zixiang's ultra funky hair. 

so many things i dont understand.
so many things i cant change.
but im glad that You still hold my hand.

im blessed to have friends around me to laugh around and just have fun.
=)
i love positive energies.
just makes you feel so happy and blessed.

went to settler's [the holland v branch] yesterday.
with dor sam jon enting and hannah.
it was fun.
we played jenga.[ and jon made the structure collapse on BOTH counts]
and then we played halli galli. [ dor got injured. it really is a violent game.]
and then we played cranium.[ alot of acting, drawing, trivia and word knowledge involved. -phew- ]
and then we played i'm the boss.[ we cldnt play it for too long.cos we all use feelings to do business.haha.]
and then we played pit! [hahaha.we all sounded like auctioneers. one!one! two!two!FOUR!!FOUR!! ]

it was really fun.
=)
and am glad my darling enting enjoyed herself.
most impt.
=)

OHHH!!
and i bought my mushroom crisps!!!
AFTER SO MIGHTY LONG!!
i've been craving them for one mth plus already!!
when we were waiting for our bill to be tabulated and all.
we sat down.
and my eyes fell on PACKETS OF MUSHROOM CRISPS!! aligned against the mirror.
i was so DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY!
i just kept staring at them.
and i bought two packets when we were leaving!
AHH!
happiness.bliss.whoopee.

i love mushroom crisps.

yay.
yesterday was a good day.

today is gonna be one too.
going to IMM with shir and artist.
then shir and i will be heading down to orchard to buy some stuff.
and a present for our chem tuition teacher, ms tan.
then we are meeting ms tan and zixiang the neh for dinner.
yay.
cant wait.

this week is jam packed!
am so glad my parents understand.
and allow me to run around this week.
i am really running all over spore this week.


so blessed. i cant contain it!
so much i've gotta give it away!

it isnt easy to just cut loose.
it isnt easy to just walk away.
it isnt easy to just stop thinking.
it isnt easy choosing which path to take.
it isnt easy to just let go.
it isnt easy to just shake it all and walk away unscathed.
it isnt easy.
it isnt easy at all.

[ t.a.n.g.l.e.d.h.e.a.r.t.s.t.r.i.n.g.s]

just keep praying.

my heart shaped abrasion. 

jon..in the timothy room..we were entertaining ourselves when eugenia went to find esther..so we noticed..jon and i..that the peeping hole is from outside in! amazing! 

my darling shane. he was so amused by the camera.and when he smiled for me..he wld cringe up his face..and he himself after seeing the photo wld go "not nice!not nice!" so these are his candid shots. 

tired.
achy.
happy tho.
good day.
drained.

had meta dance practice this morning at GCTC.
i think the place is so cool!
we went up to the office to get the key for the timothy room to be opened.
and i was just standing at the stairs looking up and down.
and just going "waahhh".
i think it is way cool.
a hse converted to a hq.
wow.

so yes.
dance is..erm..
PAIN.
when we were stretching..everyone cld open their legs wide..and stretch.
esp esther and eugenia.
i was like...struggling la.
yes. flexibility has never been a part of me.
and i have abrasions on my right foot and knee cos of the split 7s and pivoting on my right knee that we need to do.
we were dancing on carpet.

yupp.

its good. i like the dance.
its been a long time since i've danced tho.
fun fun.

after meta dance practice..i went down to pasir ris.
to accompany janelle and tiffany( both 13) and tommy(11) to escape theme park.
cos today is JANELLE'S BIRTHDAY!!.
and if i didnt go..her dad wld have to take leave.
and that wldnt be too nice.
so yes.
it was fun la.
on the viking ride..tommy and i were laughing and sounding like pregnant women.
when we are going up "hhheee hee heee"..going down "oooohhh...ooohhh.."
hahaha.
it was fun.
tommy is so cute.

after that..i went down to dover..to meet jon.
to go for josh mcdowell's ..erm..seminar??sermon?
i dunnoe what is the right word.
yes.
it was good.he's very engaging.
and gabe and janice did a good job acting.
=)

yupp.went for supper after that with the ntu crusaders.
good good.
had a good day.
but am tired now.

looonnnggg weeekkk..
i miss my drey.

i wasnt supposed to cry.
i wasnt!
why on earth did i cry?
the nearer we were to the departure gate..the more tears swelled up in my eyes.
when she hugged me.
i still contained it.
but when i started waving.
and she waved at me.
i started hiding behind my daddy.
i started to cry.
when she walked in..and checked at the counter.
the tears kept falling.
i just stood there.
looking at the four of them walk in.
and they kept waving.
argh.
and i waved back.
with tears.
kel couldnt believe i was tearing just cos they were gone for a week.

i seriously have abandonment issues!

next time when pple go away for a long while.
i think i mustnt be there to see them off.
sigh.

anyway.
im next in line to take care of the youth when the three of them are gone.
so yes.
today's christmas rehearsal.
i didnt go crazy.
and everyone helped.
so the paw mail was done.
and our sequencing was ok.
everything went quite well.
and thankfully elvin is there for me to smack and to go crazy.
so i'll keep sane.
i cant wait for christmas.

this week is gonna be jam packed. =)
and my rebecca and russell are coming back tml.
yay.
this is the first time that im the only one in spore..and the three nuts are gone.
two in korea one in india.
i kept watching our home-made videos just now.

went for a malay wedding lunch today.
the food was sedap.
AYEEBA!!! GET MARRIED SOON PLEASE!!
haha.
and honestly..i can imagine you as a bride.[ some how you are wearing a golden kebaya/gown]
sitting there smiling and smiling at pple.
and looking happy and all.
and i'll be some mad kuku..seated at a table in clear view of you.
and i'll be smiling too.
cos you'll be smiling.
wow.
i cant wait.
=)

seems like alot of pple are getting married at this time of the year.
=)

visited my dad's second elder sister.
ie. my aunt.
her eyes are quite bad.cataract and all.
so my dad went over to pray and talk to her.
my grand nephew SHANE was there.
yippee.
he's so cute la.
i cannot tahan. =)


good day.

drey is leaving for the land of the blazing sun, ie. india, early tml morning.
gone for a week.
guess i am gonna miss her quite a bit.
no one is gonna be at home for me to disturb and tell things to.
hmm.
owell.
after so many years of being away from each other now and then.
i guess i am still not used to being away from her for long periods of time.
doubt i will cry... that much tml.
im sure God will take care of her and bring her back safely to me.
she is afterall going there to do His work.

so do keep her in your prayers.
she's going there with kel chowie and pam to teach the teachers there the proper way of teaching.
haha.

so many things to do for christmas.
costumes..song..games..intro..intro music..music..
hmm.
all for His glory.

my precious.joy and jer.


the eccentrics!!


i have a lot of wonderful and retarded pple in my life.
really blessed.
not one moment of dullness.
=)


anyway.
i am not sure if its because the red dragon is here.
but i am growing very impatient.
and intolerent of childish mentality.
of not being able to see beyond and looking at what is really important.
being retarded and having a childish mentality is different.
you can be retarded all you want.
but at the end of the day..you must have a clear mind and right morals you know.
and sense.and wisdom.
i am growing intolerent of pple who focus on unimportant things.
and worse of it all.
worse of it all.
i hate pple imposing their views on others.
trying to control them.
i mean.
for crying out loud..who are you to impose your views on others!?
do you have the right to want to control some else's life?
i mean..if its for the better.and the person is really screwing things then yes la.
by all means smack the person back to reality.
but if its just small minor things..that is of personal preference.
please.
please.
dont impose on others your views.

i am very protective of the pple ard me.
pissing them off is almost equivalent to pissing me off.
no one owes anyone a living.

sigh.
thankfully im not one to brood over things.
just small things like this that irritate me and really sit down and wonder.
am i the one who has grown up? or is that person just seriously lagging.

make your preferences known.
just dont IMPOSE them on others.
controlling is one thing.
SUFFOCATION is another.

i miss my rebecca.come back from korea quickly please..i am actually starting to be SANE!!! 

tennis in the morning was shiok.
im a bit burnt now tho.
but still..shiok.
=)

then i went to bishan..to plan our entrance and games stuff with elvin.
and we talked alot of nonsense too.

so i waited for bus no. 52 to get to rach's hse.
i waited on the same side as j8.
then when i was on the phone with rach..and boarding..the uncle stopped me before i could tap.
uncle : where are you going?
me : er..macritchie?
uncle : -smiling- that is opposite bus stop.
me : oh! haha. ok. thanks.

yeap.
embarrassing.

oh well..so i got my jolly self on the bus.
and gave a false alarm when i pressed the button for a stop i thought was right.
cos i saw a shell station.
but realised it was wrong.
so i stayed put in my seat.
hmm..
thankfully someone had waved the bus down.

yupp.
finally got down at the right stop.
and went to shir's hse with rach.
cos today is ABU'S 17th birthday.
so we went for the bbq.
tecky teck was there! -yippee-
havent seen him in a long while. =)
my good ol tu di.

yupp..so i called jer down to play cards with us a while.
and the four of us..shir rach jer and i.
were like macham 4 drunkards.
we were so high.
laughing and joking and just talking nonsense.
=)
so happy.

enjoyed myself much.
esp when tecky and i thought the tap was auto.
so we were waving our hands ard the tap.
only to realise..that we were supposed to step on this thingy on the floor in order for the water to come out.
hahahhaa.
pinnacle of kuku-ness.

anyhoo..enjoyed myself alot.
good day no?
=)

thanks laopo for the dinner.

been meaning to post this yesterday.(7th of december).
but i had a suddern urge to wanna help find a nicer template for my class blog.
and so here i am.
on the 8th of december.
anyway.
yesterday was a very special day.
for two of my most favourite pple in the world.
its quite a feat to have stayed together for so long.
with having to handle one unconventional and perfectionist daughter on one hand..
and handling a hyperactive and financial-management disorder daughter on the other.
and being such good role models.
happy silver 25th wedding anniversay mr and mrs lee!

just came back from causeway point.
went there with drey and her three students.
billy is so out of point.
and his english is hilarious.

billy (asking me) : you are a piranah too right?
me : -bursts out in laughter-
billy ( asking my sister) : miss lee..she is a piranah too?
drey : if you are chinese..wldnt your sister be chinese too?? and its peranakan not piranah.

at this point..i was in tears.
i dont wanna be a piranah.
hahaha.

oh yes.gym with doreen this morning was good.
new goal : to be able to run 400m in 2 mins.again.
i did 3 mins today.
saddening.

yupp.
weather is so hot now.

pastor : kel..do you know that spore has a lot of russians??
timothy..did you know that??
because now a days..everyone is rushing here..and rushing there.

then a huge groan rises from amidst the youth.
sprinkled with the laughter of the adults.


pastor taught on finding a sanctuary.
that we need to have solitude. silence. and stillness.
and its so true.
cos im one who feels the need to be surrounded by sound.
so i wldnt feel alone.
but when i need to pray and be alone with God.
i sit in my room.
and shut all noise off.
and the peace just reigns.
its so calming.
and so uplifting.

but i have not been running to that sanctuary in a long while.
and i need to find it back.


drey kept laughing at me from the other room just now.
" you prayed to be fat?hahahahahahha."

sigh.

evidences of my past.
all pasted on my wall.
i want to go back.
i want to go back.
moments of craziness.
moments when i can lose myself and not care at all.
moments when i eat without a care.
yes.
i want to be skinny again.
i need exercise.
i need to recouperate first.
and then become the sports freak that i was.
i should never have prayed to be fat when i was in sec2.
yes.
i prayed that i could be fat.
so that i could exercise and see results.
instead of always being slim.
weird.
very weird.
argh.



janelle and becky are staying over today.
yay.
gonna watch sky high soon.
=)

dinner with joy jer and danny on friday night was fun.
got to know danny better.
and am so glad that he takes good care of my joyjoy.
=)

shopping with mummy was good too.
cny outfit is settled.

nitez babes.

dont mess with the 5 mighty tigeresses!!RAAHH!!!

AAHHHH!!!
i cant believe i forgot!!!
i forgot!!!!


how can that be!??!
andrea lee!!!
arghh..
you drive me crazy!!!


andrea just forgot to watch pimp my ride.
at 930.

AAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!

went to sentosa yesterday with my youth pple.
i was supposed to bring the fishballs down for our lunch.
and i ordered 42 fishballs from the yong tau foo auntie at my market.
i thought i told her i want the ones that can be eaten immediately.
guess i wasnt clear enough.
when i went to collect the fishballs..the lady took it out of the fridge.
and so i had to cook the fishballs.cos the ones she gave me werent cooked.
aiyah.
so i was late in meeting my youth.was supposed to meet at harbourfront at 10.
and i was at home cooking the fishballs at 930.
but im so proud of my fishball frying!
hahaha.not that it is very tough la.
but still proud.hahaha.
so i cabbed down to harbourfront.

we got to the beach..the guys went to play with elvin's semi-deflated volleyball.
and the girls..well..
we played reverse whacko.
i attempted to teach them how to play la.
thought i've never played it before.

i called jon for the rules.
me : hello jon! are you busy?
jon: hello.er.yar.kinda.
me:oh ok.nvm then.
jon: why??
me: ok.byee!!

then i msged him.."did you say why?or bye?"
his reply : why laa!! hahaha

so i called back and got the rules from him. haha
im deaf.

yupp..so the girls and i played reverse whacko for a few rounds.
i was the first to start.
and when i finally sat down..i forgot to shout another name.
so i got whacked again.
and then when i was gonna get whacked at another time..for some weird reason..i shouted "ANDREA!" and all of them burst out laughing.
i laughed until i cried.
unbelievable. i am seriously so silly.hahaha.

we played whacko the right way after a while..and then.we got bored.
and so..we played..
-drumroll-
WHAT'S THE TIME MR WOLF!
haha.
i havent played that game in like..what..9 years!
it was fun reliving my childhood.

played vball with the guys for a while..hilarious.
cos we all couldnt play very well.
=)

ate lunch..thanks kel so very much for all the food.
really appreciate your efforts babe!

walked along the beach with kel..walked over the bridge with the girls..and we all just laid in the sun for a while.
really nice and cosy.

we went cycling.
and my butt was hurting like mad..but none of them wanted to stop for a while.
argh.
but im glad i got to cycle la.
havent cycled in so long.

my face got a bit burnt.
lips feel constantly parched.

hmm..
dinner was ok.
we went to harbourfront.
DONT EAT FROM THE HAN'S THERE!!
so cheat money la.
i paid 4.50 for a bun..two sausages..with no sauce what so ever..and fries and salad.
and its called EXTREME HOT DOG!
faint i tell you.faint.
raahh..

all in all..fantastic day.

when i got home.
after i bathed.
my dad helped massage my injuries.
haha.
and its so ironic.
cos shouldnt I be the one massaging my dad??
haha.
im stuck in an old woman's body.
so much aches and pain.

my left calve's blue black is becoming very visible cos after rubbing its healing.
my left shoulder joint is better.
but a bit pain still.
my right muscle that links to my ankle is still hurting when i walk.
and this morning!! i have new aches!!
my back and two shoulders are hurting.
my shoulders feel as if someone is constantly applying pressure.
i cant rotate my arms without pain.
and my lower back hurts.

sighhh..
i need a full recovery.

okie doke.
done blogging abt yesterday.
today is a day of rest.
will be going out again tml.

yippeee..

many can love you extravagantly..
but only one can make you feel genuinely and contentedly loved.

out at sea. 

waffles anyone? 

our pride and joy.hahaha. 

my beautiful babes. 

im so hungry i could eat three girls!! -growl- 

fantastic day.
girls' day out!
went to thread eyebrows with ame dor and enting in the late afternoon.
pain.
no matter how many times i do it.
it still hurts.

all for the sake of vanity.
=)

yupp..after that ame went to meet her fellow youth pple..and the three of us made our way down to east coast park!
to meet izzy and edlyn.
weeeee...
we cut up trash bags and found sticks and rocks to hold them down.
haha.
that was so fun.
was so proud of us when it was done too.
haha.

we sat by the sea talked and took multiple photos.
and then we went to the breakwater.
and took more photos.
then we went to find a bench to sit down at.
and took more photos.
and then we went to mc cafe's cos we wanted to try their shakes.
but apparently they didnt have.
so we sat and talked.
and took more photos.
and then dor left to rush home to do her lab report.
and so the four of us.
lingered a while more before heading to gelare.
since today is tuesday.
waffles were half-priced.
so we bought our yummy food.
talked.
and took more photos.
and then we finally went back to mac's to sit a while longer.
before heading home.


really really enjoyed myself.
its so nice spending quality girl time.
with no other beings around.
love it.
and we were all so trigger happy.
=)

thanks babes..so much.
i enjoyed myself today.
immensely.


tomorrow is yet another day to look forward to.

Lord..please take the pain in my left arm and calve away.
it really hurts.
total healing please.

hope the weather holds up tomorrow and we wld all have a swell time at sentosa tomorrow.
yippee.
cant wait.

the secret is out.
and it made me smile.

the birthday girl and i on sunday..yay! happy belated birthday miss chai!! 

my babes..whom i love alot.and had a great time with today. =) 

i wish i knew the secret.
dont you wish you knew the secret?
perhaps the secret is in a secret.
or maybe the secret doesnt know its own secret.
shhhhh.
come.
lets hide in a corner till the secret becomes a secret.
and knows its a secret.
and tells its secret to us secretives.

i wish i knew the secret.
dont you wish you knew the secret?


mischevious anxious glint.

"I am the vine, you are the branches.He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. - john 15:5

recently, i have been a branch that is trying to be my own vine.
sticking my self to the ground.trying my best to force roots out and try to stand on my own.
but only to find myself toppling over and drying out.

led worship today.
and i am disappointed and embarrassed to say that today's worship was quite last minute.i have been praying the whole week.but i did not stop to listen to the still small voice. i still relied on myself.
it is through today's worship that i have woken up to the fact that i really am a nobody without Him.
the desperation for more of Him became so real.
i wanted to break down and cry because i feel like i have broken His heart and betrayed Him.
by not placing more of such reverence and importance on worship.
when it is our highest calling to worship.

i really must stop relying on my finite self.
especially not in ministry.
i have been so foolish.


who am i to show off my talents?
when they are all but gifts.
who am i to boast of my achievements?
when they are all His blessings.
who am i to compare myself to others?
when we are all given a measure of grace.
i am nobody without Him.


know that the Lord, He is God;
It is He who has made us , and not we ourselves;
We are His people and the sheep of His pasture. - psalm 100:3

YAYYY YYYIPPPPPEEEE DDDOOOOO DDDAAAAHHHH DDDAAAAYYYY!!!

oh yeah oh yeah!!!

WWOOOHOOOZZZ!!!

haha.
let the games begin!!

happy.happy.
exams are over.OVER.
so much to give thanks for.
haha.

oh.i didnt managed to study my exchange rate in time yesterday.
so i prayed that it wldnt come out.
and it came out as an option!
yay.
so i didnt hafta do it.
haha.

talent time on thursday night was entertaining.
cos there was a power failure in the entire school.
and my wife was so stressed.
poor girl.
the singers were sporting enough to sing without music accompliment and mic.
so that was cool.
a real test of whether they can sing.
=)

catching up with my li huimin was fun too.
she never fails to amuse me.

oh yes.
so yesterday..due to communication break down.
alot of pple had their own plans.
so only left darren jaclyn and i.
haha.
so thankful jac has a car.
we were on our way to orchard when jac went "wanna eat meatballs?"
me : yay!!yes please!!
so we filtered two lanes just before the exit.haha.
exciting.
i love spontaneity.
so we went to ikea.
and ordered so much.
we couldnt finish our 6 pieces of chicken wing.
so we da-baoed.

ok.on to orchard!
we had to spend time finding parking space.
tough.
but when we finally did!
we were late for the 3 oclock shows.
so sigh..we walked ard.
went to hmv.
darren : -holds onto a spongebob square pants calendar- hey!get this!
me : no no.i dont have the player for it!
darren : -gives me the you-are-so-dumb- face- its a calendar!
me : oohh!! hahahahaha.i thought it was a LD!!
darren : no one sells LDs anymore!

and since as darren says " since we have nothing to do.lets just eat."
we ended up at heeren's billy bombers.
and had our shakes.
yippee!!finally.i've been craving it!

finally we all departed cos they had to get stuff done..and i went to meet my mum and aunt jen.
we walked ard..trying to find nice beaded earrings for my aunt.
and then i had to tahan all the abuse from my aunt on the way to dinner.
am i that smackable!?
haha.
dinner was good.
my cousins are so entertaining.


yupp.
came home to watch the emperor's new groove!
and slept.

yay.
unadulterated freedom.
slacking without guilt.
fantastic.

sums up my day.
its just play from now on.
glad i've survived.

God is the strength of my life.
God is the strength of my heart.
God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
forever.

dinner at casa roma.riviolli (uncertain about the spelling). cool stuff.i love new things to eat. 

my indulgences and khakis.jac and darren.had cream of brocolli.swedish meatballs.and cookie and cream shake. =) 

after being pulled into jonathan's evil plan of making me play a game called "medieval black knight".
hahaha.
which is really very stress relieving.
though i feel bad..cos i need to smash old folks and birdies in order to get money.
evil evil game.
=)
thanks jon.

i must now head back to my world of econs.
where my best companions are my cup of tea and cheese bread.
ive had many cups of tea already.
almost on the brink of unhealthiness.
save me.

i broke a personal academic record just now.
and i need to go break another soon.
i feel like im sprinting.
just not so much of the adrenalin.

on a mad rush.

one more day to my freedom.
but im even more boggled down with econs.
i still have macro to finish up.
and to finish it by 5pm.
i am just aiming for a pass.
sigh.
must really buck up next sem.

was supposed to wake up at 815 today.
but i kept changing my alarm till 925.

need to get moving.
chop chop!!

going for SIM talent time tonight.
with JESSE!!
happy happy.
havent seen her in a long while. =)

it seems like it is approaching that time of the year that i start reflecting on the past year.
and come up with resolutions(which i hardly keep) for next year.
hopefully ive grown more spiritually.
physically..i know ive grown ONE CM!
and im happy abt that.haha.

anyhoo..
i shall take my leave now.

p.s : jon..i'll remove the song.it isnt a very good recording anyway. =)


dont settle for anything less than His best.

You're just too good to be true.

Can't take my eyes off you.

You'd be like heaven to touch.

I wanna hold you so much.

At long last love has arrived.

And I thank God I'm alive.

You're just too good to be true.

Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.

There's nothing else to compare.

The sight of you leaves me weak.

There are no words left to speak.

But if you feel like I feel.

Please let me know that it's real.

You're just too good to be true.

Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you baby, and if it's quite all right,

I need you baby to warm a lonely night.

I love you baby.

Trust in me when I say:

Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down I pray.

Oh prettybaby, now that I found you, stay.

And let me love you, oh baby let me love you.

--lauryn hill.

the prayer

pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che to dai

I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'e

When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child
Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede cheHai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

-josh groban feat charlotte church.

i woke up at 1.05pm today.
i have slept almost half a day away.
fantastic.

its funny how.. you can sleep so much.
wake up and feel as if you didnt have sufficient sleep.
my head feels funny.

i prayed just now that the sun would come out soon.
this cold weather is just tempting me to laze around.
curl into bed with my blanket and a book.

i feel unproductive.

mat sci has left me speechless.
i dont know what to make out of it.
really.

anyhoo..
after the paper..
after tahan-ing my need to pee for half an hour.
ok..yes.i rushed to the toliet.
i dont know why..out of all six cubicles..
all of them were taking so long.
rah!
after that..
i went to al-azhar with dor and sam.
we look like the traffic light today.
me in red, sam in yellow, dor in green.
haha.
oh hey!we forgot to take photo!aiyah.

masala thosai was good.

after that..i was too full for my ice cream.
so i guess our ice cream session has to wait.again.

came home and watched four hours of my korean show!!
-grins-

yippee.
not studying today.
can you tell??

tomorrow..tomorrow..

4 more days to freedom!!!

i feel as if im ready and not ready at the same time.
this is so conflicting.
i feel as if i know my work..but at the same time am scared that i dont.
argh.
i need to read through my work.
and time isnt on my side.
and yes.
this is due to my own doing.
i have not been a good steward of my time.

i want to study tonight.
and not bring any notes at all tomorrow to school.
so i dont revise and panick before the paper.
i have never not revised before a paper before.
and i want to be confident for my paper.
i usually study with more heart for my mat sci than my other modules.
and i really wanna do well for my mat sci.
how can i want to appeal into mat sci and not do well for the module right?
thats just nonsense.
yes.
wish me all the best.

today's sermon by brother tony from india was good.
fantastic.
he preached on psalm 100.
about entering into God's house.
and worship.
wow.
it really spoke to my heart.
about how we have to have thanksgiving in our hearts in order to worship..because if we do not have thanksgiving how can we praise Him?and we are His people and we belong to Him.we are not self-made.we are His sheep.and we should come into His house wanting to only listen to His voice for HE is our shepherd.
just want to keep singing of His goodness.


oh i will celebrate the goodness of the Lord, He has given me His life yet He keeps giving more.
oh Lord, i celebrate Your goodness.
You are good.

elvin.the "cute"..no wait..pardon me..i mean..the yandao, handsome, bootylicious, snag, charismatic, sensous, sexy, appealing, charming and LADYKILLA one.if you want his number..please feel free to ask it from me. =)

my handsome. 

you be pepper.i'll be salt. 

the amount of food drey and i ordered at crystal jade.just for the two of us. 

tennis in the evening. 

just recovered from a panic attack.
i need to be more zai.
this is crazy.
i have never worried so much before when i am incharge of things.
what's wrong with me.

owell.
now that everything is settled.
lesson learnt.
need to have more organisation.
and more communication.

though i must admit..i am not usually keen on communicating with my lao ban.
but responsibilities are responsibilities.
what needs to be done..needs to be done.

a few more weekends to christmas.
Lord..i need peace and patience.
as what elvin said..everything always eventually works out by itself.

breathe.

ok..off to material science.
its funny how my favourite module is becoming my nightmare.
i am actually scared for this paper.

hear us from heaven..touch our generation..
we are Your people..crying out in desperation.

i wanted to wake up at 830 this morning.
i got up at 1055.

i wanted to have a good breakfast and study until the time i need to meet drey.
i started my day mopping the floor.

lets just smile.

im almost done reading my mat sci lecture notes.
yay.
im happy.

just got off the phone with laopo.
she's so funny when she's angry.
poor girl has to work with so many irresponsible pple.
sigh.
wifey : idiots!they should jump into the pond and eat the fish!
me : huh!? hahahahahhaa.
she never fails to amuse me.

gonna play tennis later.
with dor and sam.
yay.
hopefully it wldnt be too hot.
tho i need a tan quite badly.

im finally refocussed again.
and it feels good.

when i stay at home the whole day.
i feel as if im in a time warp.
my day goes pass so quickly.
and i find myself not accomplishing much.

my bed calls out to me ever so often.
my tv beckons me to turn her on.
but i switch it off soon after when i find nothing appealing.
my laptop attracts my finger to press the on button.
but there is hardly anyone to talk to.
nothing to do.


and i find myself intrigued by my dog.
how does he keep his sanity when he stays at home all the time??
he looks for his bone and trots around the living room with it in his mouth.
finds new places to sleep.
sits and stones for a while..before eventually lying down.

it is mightily boring.

i think my birds are starting to like josh groban.
they start to sing when i play josh groban's cd.
amazing.

its gonna rain.
and leo barks at the thunder.
but shivers when the lightening strikes.


save me from myself.

my head is hurting.
and i have not been productive today.
dang.
must start channelling my energy and thoughts more productively.
come on andrea.two more papers.
i will conquer more tml.
feels like i just dropped an anvil on my foot.

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

--to where you are-josh groban.

today was fantastic.
as usual.
any time spent with ayeeba ame and shir is a sure-fire way to have a good time.

went to ame's hse ard 2 plus.
and later at 5 we went to ntuc with ayeeba shir ame and leah.
it was so fun.

i wanted to buy coke with lime.
and the sign just said..$2.95 for..
and blank!
so i told leah..perhaps its for 2..then again..maybe 5..no no..how abt 3?
leah just kept laughing.
leah : how can it be for 3?! the smaller one is already $1.10 per bottle!how can the bigger one be 3 for $2.95?? hahaha.

leah is so cute.
not a very good promoter though.
me : should i buy this?
leah : i tried it before.it is not nice.the strawberries are like dried. -makes face-
me : ok.-puts the box back- how abt this one?
leah : not nice too.

when we were choosing which chicken sausage to buy.
leah took the japanese jelly packet.
leah : its vegetarian!
me : but we're looking for chicken!
leah : can substitute wad. [smth like that]

haha.
ntuc shopping was fun.
helping gilson choose what to buy for his girlfren's bday cake was fun too.
he too wanted to use the jelly mix as substitute. for frosting.

so for dinner..we made chicken teh [ bak kut teh without bak kut..but with chicken.].
submarine pizza and mashed potatoe.

and we had my brownies for dessert.
thought my brownies sort of hardened.
haha.
so it was so fun seeing us all struggle with it.
esp metal mouth.
haha.

and ayeeba..its not that my hearing is so superb.
its just that i only heard the part when you said "andrea cant hear."
that i went "hey!"
haha.
i am super.
but not THAT super.
=)

great time today.
yippee.
i can get addicted to this.

the funky-but-sorta-scary pumpkins at ntuc. 

broken vow. -josh groban

Tell me his name
I want to know
The way he looks
And where you go
I need to see his face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
While I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I let you go
I let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I let you go
Now that I've found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
The one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let those moments end


so glad i found my josh groban back.
now to find norah..

its too noisy. 

drey's birthday. 

sooo preeettyy.. 

my janetta wanting to turn back the clock..and buy that kid's dress for herself..=)