argh..why on earth are there links to some of my words?like..time..trust..school...like..wassup?? hello..argh.. anyway..went for chem tuition today..with ms tan..it was good..learnt quite alot.must study hard..rah..
well..since i feel like posting poems and stuff..i shall post one that i wrote some time ago..havent been writing new ones for quite a while..i'll go find my book in which i wrote quite a no. of poems in sec 2..yup..here goes..not quite a poem..just..a stanza abt stuff..yup.
 
my only source of joy
slipping out of my fingers
fading into the darkness
out of my presence
out of my reach.
[written on 27.02.04]
 
yup..anyway..im not feeling too well now..like..cant breathe properly abit cos have a slight cough..rah..hafta go..have work to do..

they changed their layout!!im not used to this..argh..anyway..just read my fren's fren blog..feel so inspired..he wrote poems and stuff..pretty deep stuff..owellz..i'll go figure a poem/rhyme up..give me time..
went for tuiton today..maths..first lesson.when i walked in..there was a hwa chong guy there already..i was very shy..[if you did not know..i am shy]yup..den the tutor was frwoning when he was looking thru my physics exam paper...rah..
after a while..a hcjc girl walked in..talk abt being out numbered..den..after an hour..eliza..this girl from pjc net ball walked in..but since im not frens with her..not even acquitance..i didnt say a word to her..rah..i cant wait to go tuition with charmain..at least i can be my normal noisy self..its very awkward for me to remain silent..its just..not me!
going again next tuesday for physics tuition..i really must start mugging..this exam is gonna determine my future..and i dun wanna regret again..i have already regretted my O's..i dun wanna regret my A's..yup.
 
 
anyway..to my laopo..girl..i love you..a lot..though i dun express it more than just holding yr hands..but ya..i'm sorry for not knowing what to say at times when you need me the most..but i hope that by me standing by you shows you that im here for you..for happy and sad times..just call me when you need a listening ear or a mad monkey ya..though..im flawed..i'll try my best..k??even if i fail..remember that God loves and cares for you..humans are finite..but God is infinite..ya?
 
till death do we part..

in the school library yet again..have an hour break..gotmy chemistry back yesterday..got an O..but im happy..at least i improved by a grade.
after school..shir and i took a cab to acjc to visit selena and liz.met some of sel's frens.quite nice pple.but as i was there pretty late i didnt see that many pple. hi this is everybody's favourite darling KONG!!! [and daniel lim!!]
erm..ok..as i was saying..the school was pretty deserted by the time we got there.sigh.
after that we went took a cab to shir's hse to bathe and get ready.
we met edwin and gang at the victoria concert hall..we took a cab again.sigh.notice how we are always running for time.that explains my financial deficiency.rah. edwin and gang all look so typical boy-school boys.but they're quite nice.gary and edwin gave up their seats for shir ad i when we couldnt find any.yup.they sat on the floor instead.anyway..we were all waiting for our beloved zixiang to appear.when he did..i must admit..he looked really good in his black suit and red tie..den..he did his solo[sakura]..so zai..my goodness.but could tell he was nervous cos his voice shaked abit..but still very zai..we were standing and screaming like mad monkeys after his song..haha..very proud of him..well done twin.
after the whole performance we stood outside with sir stamford raffles and talked until shir's daddy came to fetch us home.got home at 11.tiring day.shir and i felt like we travelled the whole of spore eventhough we didnt..yup.still quite tired now.hafta go do work.or rather.try.yup.ttfn folks!

:: my happy ending :: avril lavigne ::

Let's talk this over,
It's not like we're dead.
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead,
Held up so high,
On such a breakable thread.

You were all the things I thought I knew,
And I thought we could be...

You were everything, everthing that I wanted...
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of the memories so close to me just fade away...
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending.

You've got your dumb friends,
I know what they say.
They tell you I'm difficult,
But so are they.
But they don't know me,
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me,
All the sh** that you do?

You were all the things I thought I knew, and I thought we could be...

You were everything, everthing that I wanted...
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of the memories so close to me just fade away...
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending.

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you care,
And makin' me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all,
Thanks for watching as I fall,
And letting me know we were done....

He was everything, everything, that I wanted...
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of the memories so close to me just fade away...
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending.(X2)

So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending....

i think this song is the perfect post break up song..it describes things well..well..for me it does..just the chorus..the part abt his frens..doesnt really apply..

just went to play badminton with drey and her fren[sarizah]..it was quite fun..didnt move around much though..owellz..hopefully my daddy will play with me soon..den i can really get some exercise in..
getting my chem back tml..i tell you smth lame that happened..
mr tan[my chem tcher] : you will be getting yr scripts back tml.
yuci[my classmate] : huh..[in chinese] ming tian wo men hui biao yen ar?

phwoar..goodness..yuci though a man of few words..but he's very lame..*cries*

watching channel 8 now..they shout quite alot..i think xie shaoguang is really talented..very professional..one moment he's a faggot..next he's some bengster..pro.

hafta go bathe now..have a conference call with the squashers to decide when we're going for jean's bday lunch..hopefully we'll come to a conclusion..cos the last time we attempted..it didnt result in a decision..and its funny when 6 pple are having a conversation and talking all at the same time..shouting to get attention..haha..hafta go..ttfn..

yay..quite happy..got my physics back..to my pleasant surprise i got a D on the dot..i expected to fail..yet again..its amazing.as in seriously..i dun mean to brag or anything..i too think its unfair..i dun feel as if i deserve my grade..and i feel sorta bad cos i dunnoe how to express myself well enough..and i dun wanna come across as being arrogant or anything unpleasant..i know alvan isnt too happy that i did better than him..cos i seriously didnt study hard for my this exams...i feel very bad..sigh.but happy too that i passed.

perplexed.

i got a C5 for my gp..2nd in class i think..but..im not too happy..i wanted a B for my gp..william boo[highest in class] got 14 marks more than i did..im quite disappointed in my essay..2nd worst one i've written..but well..need to buck up..i think when it comes to the A levels..my essay will seriously pale in comparision to other school papers..rah.

in the school library now..venting my frustrations..i type too loudly i think..owellz..dun care..rah rah rah...have lessonwith piang piang at 2..hafta go home and do my tuition work..[gonna start chem tuition this saturday]..yup.have 4 topics to cover..

alvan got a new goal..to beat me in the upcoming prelims..my new goal..to prevent it from happening..haha..

tml is gonna be an exciting day i think..very jam-packed..going to ACJC after skool to pass my present to my beloved nutnut[selena] and see my twin[liz]..probably doing lunch with her..my laopo is coming along with me..after that..in the evening..going to victoria concert hall to watch SRJC performance..zx is doing a solo..jap song i think..yup..exciting..

i bought.or rather..my sister bought 4 new badminton rackets last night..OH WAIT...let me tell you abt my beloved mj[mark johnathan mohan]..last night we went to sakae sushi to eat..den i was looking at the menu and pointed to the decorative orchid on the plate in the picture and told him that it looked good..he said really ar?den he asked the waiter nearby that i wanted to know if he sold the orchid..i was so embarrassed..the waiter was cute la..rah..den..it was the same waiter who counted our plates for us..and he asked him again whether he sold any other flower or smth like that..i was so embarrassed...
k..bell just rang..hafta run...dehua keeps making typing noises..hmmz...

SO PRETTY!!!!!!!!

happy.happy.happy.happy.happy.

thanks becca!! [my cousin]..this is so rocking..haha..

i think i need to go for a crash course in blogging or smth..my blogging skills suck..

anyway..im happy..by God's grace i passed my maths!!*screams* its like so..mad monkey[new phrase]..hahaha..i was expecting an O or F..but..i got a B.pRayEr wOrKs.yup.so take this as my testimony..gtg..at re's hse now..going home..clara's here!!*yay!*

anyway..hoope you like my new skin..it so totally rocks..now i just need to find a nice song to flow with it..heh..*screams!*

wow...tiring day..went to jess's "summer hse" at summerhill with ayeeba and shir..to hang out and watch vcds..den jean joined us afterwards..i was late for my meeting with my mummy..took a cab den kennaed a ear-full from her..haiiz...but..im happy..happy happy happy..i bought five tops..and ate xiao long baos for dinner..feel quite bad for spending so much of my mummy's money..but well..its not that often that i do it..heh..im so materialistic..muahaha..anyway..im really tired now..school is resuming tml..hafta go rush my electrolysis tutorial..sigh..im tired..lesson ive learnt today..dun give up..no matter what..and..trust that whatever God throws in yr direction is for the best..His thoughts are higher than ours..=)

MY MID YEARS ARE OVER!!YEAH BABY YEAH!!haha.i wrote another comedy.owellz.but..its all over!!yippee yay yay! im not looking forward to the day our results come back though.rah.
went orchard with shir amelia and ayeeba.the four of us go hysterical when we're together.but im very happy.=) we makaned and walked ard far east for like three hours.ate ya kun for tea break.very happy.shir and i bought watches for $9.90 each.there;s a butterfly on the face of the watch.very pretty.i bought a pair of ear rings too.and sel's bday prezzie.we shopped for yusheng's prezzie too.met him at wisma to pass it to him.glad he likes the t-shirt.but..all the walking took its toll on my knees..they're hurting now..argh..and im supposed to go play squash with rachel tml..help.i hafta go find or buy squash balls tml..and i hope..wish..and pray..that rachel still has her racket..otherwise...we hafta use my baobei (my racket) and my old wilson racket which now resembles a rattler.cos when you shake it..it has a rattling thing inside..dun noe wad it is also..haha..
yup..gonna go chel's for steamboat tml night..and do some catching up..so happy..yay yay yay..
anyway..today..my tongue is very tricky tricky..keep saying the wrong words..like..bird's nest..i said fish nest..and other hilarious stuff.rah.my tongue needs to go for obedience classes.haha.
im very happy and excited that i have freedom for now..repeat..for now..play and play and play and play....yippee...
i saw a lot of nice clothes today..the new shop at taka..F men and F women has rocking clothes!!i saw this striped colourful long sleeve shirt..the pink one was nice too..and giordano has nice tops and bottoms..and..and.hmz..let me think..saw so many beautiful beautiful things..hahaha..oh yes! topshop had nice pairs of striped pants..and oh..AND..i saw the suit that i wanna get..heh heh..happy..
today was a good day to satisfy my materialistic hunger..yum..
oh yes..love you girls for spending time with me..*hugs*

woohooz..physics is over and done with!!yeah baby.but i found it quite bad..cos the topic i didnt learn..ie waves and superposition..came out 20 marks plus..yup..yip yippeee..gonna fail.haiiz.i didnt leave out any blanks..but i think..i wld have been better off blaming aliens for some of my answers than the ones i gave for explanations.owellz.i wrote a comedy.

anyway..i'm very sian..its like..i wanna do stuff..but..spore is so small and boring after awhile..if its not shopping and watching movies..its sentosa..and stuff..its like..so "been there done it" ya know.rah.

been very lonely nowadays..not really..just a bit..cos when im bored and wanna talk to somebody..i dun really have many pple to call..i always end up calling shir..and we more or less talk abt the same stuff..i dun mind..i like crapping with her..but..its not nice disturbing her all the time..and if i call others..like..nothing much to talk abt..cos my life at this point in time is boring.haha.

feeling lethargic.gonna go bum around.oh btw..i like the chinese shows on channel eight now..the 7 and 9 pm ones..woohooz..rock.

i dont worry abt tomorrow.
i just live from day to day.
i dont borrow from its sunshine
for its skies may turn to grey.

i dun worry o'er tomorrow
for i know what Jesus said
and today i'll walk beside Him
for He knows what is ahead.

many things abt tomorrow
i dont seem to understand
i dont know abt tomorrow
but i know who holds my hand

So true right!!well..almost.haha.my papers have been exciting.i dun know how bad or well i'll do.i just tried my best with what little i learnt.haha.so..yup.what ever grades im gonna get is what i deserve.little effort deserve little marks.heh.glad its almost over.yippee!just have physics tml and chem next tues.yup.

on the phone with laopo now and im criticizing nathan and charlie from the show hi-5.kathleen and tim so obviously rock harder.hahaha.yay!

so glad so many pple are back in town.like..rachel..pam..lian..jess..yay.i wanna go night safari!but..shir and feng dun wanna go.so unfair.and the last time they were there was during our primary 5 camp!oh goodness.rah.shir wants to see her pigs.so oink oink.rah.but i also see their new horses.so..maybe it wldnt be so bad after all.haha.yay.i wanna go sentosa too!!im getting fair!!heh.lalalala.cant wait for the exams to end..*excited*

k..nothing to say le..wish me all the best!=)

p.s: notice how im trying to paragraph.hahaha.

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had chemistry paper 3 today.exciting.cos i dun noe the degree of failure.didnt study.much.so yup.i'll be lying if i said i didnt study.i crammed.last minute.so im not sure how much went in.yup.tried my best.owellz.been evaluating myself nowadays.like relationship wise and stuff.not very happy with myself.like..my inadequacy(spelt correctly?) to make strong friends with pple ive just met.cos i realized i keep hanging around pple who grew up with me.like in pj..i stick to ayeeba shir and amelia.and dun hang much with my class.last year's or this year's.in church as well..if jer joy and mao arent in church..i feel so alone.cos the others are either sec three sec two..or..twenty plus.so..yup.rah.i need to overcome this.and i recently just hurt someone without the intention to.haiiz.its distracting to know that you have caused someone pain and not know how to go about solving it.just hope time will heal.owellz.and prayer.my exams are this week.this is the most unprepared ive ever been.how exciting.thankfully im getting tuition soon and wldnt screw my A's as bad as im screwing my midyrs now.sigh.ive got enlightened.i must pia and get good results so i can be reunited with my liz and selena and everyone else in NUS.been away for far too long.yup.new motivation.and..im gonna go crazy enjoying my singlehood.freedom.liberation.and all.woohooz.im glad im a female!

its for SURE!!confirm!im changing my laopo.goodness.what exac>ly is so funny abt being the greek god morpheus?!!?hmmz shirlene yeong??haha..anyway.ive overeaten this weekend.abt sakae sushi on saturday.ate a whole lot.den had root beer float at the cafe next door to my church.and had supper after that with the youth at alexander village.den..today..i had wanton mee for brkfast.had kenny rogers for lunch.had the boney combo at nydc.which consists of a cake and ice cream,and just ate my dinner.haiiz.i think i shld just give up.and grow obese.haha.kiddin.hmmz.
i realised that my blog is quite superficial.like..when i read shumin's and others blogs.they are thought-provoking and all.mine is just..a report.haha.guess this is reflective of how often im actually thinking deep.haha.
my laopo went msia over the weekend.wonder if she remembered and missed me.hmmz.lion went to msia too.haha.must be pretty fun having relatives in msia.just travel back and forth.i wldnt mind.too bad i dun have any there.owellz.
today is father's day.so..to all the guys..HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!
bought my daddy a air jordan red t-shirt.its quite nice.must buy things that are more happening for my daddy.so he doesnt seem old.haha.but i love him anyway.gonna wake to watch the spain vs portugal match later.but..i just saw the news and it said that some other guy is gonna replace MY MORIENTES!!how could they?!!?!?haiiz.hopefully the nehneh coach changes his mind and lets my handsome play.heh.
hafta pia like a mad monkey this week.but my future seems grim.owellz.nothing much to xie le!take care peeps.esp to those taking their mid years this week.those in AC.yupz.

yoz..im back.had youth camp at changi there.the chalet is like really huge.but i did alot of blood donation..to the mosquitoes association of changi.haha.alot of bites now.keep scratching and scratching.nehneh.so itchy siah.haiiz.we had amazing race on tuesday.had to run around tampines mall and changi airport finding answers.tiring.wonder how the pple in the show actually survive.its quite mentally and physically challenging.but i think tmapines mall is quite nice.like got alot of nice shops.pity i was rushing through it.haha.had a saf choir concert last night.they're good man.pple may think them as fags cos they're in choir.but honestly..they're really talented.i liked this tall guy..he sang practically all the songs and one of the main pple too.but he's a tenor.very shocking.but he's cute.haha.den i took train back with sky jien chunkit and lembu.there was this couple that was hugging and super PDA la.and the part that irritated me was that they leaned on the grabpole when the train was so crowded.not sensitive to their surrounding.haiiz.cant stand this kinda pple.
anyway..i hafta start mugging..ive said this so many times already.but ya..im seriously..gonna..crash and burnrah!

ok..sorry mr wong.typo.anyway..now im like trying to hotsync my palm and my desktop.but it keeps failing.so irritating.and im supposed to help gabriel download real one player into his palm.haiyah.stupid machines.i have my youth camp today at aloha changi resorts/chalets.until thursday.yup.quite sad that janetta maomao and joy aint coming for camp though.but not to fear..i have jolene!=)anyway..hope everything goes well and the weather wld be good to us.miss me while im gone k??love you all.take care.

hell0 hello..at lion's house now with shir.we're preparing the stuff for my last year class's bbq.a bit last minute.like..we hafta go get a thong.the one that you use for bbq-ing.and like..a lot of small details..haiz.erm..yes.i need to go choose the worship songs for camp and for tml's youth alive to0.hopefully i wldnt screw up during worship.i still have a lot of kinks.yup.anyway i have two k-pos reading whatever im writing now.yup.impatient.owellz.help.hmmz.hope everyone will enjoy themselves tonight..think they will.nothing much to blog about.i need excitement in my life..maybe i should change my wife..hmmz..*ponders*

yet another thursday.heading to school later for chem.sigh.and after that i'm going shopping with my frens for the stuff we need for tml's bbq.i havent been mugging.im so screwed.how..haiiz.no motivation to study.and my A's are this year.something is seriously wrong with my brain.rah.i need to get a new one.
read through my friendster testimonial yesterday.it feels nice to know that pple enjoy yr company.=) i need to curb my sudden bursts of energy though.its craziness.anyway.i did a quiz the other day.and it said im a narcissist.i'll go get the results up on my blog.yar.anyway..i agree that i am.very ego.apathetic at times too.haiiz.complicated.i havent been in the best of moods nowadays.have alot of things on my mind.
yesterday.i thought my lesson was at 830.so i took a lift from my dad and i was in skool at 740.den..my frens came and we realized that our lesson was at 1130.so we decided to go home.on my way home.i was like..stoning..and at my stop..i was still stoning then i realized i had to alight.when i was moving towards the door.the uncle closed it.i pressed the bell.like twice.and i was finally let out.its like..ive never been so blur before.haiiz.guess im really physically and mentally exhausted.rah.
study hard for your mid years ya?ttfn.

wow.last night was amazing.their worship is so powerful.and its great seeing God move in spore.so many christians!=)didnt go right down to the front of the stage though feng wanted to.sorry girl.yup.we just jumped at where we were seated.im glad i've got God in my life.though i need to get my priorities right once more.havent been placing Him at the top postion.haiz.owellz.its exciting to know that yr fren has been saved.and to imagine the whole heavenly host rejoicing along as well!amazing!so spectacular.yupz.thought i was leading worship tonight but apparently not.well.just wanna leave with a note to you all.continue to walk steadfastly before God ya?it'll be worth it ALL when we see Jesus.

yes daddy wong.pity you cant come for FOP tonight.den you cant see my pretty face..dun you miss me??hahaha.if mel wong sees this.im DEAD.but owellz..haha.hi mel!haha.erm.im at shir's sty now.with a sick lion next to me.help.we're in an airconditioned room.im gonna be ill.haha.owellz.i love shir.and liz.and..a lot of pple.im talking rubbish now."since when is she not??"-tiger's laopo :p erm.ok.as i was saying.liz..i wanna see yr new spect-i-culars.please??=)nothing much is happening to me now.just that im in a race against time to pia and mug for my mid years.RAH!lalala.im going crazy.yay.get to see the Hillsongs tonight.rock rock rock.ok.bye-di-bye!miss me.