all dolled up.
cam-whoring.
smiling.
cam-whoring.
solemnisation.
holy matrimony.
congratulatory.
dinner.
yum-seng.
greetings.
bed.

.my cousin's wedding.

it was great fun. first time having a wedding for a close/immediate relative.
=)
i'm so happy for my korkor and his pretty wife, suzen.


so since i'm in the oh-so-fuzzy-blissful feeling.
thought i'll just upload songs that always never fail to make me feel warm and fuzzy.
haha. =)

[yes yes. i know i've been uploading alot of youtube videos. its amazing how time flies when you're watching youtube. the related links sidebar is evil.]

time for bed. goodnight. enjoy.

butterfly kisses - Bob Carlisle
appeals to the "Daddy's girl" in me.



wonderful tonight - eric clapton
the introduction already brings such warmth. -beam-

Out of my mind. - john mayer
i'm putting you baby
i'm putting you right out of my mind
i'm putting you baby
i'm putting you right out of my mind
so tired of running after you girl
and being one and one half steps behind

go tell your friends now
go tell your friends what johnny did
go tell your friends
go tell your friends just what johnny did
if they don't tell you that you're crazy baby
lord, they're as messed up as you is!

sing me the blues.

All God's children got rhythm - June Christy
Children, listen here to me
this is my philosophy to see me through the day
to scare my cares away

all God's children got rhythm
all God's children got swing
maybe haven't got money
maybe haven't got shoes
but all God's children got rhythm for to chase away the blues

all God's children got trouble
trouble don't mean a thing
when they start to bop-a-clu-a-bop-a-bop trouble's bound to go away.
say all God's children got swing

roger : "haha. you should blog it!"
me: "YEAH! God is REALLY GOOD!! my academic life is really by grace.haha!"


SHOUT IT FROM THE TOP OF THE WORLD!! MY GOD IS FANTABULOUSLY GOOD!THANK YOU!!

my exam results are out!
though my grades really arent fantastic. i did not fail anything!
and i am really thankful for that!

it was the worst exams of my life! for real.
i hardly studied.
i only read through my notes once. browsed through past year exam papers once.
and then went and sat for my papers.
2 of them were really really dreadfully horrible.
its like i almost submitted a blank piece of paper. or worst..one filled with nonsensical nonsense.

but i thank God.
i'm not proud of my studying discipline.
for goodness knows how long..i've been praying for discipline for so many years. and yet eventhough i dont fulfill my duties as a student very well.
God..my amazing amazing God..still sees me through my exams..
when i put in such minimal effort..He still gives me peace when i study..
He allows me to remember things in the exam hall when i get stumped.
its really not by my own strength. its all YOU, Lord. its all You!

even if i did fail some, i would still say my God is good. He didnt leave me alone when i went through my exams. and that..i know really well. =)

what can i do? but thank You.
overwhelmed

fred astaire. gene kelly. bing crosby. ginger rogers.


what do they have in common?
the ability to sing and dance and make my heart beat faster.

i love classic films.the music, the dances, the wit, the romance.

fred astaire is my new hero.gentlemanly and so smooth in his steps! and his voice..oh goodness.




'nuff said.

thursday found me at palawan beach.
sporting a new pair of shades too! haha. finally got one.

i went there with my church youth. so glad we all got to hang out together again.
it has been a while. and i loved it. they are so funny, and cute, and kuku, and witty. haha.
i love wit. i find it very appealing.
and yes..i think many of the boys are gonna grow up and be lady killers. hahaha.
we played vball on the hot sand, and they played vball and soccer with some other guys.

haha. my rebecca showed off her soccer skills. i'll admit that she did quite a good header.
OH! and my dear russell chow..has a distracting-soccer move.
he runs around screaming and waving his arms in the air as he chases the person with the ball.
its SUPER funny to watch! i recorded it down. and you can hear me say "hahaha. my cousin is so retarded" in the background.
HAHAHA!

the rain surprised us, and we all cozied under a small shelter.
thankfully it wasnt too long, so we went out to cycle.
my bike seat was a lil too high, so i didnt want to stop, lest i toppled over and fell.
but we stopped a few times..so i guess thats why my butt kinda hurts now..cos it takes me alot of effort to get back on. much to tif-taf's and tommy's amusement i might add. roar. those two are very naughty. hahaha.

rebecca and i cam-whored for a while after. and it was great fun.

all in all...

THANK YOU LIL MUMMY JANELLE!!

all i did was to say "hey. let's all go to sentosa to tan la! our church so near, but we never go there! you all having holidays soon right? let's go la!"
and on that night itself..my lil mummy janelle got to work and organised it. =)

i'm super proud of you girl! you planned it brilliantly. we all had a blast. -hug-



-takes photo-

me: aiyah. its off-center. delete. take again.

-takes photo-

me:aiyah. its off-center again!
russ: huh. its not off-center what. i'm in the center!
me: roar! hahaa.



friday came along..

note: i dont really like handwashing clothes.

met twin[jessica] on the way to town. we took 190 down.

it started to rain while we were on the bus. dark clouds, raindrops hitting against the window, and my ipod was playing "have yourself a merry little christmas".
and yeah! it really did feel like christmas!
i felt all warm and fuzzy inside.
perhaps i should listen to carols when it rains. then i can have christmas more often! yippee! =)

so twin and i alighted.ate meesua at wisma. and had shiok-a-delic mango pudding with sago for dessert.
then the hunt was on!
i have to desperately get a dress for my cousin's wedding. which is like..next week!
but alas...mission was not accomplished. i didnt manage to find one.
but at least now i have a better gauge of what i want. hmm.

met others for dinner at botak jones [clementi]. phwoar. its really really very shiok la! the meat is flavoured nicely, and juicy too. loved it. was really full.
but what was better than the food..was the company. [though many unglam shots were taken.haha.] =)

thanks babes for coming out to play! especially you twin..for keeping me in such splendid company the whole day.



yet in the midst of it all..when its just You and me. Your voice calls out so clear.
i don't deserve such grace. i don't deserve such love.
i may fool the whole world, but i can never fool You.
though i come to You broken and ugly, You still see beauty.
"everyone has their own wars to fight."
and as the song goes "the victory is mine, when the battle is the Lord's."
its in Your hands. i surrender. i'm weak.
i need You. i so desperately need You.

Come to me Lord, here is my heart. can't live on my own. can't live without You.

Jesus, what a beautiful Name.

Light in your eyes - blessed union of souls

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you"s were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free

I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?

Your unfailing Love
When the darkness fills my senses,
When my blindness keeps me from Your touch,
Jesus come.

When my burden keeps me doubting,
When my memories take the place of You,
Jesus come.

And I'll follow You there
To the place where we meet,
And I'll lay down my pride
As You search me again.

Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love over me again.

i've got a new nickname.

krystie: hello krystie!
me: no no! i'm back to being jiejie andrea again! i swapped my names back with you already. [krystie reanne and i exchanged names last weekend.]
reanne: andra!
me: no..its an-drey-er!..its drey-er..
krystie: dry-er...
reanne: andra..
me: oh goodness. its drey-er..ddrreeeyy-eerrrr. not andra!
krystie and reanne: dry-er!
me: drey-er!
them again: dry-er!
krystie: hair dryer!!
me: oh goodness! hairdryer?! phwoar..fainted.
both of them: dryer! dryer! hairdryer!
me: aiyoh! i dont want to talk to you already la! haha.

-walks away-

and being the little kids that they are..they were following me and calling me by my new "endearment".



i've never been called a hairdryer before. -sob- haha.

are there such things as holiday blahs?
if there are..
i think i'm suffering from it.

my heart isnt feeling well today.
not well at all.

the want to rant, the want to ramble, the want to be random, the want to be heard.

holiday blahs.





blah.



for every high, there comes a low.
things can only go up from here.

its like wanting to scream with a masking tape across your mouth.
its like stamping your feet on the floor, even if it doesnt make a sound.
its like struggling for air, but a weight is pulling you down.


save me from myself.

its a journey i'm willing to take with You. I know You would not let go of my hand.thank You.

we had north ST meeting today.
longest meeting i've ever had.
9am-930pm.
haha. but surprisingly i'm not tired.
rather..charged up!
after all our sharing of the plans for the different Comms, i think...
its going to be an exciting academic year for Crusade in Ntu.
i'm looking forward to serving in the Servant Team alongside Champ, tweet, anton, bok-ah-wee, eu, huimin, selina and derek.

please continue to pray for our team for sensitivity to God's guidance and heart for the ministry, for the challenging of subcommers [for their hearts.] and for love in not only the ST, but crusade as a community.

God's Hand is moving in NTU. and i'm glad to be in this movement.
OOOWWHEEE!! its going to be exciting.
an adrenaline working with God. yeah!


our God is an AWESOME God.
i want to hold You, love You, dont let You go.

watched a midsummer's night dream today.
it was fabulous.
it was a first for me..

i loved watching the people around me..
they were so relaxed..with some armed with a glass of wine while lazing on their mats.
and i was just trying to soak in the atmosphere as much as i could.
i loved it.
i would love to go for another open air performance at the fort canning again.
gorgeous. the skies..the air..the everything! =)

the performance was good too!
it totally amused me when they added our own local flavour to it..
"yi er san..wo men shang..wo men xia..wo men hou qian jiao....sally sally long jiam pass!"
hahaha!

i went with my sister, her colleague and 19 of her sec 3 lit kids.
thankfully priscilla was patient enough to explain to me. that girl knows her work man. haha.


how is it that falling in love..and being lovers seem so easy when shakespeare writes it.
is it because one thinks too much..that causes one to not fall so hopelessly?
is that a good or bad thing?
is it because of what others might think, when you're so deeply in love that it consumes you, that holds one back?

if one is to write a book..
would a book written with ideals sell better than one that was real?

its funny how ideals appeal so much to us more than reality.

funny.


if only everything was simpler.

OKAY!! i'm FINALLY going to do it!
HAHAHA. its like..what..2 mths overdue?
-huge grin-
i hope i remember every single detail..
alright.
please step into my timemachine..and i'll bring you back to when i just turned 21. haha!

here we go.....

i was out on the 21st of march with my aunt jen. looking for my present. [which is my heart diamond pendant + necklace! ] in town.

and i received an sms from my dear eugenia..
"Ladies, i'm helping my fren with a survey. Need to know wat flowers you like. :) reply asap? Thankies ;) "
and i replied "blue roses!"
so when i came back to school..
i went to the ADM rooftop for DG with joyce, caroline and sufang!
Joyce was so sweet! she bought me a slice of cake..and SPARKLERS! [i love sparklers!]
so we sang happy birthday!
THEY sang it like..21 times!! everything that i did..started them off singing another round.
hilarious la! hahaha.then we played with sparklers. and ate SUSHI! joyce bought sushi! and we had other food too that we brought along. it was great.
and so i asked miss caroline.."is anything going to happen tonight?? am i supposed to be scared??"
and she kept pretending and saying that i shldnt.
my miss loh also! she kept pretending and said " huh? i really dont know!" quite convincingly at that too.

so anyhoo..
after DG [which was ever so heart warming].. caroline and i went back to hall.
bathe and all. and i just felt so..RAH! cos i was going to turn old. and i wanted to fight the clock.
so i was a lil mopey..and caroline had to study..so she only came into my room when it was nearing 12 to count down with me.
jessica came too!
and so..we were just sitting around in my room..waiting to countdown..
then caroline slyly asked yeyin for her number! [though she already had it and was just messenging her that a whole bunch of people were coming down. i found this out later on.]
suddenly..out of yeyin's norm..she went to check her reflection in her mirror. so i suspected a bit. but didnt pay too much attention.
so when the clock hit 12..i sang happy birthday to myself.
and yeyin and i took photo together.
then suddenly..
my room door flung wide open!
and a whole bunch of people were outside my room with a cake! and eu gave me a blue rose!
i really was quite stunned! i didnt expect soO many people! it was crazy la!
haha. so they sang happy birthday..i blew out the candles. and we were on our way down to the tv lounge...
when suddenly 2 girls jumped out at me singing..
" oh why were you born so beautiful! oh why were you born at all!..."
i was so stunned at seeing Feng and Shir that i collapsed onto the floor!
and i started crying.
i didnt expect them at all la! at ulu pulau nanyang! my goodness!
i was so so happy!
haha

so the whole parade went down to the tv lounge..and my rachel tay made her appearance too!
yay!
we cut cake..and kinleong and anton and i dont know which other cheeky one..picked up a snail on their way and wanted to give it to me! haha.
we took photos!
and then shir rach and feng wanted to go off..
so i walked them out..
and suddenly everyone was coming along..
in the next moment..i felt wet from the back..and i ran a bit..turned..and to my amazement!
never in my life would i think that i would get pranked by VEESAN!
they put mentos into a 1.5L coke bottle and she sprayed it on me!

when i was recovering from shock..the next thing i knew..
porkie was holding on to my right arm..and yeye on my left.
and they made me run! RUN!
i couldnt stop running even if i wanted to..or else i would have been dragged!
they made me run to the NIE pond..which was like..100m away? [ok. i dont know how to gauge. but it was quite long!]

when i got there..i was given sometime to contemplate if i wanted to go into the pond..
which yeye was so fervently disagreeing and just wanted to throw me in.
i didnt really mind la..at least its smth to remember..but..the thought of a murky pond..was really quite gross.
so then..kinleong and yeye.. though i managed to run a way for a while..before getting caught again..
flung me into the pond.
GROSS!
the floor was like.....was like...soft soft..gooey a bit.
thank goodness i didnt smell la!
everyone was running away from me..the swamp thing! wahaha!
i rolled myself dry on rachel's car. haha.

after saying goodbyes..
i went to bathe..AGAIN.
and went to bed.


22nd march!actualy birth date!

thankfully we were having our e-learning week.
and without having to skip class..
eu drew and i had the entire day free!
yippee!!

so we met at 11+ am..took train to city hall to get my dress for my party.
and headed to CARNIVORE at vivo.
phwoar..it was shiokadelic man!
we ate so so much!
and my eu is really really a sly fox.extreme!
she par-kat with the waiter to get me a cake..
the moment she walked in.. she already whispered to him.and i didnt notice at all!
and when i was in the midst of telling them about my DG and how they sang so many times..
the guy zhunzun came from behind me with a cake and they started singing happy birthday to me!
haha. so sweet.

after lunch..we went to the waterfront to take photos and soak up the sun.gorgeous.
and then we watched "stomp the yard". wwooooo. i was so happy.
what other better show to watch than a bad-boy-turn-good-plus-good-dancing movie on my birthday!
haha.

eu and i headed back to school for our Xroads. SM appreciation night.as drew went for liling's baptism.

it was great fun la! caroline and i sang a song for joyce impromptu. and dawn and rebecca gave caroline and i a rose each! =)

at supper..i was stunned when suddenly all the crusaders started singing "happy birthday to you" out of the blue.
hahaha.

that day was ultimately perfect.


okay. crazy 23rd of march. phew.

my party day.
aaii..this one gave me one heck of an emotional roller coaster.
late in the morning.. my dad came and fetch roger's amp and i from school.
i went home for a while.then decided to go trim my hair and get some of my last min stuff at lot one.
which left me with little time to get ready and all.
hurried down to signature park's function room to get ready.
thankfully my aunt jen and re were there in time for the caterers.
and then my babes started coming down! and we started getting our decor up.

i was actually really hesitant about my party..it just feels weird knowing that people were coming down to celebrate your party..and just for you. aaii...gave me the heebee jeebees.

people started coming in..and it was such a busy night.
tad bit stressful too. haha.
but i really did enjoy myself on the whole. its great seeing people who are so important in your life get together.
=)

thank you all for coming and celebrating my 21st birthday party with me! =)
esp to all who helped me one way or another.
i absolutely loved the performances and presents! yayee!
made andrea a happy girl.hahaha.

oh. my photos that were taken by jason during the party is up..haha. thank you mr gorilla! whhee!
www.tysjason.multiply.com
[click on view all albums.]

and photos of my ponding-night is on marilyn's multiply!
www.marilvyn.multiply.com


phheewww..
all out.
haha. tadah!
i think this entry is a personal record. haha.

my 21st was a blast!

" don't think that because Singapore is such a small country, we would not be affected by the changes in the weather...One area in which singapore might get hit, is in the area of food."

.WOAH.
my pastor was mentioning that yesterday during service.
and it just hit me.
i never gave the end times much thought, blissfully ignorant, thinking that God might not be coming in our generation.
but looking at the rate things are changing, the degeneration of the moral standard, the crazy weather.
it is quite conceivable.
and i never gave it much thought until yesterday.
i never imagined that one day, i might be too poor to afford food when the prices inflate, and i will be really persecuted for my faith.
its a scary thought, to get persecuted. it really is.
you can't have any contact electronically with anyone, lest they track you.you can't purchase things without leaving evidence.

but you know what?

i want to be ready.
this isnt going to control me and place fear in me.
i want to stand up and be counted for.
God is positioning His church. He IS in control.

there are more important things in life.

"Lord, let my heart, attitude, mind and will, be Yours alone."

as the sunday school song so aptly go:
"i may never march in the infantry, ride over calvary, shoot the artillery.
i may never zoom over land and sea, but i'm in the LORD's army!
YES SIR!"

.people need the Lord.

someone
someone who would bring me to see the stars.
someone who would convince me everything would be alright,
even when i'm drowning in tears.
someone who could make my heart skip a beat.
someone who would take away all my peas!
someone who would point me in the right direction,
when i lose my heart's location.
someone who could seranade,
someone who would bring me to concerts at the esplanade!
someone who shares my greatest Love,
someone who in everything places Him above.

haha. since i have been recently "hired" to write rhymes, i just decided to write one.
and no..i'm not in love or anything. neither am i actively searching.
i know in His time, if anything happens, it happens.
but hey..a girl can dream right.
i think maths is driving me crazy.

In His time

In His time, in His time,
He makes all things beautiful, in His time,
Lord, please show me everyday,
As You're teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say, in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful, in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.

teach me, Lord, to wait on You.

my hope is in You alone.

in Your perfect timing, let Your will be done in my life.

--warning: this isnt my birthday blog entry --

yes yes. i know i'm supposed to blog about my birthday.
but..i havent gotten the mood to blog all about it yet. so sorry.
hmm
but there is one thing i would like to tell you!
that God is good.

i woke up at 8am this morning to go have breakfast with yeye, caroline and veesan.
did my laundry after breakfast..
and went back to bed for about 1.5hours.
but i couldnt go to sleep. it was those moments when you're very exhausted, but you cant fall 100% asleep.
formulas for my MS2004 module was flying around..and my brain was trying to recall the two phenomena strain curves that can be explained using solute atoms hardening. ROAR.
save me.
so i woke up feeling even more drained.
i kept cramping today. it came.
was feeling moody and all. brain malfunctioned at sometimes too.
then had presentation for GV17. and then had to rush to tanjong pagar for my believermusic vocal class.

my transitions were all very smooth.
i managed to jog and catch the bus. the train came when i just arrived at the platform.
was studying for MS8005 on the train..on a semi-filled stomach.
was having a splitting headache when i got to BM.
couldnt sing properly. the song was in my bad key and my head wasnt letting up.
in dire need to get back to hall to rest.
and all my transitions went well again!
the most amazing is..after getting my dinner at jp..going to cross over to the busstop.
i prayed "Lord, please let 199 come soon.i really wanna go back faster."
and when i turned to look, 199 just turned the corner and was approaching the busstop.
"wow. You really know me really well. even on my moodiest of days, You never fail to find a way to show how much You love me, and make me happy."

the warm feeling i got..was the same as when my daddy suddenly offered to help order my food for me when he knew i was tired.
it totally warms my heart when someone does something for me without me asking, when they know how i'm feeling. it just shows how well the person knows you, ya know?

and God does it all the time..ALL THE TIME. even at times when i am not sensitive to Him, i know He's doing something wonderful.
totally brings a smile on my face. to know how much i'm loved.

"How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!" -Psalm 139:17
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD,
thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." - Jeremiah 29:11

so blessed.

[a mightily long post is coming your way!]

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In Her Eyes - Josh Groban
She stares through my shadow
She sees something more
Believes there's a light in me
She is sure
And her truth makes me stronger
Does she realize
I awake every morning
With her strength by my side


Chorus*:
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am



This world keeps on spinning
Only she steals my heart
She's my inspiration
She's my northern star
I don't count my possession
All I call mine and give her completely
To the end of all time

(chorus*)

In her eyes I see the sky and all I'll ever need
In her eyes time passes by and she is with me

(chorus*)

How can one not absolutely LOVE josh groban when he croons such lovely lyrics?
-swoons-

"Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men." - 1 Corinthians 1:25

WOW.

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!
presenting the annual...
"what should i get for Andrea as a birthday present?" GUIDE!
this year is a special edition as she is turning the big 2-1 !!
-applause-

under the artistic category:
1. perform a song or dance item for her.
2. do a scrapebook of memories
3. do a photo collage/album of things that remind you of her and vice versa
4. draw a comic strip
5. produce and act out a skit for her! yay.
6. write a compilation of short stories!
7. a framed artwork from ikea. or any framed meaningful black and white photo.
[ i do still want a dance-themed artwork]

under the book category:
1. any cookbook by jamie oliver! [preferably one with most ingredients that are easily accessible in singapore]
2. a book with collections of photos/photography book.
3. music chords book, christian.
4. christian books about Pursuing God, or discipleship, or worship, or praying.[preferably an easy read]

under the music/entertainment category:
1. "cant hardly wait" vcd.
2."Josh Groban Live At the Greek" dvd. -beams-
3. Tap-dogs or STOMP! live in concert
4. T-bone's cd. [christian rap]
5. any nice christian cd actually. i need new songs in my life.
6.jamie cullum in concert.

under the random category:
1. bedsheets! that are colourful and stripey, or pattern-y. [her bed is single-size]
2. anything TIGGERIFIC, turquoise, yellow or striped.
3. tell her a joke.

under the serious category:
1. money. [to support my trip to Korea for my CM2007 conference.]

yupp. that's all folks.
and again..please be reminded that you are not obligated to give.
its just me growing one year older. with one more year of blessings to be grateful for.
=)

please contact Andrea, for booking or inquiries of presents. haha.

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

--"have you ever" by brandy

one of my all-time favourite song.

quite a good day i must say.
at least somethings are settled.

laopo..thanks for always listening to me and being there. it really means alot. i will try not to worry you that much anymore k? for at least for a year. =)

oh. in church yesterday, we had our communion.
and it was exciting. in a funny way.
cos instead of the usual bread, WE HAD CHEPATTI!
haha.
we were all like giggling when we went back to our seats, we NEVER had chepatti for communion EVER!

me: its chepatti! and i got such a huge piece!
elvin: yeah! haha. its symbolic anyway.
me: but chepatti with grape drink? its gonna be very weird.
-after partaking-
me: that didnt go very well.
elvin: yar. since its all symbolic, why dont we substitute the drink for curry next time! when our youth take charge of communion next time, then we take orders la! who wants chicken, fish or mutton.

haha.
IMPORTANT NOTE: WE WERE JUST JOKING!
in no way are we disrespecting communion.

anyhoo..elvin and i have concluded..
that God has allowed our paths to cross for us both to learn patience.
and honestly, i CANNOT out-talk a lawyer.
especially not elvin yeo. HE DRIVES ME CRAZY!
he will throw me verses and i would just kenna stunned and not know what to say in my defense.
haha.


i have alot of monkeys in my life.

stop it andrea. stop it.
not everyone thinks the way you do.
not everyone's priorities are the same.
please.
stop it.
you're only hurting me.

ode to eugenia
you ask me many rhetorical questions
you make me do silly things
you teach me many valuable lessons
you listen to my ramblings

so many times you make me happy
so many times i make you cry
but still you love me dearly
and still we don't know why

you make funny noises
you make buzzing sounds
you make monkey faces
you cause me to put on pounds

i love you.

Let your speech always be with grace, seasoned with salt,
that you may know how you ought to answer each one.
-colossians 4:6
The heart of the righteous studies how to answer,
But the mouth of the wicked pours forth evil.
-proverbs 15:28
How much better to get wisdom than gold!
And to get understanding is to be chosen rather than silver.
-proverbs 16:16
He who heeds the word wisely will find good,
And whoever trusts in the LORD, happy is he.
-proverbs 16:20

Grant me wisdom to know the right words to speak at the right time, teach me the way to answer, understanding in every situation, and unwavering trust in You, for it is in You that my heart is at rest and rejoices.

A man's heart plans his way, but the LORD directs his steps.-proverbs 16:9

Direct my steps according to Your Word, and may I be found holy as You are holy.

Refiner's fire.

Centre of My life

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole and my eyes on You
Lord I'm stepping out, from the comfort zone
Letting go of me, holding on to You

Freedom comes, when I call You Lord
You are Lord, my God

You are the Centre of it all
The universe declares in awe
Your Majesty, I surrender all
I make You the Centre of my life
Lord I respond with all I am
You placed in me the song
Of Heaven's melody
Your Majesty, I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace,
it replaces any fear
You have done it all, I can trust in You
Lord I'm stepping out, from the comfort zone
Letting go of me, holding on to You

This is Your song, not mine
It is Your song, that brings healing to this land
This is Your song, not mine
It is Your song, that brings freedom

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

EUGENIA LOH IS EMBARRASSING ME IN THE LIBRARY!
she's making ALOT of weird noises!
she's like coughing, sneezing and HICCUPING all at the same time.
LOUDLY!
someone please move her away from me.
someone actually shush-ed us.
roar.
hahahahhaa.
miss loh is so funny.
even when she doesnt mean to.
=)
today is gonna be a funny day.
i can feel..no..hear it. haha

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY PORKIE PORK!!
haha!
today is porkie pork's birthday! he's also known as gabriel chen.
a group of us went to carnivore at vivo for lunch.
weiyee was so sweet to plan the surprise.
when we were all inside the restaurant awaiting their arrival.
we saw porkie walking about outsidE! how scary la.in an exhilarating way.
we all had to turn our heads and what not.
i love surprising people.

lunch was great. we had the buffet. took SSOOO many photos today.
marilyn took about 100+ photos.
unbelievable.

here's some! =)

the birthday boy and the whole bunch of us!

1!2!3!4!5!! haha. our act-cute photo. cindy, marilyn, grace, enting and i.

me in sneakers..."what's the big deal?" you may ask..
its because..

they are monkey's!!
and jem is wearing my HEELS! hahaha.madness.
i wanted to run away in his sneakers..but he threatened to break my heels. haha.
it was priceless seeing him in heels. haha.




i'm gonna be very sad when the year4s and 3s graduate.
my heart is slowly starting to break.
-violins in the background-
what would life be without them..
ohh tear.


we ended up at caroline's house to nua.
i like caroline's family. very warm. =)

all in all. good day.
great chinese new year.
oh yes.

date: monday. 19/2/07
place: my tuagu's balcony.

me : haha. did you see how you just ran? do it again! haha. you looked like a bird!
BEAKY: what? -runs back to original place- i just ran here like...-runs-GAHH!! hrmph! oh fine.
-runs back to original place again and then runs back with arms folded-
me: hahahaha. you're so retarded. HEY! why is that lady looking at us?! quick! duck!
-ducks below window sill-
beaky: YAR! -ducks too-
me: quick! -puts fingers into gun-mode -
beaky: haha. yar! -stands up- BANG!!
me: hahahaha. -sitting on the floor- hahahhaa. i can't believe you just did that!

and we both go into hysterics.

drey: what are you two doing? you all are retarded!

and then we slowly crawl away from the balcony so the lady in the next block cant see us.
haha.

I LOVE BEAKY!!
dont you love me too beaky?
-poke poke-
quick. tickle yourself. haha.

i need to start planning my birthday party.
aahh!

she falls on her knees and pray......



"dear Lord..please give me a guy who can sing like josh groban..
or at least willing to bring me to one of his concerts.."

HAHAHAHHA.

"but even if its neither..as long as he's your best."

haha.

the main point here is : i absolutely adore josh groban's voice. -melts-

chinese new year once again.
and i'm getting better at the game of "hide your things"
haha.
most of my cupboards are packed.
thankfully not bulging.
=)
i have alot of throwing out to do during the holidays.
roar.

its funny the things we do to give others a misconception.haha.

under the influence of my semi-emo cousin..
i found myself listening to cranberries' "linger"

But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to?
Do you have to?
Do you have to let it linger?

back to hiding..

sinful indulgences.
on thursday, after class.
eugenia bought a large packet of fries and large wedges too.
then jason drew eu and i dug in. and ate.
then when we finished..
andrew tang bought round 2!!
i just stood there gaping when he came back with the bag of large fries and wedges.
THEY ARE CRAZY!
usually when we go into our food frenzies, its just one round!
and on top of that..jason took out the bakkwa that he bought from eu.
i went to get our drinks, and came back to the sight of bakkwa on top of the huge pile of fries.
madness i tell you. madness.

drew eu and i..are partners in crime of sinful food indulgences.

eg1. when one goes: "i feel like eating tandoori chicken."
another will go :" hmm..yar! me too."
and the third one will go : "yay! okay. lets!"

eg2. when one goes: " i feel like eating the yoghurt ice-cream."
another : "hey ya!"
third: "oh no..aahhh!! i feel like it now too! aahh!"

eg3. one: i feel like eating fries.
another : with ice cream!
third: yeahh! with ice cream!

and like this..we always end up buying one per person.
its madness. no sound of reason.
haha.

friday:
we had our crusade reunion dinner at some steam boat restaurant at bugis.
it was fun sitting with jon, drew, grace, rachel and enting. crazy bunch.
jon kept telling lame jokes/statements.
eg. when he was fishing out the corn " your corn was stuck in the corner!"
just random statements like that.
haha.
and i embarrassed myself a few times.
when the guy came to top up our soup,
i was standing up. then i started "dancing". cos the song "culo remix" was stuck in my head.
then apparently the guy stood behind me and stared at me for a while with a "confused" look and then he started laughing at me!
and jon started laughing when he saw the guy laugh at me!
jon is so evil right! he should have warned me when i was embarrassing myself! argh.
and the second time i embarrassed myself was when grace and i went to the toilet.
and they have the beady curtain thing at the door post, its only abt one third of the door, so i "limbo-rocked" under the beads, and then this guy was coming out, so i immediately straightened when i saw him.
argh.
i shouldnt be let out of the house on days like these.
roar.

dinner was fun. dessert [mango and sago. say it a few times. its fun.] was shiokadelic.

i'm blessed with so many people in my life.
haha.
happy chinese new year everyone!
=)

how is it that i feel so bare, even without any contact.
how is it that when a part of you lives, a part of me dies.
how can you shake my very core though you've been distant and silent all this while.
how?

fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars.

i love looking at the stars. they just give me such a feeling of contentment.

last night was fun. we went running..quite a big group of us.
and then we went on to the top of our ADM building to play with sparklers and talk and look at the stars.
it was lovely.
Thank You for stars. they are so small, yet they bring such warmth to my heart.
those moments of playing with sparklers with your good friends, singing songs while lying under the stars, and just drinking in the atmosphere of it all, and just basking in His creation, is one of the most gorgeous moments in my life.
its like when you are revealed a mystery of God's love, and it just captures your heart.

it was a great way to usher valentine's day. thanks jason for the ADM suggestion. =)

today..
i went to holland village settler's with some of my favourite pple. =)
namely, ayeeba, amlah, shir, lembu, abu and abu's ryan. haha.
it was great seeing them again. as always.
sorry for being mellower than usual. =) maybe i'm growing out of being a toys'r'us kid? haha.
and ayeebaboon..its my pleasure to go out with you. haha.

hmmm...but yet in the midst of my social gatherings..
i'm once again going into hermit mode soon. argh.
i have so much to do. yet i am running away from it all.
i have no time for myself to just remain still.

happy valentine's day everyone. =)

my mass msg to pple today:
roses are red. violets are blue.
my life would be empty,
if i didnt meet you.
with all my heart...happy valentine's day babes!

@--}----

its time to move along. let go and move along. guard at all costs. you can't lose what you never had.

I think I'm going crazy, can't take it anymore
Got one thing on my mind all the time
And it's driving me crazy, I think I'm going crazy
And I don't know what I'm doing
Ijust can't take your grace in my face
Cause it's driving me crazy
-"crazy" by The Moffatts.

we should hold a gathering and just sit around in a circle and just sing all of the Moffatts songs that we love.
just like that memorable day in primary 6 when we just stayed back, sat down and sang.
bring back the days when we have no other responsibilities and had so much time in our hands.
i keep reliving my primary school day memories. i dont wish to grow up. but the big 2-1 is looming ahead. sigghh.. anyone got a time machine?

Saw you this morning, with that look in your eyes
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself
Don't you worry, I hear you 'cause I know what it's like
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby

I'll be there for you
When you need sombody I'll be there for you
When you want someone who cares
When you're down and feeling blue I'll be there I'll be there for you
When you call me, I'll be there I wanna show you how good it will be

Never needed anyone the way I need you right now
You know you'll never be alone anymore
We can make it, together It's gonna be all right
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby

-"i'll be there for you" by The Moffatts.

campus day of prayer!
let me hear a "woot! woot!".
haha. so retarded.
cant stand myself.

anyway..
yesterday marked our first big campus day of prayer.
where we tried to rally the christians in ntu to pray and intercede for our campus.
it is amazing how God closed all the doors for us to get other venues.
but He indeed does not hold out on us.
He gave me the hugest, grandest venue in our whole campus!
THE NANYANG AUDITORIUM!
[sitting capacity: abt 1000].

in maths tutorial in the morning,
drew eu and i were just talking.
wondering how many pple were gonna turn up for the event. and eu mentioned that God spoke to her in the morning that it is not the matter of the number of people who comes, but rather their heart's condition. and that we should appreciate everyone of those who come down.[ abt 200+ pple came down i think. =) ]

sidetrack: i absolutely adore it when the three of us have a serious conversation about God and what He spoke to us. its one of the best things of our friendship that i really hold dear to. cos we can go from really random retarded things [like clapping rhythms in the stairwells] to serious sharing of God's Word. it always always warms my heart to hear what God has been speaking to them, and to share with them things that i get impressed with as well. Gorgeous i tell you. gorgeous.

so anyhoo..after class jessica and i came back to my class to change to our dresses.
haha. it feels good to dress up once in a while.
lyrics of shania twain's "man, i feel like a woman" come to mind.
hahaha.
we managed to get crystal and jix last min to do backup singing.
cos initially it was just me backup and shaohong as worship leader.
the two of them can harmonize la!
i wanna learn how to harmonize!
but i know that im too scared to try. cos i will have to be out-of-tune a few times before i can finally get the notes for harmony. roar.

worship went really well. could really sense the passion of the worshippers. and God's sweet presence was evident.

thanks babe for praying for me. for submitting my heart and spirit to God. i needed it. and i felt a breakthrough. though not dramatic. but its a start. something exciting is going to happen. i'm re-energising! haha. love you dear.

all in all. thursday rocked.
as always. i love seeing the ones i love.haha.
oh yes. and ng weiyee is very naughty.
she kept focussing the camera on me, so i was constantly projected on the BIG SCREEN in the AUDI!
after the whole event la. when pple were just lingering and chatting. she is very naughty.
very naughty!

into Your hands, i commit again. with all i am, for You Lord.

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

its amazing how some beautiful songs are left in your mp3 player and you never realised you had them. this song is one of them. i only just discovered its beauty. the lyrics are so assuring, dont you think? =)
on Christ the solid rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand.

from today's daily bread [online]:

In part, this is what Jesus was challenging us to understand in Matthew 5:13-16. Salt and light are influential factors in a dark and corrupting world, and Christ, who is the Light of the world, calls us to be lights of influence as well. The Master who modeled perfect purity calls us to be salt that adds flavor and prevents corruption.

May we not only be influenced by Christ but also be influencers for Christ in a needy world. —Bill Crowder

Lord, let me be a shining light
In all I say and do,
That Your great love displayed in me
May lead someone to You. —Sper

As the "salt of the earth," Christians will make others thirsty for the "Water of Life."

be extra kind to someone today,
because every one is fighting a battle.
- a quote my Pastor read from somewhere.

let me be a Shining Light.

AAAAHHH!!! EUGENIA LOH BLUFF SPIDER!!
i DID NOT psycho her to jump on the bus!!!!!
DID NOT!! D-I-D N-O-T!!

this is what happened...while on the shuttle bus on our way back to my hall.
seated at the last row...
me: you know. last time in secondary school, i would tompang the primary school bus sometimes. and the small girls will always run to the back row and jump in their seat when the bus goes over a hump. cos you'll get to suspend in the air longer.
eugenia: ok. when is the next hump?
NOTE: SHE INITIATED US TO TRY IT!!
me: i dont think we have any more humps.
eu: ok. why dont we jump when the bus turns!
me: cannot la! i will hit my face on the glass! [i was seated at the side]
eu: hahahahha. but can..almost the same effect.
so when the bus turned, i jumped a bit. not shiok.
then finally a hump came..
both: coming coming!
-front tyre goes over the hump-
eu: -JUMPS- : hey why you never jump?
-back tyre goes over hump-
me: -jumps- WWOOAAHH!!
eu: -laughs nonstop-
-we alight-
me: kuku la you! must jump when the back tyre goes over what! why you jump when the front tyre goes over? hahaha.
eu: -still laughing- i felt it! but you jumped so much higher than me! i should have videoed it down! hey..turn your comp on later ok? this is so bloggerable.

---the end--

so you see.. its HER IDEA to do that retarded thing.
i admit i do psycho her to do some retarded things sometimes.. but she's the one who actually chooses to listen to me!
everyone knows not to listen to andrea!
hahaha. [except rebecca! haha. she hasnt learnt it entirely well yet. haha. -love you re.-]

eugenia is so fun to play with. hahaha.

additional: i got a new blogskin! and i love it! =)

its funny how finally my mind is catching up with my body.
i've been running myself too busy. now my mind just tells me to keep silent.
feel like isolating myself and just hiding in my room.
if you find me quieter these few days..just understand that i'm going through a rest stage.
this stage doesnt come often. but it sure is welcomed.
its not that i am getting grumpier or cranky.
just dont really feel like talking and socialising much.
i really just want to hide in my room.

i need to find rest.
both physically and for my soul.
not spending enough time in my Shelter House.
i need more time. to catch up with my work.
to just relax and not worry about anything.
to just be still.
i want 30 hours a day!haha.
but yes yes..i know. it boils down to my own time management.

realised today..when i looked at my organiser that it is THIS sunday that i am taking worship.
i thought it was next.
yay for me..i've got 6 singing commitments over the span of 2 weeks.
and a sharing to do for oasis.
i'm scared.
i feel inadequate.
keep me in prayer. especially for my health.
empower me.

my GV17 module's presentation is tomorrow.
and i still am unsure whether i should really sing "who am i" by casting crowns.
i'm nervous. roar.
emotional upheaval?
perhaps. roar.

all i want is to find myself in a prayerful and worshipful mood.
to have peace. and rest.
rest.

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. - Matthew 11:28&29

not the greatest rapper- 1000 clowns

I know I'm not the greatest rapper in the world

But would ya, would ya, would ya please be my girl?

I know I'm not the greatest rapper in the world

But would ya, would ya, would ya please be my girl?

I know I'm not the greatest rapper in the world

But please baby, please baby be my girl.

I know I'm not the greatest rapper in this land

But I'll do anything if you'll hold my hand.

MY FAVOURITE SONG OF ALLL TIME!! THANK YOU MR ANDREW TANG THE GREAT!

woohoo. today started off early.

830 lab.

but i made new friends today at lab.

which was good. and at least chivalry was proven to be alive when one of the guys helped me sandpaper my steel sample. =) yay.

im happy. happy.happpyy.

haha. anyhoo..today i almost went crazy rushing my two lab reports.

argh. its amazing what university does to you. one of the reports is one of my worst i have ever smoked out. argh. but at least its a lil comforting to know that lab is only 1 AU.

i guess to a certain extent, Mr David Loh has placed this mental thought in my mind that lab is a serious thing, and has to be done properly.

remember all the solemn-ness in our labs, the silence, the cold stares he gives when you talk. amazing what the mind does to you.

i need more drive in my life i think.

more Spirit of Excellence.

ROAR.

WARNING!

CAROLINE TEOH JEN WEI IS VERY NAUGHTY! AND HIGHLY RETARDED!

ALL PERSONNELS PLEASE KEEP AWAY FROM THIS HAZARDOUS SPECIMEN!

on a serious note.

she really is.

we were walking through the canteen to come up to the library just now.

i was walking at the normal pace, and suddenly i dont see her walking alongside me.

so i turned to see where she was at. and there she was! walking a snail rate. the best part: ON PURPOSE!

so i walked back..grabbed her hand..and walked.

caroline : WAAAHHH!! -fake cry- i dont want to go to the principal's office!

me: -stunned for a while- NO LOR! you've been very naughty. he's gonna scold you.

so i "dragged" her to the library. and made her say sorry to the bust of Lee Wee Nam. our favourite library caretaker..who also happens to be the one who paid for our library. haha.

so she went and said sorry to him. its quite retarded. it amazes me how her brain works.

and so our nicks on msn now are:

Caroline: ANDREA LEE QING!!! Go and say sorry to LWN.. GO!

dRea - CAROLINE TEOH JEN WEI!! GO AND KISS LWN NOW!! naughty lor.

she lights up my life.

ohh! i never mentioned! im on a daniel fast now.

ie. cannot eat meat.

and i am dying! how does twin do it!!??

i cant do without meat.

now i really know that meat is indeed a luxury and God is indeed my Provider. haha.

campus day of prayer is coming. i'm excited to see what God has in store.

its exciting following Christ, no?

woohoo.

even as you pray, you can feel the peace of God.
even as you pray, you can hear the voice of God.
thank You, for Your chastening allowing me to know that i am being molded.
thank You for Your Word.
thank You for trials that come my way.
i WILL count it all JOY.

we are one body of Christ.

You are so personal. so intimate. so loving.
Never fail to amaze me.

restless.unsettled.
those are the words that best fit my moods these days.
perhaps its the accumulated lack of sleep.
perhaps its the amount of work that i think i have to tackle but have yet to do it.
but mostly i think its because of my thoughts that have been running about often.

pensive.reflective.
in dire need to be humbled.
why boast of a gift? it is, in its essence, a gift.
of no merit, of no price.
a gift is a gift is a gift.
i need to learn that.
God has been prompting me, and it is yet another hard lesson to learn.
one humbling lesson after another.
perhaps if i had gotten another gift, it would not be so much of a struggle.
but God is in control of every situation.
every thing has its perfect purpose.
and i thank You.
if it were any other gift, my heart would be broken.
my life without a song.
i enjoy every moment.
but i need to focus on the cause of action.
Help me, Lord. every move i make, be it out of love, and not pride.
every one is given a different measure of grace, lest anyone should boast.

Spirit of Excellence.
where is it?
no where to be found.
ingrain colossians 3:23 in me.

i need to realign myself with You.
i need to spend time with You.
i need to stop running.
yet again.
stop running.
i'm sorry Lord.

i ushered in the new year multiple times last night.
with my youth, we counted down abt over 5 times?
haha. every watch tells a different time.
it was fun.

meta was great. assurance of His love and just a subtle change of my heart.
i needed it.
and i'm glad i experienced and got to know Him so much better through the times of worship and sharings.

so many things to be thankful for in 2006.
You answered my prayer and fulfilled my desire. Lord, i want more.
grew so much in 2006, and i'm looking forward to 2007, to serve Him more and in turn depend on His strength so much more. to be His light and His witness.
empower me.

2007 is going to be exciting, seeing growth in not only myself, but in the ones around me.
exciting things are gonna happen this year! i can feel it!

physical health is at its low now. thought i was better, but the cough and nose problems are coming on stronger.
but no worries, Jehovah Rophe will heal me soon. yay.

so after all the words and what not..all i want to say is..

HAPPY NEW YEAR! may 2007 be a year where God's goodness be poured out and proclaimed!

Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary.

Just as God determines the weather, He also controls the cycles in our lives: “To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven” (Eccl. 3:1). Do we resist those seasons and complain about the “snowy” conditions on the horizon? Or do we trust God and thank Him for whatever He has planned for us?

Whatever our situation is today, we can be thankful for God’s seasons. —Dennis Fisher

--daily bread.

studying is really a chore for me.
but i need to learn how to appreciate "hard times" like these.
if i dont "suffer" how could i fully appreciate fun right?
right.
i need to psycho myself more.
COME ON ANDREA!! ONE MORE PAPER!!

everyone is pratically set free already.
i have 28hours and 29mins more!
and caroline just came to my room to scream "ITSS OOVVVEEERRR!!!"
save me.

RRAHHH!!

God rewards hard work.
col. 3:23.

i cant sleep.
and i need to be up in 5 hours time.
shouldn't have drunk that teh-bing.
darn caffeine.

God has made us in His own image and for His glory.
We can never find true joy until we obey Christ’s admonition to seek “first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness” (Matt. 6:33).
Only then will we sow and reap abundantly, and eat and truly be filled. —Herbert Vander Lugt

O the emptiness of life without the Savior!
Nothing worldly here can truly satisfy;
We can only reap a harvest that’s abundant,
Serving Jesus as to self we daily die. —Bosch

Selfish gratification will lead to spiritual stagnation.

--daily bread Nov 25th.

burning out? perhaps.
i need to relight.

emotions seem to run hiltter scatter nowadays.
emotions that seem to come at times when i shouldnt be entertaining them.
and when i dont, i seem void of everything.
its a weird feeling.

i feel like a chess piece waiting to be moved.
looking around, seeing everyone else being moved, all except me.
void of events, void of thoughts that seem worthwhile.
just seemingly happy just the way i am.
waiting for the time when my move would be part of the big plan, small yet strategic.
am i moving yet, Lord?

went running yesterday with jem and gabe.
running just seemed different, besides the fact that im out-of-shape.
but rather..i realised my thoughts werent flowing.
which was weird!
i was actually focussing more on my breathing pattern..which i dont usually do so much of.
then i remembered xinli, during training last time, she told us to think of a problem and just keep trying to solve it, the more you cant solve it, more frustration, run more.
haha.
i used to run when i had things on my mind, things to think through, to spend time with God.
now in hall, running in the morning just doesnt seem right, wee hours in the morning is the thing to do.
but i cant run alone.dangerous.
how like that? run only on weekends?
sigh.
i feel like there is this bulk of stuff to think through, perhaps one being figuring out what is the cause of this feeling of passion-driven-voidness. i feel...a lil empty.
perhaps its all the studying, or mental-im gonna study- psychoing that i do to myself that is taking its toil on me.
i need more excitement man.
bring on the holidays sooner!!

realise how my entries get more emo when its during exam periods.

i feel this need to spill all out, but at the same time hold everything back.
argh.
im seriously bipolar.

andrea oh andrea. where have you gone?
do we need to tapdance-jolt you back to life?
or whack you with a piano?
what do we need to bring you back? to relight your inner self?
need a new direction? need more drama?
no no.. no drama. your lil heart cant take it.
what do you need drea? what do you need?

my right brain is getting inactive. it is starting to give me headaches.
why oh why cant i be brilliant in smth?!
like tap! or playing the piano!
i think i wld gain much joy if i succeeded in both.
but i feel so inadequate sometimes, though i feel so happy doing the things i love.
i feel like i can tap the night away..just that my lack of steps would trip me over.
i lose myself when i play my piano..time just flies by..but i would be awoken from my dream melody when my fingers just cant go any further.

argh. i need classes.

save me from myself please.
holding out for a hero.

i did smth today.
and a small part of me. changed.

at about the middle of this year.. i felt this prompting to share the song "hard times" with my church.
cos on saturday services, there would words of exhortation and stuff.
so i felt this prompting to share that song. but i never did.

there was once abt a mth back..that my heart beated a lil faster..i was like "now Lord? really?" but i didnt do anything about it.

tonight, after worship, the words of exhortation came from aunt joyce and aunt doris.they were talking about being built on the Rock, about whether our house would stand in the midst of testings, about trusting in God through trials.
then my heart started beating very fast!
and i was like..ok God..so i guess its now.
i was already seated in the first row cos i did support singing.
so i turned to aunt florence and told her about my feeling of ministering that song.
and how scared i was.
she told me to just tell elder yeow kin that i wanted to share a song, and if he feels that its appropriate then go ahead!
so with a lil hesitation, i walked over to elder yeow kin. and he said, "sure!"
so went up..and i told the congregation about my prompting.
and then i sang the song.

I WAS SHAKING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!

the shaking was from within the bones!
my knees and elbows were shivering. and i never felt so nervous before.
not even when i led worship!
thankfully no one could tell, cos my voice didnt quiver.
but WOW!
what an experience.
You are amazing.

Lord, its my prayer that i be continually used by You, to be sensitive to You. keep me in the straight and narrow, chastise me when i go offtrack, help me Lord. cleanse me Lord. mold me. fill me. be with me.

no body thrills me like You do.

its been a while.
hello blog!

hall life is fun.
thanks to my darling caroline.
who still has not grown sick of me.
its amazing.
considering she sees me day in and day out.
literally.
she's the first and last person i see.
haha. kinda.

exams are round the corner.
and i am not where near prepared.
no where near even knowing what on earth has been going on in tutorials and lectures.
its horrific.
tried studying for the past 2 days.
and i feel like im lost in the dark, groping for something that doesnt seem tangible.
and even if i caught hold of it, i would not be able to figure out what its for.
argh.
why do scientists have to discover so many stuff!
less stuff discovered, less things for andrea to study.
owell..
been trying to psycho myself that whatever im studying is interesting.
cos it explains alot of stuff.
it Is interesting. just doesnt make that much sense.
help me.

but school life, as always, is such a joy to me.
to see friends everyday. to joke and clown around with.
pranks played and all.
i think we are more prankster-like during exam times.
destress.

led worship on sunday for the first time.
was quite nervous, cos the auditorium was twice as packed as compared to saturday night service.
and there was a peace within.
and it went really well.
thank You, Lord
i really enjoyed sunday's worship.

i cant wait for christmas.
my exams would be over. and meta would be here!
yay.

teleport me please.

Mighty and gracious, is the Lord Almighty.
Faithful and true, in all Your ways.
Righteous in judgment,full of all compassion,
mighty in power, the everlasting God.

the angels shall praise You.
Your saints will exalt You.
the heavenly hosts,
will worship before You.

all of creation,
will bow down in reverence,
now and forever,
hail You as King.

You are so amazing, and never fail to touch me and assure me of Your care and concern.
no one loves me like You do, Abba Father.
thank You for days like this when i know that You really do hear me and want to communicate with me.
today is the day Lord, i'm marking it down. today is the day Lord, when i am changed forever.
Thank You so much.
i'm gonna start feeding on the meat of Your Word. help me Lord.
its all You now.
hide me under Your wings.
it is in You that i find my confidence and i know i can cast all my cares upon You.
my Alpha and my Omega.
My Peace.

YOUR LOVE IS AMAZING!!
WWWOOOOWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so happy.
ecstatic!
God is simply amazing.really.
so super duper amazing!

nothing is impossible for You, Lord.

i've moved into hall!
and not only that..but into THE ROOM I WANTED!
wahahaha.

there is this room that is across from caroline's room.
this girl has been staying alone in that double room.
and i've been praying[and pleading] God to grant me that room, so that i would be super near caroline.
i cldnt sleep very well last night.
just so excited and a lil anxious to see if the rooms are allocated, and if they were, where i would end up.
so the morning came, caroline and i went down to the hall office.

me: hi. i'm here to check-in.
lady: ok.hang on.let me see if i can find your name.
me: -while she was still flipping files- are the rooms allocated already?
lady: -nods-
caroline: oh no. i hope we can request to change room.
lady : -shows me the file- here's your room.
caroline and i :-scream!!!!- YYAAYYY!!!
lady: why why? scared me.hahaha.
me: its the room i wanted! yay!! -huge grin-
lady: haha. ok.

so i went about doing the forms and stuff.
and simply BLOWN AWAY!

the probability of me getting that room was SO SLIM.
cos that's the only single available room in caroline's block.
the probability of me ending up in one of the other 3 blocks was very high, cos there are abt 13 other vacancies in the other blocks.
but God chose that room, and He listened my heart's desire and He pre-planned it, and I GOT THE ROOM!
wwhhheeeee!!
God is really amazing.

this is one of the two recent incidents that God has been showing to me that He is real and He is there for me.as long as when i pray, i have faith, and i acknowledge His sovereignty above all.

the other incident was the recent north side family day, when it rained in the morning, and we didnt have any contingency plans, i told God that i trusted Him and that stopping the rain is just a small simple thing.and the rain really stopped!

its amazing how God can move in your life, when you allow Him too.
it was my prayer that i experience God again, moving in my life, to know that He is indeed sovereign.
ever since i came back from philippines,where i experienced such amazing grace and love that God has, and His total sovereignty, i have not been so moved, cos my life is back to routine, and there isnt any major event changes that i need to have great faith and fervent prayers about.

but God has revealed Himself real to me once again.
i'm still trippin' that He has called me His child.

=)

thank You so so so so so much!

tonight..as uncle wankam took worship..
we were singing..and then went into free worship..
and after a while of thanking God and talking to Him..i found myself looking around..
getting fidgety..
and then it hit me.
"why are you getting fidgety? isnt God worthy of your praises?your ceaseless praise? have you nothing else to thank Him? nothing else to say? is there a capacity to how much praise there is in you?"

how am i going to go through eternity of worship when i cant even focus on Him for just a short time now?

make me a worshipper inside out, Lord.
i want to give you ceaseless heartfelt praise.
only You are worthy.

so many things on my mind now.
and inertia is GREAT.

i got into hall 14!
it was my first choice.
all thanks to God.
and to everyone who prayed that i get a room!
=)
pray i get a good roomie yeah? and a room near caroline.SUPER near caroline.
=)

yesyes.
so i'm moving in on monday.
but crashing caroline's on sunday first.
and i'm halfway through my packing.

i've got 3 tests,one assignment and one full lab report due..next week.
and i'm getting quite nervous.
but not nervous enough to over come inertia.
roar.

the holidays were good.slacked so much.
so shiok.my goodness.
super duper guilty.

i'm hungry.

okk..off to bed.
You are my peace.

funny conversations over the weekend...

friday : -at vilage [the old marche] at heeren-

russ : hey bec..how do you spread your icecream so smoothly?
bec : -looks at him-
russ : oh. yours is a waffle. hahahaha.
bec : -looks at russ' crepe with ice cream smeared on it. bursts into laughter.-

sidenote : rebecca had chocolate ice cream on waffle. russell had caramel ice cream on CREPE with mangoes.

this was how it looked after his attempt of smooth smearing...














saturday : -at home-
morning:
me : daddy..where are you going?
daddy : teck whye..going to..blah blah blah..and buy blood worms for the discus.you want anything?
me : A TURTLE PLEASE!
daddy : no. no turtles in this house.
me : why! margharita died! i want another turtle! terapine also can.
daddy : noo. no turtle. when you go holiday who will take care?
me : haiyahh..okk..

and my sister is so sweet...she went to town on saturday..and on the account that i pissed her off when she got home..she didnt give me a present she actually bought for me.
so today..she gave it to me. after i gave her ten repeated reasons why im a good girl.
she bought me a turtle!!

introducing my new study buddy....















HENRY THE TURTLE!

sunday :
-in church-

me : i need wear an insole in my right shoe cos my right foot is half a size smaller than my left foot.
joy : your right foot is half a foot smaller huh..orhh..
me : no its half a SIZE not half a FOOT.
both of us started giggling for a good 2 mins.. [note giggling..cos it was during service]
joy : haha.if its half a foot..yar..buying shoes quite hard.
me : yar. i would have to buy one kid's size and another normal size.

i love joy. seriously.what would life be without my joyjoy.haha.

-at home-
after having a friendly banter..
drey : return the turtle!
mummy : huh? what turtle??
drey : yar. you dont know meh..we bought a turtle. its in the discus tank.
mummy : -walks over to the discus tank- where is it?? does your daddy know? the turtle cannot dirty the discus tank! where is the turtle???
me : -points to the filter- its behind the filter! daddy doesnt know.
mummy -starts panicking a lil-
drey : haha. go show mummy the turtle go.
me : -took the turtle from my room and showed it to mummy. much to her relief-
mummy : this one so much cuter la.



i love the people in my life.
haha.

my heart is in Your hands.
no matter how hard i struggle with You..please dont let it go.

ame told me once to commit all emotions to God.
and i am gonna trust in Him.
no no..andrea is not falling for anyone.
just thinking..cos everyone gets burnt by love..placing importance of immediate satisfaction..not seeing down further.
but its not easy being young and all.

i want to be found in Your embrace, let me lose myself in You and nothing else.

love unfailing, overtaking my heart, You take me in.
finding peace again, fear is lost in all You are.

yet another lazy afternoon yesterday.
made me miss the empty sports gymnasium in mg..after every training.
when the school is practically empty and silent and the sun sets behind us whilst we hull our tired bodies to the toliet..
to flood the whole area before heading to the canteen to have our tomyam noodles and orangina.
i miss the those days.
woke up thinking of stella..cos i suddenly remembered eugenia telling me that stella used to sing the stacy orico's song.
and i dont really remember stella much of a singing-often person.hmm.
i miss her. her optimism and her "nagging"..no no..motivational speeches..her "haiyah andrea!you know..." getting me to study and all.
and she is a super good persuader.cheryl usually gives in with a "ok la!ok la!"...or "STEELLAAA!!!"
you are missed miss-a-la-la-la-la-loong. =)

going through a somewhat pensive confused phase.
each time when i am alone or quiet..i feel as if i would go into silent mode for the rest of the day.
dont feel like talking much.
but the moment i am around people..i would go into this hyper-retarded random state.
i seriously do think i am retarded.argh.
running out of things to talk to people about too. i guess it boils down to my lack of general knowledge.
but one cant help it if one aint interested in stuff like that right?
i need to grow up. i know.
find me a neverland.

trust in the Lord's timing.
give Him your all.

isnt it funny how each time you feel like you've done so much for a person.
and yet the same cannot be reciprocated back to you. even just a listening ear.
the feeling is so frustrating. and yet..nothing can be done.
cos you still love the person too much to want to scold him/her.
and even if you do..you might end up just scolding what seems like a wall.
or worse..the wall will dig up all the past and throw it back in your face.
and it just doesnt seem justified. it just doesnt.

sometimes..
i wish i was less of a people person and find myself in seclusion more often.
i wish i was more vocal and outspoken when i need to be.
i wish i could open up to people easier than being on high guard.scared of getting hurt/betrayed.
i wish i would be less introspective and see the bigger picture.
i wish i didnt have emo days like this. when you feel like crying for no rhyme or reason.and the tears dont come.


hide me in the cleft of the Rock.

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!



LEO KEEPS BLUFFING ME!


usually when my silly dog wants to do his "business"..he would circle around an area sniffing the ground.
that's the sign for us to place a sheet of newspaper for him to aim on.
that has been the tradition for many years.

but in the recent months..my dog has come up with a new amusement!
he would do the same circling sniffing thing..
and when i place a piece of newspaper on the ground.
he would jump and crumple it and tear it up.
just for the fun of it.
its highly irritating. cos he is so retarded!
here i am..anxious to place the paper down, just in case i am "too late".
but there he is just happy that he gets a new sheet of paper to chew on.
argh.

my dog is either getting senile..or he really is out to bully me.
roar.

streams of sunlight.
lazing dog.
serenading birds.
sound of the machine drum spinning.
archie comics by the bedside.
clothes drying in the wind.
sesame street for education.
jamie oliver,yummy delights.

finally...

a slow-paced day.
all to and by myself.

it has been a long while since i have been able to do things at a slowed down pace..to sleep whenever i want..
and to be the lil domestic helper that my mum has been harping me to be.

housechores can actually give one a sense of satisfaction.
amazing.

collected my contact lens today..made a new pair since my last one tore.

did more thinking today. which is wonderful.

perhaps all tuesdays should be like this.




but eugenia would kill me.i shouldnt pon lectures.

i want to become a hermit crab.
find me a shell please.
i want to go into hiding.

honey lemon tea.

FINALLY!!
andrea is finally online.
my wireless is working at last.
and my mac..well..some how i cant connect wirelessly..but at least i am finally back in the world of msn and blogs.
yay.
oh yes!

in the midst of my hustle and bustle of getting my internet back up..i forgot to mention.
i've got myself TWO NEW BABIES!
i am a happy girl.
maybe now i can go on and finally really enjoy my new acquisitions.

i got a black macbook and a black ipod video.

yay.
i have satisfied my carnal materialistic cravings.
terrible.i know.
each time these feelings come..my parents get a big burn.

i must abstain from expensive items now.

school has started.
and i need someone to kick me hard.
i am still very much in denial that school has started and there are tutorials to get done.
ARGH!

but i am quite excited about this new sem.
i realised that there are quite a no. of common break slots with my favourite pple.

OH!!
i have a thanksgiving.
i have been wanting to get forensic science for the longest time.
and on tuesday..they surprisingly opened up not 100..but 400 places!
and our lecture is held in our school's auditorium..so our cohort for that module is like..over 1100 pple.
its madness. but i am so glad.
cos my good frens are all in the class with me..
enting, dor, edlyn, izzy, eugenia, caroline, drew and twin!
yay!
and forensic is really interesting. a tad bit morbid. and its after lunch time too.
its gonna be a good sem. -i hope-

freshmen vision tea was on thursday..and i had to share my testimony..thankfully it was in the form of a skit..and i shared abt my gen12ii trip. of my tripping over the projector and how God supernaturally healed it. It was realy all Him as i spoke, i tend to get incoherent and speak really fast when i get nervous. i kept praying before going up. and He is so faithful really.

had to call the freshies this week to ask if they would want to know more about crusade..i think about 4 of them are "abandoning" me..haha..cos they have decided to join the indonesian student christian fellowship.
which is all good. as long as we are all serving in campus. =)

exciting sem. new responsibilities. new opportunities. new hope.

God is good all the time.

2 days of internet cold turkey + 4 days trying to get my mac connected = one very frustrated and tired andrea.

sty in my eye.

oh sty in my eye.

please go away,

sty in my eye.

why oh why, is there

a sty in my eye.

it hurts me so.

please go go GO!

outcome of drinking insufficient amount of water.

called my freshies today.

so exciting.

my hands were cold and clammy.

i am shy!

shy!

my tongue gets tied and i am at a lost of words.

but He is faithful. i managed to date 4 girls out.

kenna rejected by 2.

but its alright! =)

He has everything orchestrated.

its all in Your hands.

roar.

tutorials are starting.

hold my hand. dont let me go.

i feel helpless and at a lost of things to do.

i need You.

my heart and flesh cries out,

for You, the Living God.

Your Spirit is water to my soul.

i've tasted and i've seen,

come once again to me.

i will draw near to You.

i will draw near to You.

tweet's and ber's birthday is the same as singapore's!

it was fantastic fun during tweet's 21st birthday lunch at PS cartel..and also watching adam sandler's "click".

i hope you enjoyed yourself babe. i hope you felt wonderful.

thanks to all who came.. =)
it was super exciting coming out for tweet's birthday outing..cos we didnt know who exactly were coming.
and WWOOO!!! it was fabulous to say the least.

thank you so much to jason too! you're fantabulous, brudder! FANTABULOUS!

may God continue to smile and sing over you, tweet, as you embark on another phase in life.

YOU ARE GREATLY LOVED BY MANY PEOPLE, ALBERT HALIM! GREATLY LOVED!

dont hide one corner and cry anymore ok? wahahaha.

-kiddin-

after watching movie..i rushed from PS to centrepoint to get lembu's present..and then to taka to fetch my darling ame.
we headed down to west coast park for lembu's birthday bbq.
we sang many great hits from veggie tales.
haha.craziness.
=)

HAPPY BELATED 21st BIRTHDAY LEMBU LOO LOO!!

yupp..
tomorrow night..going out with my girls to celebrate janetta's 21st birthday..
excited.

so many birthdays in the month of august..
to those whom i'm close to..
please..please...by any means..dont conceive your kid in august next time ok??
or i'm gonna be a self declared bankrupt next time each august.

i need to start saving money man..
next year...there are gonna be many MANY MANY 21st birthday parties.

alright..many more birthdays coming up this month.
its all so exciting.
i love birthdays.

birthdays are not meant to be celebrated alone.

funny phrase of the day : ok.who is the c*ckster who pressed??!

wahaha.
if you dont get it..its aight.

another fantastic day..and all thanks be to You.

and like the blink of an eye..

my holidays are officially over.

FOC was rocking.
God gave us such perfect weather..and everything flowed well.
A HUGE SHOUT OUT to my games comm.
thank you darlings so so much.
you all were great help in planning and organising the games.
i really thank God for each and everyone of you.

ROAR!!!
=)

its gonna be an exciting year..there are gonna be many emerging ninja crusaders..
and they are gonna be mighty warriors!!
wooo..exciting.

God is really on the move.and its such an adventure following after Him.

ktv with the crusaders was fun too.
highly embarrassing too actually.cos of some stupid songs i sang and actions i did.
im really quite retarded.

been busy meeting up with many of my friends.
and planning and getting ready for the next semester.

im quite apprehensive about next sem..so many new responsibilities.
but...BUT...i am trusting God to provide and guide me.

my hair is ruffled...but i'm gonna get them all neatened.

i need to start looking outwards..to be clay vessel and stop thinking im gonna be a vase someday.

it is not me they need to see.
it is You.

and in the midst of my busy-ness..
i've hurt you on the way..and i am really sorry for not being there for you when you needed my shoulder.
it did cross my mind each time i checked my inbox to message you..
but its my constant flaw to tend to get distracted easily.
its a flimsy excuse..and i am ashamed to say that i have indeed failed you.
i hope you'll talk to me when you're feeling better.
i know we're growing apart..and there's an inevitable distance between us.
i just hope you'll understand.
i really am sorry.



and so the happy days ended.