qingcheng and joseph..the source of my joy and disappointment. 

i have finally unleashed my fury!
haha.ok.not quite.
i went to one of my sec2 class today.i was asking them to take out their worksheet.this two boys in front were still playing.i asked them like twice and they still ignored me.then.i
slammed their table and asked "where is your worksheet??i asked so many times!"
so shiok.
hahaha.the whole class was so stunned.
the boys : "never bring cher."
me:" dont think im nice nice i cant slam tables ok."
ok.actually that line doesnt make sense.haha.but well..at least now they know they cannot play punk.haha.woohooz.one point andrea!!
after i turned and turned back and their worksheets were on their tables.
retards.haha.
after twenty mins..the two most naughty boys walked in..they were actually going to pon..but only pon twenty mins.haha.
one of them is like the "tua tao" of the lower sec.he told me that if i have any problems with the lower sec i can find him.like..woah.haha.but he's a nice boy.as long as he's on your side.
the other boy is cute.as in i seriously think he's good-looking..and can tell is the kinda guy who will treat a girl super well one..but just..abit misguided la.thats why a bit rough.owellz.
it was super hot today and the "tua tao" got this indian boy..who i heard is always being bullied by them..to fan him with a book.no wait..he got two boys to fan him.den i was perspiring and he asked me whether i was hot..i said yes..and he asked
"you want one cher?"
me:"they are not things.they are human beings.i dont want.feel very bad."
after a while when i was seated he got the indian boy to fan me..i was like..nvm la.i feel very bad..the boy stopped for a while..den joseph the tua tao was like..did i tell you to stop?-glares-
the poor boy..his arm was hurting..and i told him to fan slower..cos i know that if he stops..he'll get whacked..and joseph is not one to listen to teachers when he wants his way..haiz.
after a while i guess joseph let him off.
den..they started telling me abt the good-looking boy's sec1 girlfren..haha..she walked out of her class..and then he went out and waved..den he called to me "miss lee miss lee..come..."
so i went and waved..hahha..so retarded right..quite sweet looking la the girl
but they are so young!!!-sighs-

i feel very guilty..cos my sec4s and i arent learning anything la..today was like..mass pontang..like 4 pple didnt come..and that is quite alot considering there is only 18 pple in their science class..anyway.i hafta pia making their notes today..so we can do revision tomorrow.
i completed marking my sec2F's test papers!!woohooz.was so happy.but another set is coming in tomorrow..sian.hahahah.

oh yar.forgot.the sec2s asked for my email today..and i kept saying it really fast..and they were like trying to figure out what i was saying..haha.so funny.but eventually i said it real slow for them..haha.they wrote it all over the whiteboard!!!
hahaha.so retarded.seriously.but so funnily cute la.haha.small kids.

driving today was not up to standard..i was quite daze a bit and bo chap cos im quite lethargic..this friday must give more effort...not improving this way..sigh.upset with myself.

i just realised one thing.im typing funny.my phrases are so broken.

how to go uni like that!??!!?!-help
i must make an effort to speak flawless english.
conversations with audrey...here i come!

im so tired.
i have a humongous pile of work to mark..okok..not that bad..but i feel sleepy when i mark the same old thing over and over again.haha.
yawn.
i think im going to try pia marking my books den im heading home for my bed.
havent had an afternoon nap in ages..ages.
and im stillin school now dilly-dallying.blogging and chatting on msn.
crazy man.
i am now for sure..that i cannot be a teacher..i enjoy it..but i cannot be a permanent teacher..i cant handle class..and i cant get the idea across when im talking to a class..one on one can.haha.so nonsense right.

oh yar.happy news!!
last week i got a letter telling me ive been accepted into engineering in ntu.
and today...this lady from nus called and told me to come down for an interview on tuesday for the faculty of science.
so super happy.i hope i pass my interview.
haha.

kk..i need to zao..need to work man.too slack.haha.

i think im going to have a sore throat.
i went to teach a sec2 class today.
so noisy.
i told this boy umpteen..i repeat..UMPTEEN times not to shout..he nods..and later on..continues!!-frustrated!-
some of them were quite cute..funny..but still very noisy..
there's a boy who sits like he's at home...very sloppily..
argh.

after class..this boy called shawn lim asked me if teaching their class is fun..i was like..i think im going to get a sore throat..haiz.

there are two shawns in that class.both look different.owellz.

anyway..ive gotta slack in school until 3 plus..so as to go for driving..hahahaha..i almost knocked into another car the other day.and sometimes i forget to slow down enough before turning a kerb..and i'm like "wwoooaahhhh..."
so fun.

have alot of marking to do next week.alot of their work is coming in.
help.

think i might really be getting a mike for class...cant keep shouting.haiz.

yesterday ame and i went to cut our hair at toni and guy academy.
shir accompanied us.
this girl asked if she could style her hair.and she did.hahahaha.poor shir.so much gel in her hair.no wait..it wasnt gel..it was the spray spray one..aiyah.you know what i mean.
she looked abit like frankenstein's wife without the white streaks..hahahha.but it was very nice.really.like SIA girl.hahahahha.so pretty.

anyway..after i cut my hair..i looked like a photocopy of amelia..no wait..uglier version..yup.
but the hair was almost alike..mirror image cos our partings are diff.

but today...i dont know how to style it back..i think it doesnt look that nice..

i just went down to buy food and i asked my sec4 whether my hair looks cut..he said that my previous was better..sob.i need to know how to style it back again.

i finished my marking.yay.
but next week....sob.alot.im going to faint.

very bored now.
i hope my daddy lets me go out this weekend.cos ive been very busy.i hope he does..
-prays hard-

k.nothing to say.think i'll go play neopets..hasee bounce!!hahahaha.

the sec2s asked for my name today..was too tired to answer..so i said secret..and when i left the class..the front row of naughty boys went "good bye miss secret lee."
i was a bit more fierce today.cos the sec2s are quite naughty.
relieved a sec1 class..so cute..i was finding out abt who likes who in the class..hahaha..so cute.

cutting my hair tomorrow.at toni and guy.
so exciting.hope it turns out nice.

very tired.
need sleep.
dont know what to wear tomorrow.
sigh.

good night everyone.

i did it again.
sigh.

the teacher has clarified with me already.

i seriously think i cant be a teacher.
i shouted early this morning for all of them to keep quiet.
i sounded funny.
i wld laugh too if i wasnt pissed.

finished my marking just now in school.
its quite boring marking science.
felt sleepy.

i need to make my lessons more interesting.
but how when everyone except maybe the front row is not paying attention??
Lord i need help.

i wanna watch Lord of the Dance but it looks ex and im already going for hosan leong and selena tan's comedy play.owellz.

im very tired.

i just humiliated myself.
so silly.
i walked into a class cos its on my timetable.but i didnt know that their other teacher was coming in to teach physics.
so i told them that i will teach first den if the other teacher comes i'll go.
and when i just showed the first transparency he came.
haha.

anyway.i think some of the students dont trust me.you can see it in their eyes.
i need more confidence.im always to unsure cos i dont wanna give them the wrong info.haiz.

screwed.
and the other sec3 class says i talk too softly.but..i dont wanna keep shouting.goodness.
i take my hat off to teachers.
they said that they dont understand covalent bond.i tried.i wrote transparencies.
only the front row is paying attention.haiz.
help..im screwing pple up.

sigh.
i dont sound like im enjoying myself much right?
i need to get used to this.know what im doing.
other than that and my sister's constant reminder to be fiercer..everything is just dandy.

oh yar!!
i told feng the other day that i think im too self-critical that its getting schizophrenic.haiz.

im crazy.

as mr cheok will say "you are very jialat."

oh yar.to amelia..even if he isnt going i'll still go okay...rah.

there's this sec3 boy who keeps asking for my number.or email.they're crazy.but they are nice la.and funny.i wldnt lie by saying im not enjoying their attention.hahahahha.

i have class soon.im quite scared.heard they're quite naughty and i hafta be fierce.

BUT ITS NOT IN ME TO BE FIERCE!!!!!!

bye.

mending a broken heart.yet again.
haha.
im crazy.im silly.
but im blessed to have pple who love me despite of my idiosyncracies.
thank you.

i need guidance.i need help.i need a saviour.

sound so lost huh.
i need to claim my identity in Christ.
should stop avoiding my responsibilities.
time is short.

in His time..in His time..He makes all things beautiful..in His time..

ok.im not pregnant.
auntie red dragon visited today.and she brought along cousin cramps.

sigh.

i need wisdom.
my two jobs are taking its toll on me.
my valcros(dont know how to spell) veins are getting visible behind my knees.

went to a sinseh today.
she helped loosen my leg muscles today.
good good.
i have medication to take though.
she did some suction thing on my back.and acupuncture.
i kinda screamed ouch quite loudly when she first pricked me.
my parents said they could hear me from outside the room.haha.
she said that my legs feels heavy when i lift cos my spine has blockage.
and that's also the reason why i am stiff in the morning when i wake up.
owellz.

good good.im on my way to recovery.

i find myself on friendster everyday.
sigh.

going out with ame weiquan cindy huimin and darling tomorrow.yay.

i need sleep.very very shagged.
nitez.

trust in the Lord with all your heart.

i woke up feeling like puking again.
i thought i was better.
long day today.
not going to wala-wala tonight in the end.
-disappointed-

but am looking forward to dinner much.
havent seen so many pple in such a long while.

bought a fourskins shirt last night.
very happy.
i wanna change my style to smth like jean's.wear pic shirts.
cos i wanna get clothes that are easily thrown together and still look good.
haha.
lazy.

pacifier is quite nice.kinda makes you smile after the show.
but honestly..vin disel doesnt look that good when he smiles..haha.maybe i just like the bad boy look better..haha.

ayeeba is popping by today to visit me at starbucks.
joy and jer too.
yay.

ive been randomly writing testimonials for the pple i miss on friendster.haha.

dont know whats wrong with me.

no life? agreed.haha.

i need to spend more time with God.ive been neglecting Him again.sigh.
i read thru my devotions today..and it reminded me yet again that we are but foreigners on this earth..so im placing my attention quite irresponsibly..
i should spend time finding out about my eternal home instead of this temporay home right?
i need to spend my time more wisely.
i need wisdom.bad.

anyway.on a lighter note.
the clouds are out.

*hhuuuhh...
sorry.out of point.hahaha.

i hafta go plan my driving lessons now..and get ready to go to work.yay.

when the night is so long(throw your hands to the sky)
you can sing a new song(wipe the tears from your eyes)
when you're weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
and calm the storm inside.

Jesus, You're the author of my heart
Told me You wanted every part
And now my life and its demands
Are resting safety in Your hands

it slips through my fingers even before i know it.
i try my hardest to hold on.
but it is to no avail.
helplessly i grope around to get hold of it.
it flickers in the dark.
flashes that call out to me.
making a fool out of me.
grabbing...toppling..
it runs..i can hear its footsteps.
but i cant see it..
i cant hold on to it..
"someone hit the lights please!!!...please...."

aiming for something that's beyond me.
looking for something that might not exist.
does true love really exist?
that was the question thrown at me.
i believe it does...
it has to exist.
i will not be disappointed.
i pray i will not.

trying to be something that i want to be.
sticking to what pple expect me to be.
torn.
i need to break away and find myself..
"where are you?"
i need guidance..i need the Light..i need J.C.

dental today was painful..the dentist was abit rough..i have a slight abrasion on the roof of my mouth.
pok.

went to re's.i love her alot.she's always there to absorb my nonsense and provide a "that's nice."
russ is a mad cow.he's a sadist.re's beanies are always at his mercy.sigh.

oh yar.last night..i wanted to msg lion and i msged the wrong person..
me:where are you?im at redhill.
stranger:haha.then im at goldhill..sorry..you sent wrong msg..
me:oh.sorry.

so paiseh.smth is wrong with me.i keep dialing wrong numbers.i wanted to call my aunt today and i dialled the wrong no.sian.

drey needs me to go back to relief teaching.i wanna help.but im scared i cant take the pressure.and i need to plan my schedule for next week.haiz.
i need to organize my time and money.really bad.
dang.

roving eyes i do not want.i want a committed heart.

my darlings whom i love alot. 

how i look like in the morning. 

walked my doggie this morning..i never ceases to make me wonder why he keeps peeing on almost every tree he walks by..he does it all the time! such possession.
but one thing ive learnt abt my dog is that he's got character..he's not like the usual dog which just do whatever you want them to all the time..he's got temper..he's got preferences..hmmz.

re...im not depressive obsessive la..i think..i just think quite alot..i need to do a character transition..i wanna be more serious..as in..pple to take me more seriously..i know im always jesting and playing..jumping around..cos i admit..i love fun..i live to have fun.
but i think as well...like...not everything i say is to make you laugh..
when i say im sick.it takes a while for someone to believe that im genuinely sick..cos when im sick..i still play..but im still in discomfort right..haiz.
i dont know..ok..im kinda depressive..cos i keep wanting and forcing myself to act differently..to be more grown up..im still acting like a 5 year old..and pple dun really trust 5 yr olds to deliver..

dang blast it.

im just frustrated with myself.

maybe i think too much.

maybe im deluded.

anyway.
my tagboard is kinda dead.
so please tag whenever you come by.
say hi.
good enough for me.

tata.

taken at west coast..one of my favourite pictures..to me it shows the awesomeness of our almighty God.

us four...cousins.. 

oooohhhhmmmmmm... 

one two three four...high five!! 

notice how the tops are the same...hahahha..so cheesy right.haha. 

my honey...benjamin lam..bet he's bald now..dont you feel like sleeping when you look at him?such sleepy aura..-yawn- 

sentosa...so nice right..haha. 

gaining nirvana.. 

attack of the humongous hand!!!!!!!!!!!! 

behind bars.. 

trying to predict what it'll be like to gain enlightenment.haha. 

my rebecca..she likes this picture of her..i tinted it blue..so nice..she's so pretty.makes you feel like inflicting her.hahahaha.kiddin.and if anyone tries!!you hafta answer to my parang.=) 

my baby picture. 

taken at the esplanade.quite embarrassing to take.but i like it alot. 

my beeauuttiiffullll squashies.woohooz. 

woohooz..haha..so happy.
i didnt know diary-x couldnt upload pictures.owellz.so this is good..
happy.
i get to put my pictures up.
and i got a tigger template!
how cool is that..haha.

re...do i still sound depressed??hmmz?
haha.
but im seriously falling ill..
i feel like puking again..
but i havent even eaten anything.
argh.
do you think its gastric?
sian.

anyway..going to work later..at starbucks.
oh wow!i can type in colour.
cool..
hahaha.
sound so suaku.

anyway..i'm gonna upload more pics..
so happy..
i shall put up a pic of my dinner with the squashies last nite..woohooz..

this rocks my socks.
ahh!!!naked feet..hahaa.
im happy.

yippee!! 

cousins of the retarded united 

my cousin...posing as a paikia model..muahaha. 

me..the reTART. 

my s20 babies.. 

mao zedong!! 

my crazy wife trying to promote parking for plaza sing.hahaha. 

argh!why...why are the blogs against me??

anyway..been very busy..feel very bad cos..im not busy with the right things..ive been running ard playing..can you believe it?playing!!!and my A's are less than three weeks more..what the h*ll right?haiiz.

distanced myself from my darlings and my twin..and dark-winged duck..and alot of pple..cos ive been hanging with my class more..owellz..feel quite bad..sorry darlings..

ive been trying over and over again to psycho myself to start studying..seriously..i think my brain is screwed up..wad's wrong with me la...ive been pissing my parents off by running around..and not doing hse chores..and my priorities are all screwed..scolding myself doesnt work either..im screwed.seriously.

sigh........

anyway..on sunday..i saw gruff.at smu.lunch.i had a feeling i was going to see him.when i walked in with my darling girl krystal..i turned and i saw him.its so freaky.not the first time its happened.i walked over to him and said hi and all..and said that i had a feeling i was going to see him.and he said that he had that feeling too.its just so weird.

hafta go now..pack my room and try to study..yup.owellz.ta!

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so who ever has linked me..please change the link..sorry babes and dudes..
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maths was ok today.a few careless mistakes here and there and one tyco one.haha.but overall ok la.hoping for a good grade.have chem mcq tml.and after that..a 7-hour long "date" with mr goh for physics tuition.sigh.tc pple.jessie's coming home soon!!yippee.

today's chem paper was better den last.but still bad.owellz.

went for tuition.eliza tried making conversation with me.so thats good.i think she's really pretty.very captivating eyes.=) maybe i'll name my daughter eliza next time.*ponders*

after two hours of tuition.went to my old hse at bt batok.the unit opp.cos my aunt rents it out.and this silly twerp of a tenant.so stupid.he stays there with two other collegues.so they lock their doors to like not risks doubts and stuff la.so this silly guy.he locks his room.with his key and the duplicate inside the room!goodness.he has troubled my dad three times already just to open the door.goodness.but he's quite goodlooking la.but still.twerp.

i thought abt smth today.
if one day someone told you that you were related to everyone around you by blood.would you treat them all differently?
i would.its like in our family.eventhough your relatives have their character flaws you still love them right.so in way..since we are all one way or another related to each other.den we should treat each other nicely.ya.was just thinking.you know..one of those rare moments when i actually..think.

had chemistry yesterday.wasnt as bad as i expected.but still bad.calculated..i minused alot.alot.sigh.
maths today was ok la.made a few careless mistakes.was dumbfounded by the vectors question.sigh.

but..the past two days have been exciting.

yesterday..our car went out of the carpark.as it went over a hump we hear a lot bursting sound.we didnt bother thinking abt it.when we alighted audrey at kranji sec.my dad went out of the car and found out that our front left tyre burst.
so i had to take cab to school while he fixed it himself.owellz.thankfully after praying a cab came fast and i was not late for school.

today..190 had to re-route because a tree collapsed at the phoenix lrt station and the uncle wld not drive pass my school's bus stop.so i didnt board the bus at the interchange.
i walked to the other bus stop to wait for the other buses.hoping that their routes didnt change.but well.190 came.the uncle didnt say anything.so i boarded.only at the stop before he changed the route did he tell us to alight.nehnehfied.
so i had to walk in to school.the soles of my shoes have holes.so my feet got drenched.cos i had to walk thru puddles.when i got to school.i wringed my socks.and like alot of water came out.the sight kinda disgusted ayeeba shir and lembu.sorry.
so i went to the exam room with my socks in hand and feet half-in my shoes.took my shoes off during the exam.i felt so at home.thought better i think.i should do it more often.hahahaha.kiddin.hopefully my paper two for maths and chem will pull me up.must over come gravity.heh.

there's one thing i can do that God cant.
i can do self-improvement.
He cant.
cos He's already the best. =)

im dead!!D-E-A-D!!!argh.and what am i doing online??haiiz.im going to die..im stressed that im not as stressed as i would like to be for my prelims.seriously!!what's wrong with me??haiz.went to westmall swensens today for lunch.was super bloated after that.had to suck in until i reached my car.i hafta burn midnight oil tonight.hopefully i can stay up until two plus.i haven touch my food chem yet!!!i wish i was as self-disciplined as amelia.haiiz.k.gtg.alot of territory to cover.help........im drowning.

Lord life me up and let me stand.by grace on heaven's tableland.

i went for tuition.and i learnt organic chem.yay.feel much more confident.in a sense.thanks ms tan!hafta go mug someone later.my blog thing is a bit schizo.rah.irritating.anyway.prelims are nearing...that means..its going to end soon!!woohooz!!must think positive just whack and cross my fingers.heh.
im watching channel u's next big thing.the girl is gorgeous siah.*jealous*
anyway..to my dearest genius alvan cheong.im glad you've finally found yr mission in life.to become a monk and sweep the temple floor.at least you have an aim.=)
nth to write abt anymore.i need a new spark in my life.

oh yes.i forgot to say that im really thankful that i have my parents.i asked them individually today whether they feel like its a waste of money and time for me to explore my interests in dance and music.they both said no.cos it makes me happy and they dun wanna stop me from expressing myself in different aspects.so im happy.they're so supportive.yup.just wanna voice it out.=)

yay.i can finally blog again.yippee.i decided to go back to a more childish theme.haha.wanted this more gothic theme.but the tagboard was kinda screwy.kp..better?hope so.
anyway.my week was super eventful.very happy.

monday:
i went for tuition in the morning.i met zx after that at coronation centre cos he was going back to pj to collect his certs.so we went back to school to study with ayeeba amelia kenneth gordon laopo and lembu.didnt study much tho.was very distracted.heh.kenneth and gordon kept disturbing us abt kum-kum.so silly.

tuesday:
went for tuition again.very early in the morning.like at 8.cos the hwachong girls wanted to get used to using their brains early in the morning.sigh.i ended tuition at abt 10+ and met my three darlings at kap for brkfast.on my way there..this guy on the bus was like smiling at me la.so weird.and wad's worse is that he alighted at kap too.rah.anyway.after brkfast we went back to skool.to study.i only read thru chem a bit.sigh.den we went to my hse for me to get my swimming gear.and we headed back to ame's to swim.shir and ayeeba tried somersaulting in the water.ayeeba got it.but...my dear wifey didnt.haha.she's so cute la.if only i could video it down.haha.ame and i tried tumble-turning and den pushing off the wall.but after i tumble-turned.i lost my orientation.or i was too far from the wall.haha.i saw ame turn and go parallel to the wall once so she couldnt push off.it was hilarious la.haha.so cute.
missed eating ame's cooking.sigh.some other time ya girl.=)
wednesday:
after tuition in the morning i came back home.cos i finally came to my senses that i cant study in grps.haha.i did some housechores cos i felt quite bad.havent done them in a very long while.yup.didnt do much work at night either.sigh.

thursday:
i went for tuition at twelve.surprised to see chunzhen and shuyi at tuition.chunzhen was so shocked to see me.cos she never expected it.owellz.i was never close to her.but well.i discovered more mg girls at mr goh's!yay!.i left at like 5 +.madness ok!!5 hours of maths.i wanted to cry.and i realized that its a small world.when i was at the mac's at serene centre.i saw jiahan!!and apparently..he attends the chem tuition in the class right next to mine.such a small world.i couldnt believe it.marcus came for tuition.i dun noe why.but i feel intimidated by him.owellz.
after tuition i met my three darlings at shir's.we went swimming again.it was fun.shir's pool is way bigger den ame's.after a while we went to the steam bath.it was so super steamy we couldnt see each other.so we changed over to the sauna.so much better.haha.but i didnt perspire much.daddy fetched me home again.so i couldnt stay long.haiiz.sometimes i wished i could stay longer.always seem to miss out on fun moments.owellz.sigh.

friday:
stayed home.only studied four chapters of chem.watched the finale of my big fat obnoxious fiance.the poor girl,randi, she kenna con.and she kept crying.poor thing.but at least she became filthy rich after that.haha.my mummy asked if i wld ever do that.risk my family going into turmoil just for one million dollars.i said..yes! haha.she wldnt trust my sister and i when we bring a guy home next time.haha.heh.

today:
i feel like lazing ard.duh.but i hafta finish chem today.have tuition with ms tan later.haiiz.its like so sian.pushing myself to study.i know its an easy task.but its the process of getting myself to sit down and study that is tough.

long entry.sorry.many days spent with a screwy blog.going to go..erm.stone now.ttfn.

my blog is screwy!!argh..so freaking irritating.haiiz.anyway.hi kenneth.glad you visit.i never thought you would.haha.thanks.

last week's practical was abit of a roller coaster.for physics.i didnt realise that my string was cut and therefore i was unable to meet the range for the dist.and for my circuit..i left out one reading.so hopefully they werent penalise me too much.for chem.i got most of my practicals kinda right.i got my qa right.thankfully.but i wasnt able to complete my design pract.owellz.gp ws ok.took quite some time to fully comprehend the comprehension.too many flowery words.owellz.

anyway..the last week has been a failed attempt trying to get a tan.i went to amelia's with shir and ayeeba on tuesday to go for a swim..it was fun.i love hanging out with them.yup.shir attempted to a somersault in the water.she would turn..and den when she was almost able to make a full round..her butt would go down sideways into the water.it was hilarious.the funniest thing i have every saw.she's so cute.my goodness.hahaha.love you girl.=)

on friday..i went to sentosa with my class.well.kinda.only 8 of us made it.so does it count??haha.
i thought we wld be able to get into sentosa by 1+. but much to my dismay.we were only at harbourfront at 2+ cos benji and shihan went to gavin's to wait for gavin to get his things.but they kinda got distracted by his x-box.so they took much longer den expected.only weiquan cindy yusheng and i were the early ones.owellz.so we made out way down.reaching the arrival centre at the sentosa.i saw this girl who looked really familiar.cos she was in dance with me in primary sch.her fren was in acjc uniform.anyway.so we boarded the beach line..i saw more pple come up to meet them.they alighted at palawan beach.i saw the guy's shirt which said "acjc dance".and i looked out and saw wenyee playing at the playgrd.so..i gathered it was a dance outing.which meant..that daphne was there..for a moment i was affected.but after thinking it thru..it was quite stupid cos im over him already.it didnt matter anyway.so..my adventure continued.

we reached sunset bay and we decided to go kayaking.the guys started overturning each other.they couldnt overturn cindy's and mine cos i had the curse.yup.den..oh mama..i saw this..erm..well-endowned girl wearing a blue bikini!and i told benji that she was quite hot..he almost died.oppz.=) later on..the guys were playing..they somehow managed to remove benji's shorts and he was left in the big blue ocean in his underwear (blue one mind you.) heh.poor boy.he had to stay there till they got enough sand onto his shorts and took sufficient photos.haha.it was funny.evil.but funny.=)

we later played vball.very happy.i think my game is improving.i think.haha.while we were playing..suddenly the whole bunch of pple in charge of that portion of the beach started chasing this snatch-theif.its so amazing la.i never knew such daring pple still existed in spore.i dun noe whether they caught him tho.i think they did.it was exciting witnessing it all.heh.
i left early..at ard 5+.cos mj was supposed to fetch drey and i from harbourfront at 545.but guess wad..he only came at 7+.haiiz.i cld have stayed longer.owellz.

when i got to downtown east..for mj's gf's(joanne) 21st bday party.drey and i were seriously tired.and the party was quite boring for me cos i didnt know anyone except aaron and drey(duh) and mj was busy doing stuff.cant blame him.but ya..left early..was really tired..but eventful.

mugging is starting tml..i have tuition with mr goh from monday to friday this week.im quite scared for my prelims.i really hope i can pass well.pass chem.for once.haiiz.pray for strength ya.
tc pple.love you.

sleepy_head
squashyellow

rah rah rah.hello!!happy 18th birthday to LION!!hope u're enjoying yrself in msia.eventhough you didnt even msg me or teck that u have left..but nvm..we're nice pple..you POK!haha.kiddin.anyway..tml is benji's bday.think i'll just buy him a bottle of alcohol.=) my darling wife's bday is on thursday.happy bday in advance girl.love you.muacks.

benji is driving me nuts..he keeps calling me darling and all..but its just playing la.and i know it.but its disgusting.hahahaha.entertaining.but disgusting.we bullied huimin today.i was an accomplice.they stole a voice recording of her singing from her phone.i was the one who blue-toothed it to quan-ge and he sent it to dehua.she was like so shocked.and pissed.cos they kept suaning her the whole day.quite juvenile rite?but well..we're all stressed pple.haha.less den 80 days to our A's..erm..yippee..haiiz.
i gtg le..they should play nicer songs on the radio.ya.that's all.ttfn.study.

nothing much has been happening.just study.tuition.slack.wait..majority is slack.hahaha.owellz.alot of work has been piling up.anyway.just leave you with a quote..

watch your thoughts, for they will become your words.
choose your words, for they will become your actions.
understand your actions, for they become your habits.
study your habits, for they will become your character.
develop your character, for it will become your destiny.

She Will Be Loved
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow I want more


I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be lovedAnd she will be loved
And she will be loved[in the background]

ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*SCREAMS!!!!!*
i never believed in it.but today..during chem pract..things didnt go too well..den shuyin told me..ya..today's friday the 13th wad..and i was like..ya!..but still dun believe in it..i wasnt concentrating during pract today..titrations dont usually take that long and i was inaccurate..i didnt do my calculations in time as well..quite crap la.
after school i went to the indoor stadium with my parents for audrey's nie graduation ceremony.it was quite boring.800+ pple.goodness.i counted the no. of audreys present and the no. of andreas.there were 5 audreys and 1 andrea.so therefore..im not meant to be a teacher.so ta-dah! i've got stats to prove it!sampling theory.x bar.hahahaha.im going crazy!
i have to start studying..andrea..start studying please..haiiz..rah.
anyway..i love the bananaman.he's hilarious la.i keep irritating benji and amelia with the song.hahaha.EVERYBODY!LISTEN UP!PLEASE VISIT www.filmbuffs.net/bananana/ it totally rocks!!must ok????=)yay.anyway.i got nothing much to write abt.im tired.i have physics mcq test in the morning tml and den im going for a girl's lunch out with trashie amelia ayeeba mich shir they all.yay.cant wait.nitez.tc.

Oh Lord let us be a generation that seeks.seeks Your face oh God of Jacob.

something is seriously wrong with me.its like..i have so much work to do..and i dont do them.its so retarded.im retarded.argh.i had my maths mock exam today.and i made so many careless mistakes.so angry with myself.eventhough i passed marginally.but like..still..so lao pok.haiiz.rah.i need a wake up call.i tried asking stella to pass her stress to me.cos she's majorly stressed.she studied her history(russian revolution) and her stats.she dreamt of like..counting the no. of poor russian pple and calculating stats on them.haha.she cldnt sleep properly.poor girl.she's that stressed.i need it.rah.
haha.just recently..amelia ayeeba shir and i have gotten to know lyon better.and he ar..so interested in gossip.though he isnt the first guy-gossiper i know.but still..my perspective of guys have changed.haha.its madness.
anyway.im freaking falling ill.which is good and bad.good cos its give me a valid reason to tell myself that i can take time off.bad is..just bad.ya.haha.
i think im going to like..go sleep now and try my darnest to wake up tml to do work.help.take care pple.dun fall ill.like me.ttfn.nitez.

oh ya.singapore idol is hilarious sia.the lemon tree guy esp.i never expected sporeans to be so confident.haha.i cant wait for more.haha.rocks.

yay..saturday is here.but..i have tuition at one later.rah.went to watch i,robot with chel shir and lembu.the show rocked.i love this kinda futuristic shows.like minority report.its cool to have those kinda slim sleek audi cars.so cool..i like.. =)
just bought the "wow worship" cd..i like the song "here i am to worship".the lyrics are in the other entry.hmmz.the cd is nice.nice worship songs.yup.
tml my youth group is going bowling.but like.i dun now if i wanna go.cos i need to do work.haiiz.i feel like crying.only a few weeks more to my prelims and like..im so unprepared.bah.i wanna play.but i cant.i need a tan.but i cant.this sucks.rah.nothing to say le.i feel sleepy.ttfn.tc.

to ame : love you girl.dun think so much ya.it will pass.study hard.

::here i am to worship::

Light of the world,You stepped down into darkness.
Opened my eyes, let me see.
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with you

And here I am to worship,
here I am to bow down,
here I am to say that you're my God

You're altogether lovely,
altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me.

King of all days, oh, so highly exalted.
Glorious in heaven above.
Humbly you came to the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor.
And here I am to worship

Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely.
altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me.

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
And I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
No, I'll never know how much it cost

im tired.im tired of studying.im tired of running around.im tired.haiiz.but...a big but..i just hafta sacrifice these three mths to get to where i wanna go..den i can relax..haiiz.

i did a presentation on christianty yesterday for gp.i didnt wanna come across as preaching.so i just presented la.but it wasnt as powerful and convincing as i wanted it to be.i gave evidences of the bible's authenticity.but still..the choice is still for the others whether they wanna accept.anyway.i hafta go now.got alot of work to do.crap.haiiz.ttfn.take care pple..dun check back here until like the weekend or smth.im gonna be busy.haiiz.rah.

here i am!!back again..sorry..have been busy busy busy the whole week..tuition..work to do..just basically quite exhausted.have work to do.and the work load just keeps increasing.everyweek...we hafta complete a full paper..chemistry one...physics one..argh!!save me.ms tan[physics teacher] keeps screaming at us for not knowing our concepts well..its quite sad..cos i like her..but..she's really getting frustrated with us..haiiz.mr tan bp on the other hand..have been in a good mood the whole week..how..unnerving. haha.but its good.other than that..nothing much has been happening..i am becoming a no-life.[see shir..told you i can do it. =) ]just keep me in yr prayers..i need strength..and wisdom.

now..just for a few notes..

to lion : dun worry.things will work out for you.
to jien : congratulations on getting a handphone.finally! and im honoured to be the first person you msged.haha.
to my laopo : hi! miss me.
to mr d.wong : why never call me le?hmmz?busy?how have you been?
to twin : hello.erm..hello.merry christmas.and im sorry for losing the photos. edwin's picture was inside.i hurt too ya know.hahahahaha.kiddin.
to k.p : thanks for explaining smallville to me.and not calling me a geek.hahaha.

today was an okay day..as usual..nothing much happened..
but today's chem practical was more jovial than usual..but then again..the mood of the lesson always depended on piangpiang's mood..yup..we broke quite a number of things..
1) huimin broke a conical flask.she claimed that it broke when she put it down into the basin.she made it sound like it was self-destructive.haha.mr tan was suaning her.asked benji if he bought huimin's excuse.but benji disagree.terrible.he's bangseh-ing his future wife in such an early stage.
2) shuyin pushed the pipette filler too much onto the 10.0cm cube pipette[which is more fragile than the usual 25 cm cube one].and the top portion of the pipette broke off and got stuck inside the filler.it was hilarious.she was holding it up and i was scared that if the glass flew out of the filler..it wld be so "happy tree friends" like if the glass flew into the fan and flew all around.haha.
3) weiquan broke a beaker.

and i almost broke quite a number of things.but i managed to catch them in time.heng.
tml is gonna be a mugging day..i hafta complete jjc physics paper 1-3.and srjc paper 3.and chemistry tutorial.and maths.argh!!and i have so little days to study..and so much to cover..argh!!

just hide me from my reality.
 
i went past njc today on my way to tuition..and i saw the number of pple walking out of and in the school..and i thought to myself..goodness..this is the number of pple i am gonna compete against for my university entry..and there are more!!..more over..we're the meridien batch..
its a scary thought.i really wanna go to nus.but i dont have the capacity to become a super mugger.so i hafta start studying hard from now onwards..nothing must stand in my way...

now its just Jesus and me..
for each tomorrow..
for every heartache..
and every sorrow..
i know that i can depend..
upon my new found friend..
so until the end..
its just Jesus and me..

nothing much happened today.mr kwek said that we were like a bird park cos we were all very noisy during assembly.and dehua[new nick name: d is for donkey] was making tweeting sounds.so weird.haha.other then that..i was quite tired today..cos i have been coming home late this whole week..i have maths tuition tml somemore.haiiz.but..there were moments when i was kinda high..
1) i wanted to throw toliet paper into ayeeba's cubicle..but it flew into her classmate's.[thank goodness i didnt wet it]
2) cindy huimin shuyin and i were playing with water in the toliet again.
3)kept laughing when i was at the concourse with kennth lyon euan ayeeba and amelia.cos of that stoooppidd kenneth.he keeps making such retarded comments.and of cos..majority of them is abt me eating.he's such a nehneh.seriously.
4)on the bus with ayeeba amelia and shir.as usual.we were laughing like mad monkeys.

yup.quite an uneventful day.hopefully tml will be better.

cindy(singing) : "baby can you tell me why..there is sadness in yr eyes..i dont wanna say good bye to you..now you want me to forget every little thing you said..but there is something left in my head.."
me : " are you sure?"

--------------------silence-------------------

cindy :"ooi...!!"
me:"wah..lag."

*screams!!* hi lian!you found me..how did you find me??yay.hello.how have you been??good??=) i miss you too.just went to see yr picture gallery.my eyes are semi closed in one of the pictures.haha.owellz.hope yr happy.=)
 
i would now like to take the opportunity to wish my dear daisy..cheryl may wong..all the best in her marriage with jacky wu.have a blissful marriage!
 
anyway..i went for dinner with the squashees today.at holland v to celebrate jean's super belated birthday..=) the lady at swensen was so nice.she allowed us to have the sweet secrets cake at swensen's.she even went through the trouble of giving us paper plates and plastic utensils so that we can have it there.[they didnt wanna mix the proper utensils cos they were halal.and just in case.] yup.she's sweet.her name is cathy.
 
got home around 930..quite early rite..my dad asked why i came home so late..*puzzled*
anyway..i'm tired..but i still hafta do srjc's last year prelim physics paper..rah.nitez pple..
 
thanks for asking about my ankle.its getting better.

today hasnt been a very good one..i sprained my ankle yesterday..its quite stupid really..i was jumping on a trampoline..and i lost my balance and fell off and landed on my right ankle..sigh..so today..i limped a bit..not very obvious thankfully..then..i went for physics tuition..i was outnumbered by hwa chong pple 6 is to 1.rah.i saw this ex-mg girl..li hao..dun noe if she saw me and whether she recognised me or not..but i didnt say hi..maybe next week..i was so silent during tuition yet again.and had an inferiority complex.i have a phobia of being alone.that's why im glad my dear charmain  is coming for maths tuition with me on friday.=)
after tuition..i waited for my daddy for 40 mins..den when i called..he said that he forgot he had to fetch me..and i had to take bus home myself cos there was jam at where he was at.i fumed.cos i wasted my time waiting. my teeth are hurting now too.front bottom.they moved i think.hmmz.anyway.at the end of the day.. im a spoilt brat. haiiz.
 
 
the good thing that happened today is that i have found more potential husbands. haha.if im still single by the age of 39 i'll marry twin.60:dehua. 65 : yusheng. 105 : alvan. 110: gavin chew. hahahaha.its madness.but well..at least i wldnt die single..hahaha..crazy.
 
tml is smart casual day..my class is wearing our class jersey..hopefully everyone remembers..
 
i hafta go and get my cip hours..mr cheong[alvan] keeps pestering me to go get it done and arranged..cos he's doing them with me..probably doing at the bethany old folks' home in cck.not too sure.hafta go call the lady.yup.nth much to say.tired.sleepy.teeth pain.ttfn.
 
 
 
to be like Jesus...to be like Jesus..all i ask..is to be like Him..

in the school's library again..having wahab after this..which is macam free period also..haha..i like disturbing him..and getting all opportunities to get out of class..heh.we all love wahab.he's the man!!
anyway...yesterday my daddy and i played badminton..we had to share the court with this father and son cos they were there first..but they didnt mind sharing the court..yup..so we put up our net..which we just bought yesterday..and we played..intially..my daddy was talking more than he was hitting..pissed me off abit..but..i continued playing..didnt wanna seem rude in front of the boy..after a while..my daddy stopped talking and guiding me so much..
 
out of the blue...this two small children came to play and share the court with us..the boy didnt know how to serve..and his sister kept running into our net..and pushing her racket into the net..my daddy kept saying "girl..dont do that" but i think she only understood tamil..so she continued anyway..their shuttlecock was very po lan but the way the girl waits in anticipation for her brother to serve the shuttlecock over was very cute..her eyes all big and all..haha..when the shuttlecock landed rite under the net..she will chase after her brother if he picked it up first..it was quite funny..but very dangerous as well cos when my daddy and i were rallying..the girl kept running around..and it was very hard and challenging trying not to hit them..once in the midst of our rally..the siblings suddenly decided to join in..and were attempting to hit our shuttlecock..my daddy and i had to keep hitting high shots so as to prevent them from getting it..i was seriously petrified..after a while..they gave up and went home..
 
i went to re's after washing up..my aunt irene is back!! yup.so we had dinner and just enjoyed each other's company.i miss her.unique command of english and all.haha.
 
all in all..yesterday was quite a family-orientated day..
 
thanks dee for playing badminton with me..
 
owellz..nothing much to say..except that my laopo should use white plastic bags as hats more often..haha..she looked so cute..heh..ttfn!!
 

write Your name upon my heart :: sonicflood ::
 
God above
In You I live and breathe
And You will always be
Son of God
I owe my life to You
Your promises are true
Your love goes on and on forever

So write Your name upon my heart
Burn Your word into my mind
Make a temple of this body
Let Your Spirit move inside
I have wandered through the valley
And I have wondered who I am
So live in me, make Your mark
And write Your name upon my heart

God above
The first, the last, the same
All glory to Your name
My Jesus
It's You who I adore
Lamb of God and Savior
Your love goes on and on forever

Imprint on every part of me
The image of the Son
And complete in me the work
You have begun
 
this is my song of the week.

oh..oopz..the linking thing is cos of my comp..not cos of my blogging..hahaha.oppz.

argh..why on earth are there links to some of my words?like..time..trust..school...like..wassup?? hello..argh.. anyway..went for chem tuition today..with ms tan..it was good..learnt quite alot.must study hard..rah..
well..since i feel like posting poems and stuff..i shall post one that i wrote some time ago..havent been writing new ones for quite a while..i'll go find my book in which i wrote quite a no. of poems in sec 2..yup..here goes..not quite a poem..just..a stanza abt stuff..yup.
 
my only source of joy
slipping out of my fingers
fading into the darkness
out of my presence
out of my reach.
[written on 27.02.04]
 
yup..anyway..im not feeling too well now..like..cant breathe properly abit cos have a slight cough..rah..hafta go..have work to do..

they changed their layout!!im not used to this..argh..anyway..just read my fren's fren blog..feel so inspired..he wrote poems and stuff..pretty deep stuff..owellz..i'll go figure a poem/rhyme up..give me time..
went for tuiton today..maths..first lesson.when i walked in..there was a hwa chong guy there already..i was very shy..[if you did not know..i am shy]yup..den the tutor was frwoning when he was looking thru my physics exam paper...rah..
after a while..a hcjc girl walked in..talk abt being out numbered..den..after an hour..eliza..this girl from pjc net ball walked in..but since im not frens with her..not even acquitance..i didnt say a word to her..rah..i cant wait to go tuition with charmain..at least i can be my normal noisy self..its very awkward for me to remain silent..its just..not me!
going again next tuesday for physics tuition..i really must start mugging..this exam is gonna determine my future..and i dun wanna regret again..i have already regretted my O's..i dun wanna regret my A's..yup.
 
 
anyway..to my laopo..girl..i love you..a lot..though i dun express it more than just holding yr hands..but ya..i'm sorry for not knowing what to say at times when you need me the most..but i hope that by me standing by you shows you that im here for you..for happy and sad times..just call me when you need a listening ear or a mad monkey ya..though..im flawed..i'll try my best..k??even if i fail..remember that God loves and cares for you..humans are finite..but God is infinite..ya?
 
till death do we part..

in the school library yet again..have an hour break..gotmy chemistry back yesterday..got an O..but im happy..at least i improved by a grade.
after school..shir and i took a cab to acjc to visit selena and liz.met some of sel's frens.quite nice pple.but as i was there pretty late i didnt see that many pple. hi this is everybody's favourite darling KONG!!! [and daniel lim!!]
erm..ok..as i was saying..the school was pretty deserted by the time we got there.sigh.
after that we went took a cab to shir's hse to bathe and get ready.
we met edwin and gang at the victoria concert hall..we took a cab again.sigh.notice how we are always running for time.that explains my financial deficiency.rah. edwin and gang all look so typical boy-school boys.but they're quite nice.gary and edwin gave up their seats for shir ad i when we couldnt find any.yup.they sat on the floor instead.anyway..we were all waiting for our beloved zixiang to appear.when he did..i must admit..he looked really good in his black suit and red tie..den..he did his solo[sakura]..so zai..my goodness.but could tell he was nervous cos his voice shaked abit..but still very zai..we were standing and screaming like mad monkeys after his song..haha..very proud of him..well done twin.
after the whole performance we stood outside with sir stamford raffles and talked until shir's daddy came to fetch us home.got home at 11.tiring day.shir and i felt like we travelled the whole of spore eventhough we didnt..yup.still quite tired now.hafta go do work.or rather.try.yup.ttfn folks!

:: my happy ending :: avril lavigne ::

Let's talk this over,
It's not like we're dead.
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead,
Held up so high,
On such a breakable thread.

You were all the things I thought I knew,
And I thought we could be...

You were everything, everthing that I wanted...
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of the memories so close to me just fade away...
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending.

You've got your dumb friends,
I know what they say.
They tell you I'm difficult,
But so are they.
But they don't know me,
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me,
All the sh** that you do?

You were all the things I thought I knew, and I thought we could be...

You were everything, everthing that I wanted...
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of the memories so close to me just fade away...
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending.

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you care,
And makin' me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all,
Thanks for watching as I fall,
And letting me know we were done....

He was everything, everything, that I wanted...
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
All of the memories so close to me just fade away...
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.
So much for my happy ending.(X2)

So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending....

i think this song is the perfect post break up song..it describes things well..well..for me it does..just the chorus..the part abt his frens..doesnt really apply..

just went to play badminton with drey and her fren[sarizah]..it was quite fun..didnt move around much though..owellz..hopefully my daddy will play with me soon..den i can really get some exercise in..
getting my chem back tml..i tell you smth lame that happened..
mr tan[my chem tcher] : you will be getting yr scripts back tml.
yuci[my classmate] : huh..[in chinese] ming tian wo men hui biao yen ar?

phwoar..goodness..yuci though a man of few words..but he's very lame..*cries*

watching channel 8 now..they shout quite alot..i think xie shaoguang is really talented..very professional..one moment he's a faggot..next he's some bengster..pro.

hafta go bathe now..have a conference call with the squashers to decide when we're going for jean's bday lunch..hopefully we'll come to a conclusion..cos the last time we attempted..it didnt result in a decision..and its funny when 6 pple are having a conversation and talking all at the same time..shouting to get attention..haha..hafta go..ttfn..

yay..quite happy..got my physics back..to my pleasant surprise i got a D on the dot..i expected to fail..yet again..its amazing.as in seriously..i dun mean to brag or anything..i too think its unfair..i dun feel as if i deserve my grade..and i feel sorta bad cos i dunnoe how to express myself well enough..and i dun wanna come across as being arrogant or anything unpleasant..i know alvan isnt too happy that i did better than him..cos i seriously didnt study hard for my this exams...i feel very bad..sigh.but happy too that i passed.

perplexed.

i got a C5 for my gp..2nd in class i think..but..im not too happy..i wanted a B for my gp..william boo[highest in class] got 14 marks more than i did..im quite disappointed in my essay..2nd worst one i've written..but well..need to buck up..i think when it comes to the A levels..my essay will seriously pale in comparision to other school papers..rah.

in the school library now..venting my frustrations..i type too loudly i think..owellz..dun care..rah rah rah...have lessonwith piang piang at 2..hafta go home and do my tuition work..[gonna start chem tuition this saturday]..yup.have 4 topics to cover..

alvan got a new goal..to beat me in the upcoming prelims..my new goal..to prevent it from happening..haha..

tml is gonna be an exciting day i think..very jam-packed..going to ACJC after skool to pass my present to my beloved nutnut[selena] and see my twin[liz]..probably doing lunch with her..my laopo is coming along with me..after that..in the evening..going to victoria concert hall to watch SRJC performance..zx is doing a solo..jap song i think..yup..exciting..

i bought.or rather..my sister bought 4 new badminton rackets last night..OH WAIT...let me tell you abt my beloved mj[mark johnathan mohan]..last night we went to sakae sushi to eat..den i was looking at the menu and pointed to the decorative orchid on the plate in the picture and told him that it looked good..he said really ar?den he asked the waiter nearby that i wanted to know if he sold the orchid..i was so embarrassed..the waiter was cute la..rah..den..it was the same waiter who counted our plates for us..and he asked him again whether he sold any other flower or smth like that..i was so embarrassed...
k..bell just rang..hafta run...dehua keeps making typing noises..hmmz...

SO PRETTY!!!!!!!!

happy.happy.happy.happy.happy.

thanks becca!! [my cousin]..this is so rocking..haha..

i think i need to go for a crash course in blogging or smth..my blogging skills suck..

anyway..im happy..by God's grace i passed my maths!!*screams* its like so..mad monkey[new phrase]..hahaha..i was expecting an O or F..but..i got a B.pRayEr wOrKs.yup.so take this as my testimony..gtg..at re's hse now..going home..clara's here!!*yay!*

anyway..hoope you like my new skin..it so totally rocks..now i just need to find a nice song to flow with it..heh..*screams!*

wow...tiring day..went to jess's "summer hse" at summerhill with ayeeba and shir..to hang out and watch vcds..den jean joined us afterwards..i was late for my meeting with my mummy..took a cab den kennaed a ear-full from her..haiiz...but..im happy..happy happy happy..i bought five tops..and ate xiao long baos for dinner..feel quite bad for spending so much of my mummy's money..but well..its not that often that i do it..heh..im so materialistic..muahaha..anyway..im really tired now..school is resuming tml..hafta go rush my electrolysis tutorial..sigh..im tired..lesson ive learnt today..dun give up..no matter what..and..trust that whatever God throws in yr direction is for the best..His thoughts are higher than ours..=)

MY MID YEARS ARE OVER!!YEAH BABY YEAH!!haha.i wrote another comedy.owellz.but..its all over!!yippee yay yay! im not looking forward to the day our results come back though.rah.
went orchard with shir amelia and ayeeba.the four of us go hysterical when we're together.but im very happy.=) we makaned and walked ard far east for like three hours.ate ya kun for tea break.very happy.shir and i bought watches for $9.90 each.there;s a butterfly on the face of the watch.very pretty.i bought a pair of ear rings too.and sel's bday prezzie.we shopped for yusheng's prezzie too.met him at wisma to pass it to him.glad he likes the t-shirt.but..all the walking took its toll on my knees..they're hurting now..argh..and im supposed to go play squash with rachel tml..help.i hafta go find or buy squash balls tml..and i hope..wish..and pray..that rachel still has her racket..otherwise...we hafta use my baobei (my racket) and my old wilson racket which now resembles a rattler.cos when you shake it..it has a rattling thing inside..dun noe wad it is also..haha..
yup..gonna go chel's for steamboat tml night..and do some catching up..so happy..yay yay yay..
anyway..today..my tongue is very tricky tricky..keep saying the wrong words..like..bird's nest..i said fish nest..and other hilarious stuff.rah.my tongue needs to go for obedience classes.haha.
im very happy and excited that i have freedom for now..repeat..for now..play and play and play and play....yippee...
i saw a lot of nice clothes today..the new shop at taka..F men and F women has rocking clothes!!i saw this striped colourful long sleeve shirt..the pink one was nice too..and giordano has nice tops and bottoms..and..and.hmz..let me think..saw so many beautiful beautiful things..hahaha..oh yes! topshop had nice pairs of striped pants..and oh..AND..i saw the suit that i wanna get..heh heh..happy..
today was a good day to satisfy my materialistic hunger..yum..
oh yes..love you girls for spending time with me..*hugs*

woohooz..physics is over and done with!!yeah baby.but i found it quite bad..cos the topic i didnt learn..ie waves and superposition..came out 20 marks plus..yup..yip yippeee..gonna fail.haiiz.i didnt leave out any blanks..but i think..i wld have been better off blaming aliens for some of my answers than the ones i gave for explanations.owellz.i wrote a comedy.

anyway..i'm very sian..its like..i wanna do stuff..but..spore is so small and boring after awhile..if its not shopping and watching movies..its sentosa..and stuff..its like..so "been there done it" ya know.rah.

been very lonely nowadays..not really..just a bit..cos when im bored and wanna talk to somebody..i dun really have many pple to call..i always end up calling shir..and we more or less talk abt the same stuff..i dun mind..i like crapping with her..but..its not nice disturbing her all the time..and if i call others..like..nothing much to talk abt..cos my life at this point in time is boring.haha.

feeling lethargic.gonna go bum around.oh btw..i like the chinese shows on channel eight now..the 7 and 9 pm ones..woohooz..rock.

i dont worry abt tomorrow.
i just live from day to day.
i dont borrow from its sunshine
for its skies may turn to grey.

i dun worry o'er tomorrow
for i know what Jesus said
and today i'll walk beside Him
for He knows what is ahead.

many things abt tomorrow
i dont seem to understand
i dont know abt tomorrow
but i know who holds my hand

So true right!!well..almost.haha.my papers have been exciting.i dun know how bad or well i'll do.i just tried my best with what little i learnt.haha.so..yup.what ever grades im gonna get is what i deserve.little effort deserve little marks.heh.glad its almost over.yippee!just have physics tml and chem next tues.yup.

on the phone with laopo now and im criticizing nathan and charlie from the show hi-5.kathleen and tim so obviously rock harder.hahaha.yay!

so glad so many pple are back in town.like..rachel..pam..lian..jess..yay.i wanna go night safari!but..shir and feng dun wanna go.so unfair.and the last time they were there was during our primary 5 camp!oh goodness.rah.shir wants to see her pigs.so oink oink.rah.but i also see their new horses.so..maybe it wldnt be so bad after all.haha.yay.i wanna go sentosa too!!im getting fair!!heh.lalalala.cant wait for the exams to end..*excited*

k..nothing to say le..wish me all the best!=)

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had chemistry paper 3 today.exciting.cos i dun noe the degree of failure.didnt study.much.so yup.i'll be lying if i said i didnt study.i crammed.last minute.so im not sure how much went in.yup.tried my best.owellz.been evaluating myself nowadays.like relationship wise and stuff.not very happy with myself.like..my inadequacy(spelt correctly?) to make strong friends with pple ive just met.cos i realized i keep hanging around pple who grew up with me.like in pj..i stick to ayeeba shir and amelia.and dun hang much with my class.last year's or this year's.in church as well..if jer joy and mao arent in church..i feel so alone.cos the others are either sec three sec two..or..twenty plus.so..yup.rah.i need to overcome this.and i recently just hurt someone without the intention to.haiiz.its distracting to know that you have caused someone pain and not know how to go about solving it.just hope time will heal.owellz.and prayer.my exams are this week.this is the most unprepared ive ever been.how exciting.thankfully im getting tuition soon and wldnt screw my A's as bad as im screwing my midyrs now.sigh.ive got enlightened.i must pia and get good results so i can be reunited with my liz and selena and everyone else in NUS.been away for far too long.yup.new motivation.and..im gonna go crazy enjoying my singlehood.freedom.liberation.and all.woohooz.im glad im a female!

its for SURE!!confirm!im changing my laopo.goodness.what exac>ly is so funny abt being the greek god morpheus?!!?hmmz shirlene yeong??haha..anyway.ive overeaten this weekend.abt sakae sushi on saturday.ate a whole lot.den had root beer float at the cafe next door to my church.and had supper after that with the youth at alexander village.den..today..i had wanton mee for brkfast.had kenny rogers for lunch.had the boney combo at nydc.which consists of a cake and ice cream,and just ate my dinner.haiiz.i think i shld just give up.and grow obese.haha.kiddin.hmmz.
i realised that my blog is quite superficial.like..when i read shumin's and others blogs.they are thought-provoking and all.mine is just..a report.haha.guess this is reflective of how often im actually thinking deep.haha.
my laopo went msia over the weekend.wonder if she remembered and missed me.hmmz.lion went to msia too.haha.must be pretty fun having relatives in msia.just travel back and forth.i wldnt mind.too bad i dun have any there.owellz.
today is father's day.so..to all the guys..HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!
bought my daddy a air jordan red t-shirt.its quite nice.must buy things that are more happening for my daddy.so he doesnt seem old.haha.but i love him anyway.gonna wake to watch the spain vs portugal match later.but..i just saw the news and it said that some other guy is gonna replace MY MORIENTES!!how could they?!!?!?haiiz.hopefully the nehneh coach changes his mind and lets my handsome play.heh.
hafta pia like a mad monkey this week.but my future seems grim.owellz.nothing much to xie le!take care peeps.esp to those taking their mid years this week.those in AC.yupz.

yoz..im back.had youth camp at changi there.the chalet is like really huge.but i did alot of blood donation..to the mosquitoes association of changi.haha.alot of bites now.keep scratching and scratching.nehneh.so itchy siah.haiiz.we had amazing race on tuesday.had to run around tampines mall and changi airport finding answers.tiring.wonder how the pple in the show actually survive.its quite mentally and physically challenging.but i think tmapines mall is quite nice.like got alot of nice shops.pity i was rushing through it.haha.had a saf choir concert last night.they're good man.pple may think them as fags cos they're in choir.but honestly..they're really talented.i liked this tall guy..he sang practically all the songs and one of the main pple too.but he's a tenor.very shocking.but he's cute.haha.den i took train back with sky jien chunkit and lembu.there was this couple that was hugging and super PDA la.and the part that irritated me was that they leaned on the grabpole when the train was so crowded.not sensitive to their surrounding.haiiz.cant stand this kinda pple.
anyway..i hafta start mugging..ive said this so many times already.but ya..im seriously..gonna..crash and burnrah!

ok..sorry mr wong.typo.anyway..now im like trying to hotsync my palm and my desktop.but it keeps failing.so irritating.and im supposed to help gabriel download real one player into his palm.haiyah.stupid machines.i have my youth camp today at aloha changi resorts/chalets.until thursday.yup.quite sad that janetta maomao and joy aint coming for camp though.but not to fear..i have jolene!=)anyway..hope everything goes well and the weather wld be good to us.miss me while im gone k??love you all.take care.

hell0 hello..at lion's house now with shir.we're preparing the stuff for my last year class's bbq.a bit last minute.like..we hafta go get a thong.the one that you use for bbq-ing.and like..a lot of small details..haiz.erm..yes.i need to go choose the worship songs for camp and for tml's youth alive to0.hopefully i wldnt screw up during worship.i still have a lot of kinks.yup.anyway i have two k-pos reading whatever im writing now.yup.impatient.owellz.help.hmmz.hope everyone will enjoy themselves tonight..think they will.nothing much to blog about.i need excitement in my life..maybe i should change my wife..hmmz..*ponders*

yet another thursday.heading to school later for chem.sigh.and after that i'm going shopping with my frens for the stuff we need for tml's bbq.i havent been mugging.im so screwed.how..haiiz.no motivation to study.and my A's are this year.something is seriously wrong with my brain.rah.i need to get a new one.
read through my friendster testimonial yesterday.it feels nice to know that pple enjoy yr company.=) i need to curb my sudden bursts of energy though.its craziness.anyway.i did a quiz the other day.and it said im a narcissist.i'll go get the results up on my blog.yar.anyway..i agree that i am.very ego.apathetic at times too.haiiz.complicated.i havent been in the best of moods nowadays.have alot of things on my mind.
yesterday.i thought my lesson was at 830.so i took a lift from my dad and i was in skool at 740.den..my frens came and we realized that our lesson was at 1130.so we decided to go home.on my way home.i was like..stoning..and at my stop..i was still stoning then i realized i had to alight.when i was moving towards the door.the uncle closed it.i pressed the bell.like twice.and i was finally let out.its like..ive never been so blur before.haiiz.guess im really physically and mentally exhausted.rah.
study hard for your mid years ya?ttfn.

wow.last night was amazing.their worship is so powerful.and its great seeing God move in spore.so many christians!=)didnt go right down to the front of the stage though feng wanted to.sorry girl.yup.we just jumped at where we were seated.im glad i've got God in my life.though i need to get my priorities right once more.havent been placing Him at the top postion.haiz.owellz.its exciting to know that yr fren has been saved.and to imagine the whole heavenly host rejoicing along as well!amazing!so spectacular.yupz.thought i was leading worship tonight but apparently not.well.just wanna leave with a note to you all.continue to walk steadfastly before God ya?it'll be worth it ALL when we see Jesus.

yes daddy wong.pity you cant come for FOP tonight.den you cant see my pretty face..dun you miss me??hahaha.if mel wong sees this.im DEAD.but owellz..haha.hi mel!haha.erm.im at shir's sty now.with a sick lion next to me.help.we're in an airconditioned room.im gonna be ill.haha.owellz.i love shir.and liz.and..a lot of pple.im talking rubbish now."since when is she not??"-tiger's laopo :p erm.ok.as i was saying.liz..i wanna see yr new spect-i-culars.please??=)nothing much is happening to me now.just that im in a race against time to pia and mug for my mid years.RAH!lalala.im going crazy.yay.get to see the Hillsongs tonight.rock rock rock.ok.bye-di-bye!miss me.