Light in your eyes - blessed union of souls

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you"s were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free

I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me?

Your unfailing Love
When the darkness fills my senses,
When my blindness keeps me from Your touch,
Jesus come.

When my burden keeps me doubting,
When my memories take the place of You,
Jesus come.

And I'll follow You there
To the place where we meet,
And I'll lay down my pride
As You search me again.

Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love over me again.

i've got a new nickname.

krystie: hello krystie!
me: no no! i'm back to being jiejie andrea again! i swapped my names back with you already. [krystie reanne and i exchanged names last weekend.]
reanne: andra!
me: no..its an-drey-er!..its drey-er..
krystie: dry-er...
reanne: andra..
me: oh goodness. its drey-er..ddrreeeyy-eerrrr. not andra!
krystie and reanne: dry-er!
me: drey-er!
them again: dry-er!
krystie: hair dryer!!
me: oh goodness! hairdryer?! phwoar..fainted.
both of them: dryer! dryer! hairdryer!
me: aiyoh! i dont want to talk to you already la! haha.

-walks away-

and being the little kids that they are..they were following me and calling me by my new "endearment".



i've never been called a hairdryer before. -sob- haha.

are there such things as holiday blahs?
if there are..
i think i'm suffering from it.

my heart isnt feeling well today.
not well at all.

the want to rant, the want to ramble, the want to be random, the want to be heard.

holiday blahs.





blah.



for every high, there comes a low.
things can only go up from here.

its like wanting to scream with a masking tape across your mouth.
its like stamping your feet on the floor, even if it doesnt make a sound.
its like struggling for air, but a weight is pulling you down.


save me from myself.

its a journey i'm willing to take with You. I know You would not let go of my hand.thank You.

we had north ST meeting today.
longest meeting i've ever had.
9am-930pm.
haha. but surprisingly i'm not tired.
rather..charged up!
after all our sharing of the plans for the different Comms, i think...
its going to be an exciting academic year for Crusade in Ntu.
i'm looking forward to serving in the Servant Team alongside Champ, tweet, anton, bok-ah-wee, eu, huimin, selina and derek.

please continue to pray for our team for sensitivity to God's guidance and heart for the ministry, for the challenging of subcommers [for their hearts.] and for love in not only the ST, but crusade as a community.

God's Hand is moving in NTU. and i'm glad to be in this movement.
OOOWWHEEE!! its going to be exciting.
an adrenaline working with God. yeah!


our God is an AWESOME God.
i want to hold You, love You, dont let You go.

watched a midsummer's night dream today.
it was fabulous.
it was a first for me..

i loved watching the people around me..
they were so relaxed..with some armed with a glass of wine while lazing on their mats.
and i was just trying to soak in the atmosphere as much as i could.
i loved it.
i would love to go for another open air performance at the fort canning again.
gorgeous. the skies..the air..the everything! =)

the performance was good too!
it totally amused me when they added our own local flavour to it..
"yi er san..wo men shang..wo men xia..wo men hou qian jiao....sally sally long jiam pass!"
hahaha!

i went with my sister, her colleague and 19 of her sec 3 lit kids.
thankfully priscilla was patient enough to explain to me. that girl knows her work man. haha.


how is it that falling in love..and being lovers seem so easy when shakespeare writes it.
is it because one thinks too much..that causes one to not fall so hopelessly?
is that a good or bad thing?
is it because of what others might think, when you're so deeply in love that it consumes you, that holds one back?

if one is to write a book..
would a book written with ideals sell better than one that was real?

its funny how ideals appeal so much to us more than reality.

funny.


if only everything was simpler.

OKAY!! i'm FINALLY going to do it!
HAHAHA. its like..what..2 mths overdue?
-huge grin-
i hope i remember every single detail..
alright.
please step into my timemachine..and i'll bring you back to when i just turned 21. haha!

here we go.....

i was out on the 21st of march with my aunt jen. looking for my present. [which is my heart diamond pendant + necklace! ] in town.

and i received an sms from my dear eugenia..
"Ladies, i'm helping my fren with a survey. Need to know wat flowers you like. :) reply asap? Thankies ;) "
and i replied "blue roses!"
so when i came back to school..
i went to the ADM rooftop for DG with joyce, caroline and sufang!
Joyce was so sweet! she bought me a slice of cake..and SPARKLERS! [i love sparklers!]
so we sang happy birthday!
THEY sang it like..21 times!! everything that i did..started them off singing another round.
hilarious la! hahaha.then we played with sparklers. and ate SUSHI! joyce bought sushi! and we had other food too that we brought along. it was great.
and so i asked miss caroline.."is anything going to happen tonight?? am i supposed to be scared??"
and she kept pretending and saying that i shldnt.
my miss loh also! she kept pretending and said " huh? i really dont know!" quite convincingly at that too.

so anyhoo..
after DG [which was ever so heart warming].. caroline and i went back to hall.
bathe and all. and i just felt so..RAH! cos i was going to turn old. and i wanted to fight the clock.
so i was a lil mopey..and caroline had to study..so she only came into my room when it was nearing 12 to count down with me.
jessica came too!
and so..we were just sitting around in my room..waiting to countdown..
then caroline slyly asked yeyin for her number! [though she already had it and was just messenging her that a whole bunch of people were coming down. i found this out later on.]
suddenly..out of yeyin's norm..she went to check her reflection in her mirror. so i suspected a bit. but didnt pay too much attention.
so when the clock hit 12..i sang happy birthday to myself.
and yeyin and i took photo together.
then suddenly..
my room door flung wide open!
and a whole bunch of people were outside my room with a cake! and eu gave me a blue rose!
i really was quite stunned! i didnt expect soO many people! it was crazy la!
haha. so they sang happy birthday..i blew out the candles. and we were on our way down to the tv lounge...
when suddenly 2 girls jumped out at me singing..
" oh why were you born so beautiful! oh why were you born at all!..."
i was so stunned at seeing Feng and Shir that i collapsed onto the floor!
and i started crying.
i didnt expect them at all la! at ulu pulau nanyang! my goodness!
i was so so happy!
haha

so the whole parade went down to the tv lounge..and my rachel tay made her appearance too!
yay!
we cut cake..and kinleong and anton and i dont know which other cheeky one..picked up a snail on their way and wanted to give it to me! haha.
we took photos!
and then shir rach and feng wanted to go off..
so i walked them out..
and suddenly everyone was coming along..
in the next moment..i felt wet from the back..and i ran a bit..turned..and to my amazement!
never in my life would i think that i would get pranked by VEESAN!
they put mentos into a 1.5L coke bottle and she sprayed it on me!

when i was recovering from shock..the next thing i knew..
porkie was holding on to my right arm..and yeye on my left.
and they made me run! RUN!
i couldnt stop running even if i wanted to..or else i would have been dragged!
they made me run to the NIE pond..which was like..100m away? [ok. i dont know how to gauge. but it was quite long!]

when i got there..i was given sometime to contemplate if i wanted to go into the pond..
which yeye was so fervently disagreeing and just wanted to throw me in.
i didnt really mind la..at least its smth to remember..but..the thought of a murky pond..was really quite gross.
so then..kinleong and yeye.. though i managed to run a way for a while..before getting caught again..
flung me into the pond.
GROSS!
the floor was like.....was like...soft soft..gooey a bit.
thank goodness i didnt smell la!
everyone was running away from me..the swamp thing! wahaha!
i rolled myself dry on rachel's car. haha.

after saying goodbyes..
i went to bathe..AGAIN.
and went to bed.


22nd march!actualy birth date!

thankfully we were having our e-learning week.
and without having to skip class..
eu drew and i had the entire day free!
yippee!!

so we met at 11+ am..took train to city hall to get my dress for my party.
and headed to CARNIVORE at vivo.
phwoar..it was shiokadelic man!
we ate so so much!
and my eu is really really a sly fox.extreme!
she par-kat with the waiter to get me a cake..
the moment she walked in.. she already whispered to him.and i didnt notice at all!
and when i was in the midst of telling them about my DG and how they sang so many times..
the guy zhunzun came from behind me with a cake and they started singing happy birthday to me!
haha. so sweet.

after lunch..we went to the waterfront to take photos and soak up the sun.gorgeous.
and then we watched "stomp the yard". wwooooo. i was so happy.
what other better show to watch than a bad-boy-turn-good-plus-good-dancing movie on my birthday!
haha.

eu and i headed back to school for our Xroads. SM appreciation night.as drew went for liling's baptism.

it was great fun la! caroline and i sang a song for joyce impromptu. and dawn and rebecca gave caroline and i a rose each! =)

at supper..i was stunned when suddenly all the crusaders started singing "happy birthday to you" out of the blue.
hahaha.

that day was ultimately perfect.


okay. crazy 23rd of march. phew.

my party day.
aaii..this one gave me one heck of an emotional roller coaster.
late in the morning.. my dad came and fetch roger's amp and i from school.
i went home for a while.then decided to go trim my hair and get some of my last min stuff at lot one.
which left me with little time to get ready and all.
hurried down to signature park's function room to get ready.
thankfully my aunt jen and re were there in time for the caterers.
and then my babes started coming down! and we started getting our decor up.

i was actually really hesitant about my party..it just feels weird knowing that people were coming down to celebrate your party..and just for you. aaii...gave me the heebee jeebees.

people started coming in..and it was such a busy night.
tad bit stressful too. haha.
but i really did enjoy myself on the whole. its great seeing people who are so important in your life get together.
=)

thank you all for coming and celebrating my 21st birthday party with me! =)
esp to all who helped me one way or another.
i absolutely loved the performances and presents! yayee!
made andrea a happy girl.hahaha.

oh. my photos that were taken by jason during the party is up..haha. thank you mr gorilla! whhee!
www.tysjason.multiply.com
[click on view all albums.]

and photos of my ponding-night is on marilyn's multiply!
www.marilvyn.multiply.com


phheewww..
all out.
haha. tadah!
i think this entry is a personal record. haha.

my 21st was a blast!