evening skies at kranji sec.. 

the hairstyle that ida did for me that i can never achieve it myself..look so sweet right??-hair stand- 

the yeo sisters...okok..my aunts and my mummy. 

i dont know what feng did last summer... 

mich and i attempting to flatten my wife. 

class reunion..sort of. 

after many attempts to hide his face..i finally got joffre's picture.silly boy.i risked my life for his picture.haha. 

irvin and qingcheng. 

hamizan and irvin.. 

my 2H boys. 

qingcheng.quite good looking rite? 

qingcheng and joseph..the source of my joy and disappointment. 

i have finally unleashed my fury!
haha.ok.not quite.
i went to one of my sec2 class today.i was asking them to take out their worksheet.this two boys in front were still playing.i asked them like twice and they still ignored me.then.i
slammed their table and asked "where is your worksheet??i asked so many times!"
so shiok.
hahaha.the whole class was so stunned.
the boys : "never bring cher."
me:" dont think im nice nice i cant slam tables ok."
ok.actually that line doesnt make sense.haha.but well..at least now they know they cannot play punk.haha.woohooz.one point andrea!!
after i turned and turned back and their worksheets were on their tables.
retards.haha.
after twenty mins..the two most naughty boys walked in..they were actually going to pon..but only pon twenty mins.haha.
one of them is like the "tua tao" of the lower sec.he told me that if i have any problems with the lower sec i can find him.like..woah.haha.but he's a nice boy.as long as he's on your side.
the other boy is cute.as in i seriously think he's good-looking..and can tell is the kinda guy who will treat a girl super well one..but just..abit misguided la.thats why a bit rough.owellz.
it was super hot today and the "tua tao" got this indian boy..who i heard is always being bullied by them..to fan him with a book.no wait..he got two boys to fan him.den i was perspiring and he asked me whether i was hot..i said yes..and he asked
"you want one cher?"
me:"they are not things.they are human beings.i dont want.feel very bad."
after a while when i was seated he got the indian boy to fan me..i was like..nvm la.i feel very bad..the boy stopped for a while..den joseph the tua tao was like..did i tell you to stop?-glares-
the poor boy..his arm was hurting..and i told him to fan slower..cos i know that if he stops..he'll get whacked..and joseph is not one to listen to teachers when he wants his way..haiz.
after a while i guess joseph let him off.
den..they started telling me abt the good-looking boy's sec1 girlfren..haha..she walked out of her class..and then he went out and waved..den he called to me "miss lee miss lee..come..."
so i went and waved..hahha..so retarded right..quite sweet looking la the girl
but they are so young!!!-sighs-

i feel very guilty..cos my sec4s and i arent learning anything la..today was like..mass pontang..like 4 pple didnt come..and that is quite alot considering there is only 18 pple in their science class..anyway.i hafta pia making their notes today..so we can do revision tomorrow.
i completed marking my sec2F's test papers!!woohooz.was so happy.but another set is coming in tomorrow..sian.hahahah.

oh yar.forgot.the sec2s asked for my email today..and i kept saying it really fast..and they were like trying to figure out what i was saying..haha.so funny.but eventually i said it real slow for them..haha.they wrote it all over the whiteboard!!!
hahaha.so retarded.seriously.but so funnily cute la.haha.small kids.

driving today was not up to standard..i was quite daze a bit and bo chap cos im quite lethargic..this friday must give more effort...not improving this way..sigh.upset with myself.

i just realised one thing.im typing funny.my phrases are so broken.

how to go uni like that!??!!?!-help
i must make an effort to speak flawless english.
conversations with audrey...here i come!

im so tired.
i have a humongous pile of work to mark..okok..not that bad..but i feel sleepy when i mark the same old thing over and over again.haha.
yawn.
i think im going to try pia marking my books den im heading home for my bed.
havent had an afternoon nap in ages..ages.
and im stillin school now dilly-dallying.blogging and chatting on msn.
crazy man.
i am now for sure..that i cannot be a teacher..i enjoy it..but i cannot be a permanent teacher..i cant handle class..and i cant get the idea across when im talking to a class..one on one can.haha.so nonsense right.

oh yar.happy news!!
last week i got a letter telling me ive been accepted into engineering in ntu.
and today...this lady from nus called and told me to come down for an interview on tuesday for the faculty of science.
so super happy.i hope i pass my interview.
haha.

kk..i need to zao..need to work man.too slack.haha.

i think im going to have a sore throat.
i went to teach a sec2 class today.
so noisy.
i told this boy umpteen..i repeat..UMPTEEN times not to shout..he nods..and later on..continues!!-frustrated!-
some of them were quite cute..funny..but still very noisy..
there's a boy who sits like he's at home...very sloppily..
argh.

after class..this boy called shawn lim asked me if teaching their class is fun..i was like..i think im going to get a sore throat..haiz.

there are two shawns in that class.both look different.owellz.

anyway..ive gotta slack in school until 3 plus..so as to go for driving..hahahaha..i almost knocked into another car the other day.and sometimes i forget to slow down enough before turning a kerb..and i'm like "wwoooaahhhh..."
so fun.

have alot of marking to do next week.alot of their work is coming in.
help.

think i might really be getting a mike for class...cant keep shouting.haiz.

yesterday ame and i went to cut our hair at toni and guy academy.
shir accompanied us.
this girl asked if she could style her hair.and she did.hahahaha.poor shir.so much gel in her hair.no wait..it wasnt gel..it was the spray spray one..aiyah.you know what i mean.
she looked abit like frankenstein's wife without the white streaks..hahahha.but it was very nice.really.like SIA girl.hahahahha.so pretty.

anyway..after i cut my hair..i looked like a photocopy of amelia..no wait..uglier version..yup.
but the hair was almost alike..mirror image cos our partings are diff.

but today...i dont know how to style it back..i think it doesnt look that nice..

i just went down to buy food and i asked my sec4 whether my hair looks cut..he said that my previous was better..sob.i need to know how to style it back again.

i finished my marking.yay.
but next week....sob.alot.im going to faint.

very bored now.
i hope my daddy lets me go out this weekend.cos ive been very busy.i hope he does..
-prays hard-

k.nothing to say.think i'll go play neopets..hasee bounce!!hahahaha.

the sec2s asked for my name today..was too tired to answer..so i said secret..and when i left the class..the front row of naughty boys went "good bye miss secret lee."
i was a bit more fierce today.cos the sec2s are quite naughty.
relieved a sec1 class..so cute..i was finding out abt who likes who in the class..hahaha..so cute.

cutting my hair tomorrow.at toni and guy.
so exciting.hope it turns out nice.

very tired.
need sleep.
dont know what to wear tomorrow.
sigh.

good night everyone.

i did it again.
sigh.

the teacher has clarified with me already.

i seriously think i cant be a teacher.
i shouted early this morning for all of them to keep quiet.
i sounded funny.
i wld laugh too if i wasnt pissed.

finished my marking just now in school.
its quite boring marking science.
felt sleepy.

i need to make my lessons more interesting.
but how when everyone except maybe the front row is not paying attention??
Lord i need help.

i wanna watch Lord of the Dance but it looks ex and im already going for hosan leong and selena tan's comedy play.owellz.

im very tired.

i just humiliated myself.
so silly.
i walked into a class cos its on my timetable.but i didnt know that their other teacher was coming in to teach physics.
so i told them that i will teach first den if the other teacher comes i'll go.
and when i just showed the first transparency he came.
haha.

anyway.i think some of the students dont trust me.you can see it in their eyes.
i need more confidence.im always to unsure cos i dont wanna give them the wrong info.haiz.

screwed.
and the other sec3 class says i talk too softly.but..i dont wanna keep shouting.goodness.
i take my hat off to teachers.
they said that they dont understand covalent bond.i tried.i wrote transparencies.
only the front row is paying attention.haiz.
help..im screwing pple up.

sigh.
i dont sound like im enjoying myself much right?
i need to get used to this.know what im doing.
other than that and my sister's constant reminder to be fiercer..everything is just dandy.

oh yar!!
i told feng the other day that i think im too self-critical that its getting schizophrenic.haiz.

im crazy.

as mr cheok will say "you are very jialat."

oh yar.to amelia..even if he isnt going i'll still go okay...rah.

there's this sec3 boy who keeps asking for my number.or email.they're crazy.but they are nice la.and funny.i wldnt lie by saying im not enjoying their attention.hahahahha.

i have class soon.im quite scared.heard they're quite naughty and i hafta be fierce.

BUT ITS NOT IN ME TO BE FIERCE!!!!!!

bye.

mending a broken heart.yet again.
haha.
im crazy.im silly.
but im blessed to have pple who love me despite of my idiosyncracies.
thank you.

i need guidance.i need help.i need a saviour.

sound so lost huh.
i need to claim my identity in Christ.
should stop avoiding my responsibilities.
time is short.

in His time..in His time..He makes all things beautiful..in His time..

ok.im not pregnant.
auntie red dragon visited today.and she brought along cousin cramps.

sigh.

i need wisdom.
my two jobs are taking its toll on me.
my valcros(dont know how to spell) veins are getting visible behind my knees.

went to a sinseh today.
she helped loosen my leg muscles today.
good good.
i have medication to take though.
she did some suction thing on my back.and acupuncture.
i kinda screamed ouch quite loudly when she first pricked me.
my parents said they could hear me from outside the room.haha.
she said that my legs feels heavy when i lift cos my spine has blockage.
and that's also the reason why i am stiff in the morning when i wake up.
owellz.

good good.im on my way to recovery.

i find myself on friendster everyday.
sigh.

going out with ame weiquan cindy huimin and darling tomorrow.yay.

i need sleep.very very shagged.
nitez.

trust in the Lord with all your heart.

i woke up feeling like puking again.
i thought i was better.
long day today.
not going to wala-wala tonight in the end.
-disappointed-

but am looking forward to dinner much.
havent seen so many pple in such a long while.

bought a fourskins shirt last night.
very happy.
i wanna change my style to smth like jean's.wear pic shirts.
cos i wanna get clothes that are easily thrown together and still look good.
haha.
lazy.

pacifier is quite nice.kinda makes you smile after the show.
but honestly..vin disel doesnt look that good when he smiles..haha.maybe i just like the bad boy look better..haha.

ayeeba is popping by today to visit me at starbucks.
joy and jer too.
yay.

ive been randomly writing testimonials for the pple i miss on friendster.haha.

dont know whats wrong with me.

no life? agreed.haha.

i need to spend more time with God.ive been neglecting Him again.sigh.
i read thru my devotions today..and it reminded me yet again that we are but foreigners on this earth..so im placing my attention quite irresponsibly..
i should spend time finding out about my eternal home instead of this temporay home right?
i need to spend my time more wisely.
i need wisdom.bad.

anyway.on a lighter note.
the clouds are out.

*hhuuuhh...
sorry.out of point.hahaha.

i hafta go plan my driving lessons now..and get ready to go to work.yay.

when the night is so long(throw your hands to the sky)
you can sing a new song(wipe the tears from your eyes)
when you're weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
and calm the storm inside.

Jesus, You're the author of my heart
Told me You wanted every part
And now my life and its demands
Are resting safety in Your hands

it slips through my fingers even before i know it.
i try my hardest to hold on.
but it is to no avail.
helplessly i grope around to get hold of it.
it flickers in the dark.
flashes that call out to me.
making a fool out of me.
grabbing...toppling..
it runs..i can hear its footsteps.
but i cant see it..
i cant hold on to it..
"someone hit the lights please!!!...please...."

aiming for something that's beyond me.
looking for something that might not exist.
does true love really exist?
that was the question thrown at me.
i believe it does...
it has to exist.
i will not be disappointed.
i pray i will not.

trying to be something that i want to be.
sticking to what pple expect me to be.
torn.
i need to break away and find myself..
"where are you?"
i need guidance..i need the Light..i need J.C.

dental today was painful..the dentist was abit rough..i have a slight abrasion on the roof of my mouth.
pok.

went to re's.i love her alot.she's always there to absorb my nonsense and provide a "that's nice."
russ is a mad cow.he's a sadist.re's beanies are always at his mercy.sigh.

oh yar.last night..i wanted to msg lion and i msged the wrong person..
me:where are you?im at redhill.
stranger:haha.then im at goldhill..sorry..you sent wrong msg..
me:oh.sorry.

so paiseh.smth is wrong with me.i keep dialing wrong numbers.i wanted to call my aunt today and i dialled the wrong no.sian.

drey needs me to go back to relief teaching.i wanna help.but im scared i cant take the pressure.and i need to plan my schedule for next week.haiz.
i need to organize my time and money.really bad.
dang.

roving eyes i do not want.i want a committed heart.

my darlings whom i love alot. 

how i look like in the morning. 

walked my doggie this morning..i never ceases to make me wonder why he keeps peeing on almost every tree he walks by..he does it all the time! such possession.
but one thing ive learnt abt my dog is that he's got character..he's not like the usual dog which just do whatever you want them to all the time..he's got temper..he's got preferences..hmmz.

re...im not depressive obsessive la..i think..i just think quite alot..i need to do a character transition..i wanna be more serious..as in..pple to take me more seriously..i know im always jesting and playing..jumping around..cos i admit..i love fun..i live to have fun.
but i think as well...like...not everything i say is to make you laugh..
when i say im sick.it takes a while for someone to believe that im genuinely sick..cos when im sick..i still play..but im still in discomfort right..haiz.
i dont know..ok..im kinda depressive..cos i keep wanting and forcing myself to act differently..to be more grown up..im still acting like a 5 year old..and pple dun really trust 5 yr olds to deliver..

dang blast it.

im just frustrated with myself.

maybe i think too much.

maybe im deluded.

anyway.
my tagboard is kinda dead.
so please tag whenever you come by.
say hi.
good enough for me.

tata.

taken at west coast..one of my favourite pictures..to me it shows the awesomeness of our almighty God.

us four...cousins.. 

oooohhhhmmmmmm... 

one two three four...high five!! 

notice how the tops are the same...hahahha..so cheesy right.haha. 

my honey...benjamin lam..bet he's bald now..dont you feel like sleeping when you look at him?such sleepy aura..-yawn- 

sentosa...so nice right..haha. 

gaining nirvana.. 

attack of the humongous hand!!!!!!!!!!!! 

behind bars.. 

trying to predict what it'll be like to gain enlightenment.haha.