i'm red and i'm itchy.

please, somebody, scratch me!

i woke up this morning..and realised that my unconscious scratching was due to my sudden outburst of rash! argh!

i got this about 3-4 years ago, and the doctor said probably an allergy.

but we never figured what was wrong.

and now! NOW! argh.

so i bathed, and powdered. and everything was fine.

until half way through my wonderful sentosa nua-ing outing.

i started itching again.

after bathing, i was worse!

it became full-fledge i-am-itching-so-bad-please-ice-me.

the doctors were closed by the time i was back.

thankfully audrey has some cream to help me.

but i still itch. and i really really want to scratch!!!

ROAR!

sentosa today was absolute fun!

went with drew, eugenia, twin, hum jing peng and monkey.

really happy. 

the right company is always the most important factor in determining the success of an outing.

if ever i was marooned on an island, i want them with me.

hahaha. 6 of us and a camera, and it is absolutely side-splitting.

jem: "please don't tell me taking photos are going to be the highlight of our day."

but well, fortunately it wasn't.

the highlight of the day was... Andrew's left arm dislocating!

it sounds serious.

and it was....

it was SERIOUSLY HILARIOUS!

we were playing captain's ball. twin was going to pass the ball to eugenia, and andrew intercepted by doing the "swiping" action with his left arm.

i was seeing from the back, and i saw him hold on to his arm and saying its very pain.

then he just moved his arm about his shoulder joint and popped it back in place.

and then he said "Phwoar! shiok! okay already."

for a moment the thought "oh no! we have to send drew to the hospital or something.." went pass my brain. but before the thought was complete, i was kneeling on the sand laughing like crazy!

it was so funny cos he was laughing about it after popping it back. the change from serious to comedy was drastic.

eugenia and twin were UTTERLY TRAUMATIZED for a while. 

especially eugenia, she had full view of the dislocation.

drew dislocated his arm in army last time, and this is the 7th or 8th time it has dislocated by itself. 

so he figured how to pop it back in. we heard him mention it before, but never really SAW it dislocate before. 

today was really enjoyable. 

Thank You for holding back the rain. :)

i'm going for a SLR photography class with my older cousin tomorrow.

a lil nervous. but mostly excited. 

love learning new stuff. :)

the holidays are finally here.

though the last paper was an absolute horrid way to start the holidays.

it was a killer paper and it really resulted in a massacre.

its over its over! and the holidays are here here here! :)

yay. 

mickey mouse crop circles.

how ever did our worlds collide?
were they apart to begin with?
i feel like i don't know you anymore sometimes.
yet it seems like we were never that much different.
things that once held such similiarity,
we were once thought to have perfect telepathy.
you can still read me like a book,
somehow i feel like i can't do the same to you.
the memories haunt my everyday,
a little somehow.
but i need to walk away,
and leave it all behind the blue rosed door.

Tracy:

Can't cha feel my heartbeat keeping perfect time?

And all because he...

touched me

He looked at me and stared, yes he

bumped me

My heart was unprepared when he

tapped me

And knocked me off my feet

One little touch

Now my life's complete 'cause when he

Nudged me

Love put me in a fix, yes it

Hit me

Just like a ton of bricks, yes my

Heart burst

Now i know what life's about

One little touch

And love's knocked me out and...

I can hear the bells

My head is spinning

I can hear the bells

Something's beginning

Everybody says

That a girl who looks like me

Can't win his love

Well, just wait and see 'cause

I can hear the bells

Just hear them chiming

I can hear the bells

My temperature's climbing

I can't contain my joy

'Cause I finally found the boy

I've been missin'

Listen!

I can hear the bells

- Hairspray

Enchanted and hairspray all within a day?

YEAAHH BAABBYY!!!

i'm a believer man. i'm a believer!

something within me flutters.

my paper today was..well.
could have been done better.
amazingly through this week's papers, the things that i tended(unconsciously) to pay more attention to came out. or at least something along that line of theory.
so PRAISE GOD! :)
i prayed this morning "Lord, i know that by my efforts i shouldn't get good grades, but please help me to at least pass."

Exams are really a faith stretching period for me. And a humbling one too.
Mercifully, He always proves Himself faithful time and time again.
:)

Anyway, i went to our school's computer shop to help my sister buy a Macbook.
so after depositing a partial amount and all, i realised that the girl gave me a tax invoice that i realised later that i couldn't use for my sister to claim money.
so i asked her nicely if i could get a receipt too.
and she answered, sounding quite exasperated, that she couldn't because its from the company and blah blah blahh...
i was taken aback for a while, because i didnt understand why she had to answer me with such tone and facial expression.
so i asked the next question nicely again, and she still sounded exasperated.
in my heart i was like "hey! it doesn't help for you to SOUND exasperated, and not provide any reasonable explanation to me why you can't."

Point number one:
andrea does not like it when people show attitude UNNECESSARILY when she asks a question NICELY.


so i called my mum, to ask if tax invoice can be used and all, then i called my sister if it can be claimed if my name is there and stuff.
and then i asked the girl if i could get just a print out receipt with a number on it or something that didn't have my name to it.
she shaked her head, i went back on the phone with my sister and i heard her walk towards the back and tell her manager "she's on the phone again.."
unnecessary. seriously unnecessary.

so i asked the other counter staff to let me speak to the manager, so the manager came out talked to my sister for a while, and then she nicely explained to me why she couldn't issue it and all. the silly girl was nodding her head in agreement at the side. so i finally understood the whole hoo-ha and all. and so i would go back tomorrow to finally settle it and all.

but either way i was so fuming mad on the inside, as we all know that when you kek the anger inside, it multiplies by many folds.
so when we walked out of the shop, andrew got a whole earful of me complaining about that girl's attitude. RAH!

people in the service line, should have sensible patience.fullstop.

-breathe-

on a lighter note, threadless is having their amazing $10 SPREE!
which makes andrea a very VERY happy girl. :)

andrew: your moods change very fast ar. scary.

after our paper today, i am found online shopping, drew is found facebooking.

i want my holidays to start NOW.

the size of my eyes seem to be inversely proportional to my age.

sigh.

Every time I disqualify myself.

Your grace and mercy always put me back on track.

The only one whose wisdom, knowledge, humour and wit i will truly adore from now on will be Yours.

Yet again, i find myself in the rut of comparing myself to others.

be it in expressing oneself, confidence, wit, general knowledge, knowledge of God, musical talent, passion, smartness, etc etc.

and i think to myself "why am i not like that?"

i always live in the shadow of underachievement.

blame it on my chronic procrastination.

and yet convincing myself and the people around me the whole time that i believe in no matter what you do, one must try his/her best.

putting it into practice is much harder than saying it. 

shortchanging myself and i don't feel the pinch.

So today, i brought it all before Him, told Him how i felt about not stewarding what He has given to me well. Emptying myself of all these worries and surrendering to once again be His humble vessel.

And the verse came to me that each of us are given different measure of talents and gifts so that none of us can compare and boast about it. We're all on level playing ground.

That amazes me. 

THAT is God's wisdom.

Humbled once again. In awe once again.

All that He has given to each of us, is for His glory to be shown. 

let me be a minister.

Personal Glory is nothing. Changed lives are everything.

enrolled in the School of Beattitudes.

i still miss you like crazy.

God of all splendor - Vineyard

God of all splendor, wonder and might

Awesome Creator, Author of Life

Master and Saviour, wholly divine

God of all splendor, wonder and might

Who is like You, oh Lord

Worthy of all praise

Who is like You, oh Lord

Let all the earth proclaim

Your kingdom forever

Love shining bright

God of all splendor, wonder and might

Essence of beauty and all that is right

King of all Glory, Heaven's pure Light

God of all splendor, wonder and might

life's been busy.

but i'm still enjoying every bit of it.

crusade activities have slowed down.

lectures and tutorials have officially stopped today.

its now full-fledge exam mugging time.

i have kinda officially joined our "friends of the library" club which comprises of some of the crusaders.

"chopping" seats 820 in the morning is tough.

especially when it nears 9 am.

everyone keeps coming in.

and i have to fight off people who wanna take a seat when i need to book the whole table.

aii..

thankfully my support(crystal) comes in by 915. haha.

my december seemingly is getting packed yet again.

with youth camp to plan. and meta. and christmas.

YAY.

exams start next friday.

no where near prepared for the exams.

as usual.owell. at least this time round it doesnt feel that bad.

i think a part of me was gone when you died.

my eyes still get teary when i look at your photos.

a good friend of mine really went away when you did.

i miss you,lee.