Just as God determines the weather, He also controls the cycles in our lives: “To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven” (Eccl. 3:1). Do we resist those seasons and complain about the “snowy” conditions on the horizon? Or do we trust God and thank Him for whatever He has planned for us?

Whatever our situation is today, we can be thankful for God’s seasons. —Dennis Fisher

--daily bread.

studying is really a chore for me.
but i need to learn how to appreciate "hard times" like these.
if i dont "suffer" how could i fully appreciate fun right?
right.
i need to psycho myself more.
COME ON ANDREA!! ONE MORE PAPER!!

everyone is pratically set free already.
i have 28hours and 29mins more!
and caroline just came to my room to scream "ITSS OOVVVEEERRR!!!"
save me.

RRAHHH!!

God rewards hard work.
col. 3:23.

i cant sleep.
and i need to be up in 5 hours time.
shouldn't have drunk that teh-bing.
darn caffeine.

God has made us in His own image and for His glory.
We can never find true joy until we obey Christ’s admonition to seek “first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness” (Matt. 6:33).
Only then will we sow and reap abundantly, and eat and truly be filled. —Herbert Vander Lugt

O the emptiness of life without the Savior!
Nothing worldly here can truly satisfy;
We can only reap a harvest that’s abundant,
Serving Jesus as to self we daily die. —Bosch

Selfish gratification will lead to spiritual stagnation.

--daily bread Nov 25th.

burning out? perhaps.
i need to relight.

emotions seem to run hiltter scatter nowadays.
emotions that seem to come at times when i shouldnt be entertaining them.
and when i dont, i seem void of everything.
its a weird feeling.

i feel like a chess piece waiting to be moved.
looking around, seeing everyone else being moved, all except me.
void of events, void of thoughts that seem worthwhile.
just seemingly happy just the way i am.
waiting for the time when my move would be part of the big plan, small yet strategic.
am i moving yet, Lord?

went running yesterday with jem and gabe.
running just seemed different, besides the fact that im out-of-shape.
but rather..i realised my thoughts werent flowing.
which was weird!
i was actually focussing more on my breathing pattern..which i dont usually do so much of.
then i remembered xinli, during training last time, she told us to think of a problem and just keep trying to solve it, the more you cant solve it, more frustration, run more.
haha.
i used to run when i had things on my mind, things to think through, to spend time with God.
now in hall, running in the morning just doesnt seem right, wee hours in the morning is the thing to do.
but i cant run alone.dangerous.
how like that? run only on weekends?
sigh.
i feel like there is this bulk of stuff to think through, perhaps one being figuring out what is the cause of this feeling of passion-driven-voidness. i feel...a lil empty.
perhaps its all the studying, or mental-im gonna study- psychoing that i do to myself that is taking its toil on me.
i need more excitement man.
bring on the holidays sooner!!

realise how my entries get more emo when its during exam periods.

i feel this need to spill all out, but at the same time hold everything back.
argh.
im seriously bipolar.

andrea oh andrea. where have you gone?
do we need to tapdance-jolt you back to life?
or whack you with a piano?
what do we need to bring you back? to relight your inner self?
need a new direction? need more drama?
no no.. no drama. your lil heart cant take it.
what do you need drea? what do you need?

my right brain is getting inactive. it is starting to give me headaches.
why oh why cant i be brilliant in smth?!
like tap! or playing the piano!
i think i wld gain much joy if i succeeded in both.
but i feel so inadequate sometimes, though i feel so happy doing the things i love.
i feel like i can tap the night away..just that my lack of steps would trip me over.
i lose myself when i play my piano..time just flies by..but i would be awoken from my dream melody when my fingers just cant go any further.

argh. i need classes.

save me from myself please.
holding out for a hero.

i did smth today.
and a small part of me. changed.

at about the middle of this year.. i felt this prompting to share the song "hard times" with my church.
cos on saturday services, there would words of exhortation and stuff.
so i felt this prompting to share that song. but i never did.

there was once abt a mth back..that my heart beated a lil faster..i was like "now Lord? really?" but i didnt do anything about it.

tonight, after worship, the words of exhortation came from aunt joyce and aunt doris.they were talking about being built on the Rock, about whether our house would stand in the midst of testings, about trusting in God through trials.
then my heart started beating very fast!
and i was like..ok God..so i guess its now.
i was already seated in the first row cos i did support singing.
so i turned to aunt florence and told her about my feeling of ministering that song.
and how scared i was.
she told me to just tell elder yeow kin that i wanted to share a song, and if he feels that its appropriate then go ahead!
so with a lil hesitation, i walked over to elder yeow kin. and he said, "sure!"
so went up..and i told the congregation about my prompting.
and then i sang the song.

I WAS SHAKING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS!

the shaking was from within the bones!
my knees and elbows were shivering. and i never felt so nervous before.
not even when i led worship!
thankfully no one could tell, cos my voice didnt quiver.
but WOW!
what an experience.
You are amazing.

Lord, its my prayer that i be continually used by You, to be sensitive to You. keep me in the straight and narrow, chastise me when i go offtrack, help me Lord. cleanse me Lord. mold me. fill me. be with me.

no body thrills me like You do.

its been a while.
hello blog!

hall life is fun.
thanks to my darling caroline.
who still has not grown sick of me.
its amazing.
considering she sees me day in and day out.
literally.
she's the first and last person i see.
haha. kinda.

exams are round the corner.
and i am not where near prepared.
no where near even knowing what on earth has been going on in tutorials and lectures.
its horrific.
tried studying for the past 2 days.
and i feel like im lost in the dark, groping for something that doesnt seem tangible.
and even if i caught hold of it, i would not be able to figure out what its for.
argh.
why do scientists have to discover so many stuff!
less stuff discovered, less things for andrea to study.
owell..
been trying to psycho myself that whatever im studying is interesting.
cos it explains alot of stuff.
it Is interesting. just doesnt make that much sense.
help me.

but school life, as always, is such a joy to me.
to see friends everyday. to joke and clown around with.
pranks played and all.
i think we are more prankster-like during exam times.
destress.

led worship on sunday for the first time.
was quite nervous, cos the auditorium was twice as packed as compared to saturday night service.
and there was a peace within.
and it went really well.
thank You, Lord
i really enjoyed sunday's worship.

i cant wait for christmas.
my exams would be over. and meta would be here!
yay.

teleport me please.