elvin.the "cute"..no wait..pardon me..i mean..the yandao, handsome, bootylicious, snag, charismatic, sensous, sexy, appealing, charming and LADYKILLA one.if you want his number..please feel free to ask it from me. =)

my handsome. 

you be pepper.i'll be salt. 

the amount of food drey and i ordered at crystal jade.just for the two of us. 

tennis in the evening. 

just recovered from a panic attack.
i need to be more zai.
this is crazy.
i have never worried so much before when i am incharge of things.
what's wrong with me.

owell.
now that everything is settled.
lesson learnt.
need to have more organisation.
and more communication.

though i must admit..i am not usually keen on communicating with my lao ban.
but responsibilities are responsibilities.
what needs to be done..needs to be done.

a few more weekends to christmas.
Lord..i need peace and patience.
as what elvin said..everything always eventually works out by itself.

breathe.

ok..off to material science.
its funny how my favourite module is becoming my nightmare.
i am actually scared for this paper.

hear us from heaven..touch our generation..
we are Your people..crying out in desperation.

i wanted to wake up at 830 this morning.
i got up at 1055.

i wanted to have a good breakfast and study until the time i need to meet drey.
i started my day mopping the floor.

lets just smile.

im almost done reading my mat sci lecture notes.
yay.
im happy.

just got off the phone with laopo.
she's so funny when she's angry.
poor girl has to work with so many irresponsible pple.
sigh.
wifey : idiots!they should jump into the pond and eat the fish!
me : huh!? hahahahahhaa.
she never fails to amuse me.

gonna play tennis later.
with dor and sam.
yay.
hopefully it wldnt be too hot.
tho i need a tan quite badly.

im finally refocussed again.
and it feels good.

when i stay at home the whole day.
i feel as if im in a time warp.
my day goes pass so quickly.
and i find myself not accomplishing much.

my bed calls out to me ever so often.
my tv beckons me to turn her on.
but i switch it off soon after when i find nothing appealing.
my laptop attracts my finger to press the on button.
but there is hardly anyone to talk to.
nothing to do.


and i find myself intrigued by my dog.
how does he keep his sanity when he stays at home all the time??
he looks for his bone and trots around the living room with it in his mouth.
finds new places to sleep.
sits and stones for a while..before eventually lying down.

it is mightily boring.

i think my birds are starting to like josh groban.
they start to sing when i play josh groban's cd.
amazing.

its gonna rain.
and leo barks at the thunder.
but shivers when the lightening strikes.


save me from myself.

my head is hurting.
and i have not been productive today.
dang.
must start channelling my energy and thoughts more productively.
come on andrea.two more papers.
i will conquer more tml.
feels like i just dropped an anvil on my foot.

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

--to where you are-josh groban.

today was fantastic.
as usual.
any time spent with ayeeba ame and shir is a sure-fire way to have a good time.

went to ame's hse ard 2 plus.
and later at 5 we went to ntuc with ayeeba shir ame and leah.
it was so fun.

i wanted to buy coke with lime.
and the sign just said..$2.95 for..
and blank!
so i told leah..perhaps its for 2..then again..maybe 5..no no..how abt 3?
leah just kept laughing.
leah : how can it be for 3?! the smaller one is already $1.10 per bottle!how can the bigger one be 3 for $2.95?? hahaha.

leah is so cute.
not a very good promoter though.
me : should i buy this?
leah : i tried it before.it is not nice.the strawberries are like dried. -makes face-
me : ok.-puts the box back- how abt this one?
leah : not nice too.

when we were choosing which chicken sausage to buy.
leah took the japanese jelly packet.
leah : its vegetarian!
me : but we're looking for chicken!
leah : can substitute wad. [smth like that]

haha.
ntuc shopping was fun.
helping gilson choose what to buy for his girlfren's bday cake was fun too.
he too wanted to use the jelly mix as substitute. for frosting.

so for dinner..we made chicken teh [ bak kut teh without bak kut..but with chicken.].
submarine pizza and mashed potatoe.

and we had my brownies for dessert.
thought my brownies sort of hardened.
haha.
so it was so fun seeing us all struggle with it.
esp metal mouth.
haha.

and ayeeba..its not that my hearing is so superb.
its just that i only heard the part when you said "andrea cant hear."
that i went "hey!"
haha.
i am super.
but not THAT super.
=)

great time today.
yippee.
i can get addicted to this.

the funky-but-sorta-scary pumpkins at ntuc. 

broken vow. -josh groban

Tell me his name
I want to know
The way he looks
And where you go
I need to see his face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
While I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I let you go
I let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I let you go
Now that I've found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
The one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let those moments end


so glad i found my josh groban back.
now to find norah..

its too noisy. 

drey's birthday. 

sooo preeettyy.. 

my janetta wanting to turn back the clock..and buy that kid's dress for herself..=) 

long entry starts now :

wow.
mindblowing weekend.
i totally abstained from studying.
and it totally rocked.

on friday..
i went to ame's hse for a while as we waited for shir to end class.
ohh..but before that.
while i was at the busstop opposite westmall waiting for buses to go to bt timah.
this guy..early 40s..came and asked me questions..
when i walked down the overhead bridge..he was seated.he saw me..and stood up checked his reflection..and made his way towards me.
i was pretending to look thru my bag.

man : is this the direction to take 157 to toa payoh?
me : yes.
man : ohh..cos the guy who is supposed to fetch me didnt come.call his handphone he also didnt answer. how much does it cost to take bus there?
me : i dont know.
man : ok..are there shops near by?
me : westmall.
man : oh..i mean..just there..dont have?westmall quite far.cos i dont have enough coins.do you have change?
me : for how much?
man :50 dollars.
me : oh.no i dont.
man : oh then do you have coins to spare? cos i dont know how much it is to there.maximum i think is 1.80.
me : -looks at his palm.only 30 cents.- so i took out 1.50 and gave him.
man :thank you.so embarrassing.haha.thank you.
me : -gave a ok-now-dont-talk-to-me-anymore-please-you're-welcome smile.-
man : so you stay around here?
me : no.
man : so you're going out?
me : yes.
man : are you studying or working?
me : studying.
man :ohh..sorry.i thought you are working.
me : -weak smile-
man : today very hot ar.i think im going back to office to turn on the aircon.
man : so you are going to town?
me : no.friend's hse.
man : ohh..at hill view there?
me : er..yar. -though i was going to bt timah.owell-
man : ohh..here alot of condos.
me : yes.


and thankfully my 174 came..yay.
i really felt very relieved.
the guy had bad breathe.
okk..im evil.
but either way.
andrea hates small talk.
and i was giving him monosyllabic answers for crying out loud.
why didnt he just take the money say thanks and go.
argh.
and when i told my parents abt it.they told me that i most probably got conned.
and i think so too.
thankfully its only of 1.50.
lesson learnt.

anyhoo..when i got to ame's hse.and i was waiting for ayeeba to cross the overhead bridge..i saw 157 coming..my immediate reaction was to hide behind the bushes so in case the guy was on the bus..he couldnt see me.

finally everything went back into paradise.
went up to play with oreo..ame's new hamster.
its really cute.
and we met up with shir..to go to serene's centre for island creamery ice cream.
it was really good.
and we talked and laughed as if time just stood still.
bliss.
as ayeeba said " i wish this moment wouldnt end."
hear hear.

we walked around tierney's.
ame and i started moving ard/dancing in front of the alcohol cupboard.haha.
for no reason.
haha.
we stopped when we realised that there were cameras around.
haha.

after that..shir had to go back to school for meeting.
ame and ayeeba went to holland v.
and i abandoned them..so i could go to jer's(janetta's) house.
met axel (jer's miniature pintcher.haha.not too sure of the spelling.) and he is still the same shakey dog.
very cute.
but seems so scared of me. =)
after watching vcd and waiting for time to pass..
jer and i made our way down to orchard to meet our joyce.
we walked around pacific plaza and isetan lido to find audrey's birthday present.
and we found the perfect leather wallet.and it came with a free umbrella! =)

for dinner we went to thai express at paragon.
and we talked abt our childhood and things in the past.
and many things.
it felt so good.
cos i havent spent such quality time with them in such a long while.
eventhough i see them every sunday. hmm.
we went down to starbucks to have our drinks.
and laopo..the new red t-shirt is indeed very nice.sigh.why did i quit so soon.haha.
yes yes..after much laughter and stories.
we went home.

i went back to re's hse.at 12 am.
rebecca : do you know what time it is already!?
me : sorry.

the next morning..
russ : what time did you get home last night?
me : midnight.what time did you sleep?
russ : 11 la. you said you wld be back by ten lor.
me : sorry.

but its so sweet..that means russ actually waited a while for me to get home.
=)

nothing much happened on saturday..just went to run errands with my parents at the lot one area.and went to church in the evening.

sunday..
was audrey's birthday!
at sunday breakfast..
pat(the lady at the bakery next to my church) brought out the blackforest cake that i asked her to get ready with the words "happy birthday audrey".
she was so sweet as to put a lighted candle on it. =)
and she said that the cake was on the house. so nice of her.makes you wanna patronise her store all the more.
during service..just as planned during prayer meeting on saturday when drey wasnt there..
just before the sermon..pastor went : hey audrey!
the youth : oh yar!
and we burst out in the birthday song for audrey.

---interruption---
i just caught my dog drinking from the fighting fish's bowl!!
so silly la.
the poor fish!
argh.
------------------

a few of us went to harbourfront's coffee club for lunch.
and then re drey and i cabbed home.

re and i baked brownies!
so proud of ourselves.
eventhough its the cheater-bug method of using betty crocker.
=)
its really good.

after that..we went for family dinner at suntec's swiss culture.
they were having some music demo at the open area downstairs.
and it was so so noisy.
we had to communicate by reading lips.
thankfully it stopped before the main course arrived.

met jonathan too.
haha.
he went into toys r us..and realised that the exit was at the other end.
re and i went to meet him at the entrance just to talk a while.
and re and i had to hold on to the revolver so he could slip out.
yes yes.talking to jonathan was funny.

jon : oh yar.i heard the turkish cuisin store is quite good too.should go and try it.
but not when you are full.
re and i :huh???!? hahaha.

he's so out of point-ingly funny.

yes yes.so dinner was fantastic.
seriously.so bloated.
so good.
we had chocolate fondue.

so thats my weekend for you.
i had a blast.

so now..this week is the week to mug.

going over to ame's later.
to study with her.
and later on shir and ayeeba are coming over for dinner.
haha.
we're cooking tonight.
how rockin.
i cant wait.

yay.
feel so energized now.
and so at ease.
im really blessed.

to audrey : i am so glad you're my sister.and i wld never ask for another.you complete me.you really do.

woke up to rebecca shaking me and asking me to wake up.
and i managed to scare her.haha.
of the whole queen sized bed..she had to squeeze right next to me.
rah.
but its a good way to start the day.haha.
too bad she failed in her attempt to wake me up.
haha.
my sleep is precious to me.
keep trying re..you've havent gotten the skill yet dahling.
=)


and today is a very special day..
cos its my kuan ah-feng's birthday!!!!!
woohooz!!!
okk..i shall attempt to write a short verse abt her..cos she did one for me before in secondary school.haha.

fengyi is a nice tall girl.
walking down orchard road..she likes to swirl.
when you've got a problem!
never fear!!
cos kuan ah-feng is always near!
she's solve the problem and comfort you.
she'll cheer you up when you're feeling blue.
she's also there when you need a laugh.
she'll act goofy and you'll turn into..er..fluff! [sorry.cant find another word.]
so dear ah feng when you're down..
know that there are always people around.
to do the same back to you.
cos you're a friend who is oh-so-true.
and i will always cherish you!!!

yay!!!
here's to you girl.-raise a wine glass of orange juice-
all the best for your exams ya??
we'll go out and go all crazy when they are all done.
=)
-hugs- love you babe.


today is a good day.
and i just know it.
=)

ok..now..is it using linear velocity?or centripetal velocity?-flips through notes-
wait.
is that plastic bag i just heard? -turns to the left to look-
oh my goodness! she brought a plastic bag of notes in for the exam?plastic bag?
wow.
ok.back to the question.
oh man..45 mintutes have gone and i am still on the first part!!
aiyah.ok.anyhow whack.
seems correct.
hmm..this is getting to be a bit enjoyable.
in a twisted weird way.
i am starting to enjoy my paper.
wonder if i will pass.
-flips thru the paper-
wrote a lot of jokes.hmm.
hopefully it makes sense and i get marks for my concepts.
yay..finally its done.
my most dreaded paper is finally over and done with.
here you go sir..my paper.
wow.everyone keeps discussing.
wahh..the girl who is direct-from-my-motherland has a very high pitched voice.
ouch.
okk..moving out people!
guy walks pass.."yar..that question must use area ratio."
huh?!what area ratio??
why is everyone walking so slowly out of the door!
i wanna get outta here!!
stop discussing, people!!
i need some air.

went to jurong point with some of my class mates.
enjoyed my seoul garden meal.ate a bit too much tho.
but the company was great.
played daytona too.
its amazing how i got my license.
how can anyone flip THREE times during one game?
goodness.

tomorrow is gonna be a fantastic day.
and i just cant wait.

im in pain.

why is my left wrist hurting.
why do i have so many symptoms of old age.

sigh.

physics open book tml.
and im not ready.

but the battle still wars on.

DRIVING ALONE IS SO SHIOK!!

wwwooooo...
drey drove to her school.
and i drove back.
by my ownself!!
had to park too. thankfully there was three lots empty in a row..so i could park in the middle.so happy.
wow.
i like..
cos there is no one to tell you to look out for what..and you've gotta be extra careful looking out for cars and all.
i turned too fast at one junction tho.as in..safe fast.just a bit slightly too fast.
haha.
but its driving at its rawest.
haha.is there such a thing??
wowwweee.
and its good to come home to your father's handshake.
haha.
i like..i really like.
made my day.
my first solo drive.though its a super short distance.
yay.


okk..need to refocus.
have physics to tackle.

I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY!!!!

freedom of speech. 

shady. 

where are you? -natalie featuring justin romans

[Justin]
(I know you are out there baby...somewhere)
There is someone out there for me
(I know there is somebody out there)
I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah)
can you tell me her name?(Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Natalie]
I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here)
yea-yeah I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

sort of along the same line as what ayeeba wrote..not that we are gonna get married now.
but i guess everyone does look for the one.
i like this song.
it is an good description of the thoughts and feelings when you think of the one.

i am feeling nostalgic again.
i miss my pj days.
sort of.
when the four of us just hang with the barker boys.
i sort of miss gordon's wit.and erm..kenneth's...er..kenneth's.."compliments".
and of cos..the times i spend with my darlings in the school canteen.
just laughing over lame,retarded or witty things that we talk abt.
rrraaaaahhhh...
i need a muse.

had my life sci paper today.
started at 930.
i walked out at 1045.
it went quite good.
at least i am quite confident that i will pass.
that is all i am hoping for.
i am very grateful that the paper was not totally beyond me.
and i could answer most of the questions confidently.
i am happy.really. -beams-

a certain percent of me hopes
i either fail some or just pass my modules this sem.
i am running out of ways and ideas to psycho myself to study.
i am indeed my worse enemy.

the exams for me now is like this huge bitter pill i have to swallow.
i am looking forward to it end.
but i have to struggle so hard to breathe and still push it down my throat.
its for my own good.but its making me suffer mentally.
i need some sugar.

life science paper tml.
almost drove sam and dor mad asking them to teach me dna replication.
i cant visualise it.
haha. this is the one of the reasons whyi dont like bio. haha.
sorry sam and dor. =)
at least i understand it now!! thanks so much!

hafta go find interactive animated bio websites now.

there is nothing exciting to do online any more.
email.msn.blogs.email.msn.frenster.email.msn.blogs.
goodness.
i think i should cold turkey the internet for a while.
who am i trying to kid.


anyhoo.
played a few wrong notes during worship today.
but hopefully if everyone is like my family..and cant differentiate how a synthesizer sounds like.
im safe.
but honestly..a bit disappointed with myself.
i really need more practice.

didnt get much of the dance choreographed today either.

yupp.now..i will go find some "excitement"in life science.
tally-ho.

love in the morning.from your nice western store auntie. 

taken near tanglin halt.somehow this photo gives me a nice kampong-y kind of feel.with the clothes being sunned and the longkang just next to the block.haha.i was borned too late. =) 

the night view.simply amazing.this shot was shaky.but..wow..there is beauty in hdb estates man. 

amazing skies. 

our lives should be lived like a song.
melodic and worshipful.
and when we go out of key.
we are retuned and placed at where we should be.
timing and notes are all in the Master's hands.
we do not know how the whole piece will sound like in the end.
but just trusting that the Composer has a masterpiece in mind.
and will complete it.
in His time.

i leave you with your misery
a friend who wont betray
pull you from your tower
show you all the beauty you possess
if you'd only let yourself believe
that we are all innocent
believe me, we are still innocent
its easy, we all falter
does it matter?

--from jesse. valentine's day 2002.

what should i eat for dinner?? 

the tak-match fan that my daddy bought for our hse.it really is an eyesore.my hse is becoming cheena-ah-biang. help. 

pretty netting around the building that is about to get torn down.if only i got a better shot of it. 

i FINALLY satisfied my raspberry cheesecake craving today..thanks to my daddy for willing to drive me down to westmall to get it..it is worth all 5 dollars of my money. =)  

had a good holiday today??
hmm?
you did? good.i did too.
i slacked most of the day away.
huh??what??do i feel guilty??
not quite.i count it as energy reserve.
i think im gonna stay up late tonight.
have 7 more chapters to accomplish by tonight.yupp.

i like my mummy's cooking much.
chilli is the spice of life.

i stand before You now my Saviour..shouting Your praise.
You've changed my world and made my heart sing..and everything i have..
i lay it at Your feet.
everything is different now with You my God..You broke my chains of sin.
You're always there to lift me when i fall..You never let me go..
Lord i give You my all.

Now that i've found You..everything around me is changing..
nothing will be the same..now that You've saved me.

i'll be the one to shout Your name forever..
i'll be the one to sing Your praise..my Saviour.
You are the strength inside of me..
You are the light that lets me see..
my Only One.

--united only one.

last night.
me:jie..why dont i have much of an ambition? i really only want to be a chef or a beach bum.
jie : you're just lucky i guess.

maths was quite tough today.
had a few half-way answered qns.
but oweell..
one down.four to go.

and i finally settled my sticky chewy chocolate craving today.
mmmm-mmmm..super happy.
thank you to the pple who went thru the earthquake with me.

just woke up from my 3 hr nap.
i still feel cracky.


i miss my girls.
there i go being nostalgic again.
but i really do.
i miss my squashies.
i miss my darlings.
i miss my clique.
i miss sel mich and jesse.
i miss spending time with them.
knowing that i can just be myself and nothing else mattered.
i miss the security.

i miss all the crazy times we had.
when we shot ice at each other running madly around the canteen in p6.
when we had our different seasons at the quadrangle.
from badminton to pepsi cola.
when we would rush all the way to the canteen on nasi briyani days.
when we would take turns to return the cups and plates.
when we climbed over the store counter to make our own instant noodles cos hock seng was busy.
when we tickled each other as we ran up back to class after recess.
when we choreographed dances and cheerleading steps.
when we screamed and shaked the shakers during interhouse games.
added : when we got caught eating food in class during recess [thankfully they didnt catch the cards] and kenna-ed beta.and we all didnt get our colours award that year.


arrrggghhh..i just really miss my mg days.
in all its drama glory and madness.
i really do.
and i miss all of my childhood friends.
i miss my girls.

need to get out of the wading pool.
i need more depth.

family lunch was great.
ate too many prawns i think.
quadrapled the ration that my dad told me to keep to.
=)

tried sleeping in my aunt's room.
but my family is so noisy.
they kept laughing.
and everyone laughs loudly in my family.
so yes.
its like trying to sleep during stomp or smth.
=)

i love my family.

russ was acting so retarded today.
note to self : never let russell be the remote control guy.
of all the channels on cable tv.
we kept watching the animal planet.
on how the different insects PREY on their victims.
DURING LUNCH!!
it is not very appealing to eat your lunch while watching an insect feed on the neck of another insect.

drey and i kept fighting russ for the remote control.
russ was so hilariously whiney.
haha.
we are indeed.the insane family tree.

didnt get much work done today.
im feeling so peaceful now.
TOO peaceful really.
no mood to study at all.

me (as i walk to the dining tablef for dinner) : argh!!why must we have exams?!i dont want to go for my paper tml!
dad : dont go la.just go and mark attendence.then write there "i do not wish to sit for this paper."


me : i dont want to study anymore!
mum and aunt and sister(all at separate timings) : dont study la.

yes.i am feeling very whiney.unwilling.lethargic.nonchalant.slack now.

and tml marks the first exam paper of my entire uni life.
whoop di doo.

slogan in life.

insanity always brings happiness.

i want to have my own strait-jacket.

clumsy - chris rice


You think I'd have it down by now
Been practicin' for thirty years
I should have walked a thousand miles
So what am I still doin' here
Reachin' out for that same old piece of forbidden fruit
I slip and fall and I knock my halo loose
somebody tell me what's a boy supposed to do?

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You're sayin' You love me
And You're still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
'Cause You're makin' me holy
You're still makin' me holy, yeah


I'm gonna get it right this time
I'll be strong and I'll make You proud
I've prayed that prayer a thousand times
But the rooster crows and my tears roll down (again)
Then You remind me You made me from the dust
And I can never, no never, be good enough
And that You're not gonna let that come between us

From where I stand
Your holiness is up so high
I can never reach it
My only hope is to fall on Jesus

will you let me romanticise
the beauty in the london skies.
you know the sunlight always shines
behind the clouds of london skies.

i love jamie cullum.
yes i do.yes i do.

off to romanticise my maths..if only it was more lovable.
i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.i love maths.

WORSHIP WAS FANTASTIC!!
thanks to those who asked how it went.
=)

before service...
my hands were cold. [realised this has been happening nowadays when smth exciting or nervous happens to me.]
and elvin didnt help.
keep telling me that if i zao-sia-ed he wld signal to everyone to just stop playing then and there.
and let my note linger.
rah.
and when the call to worship song was playing.
he kept telling me when the song was gonna end and that worship was gonna start.
rah.
i dont like elvin.
i dont like him at all.

anyhoo..need to rechoose my christmas songs..
no complain there.
i dont mind finding new songs.
settled our dance one.
dor..i need you to teach me the dance steps.haha.i need ideas.

yupp.
so everything went fine and dandy.

oh.i read it today.
that boaz's father's name is..salmon.
i love biblical names.
=)

water is thicker than blood so it seems.

it always amazes me.
how God pieces me back together whenever im heartbroken.
from a moment of crying and disappointment.
to a moment of peace and security.

i stand.i stand.in awe of You.

i just came home from re's hse.
had a christmas meeting with uncle philip..lynn..kel and elvin.

ahhh!!elvin will be the death of me!!
he keeps mentioning sick stuff.
funny sick stuff.
but sick all the same.
argh!!but i kept laughing.
hmm.he's corrupting me.
haha.
he wanted to just come up with a forfeit that included..someone and me.
and the forfeit is just eeeyuck.
i will be sick on christmas eve.
it wld really be the nightmare before christmas for me..
arghh..

anyhoo..
we managed to come up with all the games to play.
the order of flow for the items.
chowie elvin and i are gonna be the gamemasters/emcees for our church's christmas celebration.

equation to avoid..when you're in need of peace :

andrea + caffeine/sugar = a whole load of hilarious nonsense.

and honestly..the amount and magnitude..and quality of lameness/retardedness/CRAP that comes out of me..really amazes my own self sometimes.
haha.
I CANT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR!!!
its gonna be fall-on-the-floor-roll-around-crying funny.
elvin chowie and i wld be saving the world before bedtime!!
hahahahaha.

yay.
this is gonna be one of my best..cum..most involved christmas.
rockin.

leading worship tomorrow.
a bit nervous.
first time on stage.with the whole worship team.
behind a pedestal.

all for His glory.

yes yes.
not very productive today.
but im a bit high on caffeine now.
haha.
so hopefully will get a bit of work done.
i seriously need motivation.
somebody kick me please.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent. You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored. You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts. And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

i woke up at 950 today.
came online and talked to my amelia.



amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
studying?
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
nope
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
woke up not long ago.
[amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
haha
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
gonna go off soon tho.
[amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
terrible
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
need to do my tuts soon
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
haha
[amelia] *unwhispered secrets* says:
i went to school and came home already
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
wow..
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
thats fast.
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahaha


and the feeling of..man-i-havent-gotten-anything-done-yet sinks in.

please go and play with my polkydot.
and adopt one too!
as lizzie says..."spread the lluurrvvee.."

anyhooo...so yes.i must go and seize the day now!
-superman music-

IZABIRD CAME TO NTU TODAY!!!
wwwwOOOOOooooOOO!!!
was so happy.
i kept having spastic moments of.."ahh!!my lizabird is coming!!" -waves hands randomly-
amidst my last min mugging of my mat sci.

hahaha..
yay.
really missed her alot.
and it was great meeting her.together with grace.
haha.
the two of them are just lovely.lovely lovely.
=)

love you liz.

i did my mat sci test in like..15 mins.
second to hand up.
cos i wanted to rush back down to be with my liz.
haha.and plus.
i checked my answers twice already.
haha.
felt so cheated.
i memorised SO MANY FORMULAS!!
and out of the 24 qns..only one..ONE..referred to a formula.
oh rah.
but yes.
thats a blessing in itself.
hopefully i'll get my A.
mat sci is the only module im confident in passing.
sigh. oop.one fairy dead.

anyhoo.didnt eat sakae sushi with re russ and drey.
lets not talk abt it.
i still just wish you dont do this kinda things to us.
i wish i could say i understand why.
but 30 percent of me. still doesnt.



i am sorry for not being able to say the right things.
i am sorry for my idiosyncracies.
i am too practical for my own good at times.
i have forgotten how painful it can be.
i will try to be more sensitive.
i am still looking for compassion.
it seems like i am running low on it.
apathy is what i have been feeling for a long time.
and i havent found the solution.
i wish i could be your pillar.
but i am not strong enough.
not discerning enough.


You will be my shelter..the place where i can run..
my rock..my sure foundation..
that can not be overcomed.

wasnt super productive today.

my black nail polish keeps peeling.

im feeling lethargic and no mood to study for my mat sci test tml.

but you made me smile today.

didnt do that much today after all.
only accomplished half of what i intended to do.
owell.
at least its smth.

you can never wean a lover from the cup of love,
unless he himself chooses to give it up. - w.shakespeare.

the studying chronicles..(clockwise)yishan.jonathan.me and twin. 

our end product..i know what you did last semester..wahahhaa..haha..i think studies are burning our brains.. 

us de-stressing..drawing a face..look at their excited faces! 

me : jonathan..i think im going to buy you ear diggers for your birthday!
[cos he kept mis-hearing things]
jonathan : -covers his ears with his hands- nnoooo...i dont want more ears!i think two is good enough!


all i have are memories.
i want to pull my finger away from the repeat button and press next.
but there is no next to jump to.
i cant wait to break out of hibernation.
i need new moments.

i realised.
that.
for this week.
monday-wednesday.
i only have ONE HOUR of physics lecture.
yay.[sarcastic tone]
guess im spending the rest of my day camping at lib2.
good ol lib 2.
need to be uber productive this week.
slacked the weekend away already.

watching finding nemo now.

shark bait!hoo haha!

will blog again when smth happening happens.
for now.
-blank-


everyday with You Lord..is sweeter than the day before.

all i want..is to see Your face.
all i need..is a moment of grace.
its in You
that i have the faith
to stand up and be strong.
cos i know..im no longer bound.
its in You that i have found
peace of mind, freedom from my sin.
and the power to love and forgive.

i want to walk with You
everyday of my life.
to talk with You
in the good and the strife.
You're my friend
You're my father
for all time.
nothing can keep us apart.
You're the lover of my heart.


church was fun today.
played quite alot of my piano. =)
my right wrist is hurting a bit now though.
but it was all good.
glad to be of His service.
elvin was acting so retarded today.he really amazes me sometimes.
during youth worship practice.he sat next to me.
and just kept whacking whatever melody he wanted.it was in tune la.but it was so funny cos he kept acting like some madman.
and he wants to spoil the song we're performing for christmas!!he wants to add his own "oohhh-oohhh-oohhh and ahh-ahh-ahh" to the song!-hrmph-


becky is at my house again today.
yay.
she kept harrassing me just now though.
rah.
she tahans alot of my nonsense.
its amazing.
haha.

ohh..last night..sam dor and i went to play tennis..9 o'clock at night! at cck stadium.
cos dor and i were so sian of just study study study..
it was fun.played quite well.haha.
i started acting retarded when i was playing with sam.(ookok..so what's new.)
but anyway..came up with a new game..
crab tennis.
you can only move along the half line.side to side.
so the two of us were in funny positions trying to reach for the ball.
=)
yay.i like acting retarded.haha.

much thanks to my two other musketeers for playing tennis with me.it was really fun.and it broke the monotony of just studying. =)

ok.off to go find smth to do.

to my darlings : i miss you three alot.alot.alot.alot.need our insanity to gain back my sanity.

the purple dinosaur that jonathan drew..=) so nice.he says "purple dinosaur" each time someone or he himself says smth off-tangent.haha.

i wish i could just lay down in a field of luscious grass.
with my favourite person next to me.
and we just spend the whole day lying there.
looking at the clouds.
quiet conversations.
and just be there.
in that moment.
enjoying each other's company.
and nothing else mattered.

jonathan is so so funny.
my goodness.
i have discovered yet another entertainer.
haha.

i think its the red bull he drank before maths lecture.
note to self : i dont like red bull.its like sweet medicine.-makes face-

he was so high la.
i told him about my ambition to be a beach bum cum chef.
and somehow or another..sam and i cant hear properly.
we kept mixing words up.
hahaha.
jonathan drew a coconut tree by the ocean..and drew this puny shack for my restaurant.
it was shorter than the coconut tree.hrmph.
and then a small guy.wtih a flowery shirt..three strands of palm leaves for his hair..we ended up naming the guy..a beach palm.
and we arrived at the theory that fat pple are coconuts.
hahaha.
please note : we are kidding.

after maths lecture..we went for lunch.
jonathan was looking at the birds..
j : they dont walk.they just keep hopping.
sam : yar wad.they dont have knees.
j : hahaha.really?? but then..if the bird's brother has daughters..then that bird will have knee-ses.
me : phwoar.oh my goodness.hahahahahhaa.

j : the scenery very nice..got birds and bees.
me: where are the bees??
j : behind the As.

i recently just set this 1800s french engineer's(sadi carnot) photo as my phone's wallpaper.cos..he is quite cute.the most handsome scientist in my physics textbook.
me : yar..he's so cute la!
sam : but you cant date him lor..
j : yar..you two can only be..carbon dating.
me : aahhh....so lame!! hahahahahahaha.

jonathan kept gazing at the birds..
me : are you still trying to look at their knees??
j : they dont have knees! he said already.oh yar..they have right..they have knee-ses right..and what's the other one?
j and i : knee-phews!!
hahahaha.
me : sounds like diffuse la.
j : yar la..that's when you have two knee-phews..then you have di-phews.

hahaha.

we started discussing about..what we should name our kids next time if we still have our same surname.

me : jonathan..your surname is lim right..you can name your kid..kopi!
j : or..ping..then she'll be called..limping.
haha.
me: or it..and then it will be limit!

sam : please dont think about mine.i keep thinking of all the hokkien words.
{ sam's surname is pang.so please DO NOT think of toliet related hokkien words.}
adrian : im sure when dor and drea think of you and yr car..they will think of this word.
j : tom-pang!
me : hey hey.hahahaha.


so yes.my one hour break today was so hilarious.
thanks to jonathan and twin.
haha.
our conversation really brightened up my day.
with the random purple dinosaurs and all.
haha.
i'll love to see a shocking pink t-rex one day.rrraaawwwrrr!!

dinner was good.
i love how my dad asks me if i want dessert now and he helps me scoop.
and i find six longans(!) and one sweet potato in my small bowl.
and i love the way my mum holds onto the soaped up sponge.stands in front of the sink.all ready to wash the dishes.then slumps and turns me to and say.."i'm tired.will you help me wash?"

i love their mannerisms.so cute.
couldnt ask for more. =)


so we look into the barney bag.
and we find alot of things.
gizmos and gadgets.
and some odds and ends.
and even some old strings!
so we ask ourselves the question.
what can we make today?
with imagination and a barney bag!
we'll see what we can make today.
YEAH!
we'll see what we can make today!


i wish i knew where.two weeks.

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross.

--don moen at the foot of the cross.

just ended my physics test.
for some reason..i cldnt figure out what to use for my summations of torque and forces.
and the answers i got didnt tally with the options given.
crap.
so yes..three qns out of five..aint that bad right?
sigh.
and so i bluff myself.

off to do my mat sci tutorial.

lib 2 is getting to be quite cosy.

i went tap tap tapping today!
though...i have not completed studying my physics.
rah.

met wifey for dinner..
wahahahha..
I LOVE IT THAT SHE IS WEARING BRACES!!!
haha.i know it sounds evil.
but she's so cute la!!!
the metals add a new dimension to her.
haha.
its a joy watching her eat.
her expressions of discomfort and pain.
how she tears her burger part by part just to stuff it into the far back corners of her mouth.
haha.
she's so cute.

anyhoo..tap tap tapping was fun.
though..we had to do alot of turning across the room.
felt very light-headed after a while.
it feels good tap-dancing.
unfortunately..nearing the end of the lesson..my left foot decided to give me a cramp.
so i kept tapping with a cramped left foot.

i dun like it when my body gives me spastic discomforts.rah.

after class..we said good bye to one of the ladies from our class..
then i turned to shir..
me :what's her name ar?
shir :-pause- aunty. -spastic face-

oh goodness.haha.

so glad i got to talk to shir after so long.
our conversations never cease.
since 1994.

okie doke..for now..i cant think of anything else that happened today that is blog-worthy.

onwards to conquering my 30 more pages of physics.

oh wait.
yes.
i have a thanksgiving.
God really answers prayers.
i prayed the other day that i will find joy in studying.
that..in the midst of my i-am-so-not-ready-for-my-exams stress..
i will find joy in studying.
and i really have.
its so weird for me.
cos..im not really made for studying.haha.
but..maths integration seems a bit therapeutic..and physics seems a bit more exciting.
hahaha.

its really amazing how God created all these forces and everything..
if I WERE GOD...
the world would..
1. be black and white.
2.everything will be floating about.no forces what so ever.
3.have only 50 pple or less. just enough for my entertainment.

haha.
but no no no no!!!
this world was created by HIS awesomeness.
and its all good.
=)

okie..off to be dynamic in my thermal.

to lion: she can be your everything.but she cant be you.
when you feel like you are losing control.give me a call.
24 hours clown service.i'll throw in a scolding too if you like.
keep praying.God is still there for you.
and i am here.with my ears wide open.
=)

I will lift up my eyes to the hills-
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.
--psalm 121:1&2


every blessing You pour out i'll turn back to praise.

to my wife.
with lurrrvvee..


narcissistic [amelia] says:
just tt her teeth looks shinier den usual
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahahaha
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
really??
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
yay
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
im seeing her tml
narcissistic [amelia] says:
haha
narcissistic [amelia] says:
okay
narcissistic [amelia] says:
have fun!!!
narcissistic [amelia] says:
remember to bring sunglasses
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahaha
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
okie doke
...:: addicted without a reason ; withdrawal without a cause ::. says:
hahahha

i realised.
that im really blessed.
i have entertainers in every aspect of my life.
hahahha.
i lurve it!!

finally talked on the phone to my wifey difey today..
after a long while...
she's so funny.so so funny.
I LURVE YOU PIGGIE!
hahahaa..
and im so proud of you!!first driving practical!!and with my mr seah!!hahaha..
i cant wait to get driven by you!! =)
when she called me a nehnehcow..i replied.."no im not a nehnehcow ok!"
doreen went..eeeyuck.
hahaha.
i think dor has smth against the words nehneh..nehnehpok..kuku..kukupok..
hahahaha..
sorry babe.
hahaha.

i think im high on caffeine now.
oohhh..i miss..miss miss..my hazelnut vanilla latte..
yum..
laopo..make one for me please???pretty please??

oh..today i was super..productive.
i did..ONE chapter..in SEVEN hours.
arrrgggghhh!!!!
it makes you wanna smack me right.
argh.
so tonight..i need to pia 2 chapters just so i can allow myself to go tap tap tapping tml.
and see my dear wife. =)

kk..dinner time!!

so much to do..so little time..

went to school just for my life science test today.
did ok.
some girl complained abt the last CA being too easy.
cos there were too many tutorial qns that were repeated in the CA.
argh.wad's wrong with the girl la.
rah.

anyhoo..accomplished my filing today.
yay.
and i cant conquer maths.
rah.

to my twin..sam: thanks so much for driving me around.i really feel very blessed. =) and for taking me on joy rides..=)
thank you so much twin.

okie.i will go find smth to do now.
some how..my left ankle feels painful.

two more weeks to the exams!!
that means..
six more weeks to playtime!!
yay!!!
-cant wait-

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.You cherish all of the details in life.Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

href="How'>http://blogthings.com/howisyourinnerchildquiz/">How Is Your Inner Child?

and in the midst of doing online tutorials..

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

href="How'>http://blogthings.com/howboyishorgirlishareyouquiz/">How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

i find myself doing quizzes.

on 143 today..on our way to far east shopping centre..

jeremy : (qn directed to deon) hey..far east is at chinatown there right?
the rest of us : -stunned- what?!?
jeremy :oh oh! no..its near the building whose ceiling is glass one right?
rest : nooo..
tim : you think west mall ar?? think of a yellow square!!

after a while..i think he either figured it out..or just gave up..

anyhoo..so..kel chowie tim darling jermy drey and i went to far east.
was gonna eat kel's some-ulu-hongkong-style-tucked-at-a-corner restaurant.
but it was closed! =)
God answers prayers!! wahaha.
i prayed that i wld be closed before we boarded our bus..cos if it was closed.we wld eat the turkish food. haha. kel wanted to turn violent on me.hahahha.
so yes..yay..much to my delight..we went to eat at the turkish restaurant.

kel's convinced im crazy.
she was seated on my left..when she was eating..i wld suddenly place my face really near hers and watch her eat..haha..and i tried singing the turkish song that they were playing..i just whacked whatever it sounded like to me.."hello madam..kong si hua!!?" hahaha.
and there was a turkish song..with english lyrics..its almost like..techno music..cos the girl kept repeating one line very often..smth like.."i'm alone here" or smth..i forgot..anyway..i was singing that line to kel too..haha.
sorry kel..i am feeling random today. =)

she still blames me for kristie's psychotism.
sigh.
=)

oh..during lunch..

drey : jermy..you shld apply smth on yr pimple la..
jermy : yar..clearasil.
drey : are you sure it works??
jermy : yar..its starting to work.
drey : is it good?
jermy : i havent bought it yet.

haha.
conversations are life's simple joys.

oh yes.
today..as my daddy was parking at the bt timah market.cos we were going there for dinner.
i saw cheok walking towards the market..and den at the back of the grp..i saw my AMELIA!!
in the car i was like..ahh!!ahh!!my amelia!!my amelia!!
saw that she was whacking the guy next to her.
so i got out of the car..called her and said "why you keep whacking the guy?!"
ame: where are you!?ahh!!where are you??

haha..i was squatting behind one of the cars..hiding from her..
but she saw drey and re already.
haha.
so yes..i came out and talked to her.
such a pleasant surprise to have seen her.
really made my day.
=)



this is copied from her blog.
and it goes out to all my girlfrens too..
=)

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

friday was good..played badminton with yong zhi and gang.
yong zhi did a good job planning the whole thing.
thank you.
=)
we played bball after a while.haha.
i was so slack.didnt have the mood to play.
and i think im losing my ball sense.
which is terrible.
owellz.

just now..
in the car on the way home..

me: see la mummy.you shldnt have given birth to me near midnight.that's why im so greedy.
mum: no what..midnight..tigers shld have eaten already.
dad : no..they are still prowling for food.
me : drey was born around midnight too..
drey : yar..roosters are asleep.i have it good.just sleep only.
me : rebecca..what time were you born??
re : afternoon.
drey and i : oh..afternoon..horses shld be working..what's wrong with you?!
re : im an abnormal horse.
me: hahahhaa..yar..those kind that no one wants to buy..so kenna isolated in a far off part of the farm..every day just -funny noise- and trot around.
all :-laughing like mad.-
re : no..i dont do that funny noise.

there were many other retarded conversations.
but i dont remember exactly.

i had a good night.
blessed to have my family.


blessed be the name of the Lord..blessed be Your glorious name.

let me backtrack..

thursday :
in sam's car :
me : twin..can i borrow yr ear phones??i forgot mine.
sam : haha.ok.
me : yay.ok.good.otherwise i have no entertainment on the train.
sam : why do you need entertainment?you've got albert wad..
me : huh..only until clementi!

on the train :
me : oh my.i didnt know they had angels and demons in chinese!
albert : actually you dont need me..you can just entertain yrself on the train.
just keep going "rah!" now and then..
me : huh.. hahahahaha.
albert : yar..you can turn to the person next to you and go "rah! do you want to know what rah means??do you know that rah rhymes with Jehovah??" then you can take out the 4 SLs and start talking to the person about Christ.and after he alights..you can turn to the next person and go "rah!" and start all over again.i think you do it a few times before you reach bugis.
me : -laughs nonstop.-

haha.

okok.
so i reached bugis..ate with aunt lin uncle eddie re and russ.
and we proceeded to the Grand Chapiteau to watch Quidam!
haha.its was fantastic.
but i think i didnt really enjoy it as much as i enjoyed allegria cos..this one confused me.
so many things to look at in one moment.
re and i were trying to figure out the hidden meanings..and the plot.
goodness.
me : "re..why are they wearing red??did the guy just die to signify her innocence that's lost??"
re : yar..i think so..i only know its smth to do with the lost of innocence.

aiyoh.haha
but the stunts and all were wow.
the four china girls who played with the cylinderical things and string was fab.
the way they can throw the cylinder in the air..do a few complicated flips..and catch it back witht their strings in perfect timing..left me gaping.
wow.

their comedians were hilarious.
the shorter one had an imaginary car..and as he drove..he wld keep bouncing in his seat.
he alighted..picked a girl from the audience and she became his date.
she had to bounce along with him in the car..scold pple in the jam..and her hair was badly messed up by the guy..he tried yanking the clip out of her hair..and asked her to flip her hair and mess it up.oh my..re and i were pitying the girl..
so embarrassing la.
haha.
but she was a good sport.
as she was going to kiss him on his cheek..he flipped in time..and she ended up kissing his lips.
i was in shock.
the girl was covering her lips with her hand..in shock too.
poor girl.
hahaha.

the other one got four participants and they "filmed" those black and white era kinda show.
and it was really funny cos of the silly actions they had to do.
so many things happened.
ask me about it if you wanna know.cos..too lazy to type.
haha.
oop.

on the whole..it was really fun..

and i think i think too much abt my work..
i actually went "wow re..the engineering is fantastic!"
cos..the way they built an arc..with the metal thing that can bring string down..and carry the weight of the pple who hang from the ropes and all..and how they move them to and fro.
haha.
oh my.

anyhooo..
i didnt do too good for my econs test.
which is good in a sense that it has given me a rude shock..and i really have to buck up and mug.

owellz.
kk.need to go downstairs to buy lunch.
my poor sister and my tummy are starving.
=)

will blog abt my friday when i get back.

give it all..give it all..give it all to Jesus.

thou shall not digress.

i need to learn how to pray.
to see things from a different perspective.
not from my carnal self.

argh.


anyhoo..in the lee wee nam library now..
too lazy to keep doing my life sci tuts.

going for quidam tonight.
with russ..re..aunt lin and uncle eddie.
uncle eddie is the one paying for re russ and my tickets.
so nice of him. =)

im quite excited.
hoping its better than allegria.
cos allegria was already really good.
=)
hope the percussionist is there.
haha.

k.
going to go now.
hopefully my mood picks up.
dont seem that happy ever since yesterday.
pms perhaps?
i dont know.
either way.
bye

when my aunt lin was ordering tickets to quidam over the phone..and was inquiring abt child rate for russell.
aunt lin : yes..she is 12 yrs old..
drey : russ...aunt lin said she.
me : hahaha.
russ : ehh...its HE HOR!
me : YAR!! heehor!!
all : -laughs-
drey : yar!its a donkey!

my family is so entertaining.
i love our moments of mass spasm.
haha.