..
enting, dor, edlyn, izzy, eugenia, caroline, drew and twin!
yay!
and forensic is really interesting. a tad bit morbid. and its after lunch time too.
its gonna be a good sem. -i hope-

freshmen vision tea was on thursday..and i had to share my testimony..thankfully it was in the form of a skit..and i shared abt my gen12ii trip. of my tripping over the projector and how God supernaturally healed it. It was realy all Him as i spoke, i tend to get incoherent and speak really fast when i get nervous. i kept praying before going up. and He is so faithful really.

had to call the freshies this week to ask if they would want to know more about crusade..i think about 4 of them are "abandoning" me..haha..cos they have decided to join the indonesian student christian fellowship.
which is all good. as long as we are all serving in campus. =)

exciting sem. new responsibilities. new opportunities. new hope.

God is good all the time.

2 days of internet cold turkey + 4 days trying to get my mac connected = one very frustrated and tired andrea.

sty in my eye.

oh sty in my eye.

please go away,

sty in my eye.

why oh why, is there

a sty in my eye.

it hurts me so.

please go go GO!

outcome of drinking insufficient amount of water.

called my freshies today.

so exciting.

my hands were cold and clammy.

i am shy!

shy!

my tongue gets tied and i am at a lost of words.

but He is faithful. i managed to date 4 girls out.

kenna rejected by 2.

but its alright! =)

He has everything orchestrated.

its all in Your hands.

roar.

tutorials are starting.

hold my hand. dont let me go.

i feel helpless and at a lost of things to do.

i need You.

my heart and flesh cries out,

for You, the Living God.

Your Spirit is water to my soul.

i've tasted and i've seen,

come once again to me.

i will draw near to You.

i will draw near to You.

tweet's and ber's birthday is the same as singapore's!

it was fantastic fun during tweet's 21st birthday lunch at PS cartel..and also watching adam sandler's "click".

i hope you enjoyed yourself babe. i hope you felt wonderful.

thanks to all who came.. =)
it was super exciting coming out for tweet's birthday outing..cos we didnt know who exactly were coming.
and WWOOO!!! it was fabulous to say the least.

thank you so much to jason too! you're fantabulous, brudder! FANTABULOUS!

may God continue to smile and sing over you, tweet, as you embark on another phase in life.

YOU ARE GREATLY LOVED BY MANY PEOPLE, ALBERT HALIM! GREATLY LOVED!

dont hide one corner and cry anymore ok? wahahaha.

-kiddin-

after watching movie..i rushed from PS to centrepoint to get lembu's present..and then to taka to fetch my darling ame.
we headed down to west coast park for lembu's birthday bbq.
we sang many great hits from veggie tales.
haha.craziness.
=)

HAPPY BELATED 21st BIRTHDAY LEMBU LOO LOO!!

yupp..
tomorrow night..going out with my girls to celebrate janetta's 21st birthday..
excited.

so many birthdays in the month of august..
to those whom i'm close to..
please..please...by any means..dont conceive your kid in august next time ok??
or i'm gonna be a self declared bankrupt next time each august.

i need to start saving money man..
next year...there are gonna be many MANY MANY 21st birthday parties.

alright..many more birthdays coming up this month.
its all so exciting.
i love birthdays.

birthdays are not meant to be celebrated alone.

funny phrase of the day : ok.who is the c*ckster who pressed??!

wahaha.
if you dont get it..its aight.

another fantastic day..and all thanks be to You.

and like the blink of an eye..

my holidays are officially over.

FOC was rocking.
God gave us such perfect weather..and everything flowed well.
A HUGE SHOUT OUT to my games comm.
thank you darlings so so much.
you all were great help in planning and organising the games.
i really thank God for each and everyone of you.

ROAR!!!
=)

its gonna be an exciting year..there are gonna be many emerging ninja crusaders..
and they are gonna be mighty warriors!!
wooo..exciting.

God is really on the move.and its such an adventure following after Him.

ktv with the crusaders was fun too.
highly embarrassing too actually.cos of some stupid songs i sang and actions i did.
im really quite retarded.

been busy meeting up with many of my friends.
and planning and getting ready for the next semester.

im quite apprehensive about next sem..so many new responsibilities.
but...BUT...i am trusting God to provide and guide me.

my hair is ruffled...but i'm gonna get them all neatened.

i need to start looking outwards..to be clay vessel and stop thinking im gonna be a vase someday.

it is not me they need to see.
it is You.

and in the midst of my busy-ness..
i've hurt you on the way..and i am really sorry for not being there for you when you needed my shoulder.
it did cross my mind each time i checked my inbox to message you..
but its my constant flaw to tend to get distracted easily.
its a flimsy excuse..and i am ashamed to say that i have indeed failed you.
i hope you'll talk to me when you're feeling better.
i know we're growing apart..and there's an inevitable distance between us.
i just hope you'll understand.
i really am sorry.



and so the happy days ended.