caroline kerosene bear..
is CRAZY...
she's starting to call me nicknames..
like...AMAO..
i dont understand why.
SHE'S MAd.

and we're at lib2 now...
supposed to be doing our work..
im supposed to do my marketing tut..
but class is gonna start soon..

anyhoo..
we're back to school..and i like being in school.
just dont like the work load.
arghh.

told the wife that this wednesday is gonna be my last tap class till the exams are over.
haiz.

im sleepy.

behind every successful man..is a very shocked woman.

worship went very well!
ahh!!
my Abba Father really loves me!
He answered my prayers.
i kept praying and praying before worship.
and He came and ministered.
and i worshipped as i led.
i cant stop smiling when i think abt my answered prayers.
He is fantastic!
weeee!!

haha.i zao-xia-ed a bit initially.
owell.
yay.im still happy.


oh yes oh yes.
today marks TWO years!
haha..so fast!

anyhoo..
i am supposed to post my birthday wishlist.
tml or smth.

OH OH!!
tml is squashies dinner!!
im so happy!!

settler's at holland v on thursday was fantastic fun.
though..much apologies to jon..for all of us being late..
and i wasnt responsible enough to let you know..and you had to wait a whole 45 mins for us to arrive.
so so sorry.

hmm..
thankfully the games made us go hype.
andrew is really good at taboo la..he thinks out of the box and..obviously..jon and andrew won the game of taboo.
rahh.
we played jungle speed [reaction game.dor became really fast.]..and galloping pigs! haha..and guesstures..[izzy was hilarious. mostly because she kept laughing. twin was very drama.so that was entertaining too.haha.]

kerosene...i mean...caroline..came for like an hour plus..enjoyed her company much too.. =)
thanks babe for coming down.

so we left settler's about 6..
izzy went to meet her church youth for dinner..andrew went for his oasis concert..kerosene went to orchard..
so left dor..twin..jon and i..and we went to al-azhar to makan dinner.
it was good. =)
and i managed to reach home on time..and was welcomed by my dad applause.
haha.

studied at bt batok mac's with jon and enting on friday.
quite good.
covered a bit of maths.
better than nothing i suppose.

the hols have gone past so fast.
argh.
i didnt accomplish as much as i wanted to.
sighh.

JAMIE CULLUM IS COMING TO TOWN!!
ahhh!!!
i wanna go watch!!
hopefully i can go..though it is like..2 weeks before my exams..

alright.
i better be going..have a lab report to finish.

me: its so hard to put science in your own words!
mum : -laughs-

leading worship tonight.
nervous.
praying hard.
lead me please..lead me..

it is the cry of my heart to follow, all of the days of my life.

SETTLER'S ROUND TWO TODAY!!
YAY!!

and with more people too!!

YYYAAAYYY!!!

beer cow!! 

hmmm...jon cant read? haha. 

boat quay. 

my handsome. =) 

didnt study much at ame's today.
just one chapter of computing.
argh.
im complacent.
owell..
but i had a good time with shir and ame.
as always.
they are crazy.

went for tap..and it was fantastic.
missed a few steps here and there.
but good overall.
i need to have more seh when im tapping.
rahh.

anyhoo..then i went to boat quay with andrew and jon..
noooo...not to drink.
we went there to eat beef hor fan.
it was good.
haha.
and we were laughing like drunks.
louder than the the table of drinking guys next to us even.

but dont look down on our silliness..
jon and andrew are gonna be the inventors of this lifetime.
they will revolutionize the beer industry.
they will invent...
THE BEER COW!!!
perhaps name it..cowsberg.
hahaha.
and perhaps even the beer car!
haha..
it was good fun.
and i cant wait for the day they succeed!
YAY!!

the mid term break is here.
one week.
and im busy every day.

been a good two days.
makaning at ikea with caroline and eliza.
and today..went swimming with laopo at her place.
and amelia came over and the three of us managed to study for two hours.
and watched big mama's hse.

its good.
i need to pick up pace.
have a lab report..ALOT of catching up to do..and my presentations are coming up.
sighh..
this sem is so much heavier than last sem's.
rahh...

doesnt seem much like a holiday.
and i think im going into hibernation mode soon.
so people..when i go into sian mode very quickly..or i just aint as lively as i am.. and not much of company..
pardon me k?
my batt is running low.

yupp.
ok. need to go rest now.
lab report to make sense of tml.

and TAP TAP TAP!!!
-yay!-

thursday :
caroline veesan and i had brkfast at can14.
went for two lectures..
then..THE GREAT ADVENTURE BEGAN!!
haha..
caroline and i went to tanjong pagar.
BY CAR!
caroline drove..i directed.
it was so fun.
we had no prob finding our way there.
and we had bak kut teh near the place.
very very nice.but a bit bo hua.
5 bucks for a small bowl.
haha.
anyway..we drove back..but we got lost when we went out of AYE.
cos we didnt know which road to take.

me : take corporation road.
caroline : okk.

then we drove along..came to a crossroad.
me : what does your gut tell you? left or right?
caroline : right.
me : ok.me too.

so we went right..and went pass some condo that looked familiar.
me : i think we're going in the wrong direction.
caroline : i feel that too.
we were opp. lake side mrt.
so we stopped at a busstop and figured our way back to school.
i was half an hour late for lecture.

then the aircon in the south side was not working.
maths lecture..MLT..no aircon.
effective comm..tutorial room..no aircon.
marketing lecture..MLT..no aircon still.

i was emitting heat.and felt so stuffy.

but i had good company.so it was all good.

then regional Xroads..worship went well..and message was good.
and supper was fantastic too.

overall thursday was just fantastic.

anyhoo..went to fun-o-rama today.
met dwong..liz..steph seah..jas..and a few juniors..
as usual..i went there just to see pple.
haha.

not fatter or uglier,
just walked by.
not taller nor skinner,
her reflection wasnt in his eyes.
he smiled and joked,
looking as good as he does.
she just stood and stared,
feeling as though she should just stay in the past.

its not so bad..you're only the best i've ever had.

i have been thinking.

i should really go back to playing sports.
like..im almost at the peak of my youth.
i think.
yar..like...the time when i have freedom and time to really go play.
and what am i doing abt it?
nothing!!

ive reached the point where by pple DOUBT that i play sports.
i cant believe it.
i never thought this could happen to me.

but its true..
ever since i stopped playing sports..
a part of me died.
this drive to want to continually push myself beyond my limits..
to mentally tell myself that i can do it..
i think the last time i pushed myself physically and mentally was at my last NAPFA.
crap man.

need to go sleep.
running in the morning.

will blog more abt thursday later.
it was a SUPER good day.
long..but fantastic.

hello God! its me.. andrea.aka. kukuphile! =)

its the day to be happy and glad.
love is in the air.
and there is DAYTONA IN NTU!!
oh my goodness.

haha.
they are having like some outdoor arcade la!
so funky.
haha.
and some guy is crooning along with his band.
he cant hit some notes though.
but hey! i welcome any noise that breaks the silence in the library!

and so..yes.
here i am.
gonna attempt to complete my essay in an hour.
so that i can breathe.
and all the nonsense that is expected to happen today will finally end.

my maths paper was bbbbaaaaadd.
and my physics wasnt that bad.
so yes..one down.
one up.
i guess my emotions are holding up for now.
my brain is getting tired.
and i seriously dread completing my essay.
argh.

i dont know why its bothering me so much when its not even assessed.

anyway..
got a pretty rose from jon today.
and i am EXPECTING one later.
haha.

and yay!!
i am going dinner with my darlings tonight!!
im so happy!
-huge huge grin-
a great way to end a stressed day.

i cant believe what i just did!
i am usning a desktop now.
and when i wanted to move the mouse..i used my finger to touch the wristrest on the keyboard.
ARGH!
i am seriously losing it.

oh..one more thing that i cant believe i did.
I TRIPPED MY ENTIRE HOUSE LAST NIGHT.
i was on the phone with the wife and as i was pushing the barrier in the kitchen back.
not knowing my strength..i accidently hit the barrier against the back of my fridge.
and yes.
TADAH!
the whole house went black.
the daddy wasnt too happy.

anyhoo..on to happier things.

i shall go on to my essay.
yay??
yay.

im whining more than working.
yes i am.
yes i am.

today was good.
samuel jon caroline and i.
are a lethal combination.
the amount of lameness that come out of us.
its amazing.

when at lee wee nam library..
as caroline and i were walking pass his bust
me : poor guy. no arms.
caroline : dont be lame.
me : NO ARMS! NOT NO LEGS!!

and then those random conversations that jon and i have..and our thoughts just run all over the place..

lame statement of the day : cockels are HUM-ful.

and my eliza hurt her back today.
by sneezing.
it was funny the first time she said it.
haha.
hope you feel better soon babe. =)

oh and my dor is sick too.
get well soon babe.
drink water.

and in advance..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

laptop on.
microsoft word running.
dance music.
a cup of water.
a couple of figs.

and my brain is still not in the mood to do my essay.
two pages down.
18 more to go.

i was told that i dont look like i do housechores.

yesterday during effective comm class.
me : -speaking to audrey- hey..your nails look very nice today.are they all flowers?
drey : no.all different.
me : oh.ok.very nice. -looks at hands- i have ugly nail.cos i have a bad habit of biting them.
walter : oh.no wonder.you dont look like you do housechores.
me : huh?? i dont see the link.
walter : cos since you dont look like you do housechores then that means you bite your nails la.
me : wad!? i do house chores ok!
walter : ya.doing your bed right.
me : oh rah! i do house chores ok..-lists a few-..and wash clothes..-continues listing a few more-
drey : ya..wash clothes is throwing into washing machine right.
me : phwoar!! kek sim.i do housechores! i never had a maid in my entire life!
walter : ok ok.relax. relax.

so i guess. just to prove to myself that i really do do housechores.
i washed my toliets today.
haha.

and i've finally satisfied my want to play squash.
went to bt panjang cc with derek.
i do feel a bit confused when i play with new ones.
cos i dont wanna over do it..or under do it.
rahh.

liz...feng..cherylmay..jean.. can we go play one day? please?

thanks derek for playing squash with me.
really did enjoy myself.
and she's really nice and cute.
be good to her.

oh yes.
i went around irritating pple yesterday by asking them
"can i count on you?" -in a very serious tone-
and when they say "yes"
then i wld start tapping one finger on their shoulder and count "1..2..3..4.."
i learnt it from the archie comics. =)
yay.i did it to a few pple.
chicky king says that i can only count to 6.
divya was the only one who was amused by me. =)
TRY IT ON YOUR FRIENDS!!

anyhoo..need to go do my marketing essay.
which is supposed to be 20 page long.
but im intending to write nonsense.since its non-assessed.
argh.
i dont like writing essays.

that in my secret heart..no other love competes..

i cant wait for tomorrow!


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

i realised yesterday during DG..that i didnt keep to my fast.
because i was so emotionally-spurred(?) on yesterday's morning i blogged and went on msn for a very very short while before my computing tutorial started.
i confessed to andrew.haha.cos we're both supposed to be accountable to each other.
he's on a msn-fast too.

oh.to those who are going "huh?" now.
pardon my assumptions.
yes.i am on a msn-fast now.
i told myself that i will only go on msn once in three days.
and yesterday was a day i was NOT supposed to go online.
and i did.first thing in the morning.
how terrible.
but ive repented already.
and i am sticking to it now.
=)

anyhoo..
i wanna go home!
NOOWW!!!
but i cant.
such a long day i have in school today.
save me.
my head is hurting..i am sleepy.
and i have so many things that i have been thinking about that my brain is malfunctioning.

but God is good.
He cleared all my garbage emotions last night.
i told Him to help me feel normal and committed all my emotions to Him.
and i feel so much better today.
yayness!

oh yyesssss...
HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY JONATHAN LAME HUANYING!!
thanks for being such an absolute babe to me.for tahan-ing my nonsense [and all can vouch that i really do have quite alot.] giving me sound advice and whacking me when i need some sense. and for going out of your way just to make my way convenient.
haha.
i've been a very demanding friend.
and i really am grateful for having such a good friend as you.
thanks babe!!
hope you're having a rockin' day.
remember!! phrase of the day : andrea is KNOWLEDGEABLE!
-beams-

today is my marketing presentation day.
i am not really looking forward to it.
and my head really does feel tired.
owell..
off to go for chemistry lecture with andrew.
hope my head holds up.haha.

oh yes..TWEET TWEET[aka albert aka el songbird.] !!! i have ONE MORE REQUIREMENT!!
ready??
haha.
-must have nice handwriting.

hahaha.

joy oh joy!!
i feel LIBERATED!!!

i believe i have found myself again.

..oh happy day...oh happy day..

oh yes..
happy belated birthday ah-la-la-la-la-loong!!!
hope you had a smashing rocking time.
=)

Jehovah Jireh, my Provider

You are more than enough for me.

Jehovah Rapha, You're my healer.

by Your stripes i've been set free.

Jehovah Shamma, You are with me

to supply all i need.

You are more than enough,

more than enough,

You are more than enough for me.

getting tired.

growing quiet.

drawing strength.

leaning.

letting go of me..hanging onto You.

Hard times

Is the rain falling from the sky keeping you from singing?

Is that tear fallen from your eye because the wind is stinging?

[chorus]

Don't you fret now, child.

Don't you worry.

The rain's to help you grow so don't try to hurry the storm along.

The hard times make you strong.

Don't you know the seed would never grow if there were never showers?

And though the rain might bring a little pain, just look at all the flowers!

[chorus]

I know how long the day can seem when storm clouds hide His face

.And if the rain dissolves your dreams, just remember His amazing grace!

Don't you know the sun is always there even when the rain falls?

Don't you know the Son will always care when He hears your voice call?

[chorus]

the song that we learnt in MG.it never fails to remind me that i am never alone.

to a certain extent..
i think a part of a part of me has died.
the part that tells me to trust in pple entirely and expect from them.
expectations that they wouldnt fail me.
which is good i guess.
cos now i dont get disappointed so easily.
cos i didnt expect that much in the first place.
but at the same time...i feel like im growing up.
hmm.

i shall stop expecting SO much horizontally..
but expect vertically.

held in Your hands..i know i wouldnt fall.

what do i say?
i have nothing to say anymore.
im walking away now.

i owe enting alot of money.
50 cents for your thoughts.

You are beautiful beyond description.too wonderful for words.

worship was fantastic yesterday.
peiwen did a good job.
and so did enting and the whole worship team.

happy 25th birthday junbin!

God is great and His praise fills the earth..fills the heavens.
thank You for bringing me through a gruelling thursday yet again.
thank You for the stars as well.
i felt happy when i looked at them tonight.
You make me smile.

my sister hopes i put on 5 kg.
cos i was eating ritter sport cornflake chocolate in my room.
and i didnt tell her.
i told her the clue was when i went "AHH!!its melted!!"
but i guess she didnt catch the clue.
hmm.

i love ritter sport cornflake chocolate.

bought it today to make myself feel better.
cos i felt like i was dressed like a tour guide today.
wore my green flowery top.
grey pants.
and my shoes!
i dont like wearing shoes to school.
so hard to match.
im whiney today.

i love it when my dad's hand slips on the driving wheel and he horns at unsuspecting victims.
never fails to crack me up.