today is finally over..
my worries ended as the sun set.

yay.

had two tests today..both of which..i only browsed through..haha..
and yes..i think my physics went quite well..almost if not full marks i think.
my methods were right.
yay.
and my mat sci test..was ok la..haha..

and the singing item went really well.
thank you babes for singing with me.
for putting in so much effort.
i am very happy that God has blessed us so much in so many ways and that we could reach out to others and touch His heart through our gift of song.
i am sure daddy God is very pleased with us.
love you all very much.
i am so blessed to have you four in my life..and that we can click and bond so well.
-big hug-

yes..
so today..is really..a testimony of His love, grace and faithfulness in my life.
i am really blessed.
thank you precious Jesus, for everything.

and yes..today..after school..i was bouncing off the ceiling man...was so super high that school was over..and my worries were over..
hahaha..
and i really went "raisins".
talked a lot of nonsense..
came up with a new cheer for my disciple group leader..haha.
her name is eliza yeh..
so i went "eliza, yeah! eliza, yeah!"
haha..please imagine my retarded face as you are reading this.
hahahahha..

i need a reservation at the IMH.

hahahha..
i enjoyed today.
so dramatic.
and so fulfilling.
this is what i live for.
to see Him move in my life.

blessed assurance. Jesus is mine.

i am truly blessed.
=)

today's practice was fantastic!though we've shifted the key up..we sound real nice together..im so happy.
so you would come.

yupp..and dor and i waited for a cab just now at school..for like..20plus mins??
and you know..me being me..i started singing..
please send a cab..by 530..
please send a cab..by 530..
eventhough its one dollar more..
eventhough its one dollar more..
please send a cab..by530..
my head is tired..
doreen's bag is heavy..
please send a cab..by 530.

yupp.
i have the makings of a songwriter.
i can feel it!

heh heh.

i seriously need to start mugging.
my exams are less than 2 mths away.
and im still slacking la!
rah.

He fills me up with living water and i will thirst no more.

im trying to rush my report.
but my motivation and anxiety engine isnt working very well.
i am going to finish it by 2.
and that leaves me with about an hour..
sigh.
andrea..please get going.

it is so noisy i cant hear myself think.
huh??what??
I SAID..IT IS SO NOISY I CANT HEAR MYSELF THINK!!
I STILL CANT HEAR YOU!!
oh bugger off andrea.


i wish the common pavillion wasnt just next to my block.
such peace i would have.
they are holding those par sa malam auction things now.
and this is the most enthu deejay i have ever heard.
he gets the people to shout back stuff.
and they ACTUALLY shout.
oh joy.
such a nice peaceful neighbourhood i stay in.
-cries-

i have not been very productive today.
but its an improvement.
will go attempt to read more chapters of physics later.
i realised that i am not motivated enough to finish my report today.
i shall accumulate the anxiety until tomorrow.
and then i shall RUSH my report to completion.
brilliant idea, no??

i realise that i have taken our freedom to worship for granted.
watched a show abt persecuted chrisitians today.
we are really..very very fortunate.
but i am afraid of the day..should it come..whereby i am persecuted for my faith.
i pray i will stand strong.
i can never know how strong my will is.
of cos i will declare now..proud and bold..of cos i will never renounce Christ.
but when it comes to the crunch..i am afraid..really afraid.
i need to build up my faith.
need so much more of Him.

this is my desire to honour You.
Lord with all my heart i worship You.
all i have within me, i give You praise.
all that i adore, is in You.

Lord i give You my heart
i give You my soul.
i live for You alone.
every breathe that i take
every moment i'm awake
Lord, have Your way in me.


i am very blessed.
so many things to be thankful for.
my family..friends..country..opportunities..so many things.
thank You, Lord.

WWOOOWWWEEEE!!
what a fantastic day yesterday was.
met amelia on the bus on our way down to laopo's yesterday.
when we were walking up the over head bridge..
me: so shld i buy wax or clay?
ame: oh ya! forgot to bring yr wax!
me: my vcds?
ame: oh yar!that too..and feng's slippers!
me: so how? go back ar?
ame: yar.see!i told you i cant pack fast.i must sit and think of what i need to bring.
so..we both headed back..went to cold storage for me to buy my lunch.
which was so friggin ex.
i must NEVER do that again.
i bought a caesar salad..a chicken steak..and two pork ribs.
sob..9 bucks plus.
never!!
after that..we went to ame's..slack a while..cos we were going to board ayeeba's and shir's bus..they were coming down from SIM.
so ame and i went down..saw a bike no. plate on the road at the busstop..
ame: eh! lets buy toto!
both : 4...2...erm..
ame: aiyah..0 0..so 4200..
but the funny thing is that ame and i were both standing like two kukus at the front of the busstop staring at the no. plate..both at the edge of the curb.
haha.
den we walked nearer the bus sign board..ame went behind the advertisement board..and when i reached..she went "boo!" i just gave some retarded shocked face.
haha.
crazy.
then..we waited..and waited..and waited..for ayeeba and shir..
dunnoe why..they didnt take 74s or 151s..so ame and i were just looking at the direction by which the bus comes..
ame with her mouth ajar..me..looking at her..
den she would walk out onto the road..just to see if the bus is coming..hahaha..madness.
we were seriously bored waiting.
finally..it came..
so we went to shir's.
shir was like..showing me how to catwalk like an old ah pek on the overhead bridge..so kuku la.
me:i feel like an orangina
shir:how do you feel like an orangina?
me : -bends knees..puts hands like a cap over my head-
shir : -laugh laugh-
den ayeeba said :looks like the axe brand bottle.but..isnt the axe bottle like this? - bends knees and puts hands up in a sq way-
hahahahahaha...we were making a fool of ourselves on the overhead bridge..haha..i like.
when we got to shir's..we watched tv with aunt jesslyn..some canto show "the prince's shadow"
was really good..haha..and finally we got ourselves down to go swimming..
swam abt 30 laps..breadth..thanks to ame..which is a good thing..didnt feel like 30 laps..cos we swam 10..8..6.4..2..yar.
learnt how to push off from the wall when you wanna change direction.
still not very good though.my breathing and turning arent in sync.
rah.

after swimming..and much talking and laughing..eg.questions like " so are you all called SIMmers?"
haha.
we went up..bathed..and went to alameen for dinner.
called kenneth and gordon..and they were thankfully nearby..so they walked over and we talked for only a while..
den..after a nice dinner..and finally realising that no nearby cinema showed "be with me"..we walked towards ame's hse..waited for ayeeba's bus..den shir and i alighted at shir's..
cos i was waiting for my parents
shir's dad: how long will your parents take?i cant send you home.
me: in your new lexus??
shir's dad : yar.but on one condition..you help me wash.
me :er..no thanks..takes an hour!
anyhoo..i got home..didnt do work..chatted to pple until like..1 plus..and finally slept at 2..

didnt go running today..-makes face-
was too lazy to get up and run.
so i just did..errrr..10 crunches?
hhahaha..
dumdidum..i will be more productive today..already half way thru my lab report!woo!!

innocently intoxicated into your wonderland.

i feel so much better.
i went for a run/walk this morning with my mum and aunt.
it felt so good.
all it takes is a good run to clear one's head.
thought through many things..talked to God about so many things..
feel so much better.really.

i love sprinting.
the adrenaline pumping through your body..the world spinning pass you along the sides..all you hear is your feet hitting the ground..and you breathing..
makes you feel so free..as if..if you run fast enough..you can fly.

the only limitation is that...your legs can only carry you so far.

i realised..that..i have been spending my emotions on things that has not much value..driving my own self nuts thinking about smth so redundant..
so yes.
resolved to stop thinking horrid thoughts and just be myself..happy..and hopefully..more motivated to get things going..yeap.
yay.

today is a good day, no?

going to get out of my hse soon..just waiting for the dang-blasted laundry to be done washing..and i would have to get myself to hang them out..which..by the way..i really dont like..yes..and finally i'll be free to get myself down to darling ame's hse..and spend a whole afternoon frolicking in the water with shir ayeeba and ame.
wooo..
i cant wait.

tally-ho!

you gave your hand to me..and then you said hello..and i could hardly speak..my heart was beating so..and everyone could tell..you think you know me well..but you dont.

i have changed.
dang blast it.
i think i have changed.

is it for the better?
i am not too sure.

things that have changed(good and bad) :
1. i am more vocal now.not to be pushed over that easily.
but in that sense..i start cold wars more frequently.
2. i am not as motivated anymore.
my work is lagging so much.and the anxiety hasnt hit me!

3. i am not as much a romantic any longer.
then again..maybe i am just not really ready.
4. i run around seeking entertainment and to entertain.
it worries me that im stuck in a neverland and will never grow up.
5. i think too much that i think i might just burst from all this nonsense.
6. i am becoming more apathetic.
7. i dull myself.
8. ok.i think this just sounds too depressing.argh.
9.i think i think too much it drives me crazy.
10. am i sinking into semi-depression again? help.

ok.
i think this is all academic-stress related.
and that isnt good.
cos its just stress im getting.
my week's holiday seems to have gone past so fast.
its friday tml!
and i have accomplished nothing!
nothing!
dang blast me.
i really need to sit down and study.
cold turkey msn.
i really need to.
i get too distracted.
no motivation to study.
Lord..help..i need to study.

today's evangelistic xroads practice was quite good..dor and i were a bit low..but im sure izzy enting and edlyn will harmonise us out perfect. =)
clara and jiajun are really good..esp jiajun..dor and i were just melting in our seats when she sang..
its so surreal when she sings..cos her mouth hardly moves..but the sound coming out of her is fantastic! really loud..and whole..and just..mesmerizing!

dinner was good too..dor is so nonsense..i spent the whole day just laughing my head off with her..haha..eejun is quite nonsense also.
yay.i like nonsense pple.
haha.

kk..i think i will go sleep now..
will rest..go running tml..study..and spend my afternoon with my darlings..and bask in the fantastic relationship that we have..and how much i love them..haha..
cant wait.

each time i think im almost out of the hole..i start sliding back in..

argh!my internet is screwed!!
i was almost done blogging just now when out of the blue..the whole window closed!
rah!!

ok..re-type.....

met darkwinged duck yesterday at bishan for brkfast.
its good seeing him after so so long..

and on the way down..i had a romantic time with an old lady on the train..
she kept dozing off and guess whose shoulder she wld lean on??
mine! hahaha..she wld touch a bit..wake up..and doze off again..she slept on my shoulder for a good one min plus for a period of time..haha..
old ladies are so cute.

met leow zixiang too..the nehneh metal mouth..bit the meat at my right elbow joint ok!!
it still hurts today..rah!!
the small girl next to me was so shocked when she saw him bite me..i was screaming like mad..
rah!!silly twin!!!
lzx..still the same..is that a good thing?? hahahahahahaha...

oh yar..and on monday..we had crusade family day..it wasnt as bad as i thought it wld be..i was a bit moody at first cos none of my pretties were going..but i had twin(samuel) and steward to keep me company and i made a few new frens.
it was fun.
steam boat too..though i didnt really eat much..
almost got burnt..hahhaa..sort of..cos yongzhi was getting some of the soup things out..and he spilled a bit of water on the hotplate..and it burst into flames..my face was a bit near..thank goodness nth happened..but it was funny.

hmmz..
im camping at home today..to be a good mariam..and study!
study!gross..i think im allergic.
rah.
been super uber not productive nowadays.
so much to catch up..lab report to do..
sob.
i wanna quit school.
sob.

kk..i better go..i cant wait for friday!!
hmmz..my toilets are calling...bye!!

im finally succeeding..but why isnt this victory tasting sweet?

i dont want to fall to pieces.i just want to sit and stare at you.

i am feeling very lost now.
i feel as if im wasting my time.becos i have no feeling to want to do anything in particular.
strange feeling.
i doubt im going into depression.
but it sure does feel as if i am.
one of my random mood swings.

i wld be lying if i said that i wasnt upset that dor isnt going for family day tml.
cos when you wait for a day to come..you anticipate the dynamics for that day too.
im not angry or anything.really.i totally understand why she isnt going and i respect it.
just feeling a bit lost.
maybe its due to my lack of sleep.

i only slept at 430 this morning.
and woke at 730.

i am too addicted to msn.

im very touched.
this whole week..i could sense the distance between my classmates and i.
probably bec i know im of different frequency from them.
it isnt always good to be so english-influenced.
elaine called and asked me if i wanted to go steamboat with them tml..
but i already am going with my crusaders.
so maybe i wld meet them there.
and she said that the other night at supper they expressed their concern that they found that i was becoming quieter and a bit depressed.

how am i supposed to tell them that i just dont feel that much at home with them.

i am too clinque-ish and stereotyped for my own good.

my face is super burnt.
it hurts.
i have to touch it now and den to cool it down and ease the pain.
im like a tomato.

ok.i need to sleep.and someone is too busy to talk.so i shld go.
tv shows are getting boring.

what if one day i told you i love you, would you believe?
what if one day i told you i miss you so bad,
would you trust?
what if one day i told you i never want you to let go,
would you fulfill?
there's a void in me..that is caused by you.
you bring me to completion. - feb/march 2004

oh yes..yesterday (10/9) was my handsome's birthday!
he has grown so much over the past 11 years..from a cute small puppy..to an old doggy..whose black fur is starting to bleach white..haha..
i love my doggie much.
he's been there when i cry..and when i just feel like playing..and sharing food with..haha..

and yes..i got a new baby!!woohooz!
my dad bought a slim sleek dvd player for my room..cos he went to the philips warehse sale i think..and i told him i wanted one that cld play dvd..cos in my hse..can only watch dvds outside..and i wanna watch in my room..and my hi-fi cannot play vcds and wad not..
so yes..i know..im super spoilt..
but im really happy..
my new baby!!
-adds to my list of babies-
yiippppeee.
im a happy girl today.
for more reasons than one.

did You rise the sun for me..paint a million stars that i might know Your majesty? 

i havent been blogging.
could anyone tell??
heh..
good week i had!!

monday : erm.dun remember much.had a life sci CA.first to walk out of the comp lab.got 70%.but everyone else had higher.wahaha.

tuesday: nothing much happened.

wednesday : went sch..played pool with my class pple at the nanyang hse..played murderer..with elaine and jiayi..jiayi and i were trying to kill each other..so when it was elaine's turn we wld try to psycho her to kill the other one..haha..madness..
and tap was fantastic as usual!! -beams-
my wife is so crazy!
we were doing turns across the room..my right side is better than my left..i dunnoe why..cant spot so well when i turn left..hahaha..and wifey sabo-ed me..
when we were going to start turning..she ran from before me to the back of the queue ok!!
so susan went "ok..andrea you start first..since your wife helped." or smth like that la.
shirlene yeong ah-man!!too much!!rah!!
hahaha..but in a way..she sabo-ed herself too..cos every second person..has to end with a lanch..which is just to steady yrself in a position..but by the time she turns so many times..when she lanches...she wobbles!!hahahahahahah..so cute.
and when she turns left..she gets a bit unstable..and she will stop..shake her head a bit and continue..wahaha..
but yes..i made quite a few mistakes during the dance..keep forgetting some steps..sob..
saw jonathan(hiphop) at the 7-eleven near cine..he asks me to teach him some basic tap..cos he might wanna learn..haha..i'll try my best.-grin-

thursday : had sch..and dg! dg was hilarious..we were talking abt how christians can be discriminating against non-christians..and the point of being very preachy..and like..first day of school start witnessing to pple..and like..some car decals are cool..like "if you think spore is hot..think abt hell." smth like that..and to having yr bag filled with badges abt christianity..and den i said wear the big cross..the bling bling sort..sort of carrying yr cross..den they talked abt really carrying this huge wooden cross to class..like on the first day...start walking into class dragging a cross and telling the calvary message..hahahha..it was super funny cos of the dramatics..hahhaha..
my dg mates are crazy man.hahaha.i like.hahahha.

after that we had xroads..prayer and praise..after a solid worship..we had a prayer walk ard campus..it was good..prayer for salvation and strongholds..and we had a mini excursion.
mr bean brought us(yiyi..sam..kimbo..waiyin and i) to this secret conference room at lt19a.. and when we walked ard the lt..near this open landing....the choir was practicing..so we walked thru the lt..and there were more choir pple..in their sections practicing..and we were the 6 kukus who was wondering thru the front of the lt..i felt so paiseh la!!hahaha.

supper was good too..willy is so irritating..makes me so violent..provoke me lor..rah..but its fun la..hahaha..and thankfully i didnt hafta pay for ahgong's taxi fare home eventhough i didnt keep to our compromise of leaving by 1015..=) sorry.

friday : maths CA was funny.the second qn was so easy that we started thinking that there was a catch to it..and so..most of us went one big round to ans the qn.haha.
waited for ahgong and eejun for four hours..went to the lib to study with sam..from 430-645.
645 we got so bored..we went wondering ard north spine..haha..took photos of the sunset..and sat down and talked abt the diff dances we choreographed and danced before..haha.
went to fetch dor from the busstop..and continued wondering till it was 830..
went to jp for dinner..with them and albert!!haha..
it was fun.i really enjoyed myself at dinner.

today : went to sentosa with my jc frens!
i woke up at 705!!!!
the first thought that came to my head was "cindy is crazy!meet at 9am!!man!"
yes.
hahaha.
but it was fun!we took cable car to sentosa..benji was so funny..cos he's afraid of heights..hahaha..
den when we go there..they had a new addition!!chairlift!
its like the snowlifts at skiing mountains..
it brings you straight down to soliso/tanjong beach there..that means..near sunset bay.
woohooz.
it was so fun..
it goes up and down..benji was so scared again..it was hilarious.
and gavin kicked weiquan's slipper off!hahaha..so he bought weiquan a new pair.
so silly lor.
haha.
it was really fun hanging with them today..beach vball (thought i siamed more than i hit the ball..only did serving) haha...frisbee in water..kayaking..suntanning..a*hole daidee..
woo..
but one thing is..MY FACE HURTS NOW!!!
im red la!!
hahahaha..it doesnt hurt hurt..its the burnt hurt..haha..but tolerable pain la.
i cant wait for monday!can play and have some stuff to do!


and oh..next week is hols..hafta study hard..and..going swimming with my darlings on friday!!
im ecstatic!!i cant wait..

babes..im really missing you all much..you all are my home when i am away from home..each with a special place in my heart..i really dunnoe how i would survive if i didnt have you all..you all are really my angels..love you all much! -hugs-

i wanna maintain sanity.if it happens it does.i wldnt and i mustnt think abt it more than i should.i dont wanna get hurt again.i really dont.

dear Lord,

i sing for joy at the work of Your hands,
forever i'll love You..forever i'll stand.
nothing compares to the promise i have in You.
i'm forever grateful to You,
im forever grateful for the cross,
im forever grateful to You,
that You came..to seek and save the lost.
open the eyes of my heart Lord.
i need direction in my life,
wouldnt you show me your way..because i know that its right.
set my focus solely on You..
my priorities need straightening out.
let all earthly distractions fall aside..
i want to run after You.
i want to be found in Your will.
i need reassurance.
i need You.

forever Yours,
aNdReA

tears over fallen petals.. 

re and i acting retarded..we're not acting as terrorists..we're hiding from them..hahahaha.. 

on thursday..isabel edlyn enting me and dor..decided to wear polo shirts for xroads..this was taken at supper..haha..so nice right the colours!! =) 

this was at mos burger at jp..when the guy didnt let us order from our seats when we were just next to the counter..which in the end we did cos albert stood infront of the counter but he asked us what we wanted..so the girl just looked at us and took our orders..haha.and kind albert helping us pay.. 

the three of us trying to take a photo of us in the air..hahaha.. 

us pretty girls taking photo at the toliet at marina sq.. 

sunday was a blast..though my wifey didnt get to play her laser quest..cos some rich kid booked the entire place to play..cos its his bday..i hope she enjoyed herself??
while waiting 50 mins for them..i sat at this ulu corner near the squash court at cdans..
and everyone who walked past took a second take..to make sure they werent seeing things..
wahaha..
oh!!!
oh!!!!!
i got a new baby!!!my new handphone..k750i!!hahaa..i like it alot..
im happy.
finally got a new hp!
yippee..
rocking.
haha.
i wanted white..but i think..whole of spore..only have black.
so now i have the same phone as sam and elvin.

anyhoo..sunday was a blast..kept saying lame things..
lamest thing i said..after mich was speaking canto and said "ho ah" - good ar.
i turned to ame and said "i think santa knows cantonese..ho ah ho ah ho!"
wahaha..super lame..and when shir said "oh dear" when she didnt know wad to order..i said "no..no deer..only have chicken and fish."
i was uber high.
goodness.
and ame shir and i made a fool of ourselves..trying to take the jump-in-the-air shot..haha..amusing many pple at the restaurants..so retarded..haha..youthful exuberance..

anyhoo..last night..tuesday..went dinner with my darling doreen edlyn enting and isabel.
ate pizza hut.it was much fun..yay.im so glad ive got them..
today i had tap with wifey..and we kept making faces in the mirror..esp during paddleturns..and made a few mistakes during the dance..haha..
so yes yes..for the last two days..ive been coming home in a mighty good mood..haha..

but reality hits..i have tons of catching up to do which i have been putting aside..unwilling to face the burden of studying..and so..tonight..i hafta burn midnight oil and try to attempt my tuts..save me!

oh..random thought..when i was bathing..
qn : wld you rather have a kid who can study..or a kid that is jack of all trades..?

i think i'll just die if my kid is boring..i'll come up with a list of other activities for him/her to do..at least learn smth else..really..i hope my kid has a sense of humour..but i think i'll probably traumatise him/her too much..and he/she will end up reTARTed..like my rebecca chewbaka..hahahha..i love you re.
haha.
kk.
going off now..physics calls...
-slams phone down-

T H E B I R T H D A Y S O N G
Written by Corrinne May

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've hadYou're such a blessing
Such a joy in my lifeMay the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul you've helped to grow
A little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

to my darling wifey..thank you every so much for the past 12 years..it has been a blast knowing you..from the times we used to just call each other in primary school just because we had nothing else better to do..and now..we still are practicing that tradition!hahaha..
from calling each other the names of different dishes..to getting married..to maintaining our marriage..and planning for our kids..hahaha..and both of us having multiple affairs..hahaha..it has really been such a joy having you in my life my dear.
and i am glad that we have each other..though its gonna be hard for me to find someone who can top our marriage..hahaha..yes yes..
it has been great.and i love you alot.from the bottom-est of my heart.
i'll try to learn how to sing this song.and i will attempt.haha..attempt.
-hugs-

this song is also for all the pple who i know has had their birthday this whole week..

and to my darling husband too..whose birthday is on the 27th..which by right.since now is 0009hrs..is his birthday.haha.
happy 16th birthday deon!!now you can officially play pool legally and watch NC16 movies..hahaha...


kk..now that im done with my birthday wishes.i shall be off to go to bed..nitez pple..miss you all much.

laser quest on sunday!yay!

and this is how its going to end..interesting conversations ceases..it must end.

today's worship went all right!!!hahaha..happy.really by God's grace.

i realised that i have been using God's name in so many things..like macham im sounding holier..thats good and all..but im not sounding like a fanatic right??
i am a fanatic for God..but im not those blubbering type right?
haha..
okok.
paranoia sets in.

anyhooz..loong day again..sleeping soon..can wake up later tml!!yay!!
but need to rush my tuts and all..=)

im happy now.i really truly am.

and shir's bday is coming!!in like..ten plus more mins!!wahaha..im so sorry girl..but life goes on..you cant be 18 forever..i wish i could too..
but we still love you all the same..haha..i think when we are together..we are just permanently stuck in our second childhood stage..haha..love you!!

yeap..kk..nth much to write..or rather..no inspiration..

i am gonna will myself to stop.i must.and i will.or i'll lose smth precious to me.

You're my prince of peace..and i will live my life for You.

loonngg day..
feel as if i accomplished alot today.
had lessons until 1130..den i was supposed to go to nie to eat with gabe ah gong..but he was too lazy to walk..so we ate with the rest of the crusaders at the crusade corner.
after eating half of my fish and chips and started feeling nauseated..i passed it to adrian..who was quite happy to have the rest of it..owellz..went to the library with ahgong and eejun.didnt do much work.cos at 130 ah gong and i went for prayer meeting.
kimberly will never let me live the whole "flasher thing" down..when i went into the room..she was like "miss R(a) please sit down..sit down.." argh!!hahaha..so embarrassing..and for that short moment..all of the pple in the room who attended FOC was like..oh..yar yar..she was quite good being a flasher..acting secretive and all..hahahaha..oh..she's the flasher!??i couldnt recognise!! thanks kimberly..thanks.. haha.
after prayer..went for random evangelism..i went ard video-recording the other teams for eliza..den went for coffee with my dearest doreen isabel enting and edlyn!.it was fun.i miss them.and im glad im blessed with their frenships.really love them alot.

went for dinner..donating yet again half of my meal to adrian..den went for crossroads worship practice!!i never had such a thorough music practice before!!it was good man.fantastic.
i cant wait for tml..when we use our gift and talents all for God's glory.
but one thing i was disturbed with during practice was that the liondance troupe was practicing at the nanyang hse too..and i kept feeling as if its a spiritual oppression..cos what other cca can be noiser??and they stopped when we stopped.the devil is all out to spoil the good work that God has and intends to start.
i dunnoe.i feel the need to pray against the enemy.he is working doubly hard..i can see it in the lives around me..and in situations..

but we all know and must be convinced that we are indeed conquerors in Christ.

took a cab home.ended at 2215.
so..in that sense..i camped in school for abt 14hrs..goodness..

need to sleep now.hafta rush my tuts tml.

and i sprained my right wrist carrying around my heavy bag and mat sci. textbook the whole day.
sob.

pray for me k??
1.for tml's worship.
2.for the recovery of my tummy.i cant eat properly and i keep puking.
3.for my wrist.

thank you.

how great is our God..sing with me
how great is our God..all will see
how great..
how great is our God.

met laopo today!!
hahaha..so happy.havent met her in two weeks.
its amazing how just talking to her on the phone can light up my face.
she's so adorably silly.

went down to sim today to meet her..her school has..erm..quite alot of smokers.
met her camp pple too..her favourites and her "favourites".hahaha.
went to bugis with her..i miss the SB-BG partners!!sob..saw cheok!haha..
but..when i was there..my "i dun like small talk" side came up..in this kinda area i wished i was more like laopo..always so easily can talk to pple..but me..i dun like..catching up with pple i hardly know that well at the first place..hmmz..im very tak social.i know.haha.

anyhoo..i tried the strawberries and cream frap..delish..though..i shouldnt have drank it with an oreo cheesecake..super lactose overdose..wait..lactose is in dairy products right??..aiyah..you know what i mean..
shir's gilson and artist came down to the store..much to hawa's joy..haha..anyway..i sat down with them..talk talk..breathed in some 2nd-hand smoke..haha..but they were courteous enough to blow away from me..nice guys..im glad shir has them in her life..
i followed them to go watch them play pool..learnt a bit from observing them..
yeap.

my lappie is seriously giving me alot of probs..sigh..i wanna get an apple ibook too..divvy is getting one..sob..

i miss ame..my darling mistress..nights are lonely without you..-cries-
i miss ayeeba..my favourite spanish rat..ayeeba ayeeba andele andele

there's snow falling on me
and i cant make it stop.
its chills are running all over
its reaching to my top.
sound the bells..ring the alarm
spore is no longer warm!!
my tummy rumbles..my mind quakes.
i dont know how much more discomfort i can take.

today started out alright.
my class was high..we struggled drawing a 3d left-handed radio for lab.
after that we went to jp.all laughing and joking.
after we ate ljs..and we were on the way back..my stomach started feeling very bloated..and very uncomfortable.
i was ok until econs lecture when the pain got worse.
after lecture i was cranky..groggy..my tummy was hurting..i felt nauseous..my hands and toes were starting to feel cold.
took cab back with sam cos i just wanted to lie down.

after sleeping with the fan off and with the blanket..and for three hrs..
i woke up to have dinner.
but the moment i ate a spoonful..i rushed to the toliet to regurgitate and it was quite bad.
on the way to the toliet..i thought i was gonna faint..my vision started to blur..so scary.
but after that im so much better.
but my side is still hurting a bit.
sigh.

i didnt mean to be mean..i just wasnt game for a game of hide and seek.

Save Me - corrinne may

I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands
I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven KnowsHeaven knows
I've been waiting for you

I had a dream that i was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour
I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid

Oh ' cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knowsHeaven knows
I've been waiting

Before i met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows
I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you

i love her songs.esp when im driving..or in the afternoons.
gives you hope that there are still prince charmings.
haha.
-swoon-

which metaphor best describes how you perceive faith to be??
this is the question i have asked a few people for the past two days.
me: its like falling into darkness and know that you will not get hurt. [im scared of the dark]
drey: its like lemonade.the first taste if sour..but subsequently its sweet..because you know that God is there.
chowie: its like falling off a cliff and know that there's a hand that will catch you.
kel :its like bungee jumping.its calculated so well until the point you just hit the water and the rope goes taut and pulls you back up and you're safe.

something to think about.

chowie said that im eccentric today.
cos she was character profiling kel drey and i.
she said that im a IC..influencial and conscientious.
its two ends of the pendulum.
i must be surrounded by pple..but even when im in a crowd sometimes i like doing things on my own and will be reserve.
haha.
its true.
i do think im quite random.
but well..life's more fun this way.
haha.

just painted my nails black.
gonna put glitter and stars on it.
my parents dont like my nails being black.
hmmz.
but well..just for two days and it will be off.
-grin-

this week is exciting.
might crash shir's lect on tues and im going down to bugis with her.
need to return my apron.and see the partners.
i miss them quite a bit.
and i miss hanging with shir and just talking nonsense.
haha.
i think she needs me to bring her back to sanity too.hahahaha.right shir??
a regular dose of insanity is good for health.

talking about insanity..hahaha..i almost drove my dad crazy when i drove to church today.
ITS SUCH AN ADRENALINE RUSH DRIVING ON THE EXPRESSWAY!!
woo..90km/h..hahaha..
he didnt want me to drive so fast cos i was driving it for the first time.but it was ok la.he didnt complain much.just kept reminding me about my brake control.need to work on my lane change still.heheh..
dont worry doreen..i really am quite safe..really..

i miss hanging with my mg babes..and the security that i feel when im with them.
its as if nothing can bring you down.the bonds that we have.ahh..brings a tear to my eye.
i miss you darlings!!!

kk..i need to go read thru my lab manual for tml.
and i need to study.ahhh..


i like lee hsien loong's laugh lines.

happy 20th birthday janetta darling!!it has been a blast knowing you for the past 17 years!love you!-muacks-

phew.
finally done packing and moving the things ard the room with my mum.
it was the usual..im-not-willing-to-pack-and-i-am-forced-to-do-this scenario..
argh.
really dun like packing my room with my mum.
since young.
always get irritated.
but i know that at the end of the day..my room is very much neater..and alot of stuff is thrown out.
sigh.
owellz.
yay.
thanks mummy.

i went to collect my specs last night.
on the way to boonlay mrt..i accidentally walked too near a girl..and you that sometimes you tend to kick the person in front of you's shoe..
hahaha..
i accidentally kicked a girl's one..and i didnt know that it flew off her foot.
not very far la..
but she had to pivot to go and wear her slipper back.
i didnt stop to say sorry.
i just rushed past her.
i dunnoe why i didnt say sorry.
in that moment.
i feel quite bad.
i think next time i wldnt walk so near other pple.
so for that..i gave myself a grey dot sticker.
story behind the sticker..
on thurs..at campus crusade..we heard a story about this puppet maker..the puppets that he made have this daily routine of going around sticking stickers on each other..
if they thought you were pretty or they liked something abt you..they wld give you a golden star sticker..if they thought you were clumsy or they didnt like smth about you..they wld give you a grey dot.
so there was this one puppet..who always tried to get a golden star..he wld try jumping really high..but when he fell..they wld laugh at his clumsiness and give him a grey dot.
so he kept accumulating all the grey dots.
and some puppets saw that since he had to many..there must be smth wrong with him..so he got more grey dots..
so he was a miserable puppet.
then one day he saw this girl puppet..with no stickers on her.
he wondered why.and she brought him to the maker.
the maker told him that he was esp made that way..and he was unique and special.
the girl puppet didnt have any sticker on bec she decided not to let other pple's opinions to affect her..so the stickers didnt stick.
and the maker told the miserable puppet that if he needed reassurance of his uniqueness..he just needed to come to him everyday and he will be reminded.
so the puppet decided not to let the opinions affect him and slowly the grey dots dropped off.
after campus crusade..we went supper..
walking to the busstop..i accidentally tripped abit..and then..out of the blue..gabriel the ahgong poked me and gave me a grey dot!
and he started awarding himself golden stars for being cute!!he's super not shy.
haha.
so bec of that..i gave ownself a grey dot for kicking the girl.
hahhaa.

okok..so after i went to collect my specs..my parents and i went to find the car..
my dad thought it was at the first floor..so we went down..the place didnt look familiar..so we thought we should try another lift..so we went up..and den down again..den my dad decided to go to level3B..so when we went there..we walked ard the carpark..and we finally found it!
so silly.
cos the first level of carpark is actually at the 3rd floor.
rah.

i drove last night.
a short dist though.from cck stadium to home.
so fun.
hahaha.
and i parked the car!!so proud of myself.
wahaha.

i agreed to do back up singing for campus crusade's crossroads next week.
so nervous.haha.
we have music practice on wed night..so next week there's no tap dancing for laopo and i.sob.
and on thursday night!!!!yay!!!im gonna have a stayover at enting's hostel room..yay..dor..me..enting..isabel and edlyn!!
woohooz.we're gonna have girltalk.
im super excited.
haha.



anyway..
ive still been trying to work out my spiritual walk.
been neglecting Him again.pray everyday.but still feel like something is amiss..im not satisfied with the state im in.
its good in a way..cos im still reaching..but it frustrates me sometimes..cos the problem lies within me..and i am still trying to work it out..haiz..bought a book yest..hopefully it was spur me on..its called "the chase" its abt pursuing holiness in our everyday life.


alot of birthdays this month.
need to figure out wad to buy.
and lizzie's prezzie is like..one year overdued??hahaha.
feng;s too.
haha.

owellz.im gonna go makan.im hungry from all the work i did.
haha.
miss my darlings much..all of them.


You laid aside Your majesty.
gave up everything for me.
suffered at the hands of those You have created.
You took all my guilt and shame..
when You died and rose again..
now today You reign..
in heaven and earth exalted.
i really want to worship You my Lord
You have won my heart and i am Yours
forever and ever..i will worship
You are the only one who died for me
gave Your life to set me free
so i lift my voice to You in adoration.

my darling girls..without edlyn though..miss them.. 

darren..hahaha..he took this himself..he's crazy.hahah.. 

haha.i know..i look scary in this photo..sill darren la..asked him to take for shinhuey and i..he put his own face into the photo..hahahaha.. 

my new boyfriend!!shinhuey!!hahaha..she looks victimised. 

my class people..not in full force..but..majority. 

I PASSED!!!!YAY!!!WOOHOOZ!!!16 POINTS!!!YAY YAY YAY!!!

hahahaha.
a huge thank you to all who prayed for me..
i had a test route that didnt require a u-turn..and..it was a route that i was quite familiar with.
hahaha.
yay.
so happy.
i struck the pole while parallel parking..which is 4 demerit pts.
and i didnt know that a tester car is allowed to go 70km/h..i kept within 60..so thats how i got 4 demerits pts..
my driving wasnt as good as my usual..but the tester was so nice!!
when i was facing him and he was marking..and underlining stuff on the sheet of paper..
i was so nervous..
he looked at me and said 'your braking not very good.too hard.need to improve'
den he flipped the paper..wrote 16 points..struck off "failed" and ticked passed.
i was grinning like mad..
hahaha..
was so happy!!
i said "thank you!"
and he didnt say anything.sorta made it a bit anticlimatic.
hahaha.but i was so happy!!!
i waited for my mr seah to thank him.shook his hand too.
though i complained alot abt him..he really is a good instructor.hahaha.
got my license made.
cant wait to get it.
CANT WAIT TO DRIVE!
wooohhooz..
so happy so happy..
-bounces off the ceilings-

God answers prayers!!

THE DAY IS APPROACHING!!!
ahhhh!!!
everybody scream!!!!

so scared.
i dun think i can pass.
last night's driving..was..-faints-..bad..
for this stretch of road..though short distance..i suddenly drove nonsense la..
argh!
i swerved to the right to siam a parked lorry..den when i was going to turn left..i didnt steer left enough..almost whacked the next car..sort of..thankfully mr seah pulled..hahaha..
den..when i was going over a hump..i changed to third gear..when im supposed to slow down..den..when there werent anyone gonna cross the zebra crossing..i stopped..aiyah..i dunnoe what i was doing la..was so pissed..argh!!

anyway..hopefully im well rested for tonight's driving..
im quite scared for tml's test.
ahhh!!

trying to study now.
haiz.
but momentum isnt there.
the physics text book makes a good bed time story.
sigh.

i miss my rebecca..fengyi..ame..ayeeba..jesse..shir..selena..liz..
ahh!!selena..i forgot to wish her goodbye when she left for US last friday..felt so bad.haiz.i'll only get to see her in december..sigh.

doreen just asked me if i wanna join campus crusade's worship team..as back up singer..need to pray and think about this..dont think im good enough..i sound ok..but not ver fantastic..sigh..owellz..

kk..my tummy is giving me trouble again..owellz..kk..love you all.

AHHH!!!
wad an exciting week..

tuesday :
went to the zoo with elvin deon gab kel sam drey and justin.
it was fantastic fun!
erm..our tourist no.1 was quite embarassing.
he kept imitating animals.and saying random stuff.hopping into enclosures.
sigh.
that was the only dampener.sort of.
owellz.
but other than that..the guys were tremendous fun.
elvin is gonna be the future face of the zoo..the croco-wolf.
and we found his species.the mugger crocodile.ie..mugger buaya.
exactly what elvin is!!
hahaha.

on wednesday i played squash with divya suruchi and free willy.
free willy was nice enough to drive me home.
hahaha.ive found another ah mat
haha.
oh yar!! -in the toliet-
i was in the female handicap toliet cubicle..when i was gonna go out..someone knocked at my door..when i opened..this 0ld lady said to me
"you shouldnt be using this toliet!its meant for old ladies!"
"ok." - rolls eyes-

i didnt mean to be rude la..but honestly!!hello!! grow old graciously please!!
ergh!

anyway..at night..i went for tap with wifey!!i made quite alot of mistakes.sob.and i cant pivot on my left foot very well.

thursday :
i had my driving lesson!!
and i forgot that the counter to renew my pdl(provisional driving license) closed at 5.
and i only realised it at ard 6+.
i was panicking like mad cos i thought i couldnt go and drive and i had to forfeit myt 72 bucks..cos i cldnt cancel my lesson.
and den..as i was lying in bed..feeling very sad..teckyen popped into my head!and i decided to call him and complain..but he was brilliant!!he told me that i was to go to the post office instead of the bbdc centre to renew my card..and if i cldnt have renewed it in time for my lesson i could go and just drive in the circuit!!
so brilliant.
i totally forgot that i could drive in the circuit without my pdl!!
so i rushed to the cck post office to try my luck to see if they were still open..but to my dismay they werent.
owellz.so i just drove in the circuit.

friday :
i was late for my 1030 dental appointment in the morning..and so i cancelled..cos if i had gone..i wld have needed to rush all the way down...just for the dentist to see if my bridge is alright..and i wld have needed to rush all the way to school for my 1130 lecture.
so i didnt go..rescheduled..and went straight to school..
met ah gong gabriel and sam after lessons at 430 to study a bit..cos i had to attend the kranji's 10th anniversary performance.dansical.musical+ dance = dansical!
anyway..i was embarrassing drey..cos when the choir came on..with their instructor uncle francis..and sang love changes everything..the one he taught us before..i was singing along to them..into her ear..she was like..irritated.hahaha.i love irritating my sister.
hahahahhaa.owellz.kk.childish.
anyhoo..the dances were very nice..esp the confrontational dances..like..so..you've got served..haha..the finale though..was..erm..abit..lian..cos they all danced parapara to the song by dj sammie..and the thing is..kranji though being a neighbourhood school..isnt that ah lian sort..so my sister was quite taken aback..the song was quite long too..i wished they had cut it..owellz.

saturday:

went out with ame..and drey..watched charlie and the choc factory with ame..but the gurls next to ame were super irritating..they kept talking so loudly..commenting..and repeating after the narrator after he says the names of the kids..ahh!!
i tsked once or twice..and ame stared..but nnnoooo..they were still so highly irritating.argh!
but other than that..im super happy i got to meet ame.
i hafta wait one more mth to get my new hp.cos im 20 mth now..can only upgrade at 21 mths..sob.

ahh..okok.in all..it was quite eventful la..got other things that happened too..but so lazy to type.
this week i shall try to blog everyday..so i wldnt miss out that many things..

please pray for me on wednesday..ive got my driving test at 345.
you can also lend me your support by coming down and blocking traffic..so i can change lane easier.hahaha.owellz.

kk..
take care y'all..
see you soon.

this week of school is much much better.
got closer to my tutorial group today.
15/21 pple went for lunch together.
darren and jiayi keep talking alot nonsense.
kept laughing.
during lab..our tutor wore jeans and pink polo..he looked like one of us..den jiayi asked if he was a student..and he said that he was gonna teach us today..hahaha..so funny..
mr tan is like..getting his phD and going on to doctorate.
i asked him what he was gonna do after he gets his doctorate..
darren : print namecards!! give everyone!stick one on your forehead

we all broke out laughing..so random la..
study until doctorate so you can print the words Dr. on yr namecard..hahahaha..
but its fun..we made more frens..and cleared..erm..some doubts abt someone's gender..=)
yeah..owellz.
my class is good.alot of talkative pple.
i..of cos..being one of them.hahaha.

my entry now sounds so much better than my first few days of school.
wahaha.

but..my workload..is killing..
i only know how to do like..one three qns from my maths tutorial..out of like..12 qns??

help.

anyhooz.need to go do work..

GOING TO THE ZOO TML WITH MY YOUTH DARLINGS FROM CHURCH!!WOOO!!

finally!after 7 mths!!yay..

went for FOP last night..with the crusaders..dora and hannah..
hillsongs and delirious were good.
its good to know yr ministry and be good at it for God's glory.
i like delirious' lyrics..but a bit hard to sing along..
haha.
but the atmosphere was good.
i like going for FOP cos its good to see everyone gathered together to glorify ONE GOD.

had my permanent bridge made yesterday.
its very nice.
but one dicer loooks bigger than the other a bit
haha.

yesterday...while waiting for our maths tutor..
we were talking..den this girl walked in..i told my frens..hey!got another girl in our class! -not very loudly-
and the girl walked to the tcher's table.
i was..oh.ok.hahaha.

so yes...my maths tutor looks very young..but she's quite good..very happy.
my econs tutor is good too.woohooz.
God answers prayers.

yay.

nth else much to blog abt.
cant find the lyrics to the song.ahh!!nvm.another time.
kk..going to go play literati!

i made frens with deborah huang's brother today!hahaha.cos samuel and i were queuing for 179..den daniel(dhuang's bro) came and said hi to samuel..den sam intro-ed us..and also volunteered that i was an mg girl..so daniel asked if i knew dhuang..hahaha.

such a small world...so i went lecture with him..met his two frens..eugenia and bryan..eugenia looked super familiar..den it struck me..she was at campus crusade FOC too.hahaha..i told her i was the flasher..den she remembered..oh dear.

hahaha.so yeah..daniel kept promoting bryan..cos bryan is a model.solo guitarist and like very zai.so yar.hahaha..madness.

i met my tutorial grp..the china girls are very nice..hahaha..went out with shir..ate mushroom soup!!at raffles city..and i went to thread my eyebrows..
i realised that..
1. i really really LOVE tap-dancing..no wad..i knew that all along..
2. i must be a testimony of God in everything i do..its quite tough..but yar..we're ambassadors for Christ..this area of my life needs a lot of working on..
3. i REALLY need to start studying!!

ahhhhh!!!!

but above all..i really thank God for seeing me through so many things...and loving me besides my shortcomings..and skeletons in my closet..

purify my heart..

today was an okay day.
went to school with samuel.
was slightly late for lecture.
was falling asleep during lecture.
took a cab home.
slack abit.
slept four hrs.
and now..im up trying to settle stuff.
need to do my maths tutorial.
its so chim..hahaha..
kiddin..its just that its like..Cmaths all over again.
and im rusty.
i need oil.
hahaha.
hafta go read thru my econs text too.
meeting my mentor tml.
so sian.the whole class has to.
but..at least at night..
dum dum dum dum!!!
I HAVE TAP DANCING WITH SHIR!!
wahaha.havent seen her in so long.
this week is quite packed.
thurs..i have campus crusade's freshmen vision tea
fri..i think im going for FOP with doreen..eejun..samuel they all.

my laogong called me a rich piggy today.
but i think its apt.
today is indeed a rich piggy day.
yawn.
need to go do my tutorial..sian.

toodles.
oh..
please tag my board..
its looks very empty..
write nonsense..go crazy..

sleep well and enough everyone!

AAAAHHHH!!!!!!
scary or what!!!!

on the way home...
samuel:when's your birthday?
me: 22nd march.
s: -offers a handshake- hey!!same!!!
me:no serious!?!?dont bluff..
s: - walks towards the street lamp- really!! see! -points to his ic-
me: oh man...scary or what!!!

hahahaha..yar..so that's the freaky thing..samuel and i have so much in common..according to doreen..hahaha..so now i have a twin brother...hahaha..a bit more likely one den my zixiang..hahahahha..




owellz..besides that..today was quite bad...early in the morning..i went to the lab...i was at north spine..cos i thought we were doing a civil and environmental expt..but i was told that i was to do a optics one..so i had to go to the south spine..and i was super late!!cos the 179 queue was never ending..yar..so i rushed down..and i missed the briefing...so i was lost..and i made a new fren..sharon...she's in my tut grp....but she's a pretty..and studious girl...so i think i mustnt disturb her too much..yar..and i CUTE MALAY GUY!! it told divya i shld give ayeeba's number to him...heh heh...

econs lecture is still very bad... my lecturer's english..is powderful..
firstly : first-ter-ly
how sensitive : hall sensitive
point : sounds alot like...porn..
and the list goes on....

aiyohz..divya and i will be heading to the other lecture for econs..yup..
so uber lost..

anyhooz..hafta bathe..super hot day..hahaha..

this is wad happened last night during youth service when my pastor was questioning us abt our bible stories...
copied from my laogong's blog:

jeremy: ya.. the animals went in the ark two by two... BUT in pairs!
deon: joseph was sold to SLAVES

david and goliath played 5 stones

gabriel: ya.. he shot the sling
*pastor* den wad happened?
gab: yah.. den david died la

hahahahhaha..it was so funny..everyone kept saying funnier and funnier things..hahaha

yet another school week...
LORD!!!I NEED MIGHTY ALOT OF STRENGTH!! and a hint of frenliness..

hmmz.
owellz.

i dunnoe which phone to get...6680 or 6230i...
drey is supposed to accompany me to go lot one later to see..i hope she remembers..

i miss my rebecca.

gonna paint the city red with my city babes..with a few missing..

taxi driver : are you malay or chinese?
me : er..chinese.
td : not working today?
me: im schooling..in uni.
td: oh..year 4??
me : no..year 1..


ie..i look old..oh sobs.hahahahahaha..

i have a temp. bridge..
and its crooked and yellow!!
sob!!wail!!!
i dun dare talk...and smile..
but i tried convincing myself just now that it looks..ok la..
now i know how it feels to be in a crooked teeth person's shoes..
owellz..i guess it takes getting used to..
and at least it is only for a week..den i get my new proper one..
it felt a bit better that samuel talked to me abt his..hahaha..but his sounds alot more painful..ouch.
drilling with no numbing effect..ouch.
i just realised that i cant drink cold drinks..cos my two teeth that just got drilled today..is still like..raw or smth..super sensitive..haiyah...mah fan..
owellz..i guess i hafta get used to my temp bridge..
sigh.

and the sunlight broke through the cloudy day

im feeling much much better.
thanks to all the darlings who have been trying to cheer me up.
it worked.
it also helps that my wireless is finally working..
my lecture notes can be collected tomorrow..
so all in all..ive settled most of my things..
just need to do my concession card..
=)
but i realised this morning..that i should have attended my life science lecture yesterday!!
1030-1230 am..rah..now since i missed it..i hafta go for tomorrow's one..but its from 630-820 pm!! oh cries..and before that i have a maths lecture from 130-230..so that leaves me with a four hours of nothing-to-do-ness..
hmm.
so blur la.
owellz.
ok..blog abt new happier exciting things that are gonna happen..to me la..:

1. i MIGHT be getting a yamaha clavinova!!woohooz.
2.i AM getting a bridge..ie. permanent fake tooth.costing quite alot.
and yes..that also means no more fake denture to scare pple with anymore.haha.

erm..no more.
yay.


this morning i woke up with the song "You are the peace..that guards my heart.." in my head..
and i felt so much better...HE is indeed our peace..but its up to us to receive it..
i admit..ive been running ard so much..He hasnt been no.1 on my list..
so now..i have to bring myself back..seek Him first..cos He is the most important afterall..
im so happy..really..
i guess now that im more settled..and rested..(12 hrs of sleep last night..wooo..) .
im more ready to face the world.
*superman music playing at the back.
haha.
shir is coming back from camp today..
ame and samm leaving for theirs tml..
hmmz..i love my darlings.
ok..hafta go..my greedy dog is finding ways to get food off my table..keeps whining..hello..its only tuna and bread! dogs...

my first lecture.
physics.
kinematics.
many yawns.
i almost feel asleep.
i think i look scary.
no one talks to me.
hahaha.
i think i need to be more positive.
as ayeeba said "its supposed to be fun drea.."
so yes.
i miss my darlings too much.
i sat in the LT for two hrs.silent.
it almost killed me.
andrea lee qing is NOT made for silence.
but i dun feel very frenly and outgoing nowadays.
ha.
i cant wait for next week.
im sure it will be better.
no school tml.
yay.
k.
need sleep.
thanks laogong for keeping me company today when i was in lecture and queueing.
oh yar.
i waited close to 2 hours for my notes..only to find out i can only order..cos they ran out.
sigh.
my matriculation card picture is horrendous.
i love me.
rah.

today was officially the first day i embark on my new academic journey in university..
the welcoming ceremony was quite boring..brinking on propaganda..
im totally stressing out cos i feel so lost..
i dunnoe what to do..as in..where to get my notes and stuff..
and to top it off..i have no frens as yet..
its quite depressive if you think of it..
im not ready for uni man.
i think i am just putting too much pressure on myself..
owellz..
ran alot of errands with daddy today..settled quite alot..
but my stupid modem still aint working..and to fix the silly small plastic catch on my laptop costs 105 bucks!!cos the model is out of the system is totally ridiculous..
bought a new side table..
havent bathed yet..
have lecture early in the morning tml..
i need rest..and peace..
i need to run under His wings..
times when you just need to cry to let it all out.
and ive been very impatient and touchy nowadays..
everything i hear is taken to heart...almost.
i wish i werent like this..
prob the entering uni stress..
its straining my relationships..
sorry to all...


and the internal conflict wars on..

okok..this week was fun...mg galore week...
on wednesday i had a all-girls chalet..sam shir ame and ayeeba..
we checked in late on wednesday..you know cos of my whole matriculation thingy..and that they were fixing up our rooms still when we got there..
it was so sweet of ame's mum to accompany us down though she had quite a bad cough..thank you aunt jamie!
yup..so while waiting for our rooms and sam and shir..ame and i went to downtown east to have lunch with aunt jamie at the foodcourt.and went to cheers (our survivor's kit) to buy ice and some other barangs for our bbq..
we got back just in time when sam and shir came..and we went to our rooms! it was just nice for us..
so we unpacked a lil..and went cycling!!
we went around pasir ris park until we got to the giant spider web thing..
sam was like spiderwoman and climbed so fast..i was still slowly slowly figuring my way..ame also a another spider..haha..shir was..erm..a very very small spider..hahaha..anyhoo..when we were all still climbing and like ame and sam was instructing shir how to come up..this guy..came towards the web..den just in that moment i was like telling ame they all that the sign said "no adults allowed" den he said to me..huh..is it..den he just chiong up..when he got to the top..he sat..and started shaking the whole net!! moronic or wad..
and there shir was still trying to climb and there he was shaking and making it tougher..nehneh..so sam told him to stop..and he said "shake den fun wad.." wah biang..i tell you..some pple need a life!
so after a while..he climbed down half way..sat and swung his legs..den he finally left..
he went to play with the small girls at this big spinning plate thing..den he climbed the other net which is connected to the big slide..
so obviously..a slide being a slide..obviously..we would want to slide down it!!
so we checked to see where the psycho was..and he was lying inside the net!!argh!!
anyway..so i went to climb..he saw me and said.."no teenagers allowed.just now you told me no adults allowed right.." i was like "soorryyy.." and i continued climbing..and he went off..only to disturb this two other girls climbing the big net..
anyway..after THAT episode..we took a few more "attempting to be artistic" photos..and headed back..went to cheers yet again to stock up..and we had our cozy and warm bbq for 4..
=)
next morning...i was woken up when the china pple next door got woken up by their pple "ba dian le..ba dian le.." so i woke up at 8am.
i felt a urge to listen to 93.3..so i tried to adjust..cldnt get anything..so i went back to bed..and decided to message the pple in my room!!
so i typed "good morning!" and mass sent.
hahaha..
ame..being a light sleeper woke up..and talked to me a bit..sam read and went back to sleep..
i started poking..NOT JABBING..shir's nose..until i got her reaction and she woke up too!!
so we talk talk a bit..den i went back to sleep..muahahaha...
got up again when ayeeba reached..ard 9 plus..i think..yar..den she left for school..
haha..that day..we went to WILD WILD WET!!
wweeee....but my cute ular-lah lifeguard wasnt there anymore..sob..hahaa..we went ard shiok river many many times!!and sat all the rides..i tried the samsung slide up..wooo..one time was good enough for me and shir..it was a wet version of viking..ame and sam went a total of 3 times!madness..hahaha..we sat ular-lah like 4 times..first two times we didnt smile for the camera..on the third we did..but half of shir's face got cut off..the last time it wasnt as nice..haha..
so yeah...it rocked..totally enjoyed myself at wildwildwet..
we headed back this time..met ayeeba at cheers..and we bought more things..like icecream..vodka..root beer for ayeeba..=)
we had a cozy bbq again..the fire was really good..
food was fantastic..
we dined..laughed..and finally we had fondue..this time..we tried a diff method..melting in a water bath..the previous night we totally burnt the chocolate...cos we put it on top of the grill..second night was better..but we were so full..the chocolate hardened before we could eat it fast enough..but it was way better..hahaha..
we watched CSI..did accounting..which was a bit of a headache..played halli galli..which my wife wld keep hitting my hand more times than needed everytime i hit first..rah..hahaha...and we drank..only half a bottle cos i didnt wanna get drunk and sleep so soon..haha..
ard 3+ 4..we were all tucked in..and we sang sunday school songs..
sam taught us this new one abt being patient..haha..when she posts her lyrics up..i'll go copy and paste..but its so cute the way she sings it..hahaha..sam is so funny..
finally the day we checked out..packed everything and headed home.
it was a blast..
i love them all alot...which group of pple can be laughing like mad monkeys early in the morning..and just live together so harmoniously??you tell me!?!?hahaha..it was rockin...

came home..slept for abt 4 hrs..and headed out to holland v to meet my ol clique..
jan..pam..feng..rach..lian..yan..shir..liz..me..hahaha..we ate at foster's.i was so bloated after that..woo..we went to nydc..and had cake and drinks..den we went to tango's..i drank a fruit punch cos i dun think its very nice to keep drinking alcohol..yup..and yan drove me home..it was quite fun..exciting even..so yup..that was my week...

i'm locking my atm card up next week.
too freakin broke man.
=)

ARGH!!!!
no.1 : drey forgot our internet password..so i cldnt activate our new modem router thingy..so i called singnet and ask them to send me the default password..so they said they will mail in 3-4 days.ok la.good.so i logged off.
den..i cant log on anymore!!!cos they changed my password..and the retarded thing is that they are only telling me the password in 3-4 days!!rah!!!
no.2: ok..so today is the day i have to matriculate online and get my timetable for the sem..ok..BUT...my net is not working!!and i only have till friday!! and i have a chalet today!!oh for the joy of rah rah!!
so i came to aunt jen's to use the net and also to print..

time check : 9.30 i was here..

i went to the website...

matriculation period 10 AM - 10 PM

hello!!!im supposed to meet amelia and her mum at dover at 945!!

anyhoo...told her my agony already..
and now i hafta wait like a goondu for ten am!!
oh rah rah rah!!!

wad a way to start a fantastic day...hahahaha..

oh yar!
no.3: yesterday i found out that from common engine..i can only major into bio engine..electrical engine..civil engine..environmental engine..or mechanical engine..
so that means i hafta study even harder to ensure that i can go into EEE...i want to..cos i cldnt have gone in directly anyway...aAhh!!stress...

oh yes.last night i went out with feng and rach to causeway pt..it was a blast..talking abt our camps and rach's madness in US..watched a lot like love with rach..was nice..very modern day fairy tale..kinda..at least i finally watched it..LAOGONG...i FINALLY watched it..hahahah...kk..going off now..
tc..

psalm 139:1-18

1 O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
2You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
3You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
4For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.
5You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.
7Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
8If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
9If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness shall fall[a] on me,"
Even the night shall be light about me;
12Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
13For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother's womb.
14I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;[b]
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
15My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in
the lowest parts of the earth.
16Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
17How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
18If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.

read this this morning..and im very comforted to know that God is everywhere..you'll never walk alone..as most of us step into another phase in our lives..just know that if God brings you to it..He will bring you THROUGH it..

ECCENTRIC pyramid!! 

smell your armpits!!! 

my girls from campus crusades,, 

hahahaha.
today...after like 4 years..i actually found out that my sister's laptop actually has an internal burner! its like how amazing la..think of all the many opportunities i have missed being a pirate..hahaha..kiddin...
anyhoo..went for medical checkup today!
i grew a cm!!
yippee..two more cm to be my dream height of 165!!
it felt funny peeing into a cup.
after that daddy and i went to get a modem/router for our hse..so we can go wireless..
we bought the one that combines both..but...my sister forgot our internet password..so now i either call singnet tml for a default one..or they hafta mail it to us..rah.
had dinner with jess ayeeba xinyan and jean!!
it was so rockin.
had a lot of fun hanging with the girls.
must do it more often.
as long as that irritating guy at coffee club aint there..rah.
k...yay..just burnt my first cd..how exciting..hahaha..
anyhoo...ayeeba kept whacking her arm against mine to see if can feel static..that silly girl..i know im hairy la..happy?!?!hahahaha..
chalet on wednesday...im so excited..woooOOOoooo...*runs ard the room*
kk..going off le..very tired..nitey nitez
smell yr armpits before bed!

lift your left hand up..
lift your right hand up..
put your head down there..
smell it all about..
if your face turns green..
if your head feels faint..
DOES YOUR ARMPITS SMELL BAD?!?!?!

wahaha.
it was a song for our skit.
SABO : severe acute body odour.

i miss camp quite a bit.
really quite short.
school is starting.
im scared.
yet again.

played pool today with jerm gab deon justin timo and melissa.

PLEASE!!!ITS ONLY A GAME OF MURDERER!IF YOU HIT ONE OF MY BALLS IN.. IT REALLY DOESNT MATTER!!

ok.
had a great game.and fun playing.

gab and tim..please stop winking at me.
and i can never sneeze the same way again.
thanks gab.
hahahahah

kk..going le.

chalet this week!
rock.
cant wait.

taz.

yay!
im back from camp!!
super shag and stone now..
only slept one hr properly this morning..
we stayed up playing games like polar bear...zong ji mi mah..murderer..
during the games my eyes were half closed..hahaha..
my grp rocked!!
makan makan umm!bbllleeearrrgghhh!!! ECCENTRIC!! -screams-
thats one of our cheers.thanks to one of our seniors; gabriel.
he comes up with the most ridiculous cheers and games..
which is why we so totally enjoyed ourselves..
haha..
in my grp...we had 6 female freshies and a guy.
doreen stays near me!yay!so happy...but just that she's in diff course..she was my room mate during the camp...isabel was our stalker..kept sneaking into our rooms when our door was ajar..ahahha..
ntu has many stairs man..on the first day we had an amazing race..climb here climb there..im seriously lost in ntu..seriously..
im starting to regret now not to stay in the hostels..they really look like a lot of fun..
but i know i wldnt study if i keep playing..i wld want to be everywhere all at one shot..
owellz..
my grp rocked...it wasnt that scary after all..haha..cos of our girl power..
aiyah..i'll tell more another day..
will upload pictures soon..

i still find the thought of entering into university daunting..
studying and having to keep scoring..
making new frens all over again..
i dun warm up to pple that well anymore..i think i warm up too fast and scare them away or smth..hahahha..ooweellz...im sleepy..yawn.

camp tml..
scared...excited..nervous...apprehensive...
argh.
im so nervous..im very shy when just thrown off the cliff and into a pool of strangers!!
but i know my true self will unleash very soon..
but..argh..scared...
denice is going.some sort of comfort.
but im not close.
and not in same group.
AAHHH!!!
i know i'll enjoy myself.
but for now..
AAHHH!!!
kk..need to sleep..
AAHHH!!!

my last day at work at starbucks..sob..WHY MUST I RETURN THE APRON!!!haha.i miss my blender and pastry case already..haha.. 

after two years..ive finally decided to throw it away..perhaps the memory along with it as well..its starting to mould.. 

went to play pool with the handsomes today..jermy gabby and darling.
darling came to visit me at work today..made him a mocha rhumba frap..super alot of mocha cos it was the last bit..hahaha.oopz.hope he doesnt get a sore throat.
one of mediacorp's artist was dancing at the fountain today...he danced quite well..but not as good as he shld be..hahaha...but it was fun watching him..mwahahaha..i love seeing celebs at bugis..muahaha..
anyhoo...had lunch with darling at delifrance..den went back to work the last half an hour with shir..so sad..my last half an hour working with her!! i made her stand with me as i made up some nonsense song abt my last day working with her..and to go abt smell the lamazocco and frap..hahaha..nonsense..she "hrmph"ed my darling when he came in..hahaha..
anyhoo..went to meridien to play pool..i enjoyed myself quite alot..gabby is a pool shark man..haha..but a but noisy when he misses..hahhaa..my darling and i were very unwilling to kill each other's balls when we played murderer..hahaha..jermy kept jump-ball-ing.
i was tyco.darling was good when he aimed right..hahaha..
had much fun i did..

im nervous abt camp this wednesday!!how are the pple gonna be like..
but i am sure i'll enjoy myself..wad's not to enjoy right??haha..
scared...scared...im thinking too much..stop andrea...
argh!!scared!!!

tml im meeting cheok ame and shir for VENEZIA!!!wooooo.....rock.

going on msn is very exhilarating now.heh heh.
but not online now.
sigh.
owellz.

had a very break-into-humongous-smile conversation yest.
heh heh.

yay.

kk..going to bathe...just got home..lalala..uploading pics soon..

anger.
its not an emotion i never feel.
its just an emotion i contain really well.

im highlighting my hair today!
i hope it turns out as well as i hope it does.
anyhoo...last night's tap class rocked!
we did the dance that i did in primary school..
my pri school tap class did it like..9 times non-stop??
cos it totally rocks.
shir is so silly too.
makes tap all the more fun.hahah.
the last part of the dance..we had to do trenches..and den finally jump out! with our hands lifted.
we kept making stupid faces.
hahaha.
when we were rushing for class..we kept bumping into pple we know..so talk talk..den run faster..
at the city hall interchange..our train was just across..so we ran..and THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD was there la..we kept running from door to door trying to find space..i kept saying "cant fit!cant fit!"
somehow shir was so tickled..she said that it was like those comedies that show the morning rush hour..running from door to door..haha..i think shir and i shld do a reality-tv show abt our lives..we're so spontaneously retardly funny.
hahahaaha.
anyhooz..hafta go move the things ard my room with my daddy now..
den go HIGHLIGHT my hair..and have my store dinner tonight!at suntec.woohooz.
sorta decided what to wear le..hope its nice..kk..toodles!!

handsomes...haha.. 

summary...for more..please go to my online gallery.haha.. 

im back from redang!!
photos are up..
http://community.webshots.com/user/squashyellow22
and
http://community.webshots.com/user/squashyellow

i wish i had an underwater camera..
i saw...two blue specked sting rays..
two turtles..
two black tipped baby sharks..
and many pretty fish..
i especially like the clownfishes and small bright blue fishes..
the sea is so beautiful..
all evidence of God's handiwork..
second day i went ard the redang island to snorkel..
third day i went to lang tengah..
the third day was fantastic..the corals and fishes were so nice..
didnt get badly burnt..so thats a good thing..got a nice tan too..
makan was good too...i learnt a few more malay words as well..
i am so proud of my mummy..she finally overcame her fear of water and went snorkeling..the guide was very sweet to swim with her and guide her along..

anyhoo...thursday is coming...i dunnnoe what to wear for my store's dinner...argh..i dun wanna be underdressed or overdressed..this is so distressing..hahaha..

i had a dream last last night..i thought i've completely let go already..but i mustnt be selfish..life goes on..for me and him..argh..so disturbing.haha.

kk...going to go ergh..pack my room..

take care everyone...

God is our Jehovah Jireh...our provider..