ITS HERE!!!
FOC IS FINALLY HERE!!!

im so excited!!
im so nervous as well.
i know everything is gonna be fantastic.
cos why??
cos HE IS IN CHARGE OF ALL!!
and...i'm just trusting my whole comm and myself into His hands..
SURPRISE AND BLOW US AWAY!!

yay!
pray for good weather and lots of fun!
and strength and wisdom.

its gonna be one mad party!
i cant wait.
wwwwwwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

a HUGE THANK YOU!! to all who came to help in the video-ing of the commerical and mtv today.
especially to our director MR ANDREW TANG!

so grateful for ALL OF YOU really.
thank you so so much.

i had great fun.
it was hilarious and a GREAT JOY working with you all.
=)
much love.
-hug-

its the first thing on my mind when i wake.
and the last thing when i sleep.

i'm starting to get worried.
i'm losing sleep over it.

but its all Yours.
there will be things that will happen that i do not foresee.
but You have seen it all.
i trust You. i really do.

in my moment of restlessness..in my moment of insecurity..
You gave me a word of encouragement.
to remind me that You have time and again proven Yourself faithful.

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
-hebrews11:1
"Your testimonies also are my delight and my counselors."
-psalm 119:24

i miss sitting at the balcony in philippines and just spending time with You.
when all things seem to stop and its just You and me.
and Your glorious handiworks of mountains and skies just sprawled out in front of me.
how could such an Almighty God love such a one as i.
it still baffles me.but i'm so grateful.

i want to..i need to..find that secret place with You once again.
i'm running myself too tired.

take me to the secret place, where i can only see Your face.

all my delight is in You, Lord.
all of my hopes, all of my plans.

6.15 am ame : good morning! choose either mint or caramel.
6.57 am drea : caramel! why are you up so early??!!7.04 am ame : i thought you say 715?
7.05 am drea : no! Ahh! 8.40! oh my.where are you now?
7.05 am ame : bukit batok...
7.06am drea : oh.haha.okok.yr so cute la. ok.come my house k? call me when yr at yew tee.

so here she is now.
sitting next to me on my bed.
making a funny face at me.
roar.

she's so cute.

going to the zoo today with dor sam and amlah.
YAY!

guess i'm not that bummed abt not going to sentosa after all.
=)

its gonna be a fantabulous day.

Lord, please keep the weather fine.

here's looking at you. 

you are always my favourite band-aid. 

if my foot could talk..


it would have scolded me left right and center by now.

it has not fully recovered from the tapping strain..
and in the last week..
i have played tennis and squash..
and today..
while rushing out of the house..i took my heels out..
i wore them in the car..
and the moment i stepped out of the car..
the strain in my left foot came to haunt me.
felt like i walked a thousand miles in them.
i'm sorry foot.

drove uncle philip's merc today.
from church to HF.
i drove real slow cos i wasnt used to his car.but it was shiok.
thank goodness nothing bad happened.

this weekend..i've been a lil out of sorts.
felt very random.
too many things on my mind i guess.

hmm..pray for me for wisdom.
how to lead my youth's worship to a higher realm of worship..
how to spur my carenet on to want to desire more of Him..
how to get my youth to grow..
i know i'm not gonna do it alone..
i wanna know what He has in store.
pray aight??
=)

i'm getting a lil nervous for FOC. [but still a whole lot of excitement in me]
i hope the games all run alright.and that everyone will enjoy themselves.
and the weather!
which is totally out of my control.
its all YOURS!!

Lord, You are more precious than silver.

Lord, You are more costly than gold.

Lord, You are more beautiful than diamonds.

and nothing i desire compares with You.

my fortress.my shields.
i love you all babes.

thanks for saving this damsel in distress.really.

meet my long lost friend.we're gonna have a good time today. yay. 

at times things can get so frustrating.
when i try to do things in my own strength.
when i walk away from my year's resolution.

but its going to stop.
i'm running back to You now.help me.empower me.
i dont want to be led away from my focus.
i dont want to have my emotions being drained for temporal reasons.
i dont want to be away from You.
You are all i need.
You are all i want to seek after.

i resolved to follow hard after You this year.
and i have not done it to my best effort for the first half.
i want to run after You.
all things that surround me become shadows in the light of You.

i will not be distracted [winks at darkwingedduck].
i will not be found weakened.

now its just Jesus and me.
for each tomorrow..
for every heartache
and every sorrow.

the walk will never be emotionless again.
too many memories greet me at every corner.
i wish i didnt capture memories through smells and visual images.
they jolt the mind too often.

a faded dream..

when will they all stop..i want to walk away..it has been too long.

i miss the smells.

especially the smell of dominic's hair.

i miss dominic tremendously.

i miss the philippines.

it has been a week.

and i still pine.

yesterday was fantabulous!
suffering from the aftermath now.
but it was rocking!

met ye ye at boonlay to get the videocam from him before heading down to ECP with jon.
met drew nicholas and jessica at the mac's.
and we walked TWO CLICKS to the cable ski!
my poor left injured left foot.
haha.
but cable skiing is fun.
i did the kneeboarding.it was quite tough to get used to in the beginning.
but subsequently when you get hte hang of it..its super fun.
tiring on my arms tho.
and my neck and arms are aching like mad monkeys now.

after nua-ing at the beach..jessica and i realised that there wasnt any showering rooms.only the open shower.
so we walked further down to find the showering room..
we walked and walked...
[my poor left foot again.]
and finally found the SINGLE showering room...somewhere further down..pass bedok jetty.
the walk seemed forever.

anyhoo..after bathing and what not..nicholas jessica drew and i..cabbed down to bugis to alight jessica and then to clark quay mrt.
the stupid androgynous taxi driver brought us on a merry-go-round.
but i shall tame my tongue and not complain anymore.
either way..i was FREAKING pissed.
yes.
so we went to clark quay..
met matthea caroline and junbin at brewerks.
ate our huge burgers.
and then some movement of pple..
and then the crowd of junbin jon drew jessica and i..found ourselves at cafe iguana.
sipping..no..gulping down 2 jugs of margharitas [ lime and strawberry] and one mucho cup of peach margharita.
i have never drunk so fast before.
i felt super floaty and was making conscious effort to make sure i still talked sense.
and i regurgitated.
alot.
i have never regurgitated so much in such a long time.
but i felt so much better.

jon and jb sent me home in a cab..and i got home about 130.

fantastic day i say.

next week is exciting too.
yay for holidays.

gabriel : i did 2 years of shopping within 6 months!
clara and i : really? how much did you buy?
gabriel : 6 t-shirts and 2 pairs of jeans.
clara: huh?!
me : ONLY??!!
clara and i : -laughs uncontrollably-

differences between the genders.

dont taste of His goodness and walk on by

thinking you're still the same ol self.

dont taste of His goodness and say

"no not i.why would He empower me?"

dont taste of His goodness and walk with your head hung low

telling yourself you've suffered a blow.

dont taste of His goodness and walk defeated

for our strength is in Christ alone.

my turn to be emo.
move on over and strum me the guitar.

i'm back.

i'm having withdrawal symptoms.

i miss the people and the kids so much.
especially my dominic.

the filippinos are such warm people.
i felt so comfortable.
and they really amplify and demostrated to me what it means to be generous inspite of your lack.

many homepartners invited us to their house. and fed us noodles, kuehs and RC cola.

the kids are absolutely adorable.and clingy.and just so much fun.

the skilled workers, andres, charwin,saoro and jun are such fun to work with as well.
i'm really gonna miss them, esp andres.

and God was simply amazing!!
He is so Sovereign and in control of all things..He just blows me away.

everything committed to God..is a sure-fire thrill.

at first we thought we couldnt put up our puppetry show for the orphanage afterall cos we prepared for kids from 0-7 years.and when we were there..we learnt that we're only seeing kids from 0-2.5 year olds.
and their kids are so adorable.i went there and became a reclined chair.
and the little girl just sat on my lap and observed the rest of the room.

oh yes..so we thought the door was closed on us.
but NO! God opened an opportunity for us to show it to the villagers.and the kids loved it.
and saturday's event flowed so well..despite us being so unprepared.
it was really God's Hand at work.
the kids got so amused even singing "if you're happy and you know it.." .the 13 year olds and below were so enthusiastic.
i got such an adrenaline playing with them.
and they loved the show..even the adults.it was the first puppetry show shown at the village.

sunday's event was fantastic again.
we sat in for a catholic mass..then after that..there was a bible study.
which both our team's staff esther and pastor suzanne shared.
the games were fantastic again.
and the filippinos thought us how to dance "ochor ochor".
its so tough!
and some other dance too.
wow.

and we passed pastor suzanne the Jesus film in tagalog vcd.
cos when were there..we realised our projector wasnt working well enough for the image to be sharp and bright enough.
then on sunday night itself..during our team's daily night devotions..i accidentally kicked the projector..and SURPRISE!!! we found the brightness knob!
but i was having a heart attack..cos the projector was showing only black and white..and then it wasnt sharp..then after a while..they managed to get the colour back..and realises that it was sharper than before and it could be very much brightened.
GOD REALLY ANSWERS PRAYERS!!

so TADAH!! we managed to show the Jesus film on friday night.
and many people turned up..and andres mentioned that they really enjoyed the show.
God is simply amazing.

i must always remind myself to trust in Him..to have total faith in Him.
for He is all-powerful and ALWAYS faithful.
its in the midst of challenges and uncertainty..
that truly His strength is made whole in our weakness.

i really miss the village.
the kids..melanie..roseann..meridel..john paul..jason..DOMINIC..
i miss all the clowning around with charwin saoro jun and andres.
i miss mixing cement.
i miss perspiring so much.
i miss our volleyball matches.
i miss the little goat.
i miss whitie.

i really enjoyed myself.
and God really showed Himself so real.

trust and obey.