Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

--"have you ever" by brandy

one of my all-time favourite song.

quite a good day i must say.
at least somethings are settled.

laopo..thanks for always listening to me and being there. it really means alot. i will try not to worry you that much anymore k? for at least for a year. =)

oh. in church yesterday, we had our communion.
and it was exciting. in a funny way.
cos instead of the usual bread, WE HAD CHEPATTI!
haha.
we were all like giggling when we went back to our seats, we NEVER had chepatti for communion EVER!

me: its chepatti! and i got such a huge piece!
elvin: yeah! haha. its symbolic anyway.
me: but chepatti with grape drink? its gonna be very weird.
-after partaking-
me: that didnt go very well.
elvin: yar. since its all symbolic, why dont we substitute the drink for curry next time! when our youth take charge of communion next time, then we take orders la! who wants chicken, fish or mutton.

haha.
IMPORTANT NOTE: WE WERE JUST JOKING!
in no way are we disrespecting communion.

anyhoo..elvin and i have concluded..
that God has allowed our paths to cross for us both to learn patience.
and honestly, i CANNOT out-talk a lawyer.
especially not elvin yeo. HE DRIVES ME CRAZY!
he will throw me verses and i would just kenna stunned and not know what to say in my defense.
haha.


i have alot of monkeys in my life.

stop it andrea. stop it.
not everyone thinks the way you do.
not everyone's priorities are the same.
please.
stop it.
you're only hurting me.

ode to eugenia
you ask me many rhetorical questions
you make me do silly things
you teach me many valuable lessons
you listen to my ramblings

so many times you make me happy
so many times i make you cry
but still you love me dearly
and still we don't know why

you make funny noises
you make buzzing sounds
you make monkey faces
you cause me to put on pounds

i love you.

Let your speech always be with grace, seasoned with salt,
that you may know how you ought to answer each one.
-colossians 4:6
The heart of the righteous studies how to answer,
But the mouth of the wicked pours forth evil.
-proverbs 15:28
How much better to get wisdom than gold!
And to get understanding is to be chosen rather than silver.
-proverbs 16:16
He who heeds the word wisely will find good,
And whoever trusts in the LORD, happy is he.
-proverbs 16:20

Grant me wisdom to know the right words to speak at the right time, teach me the way to answer, understanding in every situation, and unwavering trust in You, for it is in You that my heart is at rest and rejoices.

A man's heart plans his way, but the LORD directs his steps.-proverbs 16:9

Direct my steps according to Your Word, and may I be found holy as You are holy.

Refiner's fire.

Centre of My life

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole and my eyes on You
Lord I'm stepping out, from the comfort zone
Letting go of me, holding on to You

Freedom comes, when I call You Lord
You are Lord, my God

You are the Centre of it all
The universe declares in awe
Your Majesty, I surrender all
I make You the Centre of my life
Lord I respond with all I am
You placed in me the song
Of Heaven's melody
Your Majesty, I live to sing Your song

I have found Your peace,
it replaces any fear
You have done it all, I can trust in You
Lord I'm stepping out, from the comfort zone
Letting go of me, holding on to You

This is Your song, not mine
It is Your song, that brings healing to this land
This is Your song, not mine
It is Your song, that brings freedom

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

EUGENIA LOH IS EMBARRASSING ME IN THE LIBRARY!
she's making ALOT of weird noises!
she's like coughing, sneezing and HICCUPING all at the same time.
LOUDLY!
someone please move her away from me.
someone actually shush-ed us.
roar.
hahahahhaa.
miss loh is so funny.
even when she doesnt mean to.
=)
today is gonna be a funny day.
i can feel..no..hear it. haha

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY PORKIE PORK!!
haha!
today is porkie pork's birthday! he's also known as gabriel chen.
a group of us went to carnivore at vivo for lunch.
weiyee was so sweet to plan the surprise.
when we were all inside the restaurant awaiting their arrival.
we saw porkie walking about outsidE! how scary la.in an exhilarating way.
we all had to turn our heads and what not.
i love surprising people.

lunch was great. we had the buffet. took SSOOO many photos today.
marilyn took about 100+ photos.
unbelievable.

here's some! =)

the birthday boy and the whole bunch of us!

1!2!3!4!5!! haha. our act-cute photo. cindy, marilyn, grace, enting and i.

me in sneakers..."what's the big deal?" you may ask..
its because..

they are monkey's!!
and jem is wearing my HEELS! hahaha.madness.
i wanted to run away in his sneakers..but he threatened to break my heels. haha.
it was priceless seeing him in heels. haha.




i'm gonna be very sad when the year4s and 3s graduate.
my heart is slowly starting to break.
-violins in the background-
what would life be without them..
ohh tear.


we ended up at caroline's house to nua.
i like caroline's family. very warm. =)

all in all. good day.
great chinese new year.
oh yes.

date: monday. 19/2/07
place: my tuagu's balcony.

me : haha. did you see how you just ran? do it again! haha. you looked like a bird!
BEAKY: what? -runs back to original place- i just ran here like...-runs-GAHH!! hrmph! oh fine.
-runs back to original place again and then runs back with arms folded-
me: hahahaha. you're so retarded. HEY! why is that lady looking at us?! quick! duck!
-ducks below window sill-
beaky: YAR! -ducks too-
me: quick! -puts fingers into gun-mode -
beaky: haha. yar! -stands up- BANG!!
me: hahahaha. -sitting on the floor- hahahhaa. i can't believe you just did that!

and we both go into hysterics.

drey: what are you two doing? you all are retarded!

and then we slowly crawl away from the balcony so the lady in the next block cant see us.
haha.

I LOVE BEAKY!!
dont you love me too beaky?
-poke poke-
quick. tickle yourself. haha.

i need to start planning my birthday party.
aahh!

she falls on her knees and pray......



"dear Lord..please give me a guy who can sing like josh groban..
or at least willing to bring me to one of his concerts.."

HAHAHAHHA.

"but even if its neither..as long as he's your best."

haha.

the main point here is : i absolutely adore josh groban's voice. -melts-

chinese new year once again.
and i'm getting better at the game of "hide your things"
haha.
most of my cupboards are packed.
thankfully not bulging.
=)
i have alot of throwing out to do during the holidays.
roar.

its funny the things we do to give others a misconception.haha.

under the influence of my semi-emo cousin..
i found myself listening to cranberries' "linger"

But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to?
Do you have to?
Do you have to let it linger?

back to hiding..

sinful indulgences.
on thursday, after class.
eugenia bought a large packet of fries and large wedges too.
then jason drew eu and i dug in. and ate.
then when we finished..
andrew tang bought round 2!!
i just stood there gaping when he came back with the bag of large fries and wedges.
THEY ARE CRAZY!
usually when we go into our food frenzies, its just one round!
and on top of that..jason took out the bakkwa that he bought from eu.
i went to get our drinks, and came back to the sight of bakkwa on top of the huge pile of fries.
madness i tell you. madness.

drew eu and i..are partners in crime of sinful food indulgences.

eg1. when one goes: "i feel like eating tandoori chicken."
another will go :" hmm..yar! me too."
and the third one will go : "yay! okay. lets!"

eg2. when one goes: " i feel like eating the yoghurt ice-cream."
another : "hey ya!"
third: "oh no..aahhh!! i feel like it now too! aahh!"

eg3. one: i feel like eating fries.
another : with ice cream!
third: yeahh! with ice cream!

and like this..we always end up buying one per person.
its madness. no sound of reason.
haha.

friday:
we had our crusade reunion dinner at some steam boat restaurant at bugis.
it was fun sitting with jon, drew, grace, rachel and enting. crazy bunch.
jon kept telling lame jokes/statements.
eg. when he was fishing out the corn " your corn was stuck in the corner!"
just random statements like that.
haha.
and i embarrassed myself a few times.
when the guy came to top up our soup,
i was standing up. then i started "dancing". cos the song "culo remix" was stuck in my head.
then apparently the guy stood behind me and stared at me for a while with a "confused" look and then he started laughing at me!
and jon started laughing when he saw the guy laugh at me!
jon is so evil right! he should have warned me when i was embarrassing myself! argh.
and the second time i embarrassed myself was when grace and i went to the toilet.
and they have the beady curtain thing at the door post, its only abt one third of the door, so i "limbo-rocked" under the beads, and then this guy was coming out, so i immediately straightened when i saw him.
argh.
i shouldnt be let out of the house on days like these.
roar.

dinner was fun. dessert [mango and sago. say it a few times. its fun.] was shiokadelic.

i'm blessed with so many people in my life.
haha.
happy chinese new year everyone!
=)

how is it that i feel so bare, even without any contact.
how is it that when a part of you lives, a part of me dies.
how can you shake my very core though you've been distant and silent all this while.
how?

fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars.

i love looking at the stars. they just give me such a feeling of contentment.

last night was fun. we went running..quite a big group of us.
and then we went on to the top of our ADM building to play with sparklers and talk and look at the stars.
it was lovely.
Thank You for stars. they are so small, yet they bring such warmth to my heart.
those moments of playing with sparklers with your good friends, singing songs while lying under the stars, and just drinking in the atmosphere of it all, and just basking in His creation, is one of the most gorgeous moments in my life.
its like when you are revealed a mystery of God's love, and it just captures your heart.

it was a great way to usher valentine's day. thanks jason for the ADM suggestion. =)

today..
i went to holland village settler's with some of my favourite pple. =)
namely, ayeeba, amlah, shir, lembu, abu and abu's ryan. haha.
it was great seeing them again. as always.
sorry for being mellower than usual. =) maybe i'm growing out of being a toys'r'us kid? haha.
and ayeebaboon..its my pleasure to go out with you. haha.

hmmm...but yet in the midst of my social gatherings..
i'm once again going into hermit mode soon. argh.
i have so much to do. yet i am running away from it all.
i have no time for myself to just remain still.

happy valentine's day everyone. =)

my mass msg to pple today:
roses are red. violets are blue.
my life would be empty,
if i didnt meet you.
with all my heart...happy valentine's day babes!

@--}----

its time to move along. let go and move along. guard at all costs. you can't lose what you never had.

I think I'm going crazy, can't take it anymore
Got one thing on my mind all the time
And it's driving me crazy, I think I'm going crazy
And I don't know what I'm doing
Ijust can't take your grace in my face
Cause it's driving me crazy
-"crazy" by The Moffatts.

we should hold a gathering and just sit around in a circle and just sing all of the Moffatts songs that we love.
just like that memorable day in primary 6 when we just stayed back, sat down and sang.
bring back the days when we have no other responsibilities and had so much time in our hands.
i keep reliving my primary school day memories. i dont wish to grow up. but the big 2-1 is looming ahead. sigghh.. anyone got a time machine?

Saw you this morning, with that look in your eyes
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself
Don't you worry, I hear you 'cause I know what it's like
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby

I'll be there for you
When you need sombody I'll be there for you
When you want someone who cares
When you're down and feeling blue I'll be there I'll be there for you
When you call me, I'll be there I wanna show you how good it will be

Never needed anyone the way I need you right now
You know you'll never be alone anymore
We can make it, together It's gonna be all right
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby

-"i'll be there for you" by The Moffatts.

campus day of prayer!
let me hear a "woot! woot!".
haha. so retarded.
cant stand myself.

anyway..
yesterday marked our first big campus day of prayer.
where we tried to rally the christians in ntu to pray and intercede for our campus.
it is amazing how God closed all the doors for us to get other venues.
but He indeed does not hold out on us.
He gave me the hugest, grandest venue in our whole campus!
THE NANYANG AUDITORIUM!
[sitting capacity: abt 1000].

in maths tutorial in the morning,
drew eu and i were just talking.
wondering how many pple were gonna turn up for the event. and eu mentioned that God spoke to her in the morning that it is not the matter of the number of people who comes, but rather their heart's condition. and that we should appreciate everyone of those who come down.[ abt 200+ pple came down i think. =) ]

sidetrack: i absolutely adore it when the three of us have a serious conversation about God and what He spoke to us. its one of the best things of our friendship that i really hold dear to. cos we can go from really random retarded things [like clapping rhythms in the stairwells] to serious sharing of God's Word. it always always warms my heart to hear what God has been speaking to them, and to share with them things that i get impressed with as well. Gorgeous i tell you. gorgeous.

so anyhoo..after class jessica and i came back to my class to change to our dresses.
haha. it feels good to dress up once in a while.
lyrics of shania twain's "man, i feel like a woman" come to mind.
hahaha.
we managed to get crystal and jix last min to do backup singing.
cos initially it was just me backup and shaohong as worship leader.
the two of them can harmonize la!
i wanna learn how to harmonize!
but i know that im too scared to try. cos i will have to be out-of-tune a few times before i can finally get the notes for harmony. roar.

worship went really well. could really sense the passion of the worshippers. and God's sweet presence was evident.

thanks babe for praying for me. for submitting my heart and spirit to God. i needed it. and i felt a breakthrough. though not dramatic. but its a start. something exciting is going to happen. i'm re-energising! haha. love you dear.

all in all. thursday rocked.
as always. i love seeing the ones i love.haha.
oh yes. and ng weiyee is very naughty.
she kept focussing the camera on me, so i was constantly projected on the BIG SCREEN in the AUDI!
after the whole event la. when pple were just lingering and chatting. she is very naughty.
very naughty!

into Your hands, i commit again. with all i am, for You Lord.

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

its amazing how some beautiful songs are left in your mp3 player and you never realised you had them. this song is one of them. i only just discovered its beauty. the lyrics are so assuring, dont you think? =)
on Christ the solid rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand.

from today's daily bread [online]:

In part, this is what Jesus was challenging us to understand in Matthew 5:13-16. Salt and light are influential factors in a dark and corrupting world, and Christ, who is the Light of the world, calls us to be lights of influence as well. The Master who modeled perfect purity calls us to be salt that adds flavor and prevents corruption.

May we not only be influenced by Christ but also be influencers for Christ in a needy world. —Bill Crowder

Lord, let me be a shining light
In all I say and do,
That Your great love displayed in me
May lead someone to You. —Sper

As the "salt of the earth," Christians will make others thirsty for the "Water of Life."

be extra kind to someone today,
because every one is fighting a battle.
- a quote my Pastor read from somewhere.

let me be a Shining Light.

AAAAHHH!!! EUGENIA LOH BLUFF SPIDER!!
i DID NOT psycho her to jump on the bus!!!!!
DID NOT!! D-I-D N-O-T!!

this is what happened...while on the shuttle bus on our way back to my hall.
seated at the last row...
me: you know. last time in secondary school, i would tompang the primary school bus sometimes. and the small girls will always run to the back row and jump in their seat when the bus goes over a hump. cos you'll get to suspend in the air longer.
eugenia: ok. when is the next hump?
NOTE: SHE INITIATED US TO TRY IT!!
me: i dont think we have any more humps.
eu: ok. why dont we jump when the bus turns!
me: cannot la! i will hit my face on the glass! [i was seated at the side]
eu: hahahahha. but can..almost the same effect.
so when the bus turned, i jumped a bit. not shiok.
then finally a hump came..
both: coming coming!
-front tyre goes over the hump-
eu: -JUMPS- : hey why you never jump?
-back tyre goes over hump-
me: -jumps- WWOOAAHH!!
eu: -laughs nonstop-
-we alight-
me: kuku la you! must jump when the back tyre goes over what! why you jump when the front tyre goes over? hahaha.
eu: -still laughing- i felt it! but you jumped so much higher than me! i should have videoed it down! hey..turn your comp on later ok? this is so bloggerable.

---the end--

so you see.. its HER IDEA to do that retarded thing.
i admit i do psycho her to do some retarded things sometimes.. but she's the one who actually chooses to listen to me!
everyone knows not to listen to andrea!
hahaha. [except rebecca! haha. she hasnt learnt it entirely well yet. haha. -love you re.-]

eugenia is so fun to play with. hahaha.

additional: i got a new blogskin! and i love it! =)

its funny how finally my mind is catching up with my body.
i've been running myself too busy. now my mind just tells me to keep silent.
feel like isolating myself and just hiding in my room.
if you find me quieter these few days..just understand that i'm going through a rest stage.
this stage doesnt come often. but it sure is welcomed.
its not that i am getting grumpier or cranky.
just dont really feel like talking and socialising much.
i really just want to hide in my room.

i need to find rest.
both physically and for my soul.
not spending enough time in my Shelter House.
i need more time. to catch up with my work.
to just relax and not worry about anything.
to just be still.
i want 30 hours a day!haha.
but yes yes..i know. it boils down to my own time management.

realised today..when i looked at my organiser that it is THIS sunday that i am taking worship.
i thought it was next.
yay for me..i've got 6 singing commitments over the span of 2 weeks.
and a sharing to do for oasis.
i'm scared.
i feel inadequate.
keep me in prayer. especially for my health.
empower me.

my GV17 module's presentation is tomorrow.
and i still am unsure whether i should really sing "who am i" by casting crowns.
i'm nervous. roar.
emotional upheaval?
perhaps. roar.

all i want is to find myself in a prayerful and worshipful mood.
to have peace. and rest.
rest.

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. - Matthew 11:28&29